第一章 切腹自尽

wodeshoulixianzaizhengwozheyibakairendejundao,daojianliwodupideweizhi,yejiubudaoyicundejuli。zaizuozheigefengkuangdejudongzhiqian,wokanledaliangguanyuqiefuzishadewenxian,jilupian,shenzhidianying。

ruguoyongpanwenbodelilunlaijieshi,renleidehenduonanyilijiedexingwei,doushizaishoudaodaliangde**xingshijianguohou,xiaofangtarensuochanshengjieguo。jinguanruci,wohaishinanyizuochuzishadexingwei。wolengxiaoyisheng,jiangjundaorengdaoleyipang。

jiarujintianwanshangyourenzaipangbianguanchawo,yidinghuijuedewoyoubing。wodaodizaifashenmeshenjingni?

zhengjianshihaiyaocongbangeyueqianfashengdebangjiashijianshuoqi。

beibangjiaderenjiaoluoxuewei,shengdechuqidepiaoliang,yuanbenshiszhumingfushangmatianyibaoyangdexiaosan。rujinzheigeshehui,baoyangxiaosanyijingsuanbudeshenmexinxianshi,luoxueweiquehenbuyiban,buzhidaoyongleshenmeshouduan,yingshirangmatianyixiuleyuanpei,yuyigeyueqian,jiangqifuchengzhengfang。

raner,luoxueweizhifengguanglebangeyue,bangeyuehouhuranshilian,zheikejihuailebatashiweixinganbaobeidematianyi。

matianyijihudongyonglezijizaisshidesuoyourenmailaixunzhaozuzuxiaoletaershisuidejiaoqi,zhaoleyizhouquequanwushouhuo。matianyizhengweicigandaotongku,bangfeifalailexinxi,chengmatianyiwangzhidingzhanghaohuikuan1000wan,tamenjiufangren,fouzejiusipiao。

qianduimatianyilaishuoguranbushiwenti,wentishidangtadezhizheigexiaoxihou,juranzaixinlidaqilesuanpan,weileyigenvren,huayiqianwandaodizhibuzhi。zheimeyigewenti,tazuzuyouyulesitian。yifanshensishulvguohou,tahaishijuedingnaqianhuanren。ranertagangzhunbeihaoyiqianwandexianjin,zhunbeinaqianshuren,shiqingyouyicichuxianlexijuxingdebianhua,luoxueweizijicongwaimianhuilaile。

qianmeisunshi,xinaidenvrenyouzijihuilaile,zheibenlaishiyijianjiedahuanxideshi。matianyigaoxingzhiyu,wenqitabeibangjiadeshi,zhiqianbangfeihaidalaidianhuayaoqianni,luoxueweizenmezijihuranjiupaohuilaile?

lingmatianyidaweiyihuodeshi,luoxueweiduizijibeibangjiadeshiyiwusuozhi,haoxiangzheiduanshijian,tazhishishuileyichangdajue,qijianfashengleshenme,tawanquanmeiyouzhijue。

matianyijuedezheijianshiyouxieguiyi。taduixinlixuedejishuyouyidingdelejie,dasuanzhaorenjiluoxueweicuimian,tongguocuimiandefangshihuanxingtadejiyi。

luoxueweiquemeiyoudengdaozheiyibu,yuliangtianqiandewanshang,yongwoshouliganggangwozhedejundaozaijialiqiefuzishale。

zheijianshijianzhibunenggengqiguaile,matianyiyoushigefeichangmixinderen,juedezaichaqingchuzhenxiangzhiqian,shiqingbunengqingyibailu。tabijingshigeyounengliangderen,baomigongzuozuodehenhao,chuletajiazuzhongdeqinxin,hejishaoshudejigewairen,meiyouqitadezhiqingzhele。

zheijianshihewoyouyoushenmeguanxini?zheijiubudebuduiwodetuanduizuoyigejiandandejieshaole。

shouxianshiwoziji,wojiaoxiaohe,shizuozimeitixinwenderen。qiongshangoulifeichulaidewozaojinlepangrendelengyan,yeshoujinleweiqu,xianzaizhiyouyigemengxiang。yiyebaofu。baozhezheizhongxintai,wozhuanmenbaodaogezhongxiqiguguaidexinwen,youqishilingyileide,zheizhongticaidexinwenzuinengborenyanqiu,yaoshinengzaizhuizongdiaochadeguochengzhongzhendepaidaoleapiao,neiwoyihoudeshenghuoyejiuzhendepiaole。bijing,jinguanheguiyouguandegushijianglejiqiannian,nengrangdazhongxinfudezhengjudaoxianzaidoumeiyouyige。

woxianzaisuiranhaimeishenmetaigaodeshenjia,danwomenzhenggetuanduizoudaojintian,yesuanshiyoudiannengliangde,zheiyaoguigongyuwotuanduineibudejigenenglichuzhongdeshouxia。

wogerenjuedezuilihaidejiushipanwenbo,tashiyigexingweixinlixueboshi,batanarudaowodetuanduizhiqian,tajiuyizhizhiliyucongxingweixinlixuedejiaoduyanjiulingyishijian,jiwodeganjue,tagerenjiushiyigexingzoudexinlixuetushuguan,tidaoxinlixue,buguanduomezhuanyedecihui,jiumeiyoutabuzhidaode。dangran,tabenrenyeshiyigeshizudeshudaizi,xueshuyiwaideshi,tawanquanbuganxingqu。

womentuanduilingwaiyigeniurenbianshimaruwei。tajiuyigetezhang,jialiyouqian。bushiputongdeyouqian,shichaojiyouqian,difangshoufudeneizhong。tahaiyouyigezaigonganzongbuzuogaoguandejiujiu,youtazai,henduolingyileideanzi,womencaiyoukechengzhiji。zheiciluoxueweipoufuzishadeanzi,yeshiyinweiyoutaqianxian,womencainengdashangzheibanche。

zuihouyigeyaojieshaoderen,shiwomentuanduiweiyiyigenvxing:linqianer。

linqianershigechaojilingleidenvxing,zhangdezhenjiaoyigepiaoliang,quecongbuhuazhuang,zhengtiansumianchaotian。zhengjingyinlexueyuankebangangqinxibiye,yanxingjuzhiqueyouxiecusu,laipiqishishenzhihaiouerbiaojijuzanghua。tanengjiaruwomenzuzhi,heshangmiandemiaoshujibenmeishaguanxi。linqianeryouyizhongchangrenbujubeidebenshi,zichengtianyankaile,nengkandaoapiao。

“youyigeapiaozainishenhouwenpini。”zheijiushitarichangdeliaotianmoshi。

jinguantajingchangzheimeshuo,apiaowofanzhengshiyicidoumeijiandao,qitajigerenyedoumeijiandao。

shouxiayangzheyiqun“jingying”,zuoweitamendelaoda,wobijingyeyaoyoudianbenshicaixing。chuzhongdebenling,yigejiugoule,wozuiyinqiweiaodebenshijiushidanda。dandadaoshenmechengduni?congxiaodaoda,woconglaibuzhidaohaipashishenmeganjue。

wodedandaqishishibing,kanguoyisheng,shuoshidanaoneikongzhihaipaqingxudeshenjinglianjiechuxianleyichang,shenshangxiansufenmidehaipajisusuozaochengdedianqixinhaochuanbudaodanaoneili,suoyibiantihuibudaohaipa。

yishengshuoxiangyaozhihaozheizhongbing,zhiyouyizhongbanfa,jiushiyouyitianyudaolezhenzhengrangzijihaipadeshi,jianghaipadeganjuejihuo。

guanyuluoxueweideanzi,womentuanduizaigenjindetongshi,yedaizhezijideyixiepanduan。linqianerrenwei,fashengzailuoxueweishenshangdeshishifenjiandan,jiushibeiguishangshenleeryi。

panwenbozeyoubutongdeyijian。

“yinggaishimousha,wojuedebangfeizhenzhengdemudebingbushixiangyaoqian,burantabuhuidenglewutiancaikaikou,tayinggaishimatianyidechoujia,bangjiazhishizhangyanfa,tazhenzhengdemudeshibaofu。”

woxinligengpianxiangpanwenbodeshuoci。zhishengwomenliangdeshihou,wowenta:“luoxueweijirendeganjue,dequexiangshibeiguishangshenle。”

panwenboyibenzhengjingdiduiwoshuo:“zheigeshijieshangshimeiyouguide。”

jiezhetakaishishuozijidelilun。“dangyigerenpinfandijieshoujuliedeshijue**shi,danaodezhengchangsiweideshenjinglianjiejiuhuichuxianmouzhongchengdudezhangai,zheigeshihou,womenhenrongyizhongfusuokandaodeshiqing。”

“nideyisi,luoxueweizhiqianyizhizaikanheqiefuyouguandeshipinhexinxi,suoyicaizisha?”

panwenbochaozhewodianlediantou,haibuleyijulingrendantengdehua:“zanmenkeyishishi。”

zheijiushiyanjiuxingweixinlixue,bingrugaohuangdehuanzheshichanghuishuodehua,wozaodouxiguanle。

panwenbobenlaizijixiangshi,beiwojujuele,ganjuetashenshangdaizheyizhongzouhuorumodeqizhi,biezhenyanjiufengle,qielefu,mafanjiudale。buguotingtazheimeyishuo,daodaoxiangshishi。wodaobushihuogoule,zhishiwanyibeipanwenboshuozhongle,duiwomenxiebaodaodayoubangzhu。

yushibianyoulegangkaishideyimu。woshiwanquananzhaopanwenbogaosuwodefangfashide,danmeiyouyidianzishadeniantou,yinggaisuanshishibaile。

wozhengyaobajundaoshouqilaishi,womentuanduilizhengtianbujianrenyingdemaruweiturandalaidianhua。

“xiaoge,youchuxinwenle,jueduishidiyishoude。”

“shaxinwen。”wopingzhulehuxi。

“bangjialuoxueweiderenbeizhaodaole。”

“bucuo。”maruweijiushiyouzheiliangxiazi,dabufenjingbaodexinwen,tadounengbangwoqiangdaodiyishoudeziyuan。wowenta,“renzaijingjume?”

“buzai,renyijingsile。”

“死了?”

“dui,yeshiqiefuzisha。”