第4章 我想为自己活一次(2042字)

anruxueyandiliangqileyimoguang。

tameixiangdaoanruzhineimeqingyidejiufangqile。

mingmingzhiqianzaianjiadeshihoutahaihenqiangyingdeshuojueduibukenenglihunde。

shenzhitadouyijingzhunbeihaoleyongdiankurouji,bizhemuchenquzuoxuanzele。

anruxueqishihenlejiemuchen。

ruguoanruzhibuyuanyilihun,muchenshibukenengtichulihunde。

muchenshigeyouhenqiangdaodeganderen,tanapazhendebuaianruzhi,danshizhiyaoanruzhiyitianhaishitadeqizi,tajueduibuhuiquzuorenheduibuqianruzhideshiqing。

anruzhihuanhuandituchuleyikouqi:“mingtianjiudian,womenminzhengjujian。”

shuowantataijiaoyaozou,turanxiangqilaishoulihainazhemuchendeyifu,tajiaobudunledun,haishizouguoqu,jiangyifuhaijilemuchen。

meiyouduokanmuchenyiyan,anruzhizhuanshenzoudefeikuai。

tahaipazijizaiduodaiyimiao,jiuhuirenbuzhuhouhui,buxianglihunle。

tajiushengxiasangeyuedeshoumingle。

guoqusanniandouquanbulangfeizailemuchendeshenshang,shengxiadesangeyue,taxiangyaoweizijihuoyici。

anruzhicongbangongshichulai,yanleijiurenbuzhule。

yibaozhijindileguolai,anruzhitaitoukanqu,jianshihanli,tachelelegexiaorong,jieguolehanlidiguolaidezhijin。

hanliyemeiyouanweita,jiuneimeanjingdekanzheta。

“xiexie。”anruzhichouleyizhangzhijin,calecayanlei,congcongdediuxiayijuhua,jiukuaibudelikaile。

hanlikanzhetadebeiying,tanlekouqi,suihouyaoyaotou。

anruzhiganggangcongmushijituanchulai,jiujiedaolezhenmandedianhua,yuetazaishuitiantangjianmian。

anruzhizhishichiyileyimiaojiujuedingqukankan。

fanzhengyehuobulejitianle,kuaileyitianshiyitian。

erqietaxianzaideqingkuang,yexiangyaodazuiyichang。

anruzhidiyicidaoshuitiantangzheizhongdifang。

yiqianshimeiyoujihuilai,bijingtaneishenti,lianshangxuedoukunnan,neimeduoniandoushizaijializixuede。

erxueliyeshitabeijiangchengshisuoyourenchaoxiao,juedetapeibushangmuchendeliyou。

zhenmanzaimenkoudengzheta,jiantalaile,erhuabushuoshanglaizhuaizherenjiuwanglimianzou。

zheneryulongdeyinle,wucaidedengguang,ranganruzhiyouxiebushiying,xiayishidejiuxiangyaolikaile。

“biesong,bushishuoleyaojianshijianshibakuaifujidexiaoxianrou?wogennishuo,shibasui,bimuchentilidouyaohao,kendingbukui。”zhenmancoudaoanruzhideerbian,dashengdeshuodao。

anruzhizhoumei,shizhendebutaishiyingzheizhonghuanjing。

buguojiranlaile,tayebudasuanlikaile。

shenmedouyaochangshiyici,buranbushibaibaidaorenjianzouleyitanglema?

zhenmanlazhetazhaolegekazuozuoxia,youjiaolebushaodepijiu。

kazuoqianmianshiyigehendadewutai,wutaishangnannannvnvzhengzaisiyideniudongzheshenti,dengguangxiadeliankanshangquyouxieshizhenheniuqu。

anruzhikanleyihuier,shouhuilemuguang。

此刻酒也上来了。

zhenmankaileyiping,dijileanruzhi。

安如之迟疑了一下。

taduziliyougexiaobaobei,yuanbenzheishitazuixingfuhekuailedeshiqing,zhishitazijidouhuobulele,duzilidehaizi,kendingyehuobuxiaqule,jirandouyaosi,neihaiyoushenmehaodanxinde?

tajieguolezhenmandiguolaidejiu,guanleyikou,suihoumeitouhenhendezhouleqilai。

xiangguojiunanhe,danshimeixiangguoneimenanhe,kudetachadianmeirenzhutuchulai。

qiangrenzheexintunlexiaqu,anruzhikanzhenmanhedehaitingkaixinde,youxiechiyizheyouguanleyikou——yijiuhennanhe。

taxiaokouxiaokoudehezhe,meitouzhoudesiside。

buguojiujing**zhedanao,sihuzhendekuaileleyidian,zhishaozanshimabiletayaogenmuchenfenkaideshanggan。

erbiandeyinleshengyijiuzheneryulong,buzhidaoshibushihelejiudeyuangu,anruzhijuedezijidenaoziyouxiekangfen。

tazhuaizhezhenman,jiutiaojinlewuchili。

第一次那么的放纵。

yiqiandoushiweilebierenhuozhe,danshijintiankaishi,tazhixiangyaozuoanruzhi。

bushirenherendeanruzhi,zhishichuncuide,anruzhi。

anruzhisiyideniudongzheshenti,yizhangqingchunyoumeihuodelianzaidengguangxia,yuefademiren,bushaodenanrendouxiayishidechaozhetakaoleguolai。

xiafangdeyigekazuoli,yigenianqingdenvhaizuibazhangdelaoda,doukeyisaijinquyigeyadanle。

tahenhendeqialeyibazuozaizijishenbiandenansheng,yindenanshengcanjiaoyisheng,“**,muciniganmaqiawo?”

“wo,wobushizaizuomenga,neibushiwosaozima?wosaoziyeyouneimekuangyedeyimian,wogezhidaoma?”shuohuadenvhai,zhengshimuchendemeimeimuci。

mucijintianshigenzhejigepengyoulaishuitiantangwande,jiuzaitasichukandeshihou,yiyanjiukandaolechengweilewutaizhongxindeanruzhi。

tajuedezijizhendeshizaizuomeng。

taneigehaoxianghuozaifengjianshidai,xunguidaojudebuxingdesaozi,zenmekenenghuilaizheizhongdifang,haigenyiqunmoshengdenanrenzaineitiaowu?

buguomucihaishinachushouji,paixialeshipin,suihoufandaolezijiagegedeweixin,bashipinfaleguoqu。

xiaociya:ge,nicaiwokandaoleshei?nikanzheigenvrenxiangbuxiangwosaozi?

muchenganggangchulegongsi,zhunbeidaizheanruxuequchigewanfan,ranhousongtahuijia。

shouji**xiangqi,takanleyiyan,shitaneigeburangrenshengxindemeimeifalaidexiaoxi。

muchenyemeiyoutaizaiyi,suishouhuakaileshoujipingmu,kanleyiyanmucifalaidexiaoxi。

kandaoneishipindeshihou,tadeyanshenshudijiulenglexialai,sisidedingzheneigechuanzhegaolingmaoyi,zaiyiqunnanrenzhongjianniudeyaoraodenvren。

xiayike,youyigeshipinfaleguolai,jingenzhefalaide,haiyoumucidehua。

xiaociya:ge!tuoletuole!saozituoyifule!wodetian,meixiangdaosaozineimekuangye,shencaizhenhaoa!

muchenlengzhelian,diankailediergeshipin。

anruzhidagaishihelebushaodejiu,xiaolianhongpupude,dagaishijuederele,zhijiedangzhongtuoxialebaisedegaolingmaoyi,shenshangjiuzhishengxiayijianheisedexiaobeixinle,neiaotuyouzhideshencai,baoluwuyi,shipinli,lidejindeneijigenanren,yanshendouyaochirenle。

yigumomingdezaoyiyongshangxintou,muchenyebuzhidaozijidaodizaishengqishenme,tachelechelingdai,shengyinyouxieleng:“nidadianhuajiaoanjiadesijilaijieni,woyoushixianzou。”

shuowanshenzhidoumeiyoukananruxueyiyan,zhijiediuxiatayangzhangerqu,liuxiaanruxueliansenankandezhanzaileyuandi。