第四章放弃
xinglaishi，tingdaogebiyingerdetikusheng，xiaxiaomanlazhuhuandiandidehushi，xunwendao：“gebishenglema？”
neihushihaihennianqing，xingfendidao：“shengleyigenanhai。taairenjushuoshigetuanzhang，duitakehaole，wozaizheiligongzuoyinian，haicongmeijianguozheimeguanxinqizidenanrenni，zhenshicunbubulidishouzhe......”
xiaxiaomanzuanzhehushiyijiaodeshousonglexialai，meiyouxinsijiehua，zhichechezuijiao，wangzhetoudingciyandedeng。
bingfangdegeyinjicha，duanhuaichuanheyangsuyunshuohuadeshengyinzhiwangtaerduolimianzuan，tatingdaoyangsuyunwenqita：“xiaomanmeishiba？”
duanhuaichuanyuanbendaixiaodeshengyinlengxiaqu：“tanengyoushenmeshiqing，nijiushitaishanliang，zongshibeitaqifu。”
“tayaoshiyouliangxin，yebuhuidaoxianzaidoubulaikanni。”
tatingdaodengzihualadibandeciersheng，duanhuaichuanshengyinyijiulengying：“wohuiqubatadaiguolai，rangtajinidaoqian，zhaogunizuoyuezi。”
yangsuyunjiaozhuta：“nibiequ。huaichuan，zheiduanshijiannizhaoguwomenfeixinle，xianzaihaiziyijingshengxialai，nibuyongzaiguanwole，haohaohonghongxiaoman，tahaihuaizheyun，yaoduozhaogu。”
duanhuaichuanshengyinwenrou：“suyun，woshixinganqingyuanzhaogunimende，shiwoqiannimende，nibuyongyouxinlifudan，xiaomanshenweiwodeqizi，jiuyinggaigenwotongxin。”
duanhuaichuandejiaobushengzhujianyuanqu，xiaxiaomanyijiudaidaidiwangzhetoudingdedeng，zigongchuanlaidetongyirangtawufarushui，tanaoziyipiankongbai，wuxiwubei，fangfoyiqieqingxudousuizheliudiaodehaizierqu。
dengdaosuoyoudiandidawan，yishengguolaitongzhitabanlichuyuanshouxu。
xiaxiaomanfuzheduziyanzheqiangmantuntundizouzhe，banwanshouxuzhuanshenshi，ganghaogenshenhoutizhebaowenhudeduanhuaichuandalegezhaomian。
duanhuaichuanjiandaotaweiweichenlelian：“niqunale？zenmexianzaicailai？”
tayoukanleyantacanbaidelianse：“zenmeliansezheimenankan？”
xiaxiaomanwuliyingfuta，zhuazhechuyuanbaogaodeshoujinlejin，zhengxianglikai，beiduanhuaichuanshenshouduoqu。
duanhuaichuanyanshenluozaichuyuanbaogaojigezishang，zhengyaowangxiakan，lujianhuajicongcongdipaochulai，lazhetadeshouhandao：“duanshushu，didiyizhiku，wohongbuhao，nikuaigenwoqukankan。”
duanhuaichuanyixiabashoulidechuyuanbaogaosuishoudiule，lazhelujianhuadeshoucongcongliqu。
xiaxiaomanzhengyaowanyaoqujian，duanhuaichuanzhuazhutadeshouwan：“niyeguolaibangmang。”
xiaxiaomanbeiduanhuaichuanqiangyingdilazhelaidaobingfangmenkou，gangzuoguoshoushudeta，yinweikuaibuzoulu，zigongchuanlaijutong，tawulidikaozaimenbian，tengdezhibuqiyao。
duanhuaichuanbingmeiyouzaiyi，tasongkaitadeshouzigujinqule，yangsuyunzhengbaozhebaobaohongzhe，baobaohaishiyizhiku。
duanhuaichuanshangqujieguo，yuqijiqie：“baobaozenmele，wenguoyishenglema？”
yangsuyunxianranglujianhuachuqu，zheicaihongzhelianditoukaikou：“baobaojiushieleyaohenai。yishengshuoruxianyouxiedu，yaotongyitong。”
“zenmetong？”duanhuaichuanwen，yangsuyunfeikuaipiaotayiyan，shengyinjidi：“yongzuixi。”
duanhuaichuandelianyixiahongle，xiayishiqingkeyisheng，xiangyaozhuanshen，yangsuyunyoudao：“worangxiaohuashiguole，taliqitaixiao，ni......ninengbunengbangmang？”
tasihuxialejidadejuexin，jiangyifujiekai，yanliqinzheleishui：“zheishibenlaigailaoluzuode，keshixianzaishizaimeiren......”
duanhuaichuanyanlilikeranshangtengxiheneijiu，shengyinyinya：“hao，wobangni。”
liangrensihudouwangjiledunzaimenkoudexiaxiaoman，yewangjilebingfangmenmeiguan，xiaxiaomanfuzhemenkuang，yanliqinmanleleishui，takanzhezijidezhangfuyibubuzoujinyangsuyun，ranhoujinjinbaozhehuailikuleileshuizhedehaizi，fushenzaiyangsuyunshenqianxiqilai。
tadeergentonghong，yangsuyunquetaiqilian，yanshentiaoxindikanxiangmenkouchedidaizhudexiaxiaoman。
buduoshi，duanhuaichuanmanliantonghongditaiqitou，baoguobaobaofangzaiyangsuyunhuaili，ranhouzhuanshen，jiandaoleiliumanmiandexiaxiaoman，yanlishanguoyisibuziran，zoudaotamianqiantitacaqulianshangdelei。
“gangcaideqingkuangniyekandaole，wozhishibangmang，nibieduoxiang，zheidianxiaoshi，buzhiyuku。”
xiaxiaomanzheicaiyishidaozijiliuleile，tahoutuiyibu，bikaitadeshou，zuijiaochechuyigefengcidexiao：“queshibuzhiyu。nibuyonggenwojieshi，nixihuanzenmebangjiuzenmebang，yuwowuguan。”
duanhuaichuanbeitadetaiduyezhu，youxiemomingdinaonu：“nishiwodeqizi，zenmehuiwuguan！”
“henkuaijiu......”bushile。
“huaichuan，nibangwonayixiabaobaodeyifu。”yangsuyundehuhuanshengdaduanleta。
duanhuaichuansihubingbuzaiyixiaxiaomanyaoshuoshenme，zaiyangsuyunkaikoudeneiyishun，tayijingzhuanshen。
xiaxiaomankanzhetashengshudannaixindijixiaohaihuanniaopian，shouyouxiayishifushangxiaofu。
benlaijigeyuehou，tayekeyijizijihaizihuanniaopiande。
tameizaikaikou，zhuanshenlikai。
renzheshentidebushi，taxiandaoyoujujibeichengdezhuangshiyuedaledianhua，yuedinghaoguoqudeshijian，youquhuochezhanmailesantianhoulikaidechepiao。
santianhou，zheilideyiqie，douyutawuguanle。