chenmodedanaoyipiankongbai。
tadingzheyanqiandenanren,yishijianwanglegairuhefanying。
nanrenkanqilaisanshisuizuoyou,chuanzheyishenjiancaidetidexizhuang,qizhiruya,danyanshenliquetouzheyigurangrenkanbutoudeshensui。
tameiyouxiangqitarenyiyangtoulaiyiyanghuokongjudemuguang,fanerxiangshizaixinshangyijianyouqudeyishupin。
“bu……bushi。”chenmoxiayishidifouren。
huayichukou,tajiuhouhuile。
danqiguaideshi,erduobingmeiyouchuanlairenhecitonggan。
为什么?
难道这个不算谎言?
nanrensihukanchuanletadexinsi,qingxiaoyisheng:“kanlai,nicaiganggang‘juexing’a。”
觉醒?
zheishishenmezhongerbingdecihui?
chen-mojingtidikanzheta:“ni……nishishei?nixiangganshenme?”
“biejinzhang,womeiyoueyi。”nanrenzhanqishen,xiangtashenchushou,“wojiaowenyan。heniyiyang,yeshige‘sahuangjia’。”
撒谎家?
陈默的大脑更乱了。
tayouyuleyixia,haishiwozhulewenyandeshou,jielizhanleqilai。
“wotingbudongnizaishuoshenme。”tayijiubaochizhejingti,tongshibuzhehenjidilalelamaozi,shitubaneilianggeyuelaiyuemingxiandejianjiaozangdegengshenyixie。
“nihenkuaijiuhuidongde。”wenyandemuguangluozaitaneidinghuajidemaoxianmaoshang,“sahuanghuizhangchujianerduo,erqiehuangyanyueda,erduoyuejian,yuenanshouhui。woshuodeduima?”
chenmoruzaoleiji,dailidangchang。
ta……tazenmehuizhidao?!
zheigeshijieshang,haiyouqitaren……yehetayiyang?
kanzhechenmozhenjingdebiaoqing,wenyanlianshangdexiaoyigengnongle。
“kanlaiwocaiduile。”tacongkoudailinachuyizhangmingpian,dijichenmo,“zheigeshijie,binixiangxiangdeyaofuzadeduo。ruguonixiangnongmingbaizijishenshangfashengleshenme,huozheshuo,nixiangxuehuiruhekongzhita,keyilaizheilizhaowo。”
chenmoditoukanleyiyanmingpian。
shejihenjiandan,shangmianzhiyouyigemingzi,yigedizhi,haiyouyigeqiguaidebiaozhi——yigedaizhegaomao,zhangzhezhangbizidekatongtouxiang。
dizhishiyijiamingwei“zhenyan”dexinlizixunshi。
“xinlizixunshi?”chenmozhouqimeitou。
“yigefangbianshuohuadedifangeryi。”wenyansonglesongjian,“laibulaisuini。buguowodetixingniyiju,nide‘zhengzhuang’caiganggangkaishi,ruguobujiayikongzhi,shiqinghuibiandehenmafan。”
shuowan,tabianzhuanshenlikaile,liuxiachen-moyigerenzhanzaiyuandi,shouliniezheneizhangbobodekapian,naozililuanchengyiguozhou。
撒谎家?觉醒?
zheigejiaowenyandenanren,daodishishenmeren?
他说的都是真的吗?
chenmoditoukanlekanzijiyijiudingchumaozideerjian,youkanlekanshoulidemingpian。
去,还是不去?
qu,kenenghuiyudaoweizhideweixian。zheigewenyankanqilaishenshenmimi,sheizhidaotaandeshenmexin。
buqu,tajiuzhinengyigerenmianduizheiguiyide“zuzhou”,meitianhuozaihuangyanhejianerduodekongjuzhong。
shoujipingmuhailiangzhe,tingliuzaihexuweidetonghuajilushang。
taxiangqilexuweishiwangdeyanshen,xiangqilezijiguizaidishangshidewuzhuhetongku。
tabuxiangzaiguoneiyangdeshenghuole。
他需要一个答案。
napazhiyouwanfenzhiyidekeneng,tayeyaoqushiyishi。
tazuanjinleshoulidemingpian,xiangshizhuazhulezuihouyigenjiumingdaocao。
diertian,chenmoanzhaomingpianshangdedizhi,zhaodaoleneijia“zhenyan”xinlizixunshi。
tazuoluozaiyigehenpianpidexiangzili,kanqilaiheputongdexinlizhensuomeishenmeliangyang。
tayouyulehenjiu,caituimenzoulejinqu。
zixunshilihenanjing,guangxianyouxiehunan。
wenyanzhengzuozaiyizhangkuandadebangongzhuohou,youxiandihezhecha。
takandaochenmo,yidianyebuyiwai,zhishixiaozhezhilezhiduimiandeyizi。
“wojiuzhidaonihuilai。”
chenmozhaixiamaozi,luchuleneiduiyijingzhangdaoyouxiekuazhangdejianerduo。
jingguozuowandezheteng,tadeerduobizhiqiangengzhanggengjianle,jihuyoutabangeshouzhangneimezhang。
他已经放弃了遮掩。
“xianzai,nikeyigaosuwozheidaodishizenmehuishilema?”takaimenjianshandiwen。
wenyanfangxiachabei,shentiweiweiqianqing,shizhijiaochafangzaizhuoshang。
“henjiandan。ni,hewo,doushuyuyigeteshudequnti。womentianshengjiudaiyouyizhongteshude‘tizhi’——wufashuohuangdetizhi。yidanwomenduibierenshuolehuang,shentijiuhuichuxianmouzhongyibian,zuowei‘chengfa’。”
“nideyisishi,wozhangchujianerduo,shiyizhongchengfa?”
“keyizheimelijie。”wen-yandiandiantou,“meigerende‘chengfa’doubuyiyang。youderenshizhangchuzhangbizi,youderenshipifubianse,youderenshenzhihuishuobuchuhua。xiangbizhixia,nidejianerduosuanshibijiaowenhedeyizhongle。”
陈默感到一阵荒谬。
zhangchuzheimeyiduiguaiwuerduo,haijiaowenhe?
“neiwoweishenmeyiqiansahuangdoumeishi?”tazhuiwendao,“wohuoleershiduonian,bukenengyicihuangdoumeishuoguo。”
“zheijiushiwozhiqianshuode‘juexing’。”wenyanjieshidao,“zheizhongtizhitongchangzaichengnianhoudemougeshijiandian,yinweimougeqijierbeijihuo。zheigeqiji,wangwangshiyigerangniqingxubodongjulie,huozheduinieryanyiyizhongdadehuangyan。”
意义重大的谎言?
chenmoxiangqiletaduixuweishuodeneigehuang。
weiletaobiyichangshengrihui,qipianlezijizuiaideren。
dangshideta,queshigandaoleqiangliedexinxuhekuijiu。
nandao,neijiushi“qiji”?
“nei……yaozenmecainengrangerduobianhuiqu?”zheicaishichenmozuiguanxindewenti。
wenyandezuijiaogouqiyimoyiweishenzhangdexiaorong。
“jielinghaixuxilingren。chengfayinhuangyanerqi,ziranyeyaoyinzhenxiangerzhong。”
“nideyisishi……woyaoquchengrenwosalehuang?”
“meicuo。”wenyandeyanshenbianderuiliqilai,“nibixuzhaodaoniqipiandeneigeren,dangzhetademian,qinkouchengrennidehuangyan,bingqie,dedaotade‘liangjie’。zhiyouzheiyang,‘cheng-fa’caihuixiaoshi。”
得到谅解?
陈默的心沉了下去。
taxiangqilexuweizuotianneijuejuedeyanshen。
她会原谅自己吗?
“ruguo……ruguoduifangbukenyuanliangni?huozhe,wozhaobudaoneigerenleni?”
wenyantanletanshou,biaoqingbiandeyouxieyansu。
“neinideerduo,jiuzhinengyongyuanzheiyangle。erqie,nizuihaoqidaozijiyihoubiezaishuohuang。yinweimeiyicixindehuangyan,douhuirangnideerduobiandegengjia……yinrenzhumu。”
tadehuaxiangyipenlengshui,congtoudaojiaojiaolechenmoyigetouxinliang。
zheinalishishenme“tizhi”,zheigenbenjiushiyigeedudezuzhou!
jiuzaizheishi,zixunshidementuranbeituikaile。
yigenvhaifengfenghuohuodichuanglejinlai,tadebizishangjiazheyifudadademojing,zhezhulebanzhanglian。
“wenyan!buhaole!wodebizi……wodebiziyoubianzhangle!”
nvhaiyibianhanzhe,yibianzhaixialemojing。
chenmoshunzhetadeshengyinkanqu,shunjiandaoxileyikouliangqi。
nvhaidebizi,youzhiyouzhang,xiangyigenmugunyiyangcongtalianshangtuwudishenchulai,zuzuyoushijilimizhang。
neiyangzi,hetonghuagushilidepinuocao,yimoyiyang。