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fudushinian,wobengkuile。

conggaolouzhuiluodeneiyike,wotouguochuangzikandaomamaqiasilemeimei。

woshuaichenglegaoweijietan,zaichuangshangdongdanbude。

danmamaquelekailehua,tuilaiyigeyizi,shangmianshitongyangtanhuandemeimei。

tayaozhibowomenlianggetanhuanerkaoqinghua。

buguomeidengwomenhuo,tadeshitixianhuoleyiba。

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我妈死了。

tatangzaichajixiayijingliangtianle,yankongdangdangwangzhetianhuaban,shenquniuchengguiyidejiaodu。

wobuzhidaoshisheishaleta,huozhetashizishade。

meimeiyaozhelunyiquheshui,lunzibeishitidejiaobanzhule。

tameikandao,liangyanhuanghudi“gaba”nianguoqu,zuilihainiantaozheshuxuegongshi。

erwotangzaichuangshang,hunshenchulenaodaihelianggenshouzhi,nalidoudongbule。

mianqiandebeirushanggengshiduizhehouzhongdeshuji,caogaozhisanluoyidi,chuangbianhaibaizheyitaizhengzaizhibodeshouji。

wonengkandaoyixiexianyandedanmucongpingmushanghuaguo。

danzheibuguanwodeshi,wozhishifeilididiaozhebi,ditouzaicaogaozhishangyansuan。

jintianyaozhiboxiewanershitaolizongjuanzi,wanbuchengrenwudehua,jiuyaojieshouzhibojiantichudechengfa。

xiangqineidengzizalian,yaqianchuozhijia,shijingailiandetongku,wojiuhunshenfadou。

meimeiyijinglianxuxieleshigexiaoshideshuxueti,zuichunganliezhefanzhesipi,coudaoshuilongtouxiajiushiyidunmenghe。

wulihuidangzhegululudeshuisheng。

xiangshizhongyuhebaole,tayouhuangzhelunyihuilai,daowopangbiandeshuzhuoshang,maitoujixusuan。

tajinnianshisansui,queyijingyaocanjiagaokaole。

erwoshidishiyinianfudu。

congshiqisuicanjiagaokao,daorujinwoyijingershiba,quehaizaigaokao。

woliangbugandanwu,yizhimaitouxuedaolelingchen,quejingkongdifaxianjuanzihaishimeiyouxiewan。

zhibojiandeguanzhonghuanhuqueyueqilai,zhenglunzheyaojiwomenshenmechengfa,yitiaotiaodaizheeyidedanmuhuaguo,xiangshisuomingdedao。

......jintianyouyoushenmeyangdezhemo?

wobuganxiangxiaqu,jiangzhiditangzaichuangshang,hemeimeizaicanbaidedengxiazhengzheyan,dengzhechengfa。

raneryizhidaotianweiweiming,womenyemeiyoudengdao。

wangketingkanqu,mamadeshitihaitangzaineili,shuangyanzhizhidengshizhewomen。

taweishenmebulaichengfawomen?

yinweimeiyoudengdaochengfa,zhibojiandeguanzhongbumanyile。

tamenchaozheyaokanwohemeimeihushanerguang,huozheyongbijianzhaerdong。

gengduodedanmuzeshiwenwomaqunaerle。

wowufahuida,meimeigengshimaitousuanti,yanaodetonghong,manshixuesi,xiangshixiayimiaojiubengliedeshuiqiu。

womenjiuzheiyang,youchenmodixieleyitianjuanzi。

meiyouduiwomendechengfa,guanzhongdajuewuqu,guankanrenshushaolehenduo。

zhidaowulideechouyuelaiyueyanzhong,meimeizhongyuxiangqiwohaixuyaopaixie,xiankaibeizitiwohuanyifu。

tahaibudongshoujizhiboshishenme。

baihuahuayipianbaoluzaizhibojianli,danmushudunshibiaosheng,jiazazhewushuwuyanhuiyu。

womamudiceguolian,kandaoqiangshanghaidingzhedemuban,neishiwomaweileburangwomenfenxinerfengzhudechuangzi。

fengxiliyinyuekejianwaimianzhanlandetian。

jiuzaizheishi,menwaixiangqiledalideqiaomensheng,bansuizhenvlinjudejiansangmen。

“zhangyue!nizaibuzaijia!”

zhangyueshiwoma,dantaxianzaibunengqukaimen,meimeiyaozhelunyisichuxunzhao,zaichajiqiantingxialai。

taconglunyishangfeilidinuoxiaqu,tuiletuiwoma。

“a......ma?”

wodexinjinleyixia,shengpatahancuo。

meirenhuida,tazhinengzijiqukaimen。

wodechuangzhengduizhedamen,nengyinyuekandaomenwaideqingkuang。

meimeiqukaimenhou,nvlinjuxianshihoutuileyibu,xiangshibeixundeshoubulele,tazhouzhemeiniezhubizi。

“ayi,woma......”

“nimenjiachouweiyoupiaochulaile!nengbunengguanyiguan!”

“duibuqiayi。”meimeidishengxiaqidaozheqian,“wojiejietadongbule,woyoubenshoubenjiaode。”

yanjianyigecanjixiaohaizizheimeweiweinuonuode,nvlinjuzuizhonghaishimeiyouguoduozeguai。

tabeimensuolanzhe,shenzhimeiyoukandaoketingliwomadeshiti。

jiaobushengzhujianhuidangzheyuanqu。

danmenfengliyouqiaowushengxiluchuyizhiqiheideyan,sisidingzhewomen。