第一章爸妈不喜欢我
妈妈不喜欢我。
tashuowoshibendan,shishagua,rangtayibeizitaibuqitou。
wobukubunao,xiaoxinyiyiditaohaota。
huanlaide,yijiushiyierzaizaiersandeduda!
gegeyiwaisihou,tamengengshixiwangwoqusi,zuihaonengweigegeyiminghuanyiming。
“sideweishenmebushini!”
后来,我真的死了。
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beiguanjinbidedishiliugexiaoshi。
chenmamachumenhou,woqiaoqiaocongfangjiandechuanghupalechulai。
congzuotiandaoxianzai,wojihudishuiweijin,edenaodaidouyouxiefayun,xunshileyanketing,muguangluozaigegeshengxiadebanhebingganshang。
congwodongshiyilai,mamajiugaosuwobuzhundonggegededongxi,dangegebuyaodedongxi,woyinggaikeyichiba。
wonieshouniejiaodinaqibingganhe,zhengyouyujian,huranlianshangchuanlaiyizhentengtong。
“chunhuo,sheirangnidongnigegededongxide?”
mamarengxiapibaojiuchongleguolai,buyoufenshuodiyibazhangshandaowolianshang,
tadelidaohenda,woduoshanbuji,yi**diezuoxiaqu,“mama,wo......”
“bizui,bierangwotingdaonishuohua。”
tayikoutuomotudaowolianshang,manliandexianqigenbiyi。
mamabuxihuanwo,woyizhizhidao,taxianwosha,xianwoben,tazhixihuangege。
可我真的太饿了。
kerugusuidejiegan,rangwodiyiciyouleyongqifankang。
wozuozaidibanshang,yidongbudong,yanjingyizhabuzhadiwangzhebinggandeweizhi,buzijuediyanzhekoushui。“woxiangchibinggan。”
“chichichi,nijiuzhidaochi,wozenmeshenglenizheigefantong。”
“nixiangchidongxikeyiya,”
talengxiaoyisheng,jiangbinggannachulaidaozaidibanshang,“neinijiuyongshetouyidianyidiandetianjinduziliba。”
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wobeihedeliushenwuzhu,taiyanduishangmamajifengdemuguang,woyanlekoutuomo,fanshenpazaiduimianshang,shenchuxiaoxiaodeshetou。
“你们在干嘛?”
budengwomaixiatou,jiukandaolebabadeshenying。
tafangxiagongwenbao,yifupabeirenqiaojiandemoyang,“nizenmehuishi,yaomanengbunengshengyinxiaodian,bupabeilinjuzhidao?”
babaxiangzhuaiwoqilai,quebeimamayibalanzhu,taxiangfengzibandechezhebabadegeboyouqiayouyao,“wojiushiyaodasheng,wozaojiumeiyoulianle。”
“yaobushita,wogongzuoweishenmemeile?”
“womenweishenmeyaolaizheiqiongxiangpirangguoshenghuo?”
“tageshazi、dineng,tajiubushiwodeerzi!”
wochushengdeshihoujihuashengyuguandezhengyan。
mamatingzheqigeyueyunduduodaolaojia,jiuxiangzaishenggenver。
“woyijingyougeerzile,ertaizaishenggenver,daoshihouhuotalaizuo,tagejiehunyongtadecaili,wohehaizitadiezheibeizijiuxiangfule。”
ketianbusuirenyuan,woshigenanhai,dangjieshengdechanpojiangwobaodaotashoushangshi,mamamudengkoudai,“zenmehuishi,youshigenanhai?”
“wojianayouqianzaiyanggeerzi?”
chanpobailetayiyan,“wohainengpiannibucheng?nizheihuinanchan,bahaizijibiehuaile,wokanzheihaizisihuyoudianwenti......”
babaxiangsongwoquyiyuan,quebeimamalanlexialai,“zhaosia,xianzaiquyiyuan,yichabujiuchuanbanglema?”
kechanpodehuabushikaiwanxiao,yinweiqueyangyoumeiyoudedaojishidezhiliao,congxiaowojiunaozibirenjiaman。
sansuicaixuehuizoulu,liusuiduoleshuohuahaibulisuo。
womayibeizizhengqianghaosheng,wufajieshouzijishenglege“shazi”,suoyitaburenwoshitadehaizi,busongwoqushangxue,shenzhishitujiangworengdiao,zuihouhaishijingchabawosonglehuilai。
neici,mamadundishangkulehaojiu,yibiankuyibianshanzijibazhang,“laotianye,nimensheilaibatashouzouba。”
kelaotianyemeiyoutingcongtadedaogao,bujinruci,tamendingfengshengertaideshiqing,daodihaishibeifaxianle。
tahebabayiqibeidanweikaichu,waimiandegongzuobuhaozhao,zuihoubabayihenxin,daizhewomenquanjialaoxiao,laidaolelinguoshenghuo。
jumuwuqin,yuyanyebutong,suoyizheimeduonian,tayizhiyuanhenwo,renweiwoshizaixing,shiworangzheigejiabianqiong,shiworangtahebabadeshiyeshoudaomiedingzhizai。
babamamayoukaishichaojia,womomojianqirengzaidishangbeiniedexisuidebinggan,toutoudichileqilai。
weidaobutaihaochi,haiyouguchouwei。
kewohaishichidehenxiang,wozhidaobabamamayangwohegegehenxinku,suoyimeitianzhiyaonengchishangyicanbaofanwojiuhenkaixinle。
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“laotoulaotaipo,wohuilaile。”
gegedechuxian,daduanlefumudezhengchaosheng。
tabeizheshubao,shoulibaozhezhanxindekewaishu,womubuzhuanjingdikanzheta,youxiexinsuanyouyouxiexianmu。
ruguobabamamayenengrangwoqushangxue,neigaiduohaoa。
kandaogegehuilaile,mamajidongdeqingxuzheicaihuanheleyidian,tacalecayankuangzhongdeleishui,hanxiaowozhugegedeshou,“guaiguai,nihuilaile?xiawushangkezenmeyang,nengtingdongma?”
gegebunaifandijiangshouchoulehuilai,“nifanbufan,wodoukuaiesile,nengbunengbiewenxuexi?”
tazuodaocanzhuoqian,cumeiwangleyanzhuoshangdefancai。“jintianwanshangwomenjiuchizheige?”
mamayouxieweinandidianlediantou,“woxiabanwangqucaishichangle,jintianwanshangwomenjiucouheyidun,mingtianmamazaiqujinimaihaochide”
“woweishenmeyaocouhe,shengcaishengfanchilehuisirende,woxianzaishifayujieduan,nimenjiwochizheige,wanyibawochisile,nimenshizhiwangneishazijinimenyanglaosongzhongma?”
gegeshuowanhua,zhilezhiwo,luchuqingmiedixiaosheng,“lailailai,jigegelaitiaogewu,nitiaodehaole,gegejinimaihaochide。”
wohedebuganhangsheng,wozhidao,tacaibuhuijiwomaihaochide,tazhixihuanzhuonongwo,shangcishuodaiwochuquwan,qishishiyaowoqujitapengyoubiaoyanjiemu,wobukentamenjiubawotuijinheli,wochadianbeiyansi。
kewobuganbutingtadehua,wopamamabugaoxing。
wozhengzhunbeixuezhezhiqiandianshishangdeyangzibaidongshenti,queailebabayibazhang,“rangnitiaojiutiaoa?shazi。”
tabuzaidaliwo,zhuanerkanxianggege,“xiaoyu,bienao,xiaoxinwaimiantingjian。”
“jinwanjiuchizheixie,mingtianbabajinidaihanbaobao。”
“我不。”
gegedaduanbabadehua,“wobuguan,woxianzaijiuyaochihanbao。”
“ni......”babazhengyaofahuo,quebeimamayibalanlexialai,tamaiyuandikanleyanfuqin,yonghongxiaohaideyuqiduigegeshuodao,“xianzaitianseyewanle,niyezhidaowomenzheibubiguonei,butaianquan,yaobumingtianmamajiniqumai?”
gegebuxiediyangleyangtou,shuangshouyitan,“keyiya,neiwocongxianzaikaishijiubuchifanle,shenmeshihouyouwoxiangchide,wozaichi。”
jialideqifenxianruganga,wohedeyidongdoubugandong,shengpahuiyinhuoshangshen。
“zenme,doubushuohuale?bushuohuaneiwojiulijiachuzou。”