第3章

tayibazhuazhuwodegebo,“shuo!nibatanongdaonaliqule!”

wokanzhetaneishuangshengmanhuaiyihefennudeyanjing,gouleyixiachunjiao,

“不是我!”

tataiqitou,yanzhongdebaolijihuyaoyichulai,zaimeiyourenhenaixin。

tashenzhimeiyouzaiduowenyiju,mengdiyihuishou。

pangbianyigewocengqinshoujiaotaruhewogundenianqingshouxia,chiyilebudaobanmiao,

haishizaisuwangshubinglengdemuguangxia,yingzhetoupishangqian,yigenchenzhongdemugundidaolesuwangshushouzhong。

neigunzidaizhefengsheng,henhenzazaiwobeishang。

womenhengyisheng,juliedetengtongzhakai,jihudasanwodehuxi。

woliangqiangyibu,yongshouchengzhupangbianbinglengdeshijie,caimeiyouguixiaqu。

yankuangdeshangbayezaitutuditiao,yanqiandehuoguangkaishihuangdong、zhongdie。

tadeshengyinxiangshicongyafenglijichulaide,“shuo!acidaodizaina!”

youshiyigun,luozaiwodetuiwan。

zheiyici,womeinengchengzhu,danxiguilexiaqu,xigaikezaibinglengdedimianshang,fachuchenmendeshengxiang。

huoduihaizaishao,yingzhetabinglengwuqingdecelian,

hewolangbeibukandedaoying。

kouqianglimimankaitiexiubandexingtianwei,wotianletianpoliedezuijiao,

taiqitou,touguobeihanshui、xueshuihuzhudeshixian,sisikanzheta。

“苏望舒……”

wodeshengyinsiyadebuxiangziji,

“zheishinian,woweinidangdedao,tiniaideqiang,weinisaopingdezhangai,wofuchudezheiyiqie,zainiyanli……daodisuanshenme?”

wodeshengyinbugao,shenzhiyinweitengtongerduanduanxuxu,quexianghaojinlezuihouyisiliqi,

wenchulezheiyuchunleshinian,ziqiqirenleshiniandewenti。

neigenzhanlewoxuejidemugundunzailebankong。

suwangshukanzhewo,neishuangwocengchenniqizhongdeyanjingli,

cikezhiyoubunaifanheyizhonghuangmiudechaofeng。

taxiangshitingdaoleshenmejiqikexiaodewenti。

“算什么?”

tazhongfuleyibian,yuqiqingpiaoercanren,

“jiangzhiyue,congtoudaowei,budoushiniziyuandema?”

“woyounaqiangzhizheni,biniquzuozheixiema?”

“shinizijiyuanyitiwomaiming,bushima?”

自愿的。