hongdeyixia,naohaibeijingdeyipiankongbai。
shenqingyinchadianyabuzhuhoulongdexuexing,nanyizhixin:“……nishuoshenme?”
kehaimeidengdaofushaohuaijieshi,buyuanchudesunmengyaoquejianruicuicu:“shaohuaige,nibushidayingyaopeiwoqujibaiwobadema?womengaizoule。”
fushaohuailimatuikai,zhiliuxiayiju:“wowandianzaiqukanni。”
tamenyixingren,congcongshangchelikai。
shenqingyinzaiyicibeipaoxia,tayiweizijiyijingxiguan,kexinkoudetengquezenmeyabuzhu。
jicongconghuidaobingfang,tazhandouzhedaochuzhitengyao,ganyanxiaqu。
yaohenku,kudaoyanleichadianrenbuzhu。
zheishi,bingfangmenturanbeituikai。
shishenkuanquerfufan,shoulihaijiazheyizhixileyibandeyan。
“你来干什么?”
shenqingyinfangxiayaoping,zhiqiyaozhanqilai。
tazaiyebuhuishadao,renweitazheige‘haogege’shilaiguanxinta。
gaodadenanrenzoujin,qiangrendeyanweizuanjinbiyi,jiaotanaohaiyizhencitong。
quetingduifangbieniudikaikou:“……niyekandaole,mengyaoshizhendexihuanfushaohuai,nibarenrangjitaba。”
huaruliren,mengdiyoutongxiangshenqingyin。
tengtongrangshenqingyinyouqiwuli,tachaofengxiaolesheng:“ge,nihaijide,15suizhiqian,woshinizuitengaidemeimeima?”
沈宽沉默。
shenqingyinquejuedemeiyisijile:“wozhendebuzhidaowodaodizuocuoleshenme,shibushiwosile,nimencaihuiganxin?”
“你发什么疯?”
shenkuangaoshenghechi,yangaitadenaoxiuchengnu。
“womeifafeng,zhishirunimensuoyuan,sunmengyaobushiyaowodeyiqiema?nigaosuta,gongxi,henkuaizheiyiqiedoushitadele。”
“nizheihuashenmeyisi?”
shenqingyinbunaifan,shenshouzhixiangmenkou:“nidanfanyouyimiaozunzhongwo,jiubugaizaibingfangneixiyan,qingnilikai。”
shenkuanlianseyizhenqingyizhenhong,daodihaishizhuanshenlikai。
shenqingyinkanzhetatachufangmen,kanzhezheigeyijingzhaobuhuibandianguanaidegege,zuizhonghaishimeirenzhuhongzheyancishuo——
“ruguonengxuanze,woyidianyebuxiangdangshenqingyin。”
shenkuanjiaobuyidun,suihoulikaidegengkuai。
dengdaowaimianmeiyoushengyin,shenqingyinzaiyerenbuzhu,chongjinxishujiandakoudakououxue。
yikou,liangkou……oubujindexinsuan,tubuwandebiequ。
手机不断传来声音。
taqiangchengzhenaqishouji,shifushaohuaifalaideduanxin。
neixieduanxinrutongshenjingcuoluan,yihuieryaohetafenshou,yihuieryouyaoqiutabuyaolikai。
buyongxiang,tadouzhidaoneidoushisunmengyaodeshoubi。
mingmingyijingjuedingfangqizheiduanganqing,kekanzhezheixie,naohaiqueyizhenzhenteng,xiangbeirennazhejuziyaojukai。
真的太疼了。
tazaiyezhanbuzhu,daodihunleguoqu。
hunchenjian,yebuzhidaoguoleduojiu。
dengdaoshenqingyinxinglaideshihou,faxianzijitangzailejizhengdebingchuangshang。
jutongxiangshiyaojiangtadeshenzihuohuopichengliangban。
hushixunwen:“nidejiarenni?”
shenqingyinlengzhu,banxiangcaikusekaikou:“wo……meiyoujiaren。”
hushilianmindidijitayizhangzhi。
shenqingyinchengzhezuoqilai,jieguohou,yingmushi‘bingweitongzhishu’jigedazi。
yuanlaitakuaisilea,nanguaizheimetong……
danxianzai,tatongdaolianyanleidoumeiyoule。
hushidoukanbuxiaqu,burenxinquan:“yaobu,wojinidazhitongzhenba?”
“……谢谢了。”
dawanzhitongzhenhou,shenqingyinchengzheqiangbi,yibuyibuxianggepanshanlaorenzouxiangmenwai,buliao,quezaizoulangshangyujianlefushaohuai。
fushaohuaishouzhongnazhehenxianyandejiezhihezi,kedengtakandaoshenqingyinshi,quehuangmangjiangneijiezhihezisaijinlezijikoudai。
suihoutazouguolai,xiangshenmeyemeifashengban,guanqiefuzheshenqingyin:“niliansezenmezheimecangbai,nalibushufu?”
shenqingyintaiyankanxiangzheigezijicengjingzuiaidenanren,tayanlihaizheshuxideguanxin,ketabuzhidao,zheiguanxindaodidaibiaoshenme?
是愧疚还是爱?
“yaoshiwosile,nizhendehaihuixintengma?”
shenqingyinhualuo,fushaohuailikecumei,buzantongdao:“bieshuoqihua,kuaigenwohuiqu。”
“yijiarenyoushenmejieshidabukaide?”
shenqingyinmeiyouliqizhengzha,yilubeiladaolesunmengyaobingfangwai,liangrengangyitingxia,jiutinglimiansunmengyaozaishuo——
“ma,woheshaohuaidehunli,qingyinjiehuilaicanjiama?”
xiaoshuo《fushaohuaishenqingyin》diwuzhangshidujieshu。