第4章 一心求死

monianchendeshengyinhenda,yizhiyuzhanzaimengyilanshenbiandezuozeyuandoutingdaole。zheixihuaxialai,zuozeyuanshuangmeiyicu,yishoujiuduoguomengyilandeshoujiduihuadao:“xiangnizheizhongnanrenkenbenjiubupeiyongyourenhedongxi,zaitaofatarendetongshixianjiantaoxianiziji!ruguowomeiyoujishijiangniqizisongdaoyiyuan,nixianzaijiushigesharenfan!”

zuozeyuanxianglaibushigeaiguanxianshideren,tarendeshiqingzaitayanlilianyilichentudousuanbushang。

keshitayebuzhidaoweishenmeneiyiketuranshengqiyigunaoyi,dagaishitaquanchengmudulezheigenvrenbeizuiqinjindeliangrenshanghai,jiashangbenjiukuijiuzaishen,suoyicaishengchuledabaobupingdeniantou。

tahuayinyiluo,genbenjiumeiyoujimonianchenfanyingdeshijian,jingzhiguaduanledianhua。

yipangdemengyilanweiweilengleyixia,likeduoguozuozeyuanshouzhongdedianhua,zaicijimonianchenhuiboguoqu,keshineibianyijingbujietadedianhuale,chuanlaidezhishiyizhenzhendemangyin。

jiantazheiyang,zuozeyuanrenbuzhuhaoxindetixingleyisheng:“nizhangfudouzheiyangduinilenimeiyoubiyaodishengxiaqi……”

“nizhidaoshenme?!nishenmedoubuzhidao!”

zuozeyuandehuahaimeiyoushuowan,jiubeimengyilanyikoudaduan。zhijiantahongzheyanjingsisidedingzhezuozeyuan,huixiangqididipingriduizijidehao,shunjiantaxinrudaoge,zuanzhedianhuadeshuangshouqingjintuwu,gujiesihuyaopopierchu。

tabufangqidejielianjimonianchendadianhua,keshineibiansihaomeiyoujiedeyisi,zuihousuoxingshezhileguanji,rangtazaiyedabujindianhua。

zuozeyuanshoulianleshenqing,zhengzhunbeikaikoudeshihoumengyilanturanqiangzaitamianqianshuodao:“nizouba,jintiandeshiqingbuguaini,woyebuhuizhuijiunidezeren。”

mengyilanyongzuihoudelizhiyutashuohua,tazhidaozheigemoshengdenanrenshichuyuhaoyicaiquanshuoziji,keshitabuzhidaozijisuofashengdeshiqing。

“nizouba,woxiangzijijingyijing。”

mengyilanraoguotadeshenbian,zouxiangzhanglangchu。zuozeyuanjiantashishendemoyangyouxiebufangxin,suigenzaitadeshenhou,nazhidaomengyilanturanzhuanshenlishenghechileyiju:“wojiaonizounimeiyoutingdaoma?!wohenibingburenshiwodeshiqingyebuxuyaonilaiguande。”

zuozeyuanjiaobuyidun,zhihaoshouzhulejiaobumeiyougenshangqian。

baituoletademengyilanlaidaozhanglangdejintou,xiongkoujiuxiangshibeishenmedongxisisideduzhuyiban,nanyihuxi。huixiangqizheiduanduanliangtiansuofashengdeshi,xinzhongjiuxiangyoushangwanzhimayizaiyidiandiandekenshita。

nanshou,jusang,shiwangshenzhibinlinjuewang,tabuzhidaoweishenmeneimeduodeshiqingyixiazichaotayonglaiyaoyanmeita,yebuzhidaotaxianzaiyinggaizenmezuocaishihaode!tayaozenmezuo,cainengjiudidi?

jiuzaitabeitongkusuokundeshihou,tademuqinturanzhaodaoleta,yibazhuaizhutadeyifujiangtaladaomianqian:“henianchenshuolema?tashenmeshihouguolai?”

mengyilanmianlunanse,zaitananyikaikoudeyanshenzhongtademuqincaicedaolejieguo:“nimeiyouyaodaoyiyaofei?!”

“ma……duibuqi……monianchenxianzaiyijingbujiewodianhuale,tayebuhuijiwoneimeduoqian,ta……”

“你是废物吗!?”

tamuqinduanrandehechi:“jiuzheimejiandandeshiqingnidoubanbuhao?nishibushicunxinyaorangnididiqusi?!nijiuzheimeyanzhengzhengdekanzhenididishouku?kuitazhiqianhaiduinineimehaochuchuweinishuohua,nijianzhijiushiyitouyangbuqindebaiyanlang!”

tamuqinshuangmuhairandenuhouzhe,sihuyaobayiqiedeyuanqidousazaimengyilandeshenshang。

tingwenzheihua,mengyilanxinzhongduntong,tajiliyinrenzhetongkudeqingxu,huanhuandekaikou:“ma,woyouzaixiangbanfa,woyehuijiudidide,zhishi……zhishimonianchenta……”

“nishuozheixieyoushenmeyong?guangshuojiukeyinadaoyiyaofeima?niyouzheishijianzaiwozheijieshinihaiburuqunizhangfuneiliyaoqianqu!”

tamengdetuikaimengyilan,nuqichongchongdezhizhetadebizixiazuihoudetongdie:“niyaoshibujinididichouqiyiliaofei,wozuoguiyebuhuifangguoni!”

“妈!”

mengyilanyuxiangzhuazhuyaozoudemuqin,keshimuqindalideshuaishoujiujiangtatuidaoyibian,haobujiangqingmianlikaizheili。takanzhemuqindebeiying,xinzhongdekuchuxiangqingpendayuyiyanghongrandaoxia。

taxianzaihaiyoushenmebanfa?tadehaizi,tadehunyin,tadejiatingzaiyixizhijianjiumianlinposui,tayaozenmequkangqizheixieshiqing?

juewangzhishi,taganjuenaozihuranyipiankongbai,jiulianshixiandoubiandemohuqilai。xinzhongyinyinyouyigushengyinzaicuicuta,kuaidianquzhaomonianchenjiudidi,zhiyaomonianchencaiyouneiyidabiqiankeyijiujichang!

zaibuduandexinlianshixia,tatuozhepijuandeshentimanmandezouchuleyiyuan。cishitianseyiwan,yiyuanzhouzaodexiaoluzhiyououerjigerenyingzouguo。

mengyilanshihunluopodeyanzhexiaodaozou,mannaozidoushikongdangdangdeyipianbaise,sihaomeiyouzhuyidaoyougerenzaibeihougenzheta。

congtazouchuyiyuandeneiyike,jiubeizheigerendingshangle。

dengmengyilanzaicizouguoyigeguaijiaodeshihou,shenhouderenturancuanshangqu,mengdejiangtadeshentituidaoguaijiaodeqiangmianshang,yibaminghuanghuangdebishoujiuzhizhidehengzailetadebojingzhongyang。

nanrenxiongsheneshadedaizhekouzhao,neixinghongdemouzilixiemanleliqi!

zhijiantachaomengyilannuhouyiju:“shenshangyouduoshaoqiandoujiaochulai!niganhanrendehuajiubieguaiwodaozimeizhangyan!”

mengyilanhaoburongyicaihuanguoshenlai,jingjudekanzhezheigedaitu,yayilexujiudeqingxumengranbengkui。

tazuijinyinggaishichufanlemougetianshen,buranyebuhuisanfanliangciderangtayudaozheimeduodeshiqing!zaitazuidigushiyideshihoujingranhaiyushangqiangjiefan?!

kanzhebojingchuneibajianruidebishou,mengyilandeshenziweiweidezhandoulejixia,liandaizheyanshendoubiandehaipaqilai。

tazuanjinshuangshou,huranjian,yigedadandeniantoumengdezainaohaizhongshengcheng!

tayumonianchenjiehundeshihoujizijimaiguoyifenbaoxian,ruguo……ruguozijiyiwaishenwang,neimedidijiukeyilingshangyifenjuedebaoxianjin!

zheigeshihoudetayijingmeiyouduoshaolizhile,mannaozidoushiyaojiudidi!

zhijiantaturanzhuazhudaitudeshouyangqiuzhe:“nishalewoba,woqiuqiunishalewo!”

neigedaituxianranmeiyouliaodaotajingranhuizhudongqiusi,jingyadetongshilianmangbiekaidaozi:“nijiuneimexiangsi?!”

mengyilansihaobuweijudezhuazhutadeshouyutaduishidao:“nibushawodehuawojiuhuihanren!woyidinghuihanrende!”

“ni……nishizhenbuxianghuoleshiba?!neihao,wochengquanni!”

daitunaoyicongsheng,shengpazaiduojiuchanhuiyinlaizhouzaorendezhuyi,yushijuedingkuaidaoxiashou,qianglejiupao!