第3章

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woheranqingqingdejiechukaishiduoleqilai。

wohuishibushidizhaotaliaotian,gaosutaqinyijintianyouduiwozuoleshenmeshenme。

tadehuayuzhongzongshitouluzhefenfenbuping,binglvcitixingwoyaoyuanliqinyi。

tasihuhendudingqinyibushigehaorenzheijianshiqing。

woshitanzhejiazhuangwozijiduiqinyiyoushuobuqingdaobumingdeganqing,ranqingqingdewenzisihugengjidongle。

「jiaxiang!doushijiaxiang!!!」

「niqingxingyidiana,takeshizaiyizhiqifuniei!」

wogoulegouzuijiao。turanjuede,xianzaideranqingqing,haitingkeaide。

「qinyizhendebushihaoren,nixiangxinwoyiciba!」

wokanzheyilianjitiaofaguolaidexiaoxi,jishangxintou。

「wozenmezhidaonishibushizijixihuanqinyi,suoyiyongzheiyangdefangshilaihewolikaita?」

shunjian,ranqingqingneibianxianshizhengzaishuruzhong,queyoumeiyoufarenhexiaoxiguolai。

tahuoxuzhengzaizuzhiyuyanmawoba,wozheiyangxiangzhe。

danshibujiyiji,zenmenengbitashuoshihuani?

zhongyu,zaimouyitian,ranqingqingjiwofaxiaoxi,yuewozhoumojianmian,shuoyouzhongyaodeshiqingyaogaosuwo。

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daodajianmiandidianhou,ranqingqingsihuhenjidong,naqibeizimengheleyikouningmengshui,jiezheyilianzhengzhongdifuzhuwodejianbang。

「zhumian,qinyizhendebushihaoren!tajiushigexihuanqiujinplaydebiantai!」

wolianseyibian,xinxiashengchulejifenjingtidikanzheta。

tashenhuxiyikouqi,bayiqiequanpantuochu。

「jiexialaiwoyaoshuodehuakenengyouxielingrenfeijie,danwoganbaozheng,woshuodedoushizhende。qishizheilideshijieshiyibenxiaoshuolidejuqing。wobushiyuanlaideranqingqing,woshichuanyuedaozheigexiaoshuoshijielidelingyigeshijiederen。」

「erzhumian,nijiushinvzhujiao。nanzhujiaojiushiqinyi,danshitagenbenbushigehaoren!」

ranqingqingyueshuoyuejidong,jidongdewojuedexiayimiaotashenzhiyaoqiazijirenzhong。

erwoxinzhongzaoyishijingtaohailang。

jiusuanshicaidaoletahuoxuzhidaoshenme,dantajuranshicunzaiyushijiewaiderenzheijianshiqinghaishilingrenzhenjing。

ranergenglingrenzhenjingde,haishitajuranzhunquedishuochulewobeiqinyiqiujindeqingjie。

「qinyigenbenjiubushihaoren!shibasuineiniantalianhezhongchubanipianzou,ranhou……」tayouxieburenxindijixushuolexiaqu「taqiangpoleni,ranhouyizhibaniguanzaijiali!tagenbenjiubupeidangnanzhujiao!」

tafenfenbupingdiniezhuwodejianbang,niedesijin「suoyiniyidingyaoliqinyineigechushengyuandian!chenzhetahaimeiduinixiashou!dui!haiyouzhongchu,niyeyaolitayuandian!」

wozhishitaimoukanxiangta,shensemoming。

tashuodeyiqiewodouzhidao。

zuoweishuzhongdenvzhujiao,quanshenxindiaishangnanzhujiao,henanzhujiaojianliganqingxian,duiyuyigexiaoshuodepangguanzhelaishuo,buyinggaishilisuoyingdangdema。

jiuxiangchuangzaochuzheibenxiaoshuodezuozheyiyang,xiexiazheiyangdeqingjie,yebuhuigujishuzhongnvzhujiaojiujingshizenmexiangde。

zicongwoyouleziwoyishi,zaixiangdaozheixieshi,wodexinlizongshizhibuzhudebeiai。

ruguowomeiyouchajuedaozheiyiqie,neimewojiuhuibianchengyixinfuwuyujuqingganyuanxishengzijidegongjurennvzhujiao。

keshi,mianqianzheigecaishizhenzhengdepangguanzhederen,queshituxiangyaolaijiuwo,buguyuanzhudejuqing,ningyuanshuochuzijidezhenshishenfen,yeyaotixingwoyuanliqinyi。

她又是怎么想的呢?

ranqingqingmeiyouzhuyidaowodeyichang,zhishizaijixudiediebuxiu。

「nibiepaa,jiusuanrebuqi,zanmenduodeqima,tianyahaijiaonalibushiliurenchu,zongzhijiushibuyaogenqinyizaiyiqi,nibuzhidaonibeiqinyizhetengdeduocan!zuihoudoubuxianggerenle!yaowoshuo,nijiushiyaolitayueyuanyuehao!」

neishunjian,wojuedetashenshangfangfoshanzheguanghui。

wobingmeiyougaosuta,qishiwozaojiuzhidaozheixieshiqing。

huoxu,ranqingqingkeyibangzhuwowanchengwodejihua。

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jiuzheiyang,ranqingqingbianchenglewode“junshi”,cumeirenzhendibangwochumouhuace。

「yaobuwomenlianggeyiqibachounanrenbangledele。」

xianranzheigefazishixingbutongde,ranqingqingzijishuowanhoudoubaishoufoujuele。

「ai,buxing,takendinghuifanshawomen。」

我沉默着没有回话。

qinyibei**qiujinwo,shiyinweiwogaokaoshixuanlehenyuandedifang,zhongchuhaigenwoxuanletongyigedifangdexuexiao。

danshizhongchubeipanlewo,haichengweiledaozhiwozhuiruheiandexiongshouzhiyi。

suoyiwobukenengrangtayehaoguo。

wozhishimeixiangdao,ranqingqingzheigenvhaizi,huizailejiejuqinghouhaobuyouyudizhanzaiwozheibian,shitubawolachuheian。

mingmingwozhishigeduitalaishuowuguanjinyaodeshuzhongdezhipianreneryi,taqueyuanyilaigaosuwozheixie。

woturanjuede,zheigeshijiehuoxuhaiyoujiu。

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wozhudonghezhongchudaoleqian,bingbiaoshiqianjitianxinqingbuhao,suoyihulveleta。

jiezhewomenyouchenglehaotongzhuo,xiangyiqianyiyangguanximiqie。

qinyilaizhaowoshi,cishidewozhenghezhongchuliaotian,liaodaokaixindedifang,wohaishenshoupaitadejianbang。

qinyishensebumingdizoudaowozuoweiqian,zhongchudeshensebiandejingtileqilai。

qinyipieletayiyan,chuyanfengci「zenme,zijijiaqiongchengneiyang,haixiangzheyaochanhebierendeshiqing?」

zhongchudeyixiajiubianbaile,qinyidehuajianzhijiushizaibatadezizunxinwangnitulicai。

jiantabushuohua,qinyilengxiaoyisheng,youkanxiangwo。

我只是平静地回望。

qinyibuzhidao,wobinghaohouneiduanshijian,guangshikandaota,wodeshuangtuidouhuifadou。

guangshikandaotadelian,wodouhuihuixiangqineigesimengfeimengdeshijieli,wobeitaguanzaianshiliyibianyouyibiandizhemo,haiyoutarutongemoyibandediyu。

woyonglehenjiudeshihouziwoliaoyu,cainengjilibaochijiandaotashibuneimeyichang。

「zhumian,xiazhouwuwomarangnilaijialichidunfan。」

tayijiushineifuyaneyoubunaideshenqing。

wodixiatou,weiruodidiandiantou,biaoshitongyi。

dedaomanyidedaanhou,talikailewodezuowei。

zhongchufenfenbupingdibaoyuan「tazheishenmetaidua!」

zhiyouwozhidao,tashishikekezhuangchudeyanecaishizuihaodemianju,yonglaizhegaitaduiwobiantaieryouyinandexiangfa。

wohaizhidao,qishixiazhouwushitadeshengri。

tazhidaowoyidingjide,guyiyongmolengliangkedechifandejiekoulaiyaoqingwo。

他笃定我会去。

我偏不让他如愿。

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daolexiazhouwuneitian,woshiyuele。

wobaliwujiaodaoleranqingqingshouli,rangtabangmangzhuanjiaojiqinyi。

tadanyoudijieguoqu「nizheiyangjita,zhendemeiwentima?」

worangtaanxin,wohuibawohaodude。

jiezhe,qinyishengrineitian,woyuelezhongchuchulaiwan。

tasihuhenyiwaikandaowo「nibushiquqinyijiali……」

woxiaozheyaoyaotou「meiyou,wobuxiangqule,xiangheniyiqiwan。」

wozhidao,ranqingqinghuizaibujingyijian“toulu”cikewohezhongchuzaiyiqideshiqing。

erqinyizaowanhuizhidaowoshiyueletadeshengri,shiweilehezhongchuyiqichulai。

wohezhongchuneitianwandehenkaixin,wandaowanshangcaihuijia

huijiazhiqian,wohuitouyongbaolezhongchuyixia。

「xiexienijintianpeiwo。」

wozhidao,qinyiyidingzaigebibazheiyimudoujinshouyandi。

woweilehezhongchuchuquwanleyitian,haizaiwodejiamenkouyiyibushediyongbaodaobie。

buzhidaotahuibuhuihensizhongchuni?