原来她还没有死。
huanhuanjiangshoufangxia，kanzhezhouweiyipianxuebai，gumiannieruzhecangbaidechun：“zheishinali？”
“zheishiyiyuan。”hugongshishidadao，yibianduanzhenianhuhudebutangzuodaolegumianchuangbian：“yishengshuonicaixiaochan，bixudihaohaobubushentini。”
xiaochan。
gumianhuxiyizhi。
tahuaiyunle？
xiayishitaishoufushanglepingtandexiaofu，tayouyoulesongxindehaizi？kehugongdehua，ranggumianshentizhibuzhudezhanli。
“nishuoshenme！”gumianxiangzhuazhujiumingdaocaoban，jinjindezhuazhehugongdeshouwan：“woxiaochanle？shishenmeyisi？”
yiziyiju，haojinlegumiansuoyoudeliqi。
beigumianzhuadeshengteng，hugongduanzhewandeshourenbuzhuzhandou，guntangdetangzhijianlechulai，sazaigumianshoushang，jingganjuebudaorenhetengtong。
“zhouxiaojienilengjingyixia，haizimeile，kenihainianqing，yihouzonghuiyouhaizide。”
zonghuiyouhaizide。
gumiandaxiaoqilai，tayouguolianggehaizi，kelianggehaizitadoumeiyoubaozhu，ta…dagaishizheigeshijieshangzuibuchengzhidemuqinle。
yanleishunzhelianjiahuadaozuili。
haoku，zhendehaoku。
songxin，nidangzhentaihenxinle，nitaoyanwo，suoyilianwodehaiziyebukenfangguoma？
xiaodushuiyingraozaigumianbixijian，guojinbeizi，queyiranganjuebudaoyisiwennuan，zhidaobinjiaodefasibeihanshuidashi，tacaijingjue，yuanlaibushishentileng，ershixinchedishiqulewendu。
gaogenxieqiaodadimianfachudeshengyinjianggumianjinbengdeneigenxianchedicheduan。
tuwudeshengyinhurantingxia，yiqieguiyupingjing。
yutukanzhebeiziliquansuozheyituan，yandifanqiyisiguiyidexiao。
“yunsu，wolaikannile。”
第12章了无牵挂
顾眠呼吸凝滞。
beizilakaiyijiao，yutuneizhangwenwandelianluozaigumianyanli，zhijuedewubideciyan。
“nibuyaohenwo，aizheizhongshisheiyeshuobuqingbushima，duile，nibushiyizhibaituowoyaokannidehaizima，nikankanzheigeba。”yutucongbaobaochouchuyigewenjiandai，dijilegumian。
gumianmeiyouyongqi，kehaishirenbuzhuzaihaoqixindequshixiajiangwenjiandaijieleguolai。
“zheishineigehaizidesiwangjiandinghedangshidezhaopian，xianzainikeyisixinlema？”yutuzizijianxue，jianggumianzuihoudelizhichediniansui。
zhaopianzhongdehaizizaoyixueroumohu，zhishiyiyan，gumianbianzaimeiyouyongqikanxiaqu。
“bu…bushi，zheibushiwodehaizi……”zhaopianhewenjiansanluoyidi，gumianzhuajinbeiziwangchuangjiaosuoqu。
“yutu，nipianwo，zheibushiwodehaizi！”tabuhuizaixiangxinyutudehua。
shuohuajian，gumianhuranmodaoyipangzhuozishangdeshuiguodao，fanzhehanguangdedaorenhuidongqilai：“yutu，nibahaizihaijiwo，haijiwo！”
yutuxiaoyiyushen，huanhuanbijingumian，yiziyijudao：“gumian，nidehaiziyijingsile。”
“bukeneng，bukeneng……”daorenhuaguoyutudeshou，yutuxiayishidaotuiyibu，zhuangjinyidurouqiang。
“gumian，niganshenme？”songxinshenglengdeshengyinxiangqi，jiangyuanbenjinzhangdeqifenshunjiandongjie。
yutuzaitingdaosongxindeshengyinshi，shentixiayishijiangzhu。
“shaochen，woxiangquanquanyunsude，meixiangdaotahuiturandongshou，wodeshoushangdebuyanzhong，nibieguaita，kuaiqukankanta。”yutuweiquqiuquandemoyangranggumianhenbudesixiatadeweizhuang。
kesongxinxiangshimeiyoutingdaoban，youshendemoujinsuozhegumian，xindishengqiyigumomingdedanyou。
“gumian，nibadaofangxia。”songxindingledingshen，weichizhejincundelizhi。
tingdaonanrenlengmoeryoushulideshengyin，gumianyandidaizheyisijueqiang：“songxin，wozhixiangzhidao，zheishiyinian，nidaodiyoumeiyouyidiandianzaiyiguowo，napazhiyouyidiandian？”
huayingangluo，gumianturanyouzichaodexiaoleqilai，
“nibuyaohuidawo，wozaogaizhidaojieguode，niruoshiyouyidiandianzaihuwo，jiubuhuineimehenxin，liangehaiweichushengdehaizidoubufangguo。”
zheiyike，songxinzhijuedeshoujiaobingliang。
tadouzhidaole，neigehaiweichengxingdehaizi，shitayishouhaiside。
songxintulaodechuixiashou，tabuzhidaogaizenmejieshi，yihuozhe，tadejieshiyijingmeiyourenheyiyi，haiziqueshishitatongyiliudiaode。
“wozhensha，guolezheimeduonian，wozhongjiuhaishizaiwangxiang，zheiyangyehao，meiyoulehaizi，zheigeshijieshangwoyejiulewuqianguale。”qingqiandeyudiaofangfoxiayimiaojiuhuibeifengchuisan。
lewuqiangua！
neitani？songxinyouxiehuangluan，tashuoguo，tabuyaozaiaitale……
bansuizheyutudejianjiaosheng，songxinturanhuishen，manmudoushiciyandexinghong。
shuiguodaoyijingmeirulegumiandexinkou，tadelianshang，manshijuejue，sihuhaidaizheyisijietuodeqingsong。
“shaochengege，zaijianle，zaiyebujian！”
buyao……
songxinzaizheiyike，zhijuedezijicengjingyiweijianbukecuideshijie，hongrantanta。
di13zhangtayidinghentongba
gengzaihoulongdeshengyinfabuchulai，dongzuobiandebenzhuo，chongshangqujiangjianjianxuruanxiaquderenerbaozaihuaizhong：“gumian，nibuxusi！”
nihaiyouhaizixuyaozhaogu，nizenmekeyisi？
songxinjincundelizhienxianglechuangtoushangdeling。
gumianyongjinsuoyouliqixiangyaoenzhusongxindeshou：“bu…buyaojiuwo，shaochengegewozhendehenleile，qiuni，rangwoshuihuierhaoma？”
shuiyihuier……
suoyoubeihuanxile，jiudoukeyijieshu。
zhangzhangdeyanjiehuanhuanchuixia，pingrilidaizheguangcaidemouzi，zaizheiyikefangfoshiqulesuoyouyanse。
“gumian，nitingdaomeiyou，nibunengsi！nixiangyaohaiziduima，wobatahaijini！nihaiyaoshenme，wodoukeyijini。”songxindiyicizheimehaipa，xiangshiyaoshiqushenmezhongyaodedongxiban。
taxiangyaoshenme……
gumianwulidekanzhesongxin，congshizhizhong，taxiangyaodebuguoshizheishishangtajideyisiwennuaneryi。
buguo，zheiyisidewennuan₱₥duitalaishuokongpayezhishiwangxiang，tazhiyoutazijile，xianzaitazhixiangweizijirenxingyici。
“womeiyouxiangyaode，shaochengege，xiayishibuyaorangwoyudaonihaoma？aini，zhendetaileile，woxiangquzhaonainai，haiyouwomendehaizi，woxianggaosuta，bushimamabuxiangyaota……”
gumiandeshengyinyuelaiyuexiao，songxinyijingtingbuzhenqie，shuangshouyipianshiru，buzhiheshi，yijingbeigumiandexianxueranhong。
zhidaoyishengtuizhegumianjinrushoushushishi，songxinyiranjinwozhegumiandeshou，fangfoyisongkai，jiuzaiyezhuabuzhu。
“yanxiansheng，xianzaibingrenxuyaolikeshoushu，nibunengjinlai。”
yishengdehuazhongyurangsongxinzhaohuiyisilizhi。
kanzhegumiancangbaidexiaolianshangdaizhesisixueji，xinkouduntong。
neimeduoxue，tayidinghentongba？
wulidechuixiashou，songxinxiangshiyizundiaosuban，lizaiyuandi。
yutukanzhesongxinyingtingbufandeshenying，liansemodijiangyingqilai。
tashiyigenvren，hechangkanbuchusongxinneihuzhiyuchudeganqingshiweinaban。
keyutuyaozenmeganxin，songxinaiderenzhinengshita，zhiyugumian，yutuyandihuaguoyisihenli。
zhengzhengliugexiaoshi，songxinzhanzaiyuandizhengzhengliugexiaoshi。
zaishoushushidengximieneiyike，songxinxinzangdouranshoujin。
yishengzhaixiakouzhaozoulechulai，lianshangdaizhepijuanhefangsong。
“yanxianshengfangxin，zhouxiaojiemeiyoudaaile，xinghaoshuiguodaomeiyouchadetaishen，buranshangjixinzangjiuzhendeweixianle，zheiduanshijianzhuyibuyaoganran。”
songxintingdaoyishengdehuashi，xiangshizhongshengleban，jinbengdeshentizaizheiyikezhongyufangsong。
yishengzhongxinjigumianhuanleyijianbingfang，zaisongxindeanpaixia，jiangbingfangneisuoyoukeyizaochengweixiededongxiquanbudaizoule。
yutuzhuizhuibuandegenzaisongxinshenpang，ganshouzhesongxinshenshangsanfachudehanyihexuexingwei，yutuyufabuanqilai。
“shaochen，nishoushanghaiyouxue，xianquxiyixiaba，zheiliyouwokanzhe。”yutudeshengyinhuifuleyirujiwangdewenrou。
songxinhuangranhuishen，chuimoukanzhebeixianxueranhongdeshuangshou，youkanlekanzhenghaowushengqitangzaichuangshangdegumian，liangjiucaizhaohuileyisihuxi。
bingfanglijiuyouxishoujian，limianchuanchushuishengdejiangyutudesixudaluan。
kanzhehunshuizhedegumian，yigeyinandexiangfazaiyutuxinzhongzishengzhe。
di14zhangtayaochengweiyantaitai
ruguozheigeshijieshangmeiyouni，shibushijiubuhuiyourenduiwogouchengweixiele，neishaochenjiuhuishiwoyigerendele？
gumian，buyaoguaiwo，yaoguaijiuguainimingda，juranzheiyangdoumeiyousi……
kepadexiangfafengkuangdeshengzhangzhe，yutudeshouyijingchupengdaolehuxijidekaiguan，quetinglemenbashouzhuandongdeshengxiang，tacaimengdishouhuishou。
“nizaiganshenme？”songxinjianyutukaojingumiandebingchuang，linglidemoushanguoyisihanyi。
yutushuadeyixiabianbai，danhenkuaiyouhuifuleziran。
“ganggangyunsuzuijiaoyougentoufa。”yutudishuibuloudezuodadao。
songxindeshixianluozaiyutushenshangliangjiu，jiuzaiyutukuaiyaochengbuxiaqushi，songxinzheicaihuanhelelianse，kaikoudao：“yutu，zhiqiannilaiyiyuangentashuoleshenme？”
suiransongxinzheixieniandoubuzenmedaijiangumian，dantaduigumianquehenlejie，ruguobushishouleshenme**，tajuebuhuizuochushanghaizijideshi。
yutudajing，kanzhesongxinmengshangyicengbingshuangdejunyan，xinqingchenzhong：“wo…wozhishigaosuyunsu，wohuituichude，rangtabuyaozaishangxinle，keshitadeqingxuyizhihenjidong，wogentadaoqian，danyunsuyizhibukenjieshou，haiyongshuiguodaociwo。”
shuodaozuihou，yutuxiangshichengshoubuzhuweiquban，yingyingkuleqilai：“zaozhidaowoyinggaibulaide，buranyebuhuichuzheiyangdeshi。”
buzhiweihe，songxinjingjuedeyutudekushengyouxiechao，renbuzhuzhouqilemeitou。
“wozhidaole，niquchulishangkouba。”
songxinmanbujingxindeyuqirangyutukushenghurantingxia，leiguanglianliandekanzhesongxin：“shaochenwo……”