第1章

1987nian,pingyanghuochezhan。

lvpihuochezhenghonglonglongxingshijinzhan,shoulilinzhedexinglixiangmengdidiaodaoledishang。

woguxibushisilema?weishenmehainengkandaogaozhaoderitou?

taiqishoudangzhuciyandeyangguang,shangyishidejiyicongzhifenglouchu……

shangyishi,wohuaiyizhangfuguhanshiyutachulianlixianxianjiuqingfuran,beishangzhixiatichulihunhuileniangjia。

kemeixiangdaozijiyijinghuaileshenyun,niangjiarenweilebiwogaijia,renyoupangrenyongtufazinadashikuaiyawoduziduotai,zuizhongyishiliangming。

erneigewoyiweicongmeiaiguozijidechangzhangzhangfuguhanshi,jingzhaolaile……

tasisibaozhuwodaozaixuebodeshiti,leiliubuzhi。

neiyike,wocaiqueding——

原来他一直爱我。

jinzhandehuochewenwendangdangtingxia,woxiayishimojinkoudai,niedaoleneizhangbobodezhi。

buhuicuode,wozhendezhongshengle,jintianshiwozhunbeihuiniangjialikaiguhanshideneiyitian。

jiranlaotianzhongxinjiwoyicijihui,neizheiciwoyidingyaoliuzaiguhanshishenbian,gentaanwenguoyibeizi。

……

pibeituozhexinglixianghuidaopingyangcun,tianseyijinghunan。

danwohaishiyiyanjiuwangdaoleheguhanshiyiqizhulesanniandehunfang——cundangjianweiyidesancenghongzhuanlou。

zoujinleyixie,caifajuemenkoujingrantingleyiliangjipuche。

neishijunduiganbucainengzuode。

nandaoshiguhanshizhaobudaoziji,yijingbaolejing?

xinzhongjidong,wojiakuaijiaobu。

寒时,我回来了……

haimeizoujibu,yigechuanzhedequelianghuangqundezhangjuanfanvhaiturancongcheshangxialai。

guhanshizhenghaocongfangzizhongzouchu,tashencaigaoda,yishuangshensuianchendemouzi,suishicunlidehanziqueyouzhonghunrantianchengdezhishifenziqizhi。

wozhengyaoshangqian,keneinvhaiquexianwoyibuchongzaimianqian,shenzhidangzhewodemianjinjinlouzhuleguhanshigebo。

“ashi,tingshuoniyijingbaguxiganzoule,wohaogaoxinga!”

“wojiuzhidaonibuhuirangwoshiwang,woweilenihewobamachedinaofanshizhidede!”

woxinzhongzhenzhan,yanjingbuhuipianwo,zheigenvhaizhengshiguhanshidechulian——silingdenverlixianxian!

guhanshimingmingxinhunyeduiwochengnuo:“guxi,wozaogenlixianxianduanganjingle。jiranquleni,wojiuhuiduinifuze,gennihaoyibeizi。”

可是他没有。

cishicike,tashenzhizhudongmolemolixianxiandetou:“niyaodezuixinkuanxuehuagaowojinimaile,genwojinwuwojinina。”

xuehuagao?38kuaiyihedexuehuagao,tashuomaijiumaile。

shangbeizizijigentajiehunzheimeduonian,tacongmeimaiguozheimezhenguidedongxi。

jinlejinshouxin,lelingzijibieduoxiang,haiyouzhongyaoshidezuo。

zoushangqian,congkoudailinachuneizhangbobodezhi——

“guhanshi,zheigehunwobulile!”

dangzhetamendemian,wojiangzheizhanglihunbaogaosilegefensui。

wuneisanfachudenuanhuangdengguangsazaiguhanshijunyidewuguanshang,ketalianshangshenqingquebinglengdekepa。

“nibushifeizoubukeme,huilaiganshenme。”

wodixiatou,zhidaoshizijizuocuole:“wodaohuochezhanyixiang,nishuodedui,fuqimeiyougeyechou。”

“suoyiwozaiyebuzoule,yihoudoutingnide。”

naohaizhong,quanshishangyishiguhanshibaozhewoshititongkudechangjing。

wulunfashengshenme,wodouyebuyaozailikaitabanbu。

kechuhuyiliao,xiayimiao,fanershilixianxiandeqingxiaoshengcilai:

“ashi,zaojiutingshuoguxishinitongyangxi,congxiaojiusipilailianchanzheniaishi,xianzaikanlaichuanyanhaizhenmeicuole。”

wosisizuanzheshou,toulimataiqi:“woshitongyangximeicuo,kewobuxunizheimewumiewo。ruguowoyoudexuan,nandaowobuxiangchengweinizheiyangdeda**ma?”

68nian,shengfumutaohuangzaonanluguopingyangcun,kuaiesilesanjincaomibawomaijileguhanshinainai。

gunainaixincinawodangsunnvyang,cunminqueyizhimiechengwowei“tongyangxiyeyatou”,dajishiqi,wojiuzhidaoweilaiwoyidinghuijiajiguhanshi。

erwoyexihuanguhanshi,congxiaojiuxihuan。

yinweitashizheigejialichunainaizhiwai,zuizhaoguwoderen,shisheidounengcaiwoyijiaodepingyangcunli,bawodangrenkanderen。

suoyiwonengjieshouguhanshiduizijilengyanlengyu,danbudaibiaolixianxianzheigewairenyenenglaichazui!

ranermeixiangdao,guhanshicikejuranyezhanzailixianxianneibian,chukoudehuacuizhedu。

“nihouhuiyemeiyong,zheihunshinizhudongyaolide,xianzaiquancunrendouzhidaole,womianzizenmeguodequ?”

wozhidao,wohaixuyaoyigejiandingdeliyourangguhanshizhongxinjienawo。

xiangqishangyishihuicunbeiduotaideshi,qiazhiyisuan,womingbaileyijianshi。

“lihunzhendebuxingle,yinweiwoxianzaiyijinghuailenidezai。”