zhidaoyicilixingtijianhou。
zhoumeihuabeiquezhenganaiwanqi，banyouduozhongbingfazheng。qingkuangjizhuanzhixia，xunsukuadiao，yiyuanfaleshucibingweitongzhi。
shenzhaoriyeshouzaibingfangwai，yanquanwuhei，zhenggerenqiaocuidetuolexing。taqiuwo：“xiaoning，wozhidaotaduibuqini…ketabijingshiwoma…takeneng…kenengmeiduoshaoshijianle…niqukankanta，napayiyan…”
wokanzhetayanzhongdehongxuesihebeiweideqiqiu，chenmoleliangjiu。
终于，我点了头。
“好。”
gaojidanrenbingfangli，mimanzhenongzhongdexiaodushuiheyizhongjibingteyoudeshuaibaiqiwei。gezhongjiankongyiqishanshuozhebutongyansedeguang，fachuguilvdedidasheng。
zhoumeihuatangzaixuebaidebingchuangshang，cengjingfengyudeshentiganbiedezhishengxiayibagutou，lianseshilahuangzhongtouzheqinghui，chazhebisiguan，yangqiguanguzaitashouxuedelianshang，xiandegewaijuda。meiyicihuxi，douchenzhongfeili，daizhehehedezayin。
takandaowojinlai，hunzhuodeyanjingmengdizhengda，qingxujidongqilai，kuzhiyiyangdeshouzhiduosuozhexiangyaotaiqi，jianhuyishangdeshuzishunjianbiaosheng，fachujianruidejingbao。
pangbiandehushilianmangshangqiananfu。
shenzhaohongzheyankuang，yashengshuo：“ma，xiaoninglaikanninle。”
womanmanzouguoqu，bulvpingwen。lianshang，yidiandianyangqiyimoxiaoyi。zoudaochuangwei，naqiguazhedebinglijia，zixidi、yiyeyedifankan。zhizhangmocadeshashasheng，zaijijingdebingfangligewaiqingxi。
ganaiwanqi，duochuzhuanyi，ganxingnaobing，huxishuaijie…yuhoujicha。
真是…报应不爽。
wofangxiabinglijia，xiaorongyuefashenle，zoudaochuangtou，fushizheta。tasisidengzhewo，houlonglifachumohubuqingde“hehe”sheng，xiangshizuzhou。
woweiweiwanyao，coujinta，shengyinqingroudexiangqingrendiyu，quebaozhiyouwomenliangren，huoxuhaiyouzhichizhiwaideshenzhaonengtingjian：
“popo，tangzaizheilidengsideziwei，haobuhaoshou？”
tadeyanjingshunjiandengdejihuliekai，jianhuyifengkuangjianjiao。
“jidewoneigemeichushidehaizima？”woxiaodegengtianle，yandiqueshiyipianbingfengdehuangyuan，“talaizhaoninsuomingle。”
shenzhaozaiyipang，shentijulieyizhan，nanyizhixindikanxiangwo，zuichunxidong，quefabuchurenheshengyin。tayanlidetongkudadaoledingdian，xiangshizhongyubeituidaolemougejixian，queyoubeiyanqianmuqinmiliudezhuangtaisisianzhu，dongdanbude。
zhoumeihuakaishijuliedichouchu，xiangyitiaolishuideyu。
wozhiqishen，muguangluozaitajulieqifudexiongkou，youyihuitayinkongjuhefennuerniuqudelianshang。
“erhunnvrenshibupeijinshenjia，”woqingxiao，shouzhimanyouyoudi，dashangleneigentoumingdeyangqiguan，zhijianganshouzheneidianweiruodeyali。
“像您这种…”
shouxiamengdiyongli，gancuililuodiyiba！
suliaojiekoufenli，fachuqingweideyisheng“pada”。
“…sangoudelaofeiwu，youzenmepeiyonghuxijini？”
yangqiguanruanruandichuiluoxialai。
zhoumeihuadeshentishunjianbengchengyidaokongbudegong，yanjingsisituchu，zuibazhangdaozuida，quexibujinyisiyangqi，zhiyoujuewangde、wushengdesihouningguzailianshang。tadeshouzhizaikongzhongfengkuangzhuanaoleliangxia，zuizhongwulidichuiluo。
“嘀————”
xindianjianhuyishang，tiaoyuedequxianzhouranlachengyitiaobizhide、wuqingdelvsehengxian，cierdezhangmingyinsilielebingfanglisuoyouxujiadepingjing。
shijiezaizheiyishengzhangmingzhong，wanlaijuji。
wozhanzaineili，lianshangneimokuaiyiercankudexiaorongshangweishoulian，binglengdeshixiancongneizhangchedishiqushengqidelianshangyikai。
然后，我听见了。
咚。
yishengweiruo、chenmen，quejijuchuantoulidebodongsheng，menmendixiangqi。
laizi…zhoumeihuaneiyijingjingzhidexiongqiangzhixia。
咚。
又一声。
huanman，youli，daizheyizhongguiyierwanqiangdeshengmingli。
hewojiyishenchu，wushucikaozaishenzhaoxiongtangshangtingdaode、neilingwoanxinchenzuidexintiaosheng…
一模一样。
wolianshangdexiaorongshunjiandongjie。xueyefangfozaichaneijianlengning，buzailiudong。yiguhanyicongjizhuizuishenchuzhakai，fengcuanzhisizhibaihai，meiyigemaokongdouzaijianxiaozhefachujingbao。
shijiesuoyoudeshengyindouxiaoshile，zhishengxianeiyishengjieyisheng，huanman、chenmen、chixubuduandexintiaosheng，qingxidi、guzhidi，congsiqudepopodexiongqiangli——
yixia，youyixiadichuanlai。
撞击着我的耳膜。
yezhuangjizhewogangganggouzhuqide、binglengfuchoudezhenggeshijie。
wodeshouzhihaibaochizhebadiaoyangqiguandezishi，jiangzaibankong。
指尖冰凉。
bingfangli，siwangdezhangmingyinyijiujianruidichixuzhe，hunhezheneiguiyidexintiaosheng，yanzouzheyiquhuangdankongbudexiezou。
hushifanyingguolai，jinghuzhechongshangqianjinxingwuxiaodeqiangjiu。shenzhaobengkuidipudaochuangbian，fachuyeshoubandeaihao。
而我，只是僵立着。
一动不动。
wojiangzaiyuandi，neiyishengshengxintiaoxiangwuxingdeguchui，zazaiwodeermoshang，zajinwodelinghunshenchu。
咚。
咚。
meiyisheng，doujingzhundifukezhewojiyilizuiwennuandegangwan——shenzhaojiangwolouzaihuaizhongshi，ceertiezaitaxiongtangtingdaodelvdong。chenwen，youli，daizheshengmingdexianhuo。
kexianzai，talaiziyijuganggangbeiwoqinshouduanjueshengjide、kugaodequqiao。
怎么可能？
huanjue？jidujinzhanghechouhencuishengchudehuangdancuojue？
hushiyijinganxianglejinjihujiaoling，gengduodeyihurenyuanchongjinbingfang，caozaderensheng，yiliaoyiqidepengzhuangsheng，shenzhaoyayibuzhude、siliebandetongkusheng…suoyouzheixieshengyin，quedouqiyidibeineichixubuduandexintiaoshenggaiguo。
taneimeqingxi，neimeguzhi，chuantouyiqiexuanxiao，zhiluozaiwoyigerendetingjueli。
yigeyishengkuaisujianchalezhoumeihuadetongkong，youchumoletadejingdongmai，zuizhong，chenzhongdiyaoleyaotou，duishenzhaoshuoleju“jieaishunbian，womenjinlile”。
他们没有听见。
他们听不见。
只有我。
shenzhaotanruanzaibingchuangqian，jianbangjuliesongdong。yourenkaishizhunbeigaishangbaibu。
不。
不能盖！
那下面有心跳！
wodeshentixianyulizhizuochulefanying。womengdipuguoqu，jinhucubaodituikaizhengyaodongzuodehushi，shouzhangzhijieanzailezhoumeihuabinglengjiangyingdexiongkoushang。
“niganshenme！”hushijingnu。
shenzhaoyetaiqitou，leiyanmohu，zhenjingdikanzhewo：“xiaoning？！”
zhangxinxia，shibingliangdeyifubuliaoheshiqudanxingdepifu，yipiansiji。
可是…
咚。
youyishengmenxiang，touguogugehexuerou，qingxidichuandidaowodezhangxin。
它真的在跳！
“xintiao！haiyouxintiao！nimenting！nimenmoa！”wotaiqitou，shengyinjianlidejihupoyin，yanjingsisidingzheyisheng，“tameisi！tadexinhaizaitiao！”
yishenghehushijiaohuanleyigefuzadeyanshen，neiyanshenliyoutongqing，youlianmin，haiyouyisi“jiashuyinbeishangguoduchanshengyizheng”depanding。weishoudeyishengfanghuanshengyin，shituanfuwo：“shentaitai，qingninlengjingyidian。bingrenyijinglinchuangsiwang，xintiaohuxitingzhi，tongkongsandaguding。womenlijienindebeitong…”
“womeiyoubeitong！”wojihushihouchulaide，shouzhisisikouzhebinghaofudebuliao，fangfoyaotouguoxiongguquzhuazhuneikerengzaibodongdexinzang，“woshuoletameisi！nimenshiyisheng！nimenjianchaa！yongyiqi！tajiuzaitiao！nimentingbujianma？！”
shenzhaozhengzhazhezhanqilai，yonglibaozhuwo，shitujiangwocongneijushitiqianlakai，tadeshengyintongkuerpibei：“xiaoning，xiaoningnilengjingdian！mayijingzoule…rangtaanxiba…qiunile…”
“nifangkaiwo！”wofengleyiyangzhengzha，yanjingchihongdidengzheshenzhao，“shenzhao！niting！neishinidexintiaosheng！shinia！congtashentilichuanchulaide！nitingbujianma？！”
wodehuarutongjinglei，zhadeshenzhaozhenggerendoujiangzhule。takanzhewo，yanshenlichongmanlejudadejinghaihewufalijiedetongku，fangfowozaishuozhezuiedudefenghua。
yihurenyuanchenjishangqian，wenhequejiandingdijiangwogejuekailai。baibuhuanhuangaishang，zhezhulezhoumeihuaneizhangningguzhejingnuhetongkudelian，yezhezhuleneipianchixuchuanlaixintiaoshengdexiongtang。
但声音没有消失。
它还在响。
咚。
咚。
chuantoubaibu，chuantoukongqi，jingzhundi，zhiluozaiwoyigerendeshijieli。
wobeishenzhaobanbaobantuodinongchulebingfang，zoulangshangdedengguangbaideciyan。tabawoanzaizoulangdesuliaoyishang，zijidunzaiwomianqian，shuangshouyonglizhuazhewodejianbang，tonghongdeyanjinglimanshileishuihekenqiu：“xiaoning，wozhidaonihenta…wozhidaohaizideshi…wozhidaonishouletaiduoweiqu…shiwodecuo，doushiwodecuo…keshi…keshimatayijingsile…jieshule…qiuni，biezaizheiyangle…woshoubulele…”
他以为我疯了。
beizhangqideyayihezuizhongdefuchoubifengle。
wokanzhetatongkuniuqudelian，kanzhetayinweixiangxinmuqinyisierchedibengkuidemoyang，yigubinghanchegudehuangmiuganjuezhulewo。
neikexin…mingminghaizaitiao。
tamenweishenmedoutingbujian？
nandao…zhendezhiyouwonengtingjian？
zheigerenzhirangwohunshenfaleng。
jiexialaiderizi，rutongzaidiyubianyuanxingzou。
zhoumeihuadeyitibeisongwangbinyiguan，zhunbeihuohua。shenzhaochulizheyiqiehoushi，jiedaiqianlaidiaoyandeqinyou，taxunsuxiaoshouxiaqu，chenmoguayan，kanwodeyanshenlichulebeishang，gengduoleyicengxiaoxinyiyidebaohuhedanyou，tarendingwoshoudaolejudadejingshen**。
erwo，zebeineiruyingsuixingdexintiaoshengzhemodekuaiyaofakuang。
wulunwozoudaonali，likaiyiyuanduoyuan，neixintiaoshengshizhongzaierbian，bujinbuman，chixubuduan。tachuxianzaiwochifanshi，shuijueshi，fadaishi。xiangshizhiruwonaozhongdebeijingyin，yongbuxiaoting。
咚。
咚。
tixingzhewo，wohuoxushasileyigequqiao，danyoushenmedongxi，jieyouneikexinzang，wangudicunxulexialai。
它甚至在对我说话。
qichushimohudeyiyu，duanduanxuxu，jiazazaixintiaodejianxili。xiangshixinhaobuliangdeshouyinji。
“……**……”
“……budehaosi……”
shizhoumeihuadeshengyin！edu，niuqu，chongmanlekegudechouhen。
womengdiwuzhuerduo，fengkuangyaotou。meiyong。shengyinzhijiecongluneixiangqi。
jianjiandi，shengyinbiandeqingxiqilai。
不止是诅咒。
还有别的。
“……azhao…wodeerzi……”
“……baoxianxiang…mimashi……”
“……chengnanzhanglvshi……yizhu……”
taxiangshizaiwuyishidixutao，shengqianzuishendezhinian，zuifangbuxiadesuanji，shenzhiyixiewocongweitingguode、guanyushenjiachanyedeyinmianpai，duanduanxuxudi，bansuizheneiguilvdexintiao，yongruwodenaohai。
woyebunengmei，zhengzheyanjingdaotianliang，erbianshiwangpodexintiaoheyiyu。shiyuquanwu，xunsuqiaocuixiaqu，yanshenhuansan，shichangduizhekongqifadai。
shenzhaogengjiadanxin，qiangxingdaiwoqukanlexinliyisheng。zaizhenliaoshili，mianduiyishengdexunwen，wozhanglezhangzui，queyigeziyeshuobuchulai。
wonengshuoshenme？shuowoshalepopo，quehainengtingjiantadexintiaohezuzhou？shuowozhidaotabaoxianxiangmimahesixiazhaolvshixiugaiyizhudeshiqing？
yishengzuizhongduishenzhaotanlekouqi：“shenxiansheng，nintaitaizheishichuangshanghouyingjizhangai，banyoumingxiandeyixiangzhengzhuang。xuyaojingyang，jinliangbimian**，yaowuzhiliaofuzhu。”
shenzhaojinjinwozhewodeshou，yanshentongkuerjianding。
huidaojia，kongdangdangdebieshuzhishengxiawomenliangren。cengjingwuchubuzaidezhoumeihuadeqixisihudanlexie，danneixintiaoshengheyiyuqueyufaqingxi。
takaishiyingxiangwodepanduan。
youyici，shenzhaohewoshangliangyitaofangchandechuli，wotuokouerchu：“buxing，mashuoguoneitaofangzidongbude，limianyou…”
woshuodaoyiban，mengdidunzhu，lenghancencen。
shenzhaoyihuodikanzhewo：“mashenmeshihoushuoguo？xiaoning，nishibushiyou…”
youyici，tazhaobudaoyifenzhongyaowenjian，woguishishenchadizouxiangshufangyigejiqiyinbidejiaoluochouti——neishizhoumeihuayiyulitidaoguodezangdongxidedifang——bingqiezhunquewuwudishurulemima（yeshitayiyulixielude），quchulewenjian。
shenzhaokanzhewodeyanshen，yijingcongdanyoubianchenglejingju。
我更怕我自己。
wofangfobeiyigesiqudeelingfushenle。tajieyouneikexinzang，zaiwodeshentili，zaiwodenaozili，yinhunbusan。