di5zhangzaichennizhongwoyemandezhangda
babamingbaizhegaosusuoyouren，tabuxihuanwo，laoshimengengbukenengbangwo。
erqingchunqidehaizimenguanhuikanrenxiacaidie，jianwoguliwuyuan，xiangshizhaodaoleyigehaowande、keyisuiyiqifudewanju，yanlidoushanzhetianzhendexiee。
wozuitonghende，shizhuyudaitoubalingwo。
qiangzoulewodejiahaibugou，tahaiyaozhihuizheneixiezhuisuitaderenqifuwo。
anzhewodenaodaiyixiayouyixiadiyajinshuichi，kanzhewobiedetonghongdelian，tajuedehenhaowan，zaipangbianpaizhang，xiaodehenhuankuai。
pingshizhuyubuxiedongshou，jiuyoutadexiaogenbanmendailao。
tamenbayantouenzaiwopifushang，yongmoshuisamanwodekeben，yongmeigongdaozaiwozhuoshangkezi，wangwoshubaolisaimanzhitiao。wodoubuyongdakaikan，jiuzhidaolimianxielexieshenmewuruxingdecihui。
tamenshuowoshigemeirenyaodexiaohai。
pingshishoudaopaijiwodoumobuzuosheng，kemeidangzheishi，wojiuhuifenglesidechongshangqu，hetamenniudaqilai。
yongyachisiyao，chezhutoufa，woyiyizhongbuyaomingdezitaifankang。
suiranzuihouzheiyijiahaiwozhulebangeyuedeyuan，danwobuhouhui。
wocaibushimeirenyaodexiaohai。
我不是。
neixierenjianwofengqilaibuyaominghou，yeyouxiepale，qifuwodexingweishoulianlexuduo，buzaidongshoudongjiao，ershiyonglengbaolihegulideshouduan。
wobeixiaoyuanbalinglezhengzhengyigechuzhong，chadianyinweidubuxiaquerfangqizhongkao。
baomuayihenmang，chuleyaozhaoguwo，haiyaochuqugongzuo，buranwufayanghuolianggeren。
tahenxinku，wobuxiangrangtadanxin，meicidoubashangkouzangdeyinbi。
neiduananwutianrideshiguang，shixitonganweiwo，zhichiwoyaoyachengguolaide。
taxiangshishishikekedouzaijianduwodeyanxing，dengwoshizaishoubuledeshihouturanbengchulai，guliwojixuzuorenwu：
【suzhuyijingzuodehenbangle，nishizhidebeiaide。zhiyaoyidunfan，suzhujiukeyizhonghuoxinsheng，weilaiyipianguangming。】
wopotiweixiao：“nishizaianweiwoma？aiyehuianweiren？”
xitong：【aibudongganqing，zheishichengxu，chengxugaosuwoyourenyizhiaizheni。suoyiqingbuyaofangqi，nulijianchixiaquba。】
我听后，一夜无眠。
yikaishiwohuiweiqunanguo，huizaishenyefanlaifuqudeliulei，kudaoyishuanghaoyanjingbiandejinshi。
houlaiwojianjiandemamule，buzaisheqiuyixiewobukenengyongyoudedongxi。
wokaishiyixinyiyixuexi，xuedaofanweixiangtuyeyaoyingbizhezijixuexiaqu。wofeijinxinsitaohaobaba，zhiweilehongtahuilaipeiwochidunfan。
shengridezhufuduanxinfaleyiciyouyici，wozhangdale。
我十八岁了。
【moshadaojishishengyu2xiaoshi。】
woanjingdezhenglihaosuoyoudongxi，bazanxialaideqiancundaoayideyinxingkali，bajiuyifu、jiushuquanbuzhuangzaiyigedaxiangzili，lianxihuishougongsigetianlaina。
“duibuqi，xitong......womeiyouwanchengrenwu，worangnishiwangle。”
wobishangyan，xindihenkong，beijuewangdeqingxutianman，mandekuaiyaochuanbushangqile。
至少我努力过了。
xitonggelehenjiuhenjiudoumeiyouhuiyingwo。
a，woxiangdagaishiduiwogandaoshiwangleba。bijinghenshaoyourenhuixiangwozheiyangmeiyong，lianzheimejiandanderenwudougaobuding。
wonachuzaiershoushichangmailaide、peibanwohaojiniandeshouji，yiziyijudeqiaojiyiyan。
【baba，wozuihouzaijiaoninyishengbaba。
woshizhendeyaosile。yexuninkandaowodesixunhou，huijuedesongyikouqi，danduiwolaishuoyijingbuzhongyaole......
ninjilewodiyicishengming，xianzaihaijinin，duanjueshengen。
yihouwozaibuqianzhuxianshengshenme，rihounikeyijinqinghewangxueanneigenvrentianmimeiman，nimenzhiyouyigenver，neijiushizhuyu。zaiyemeiyouyigemingjiaozhusiandewudianzuainiderensheng。
wozhidaonijiwoquzheigemingzidehanyi，siansian，zheigeanshiwangxueandean。
zaiwochushengdeneitian，zaiwomamananchanersidedangtian，niqinziweiwoquleyige，jinianlingyigenvrendemingzi。
benlaiwodasuanchengnianhouqugaimingde，kexilaibujile。
ruguonihaiyoujifenliangxin，jiubuyaozaiwoxiazangdeshihouyongzhusianzheigemingzi。buguonidagaiyebuhuilaiwodezangliba。
woa，yecengxianmuguozhuyu。qidaizijinengxiangtonghuagushizhongdexinderuilayiyang，chuanshangzuipiaoliangdequnzi，fengfengguangguangdezuoyanhuishangzuizhumudenvhai。
napawuyedezhongshengxiangqi，wolimabeidahuiyuanxingyemeiguanxi。
kewoyongyuanbushitonghualidegongzhu，woyebuxuyaobabale。
wozhiyoumama，meiyoubaba。
再见。】
dianjifasongdeneiyimiao，erbianbinglengdedianziyinzhundianxiangqi。
【daojishijieshu，moshakaiqi。】
wobishangyan，zhijuedecongshendaoxinqiansuoweiyoudefangsong。
shoujihuanhuandiaoluo，zazaidibanshang，erwowuzhiwujue，yijingshiquleduishentidezhangkong。
linghunbeishenmedongxizhuazhe，yidiandianwangshangtengkong，xiaosan......
buzhidaoguoleduojiu，woyinyuetingdaomenwaichuanlaiyizhenjicudejiaobusheng。
youshenmerenzaihuhuanzhewodemingzi。
是谁呢......
“zhusian！zhusian！”menbeidalizadepengpengzuoxiang。
wodelinghunzhouranzhengkaiyan，lenglengdekanzhedamen。
是爸爸的声音！