1987nian,pingyanghuochezhan。
lvpihuochezhenghonglonglongxingshijinzhan,shoulilinzhedexinglixiangmengdidiaodaoledishang。
woguxibushisilema?weishenmehainengkandaogaozhaoderitou?
taiqishoudangzhuciyandeyangguang,shangyishidejiyicongzhifenglouchu……
shangyishi,wohuaiyizhangfuguhanshiyutachulianlixianxianjiuqingfuran,beishangzhixiatichulihunhuileniangjia。
kemeixiangdaozijiyijinghuaileshenyun,niangjiarenweilebiwogaijia,renyoupangrenyongtufazinadashikuaiyawoduziduotai,zuizhongyishiliangming。
erneigewoyiweicongmeiaiguozijidechangzhangzhangfuguhanshi,jingzhaolaile……
tasisibaozhuwodaozaixuebodeshiti,leiliubuzhi。
neiyike,wocaiqueding——
原来他一直爱我。
jinzhandehuochewenwendangdangtingxia,woxiayishimojinkoudai,niedaoleneizhangbobodezhi。
buhuicuode,wozhendezhongshengle,jintianshiwozhunbeihuiniangjialikaiguhanshideneiyitian。
jiranlaotianzhongxinjiwoyicijihui,neizheiciwoyidingyaoliuzaiguhanshishenbian,gentaanwenguoyibeizi。
……
pibeituozhexinglixianghuidaopingyangcun,tianseyijinghunan。
danwohaishiyiyanjiuwangdaoleheguhanshiyiqizhulesanniandehunfang——cundangjianweiyidesancenghongzhuanlou。
zoujinleyixie,caifajuemenkoujingrantingleyiliangjipuche。
neishijunduiganbucainengzuode。
nandaoshiguhanshizhaobudaoziji,yijingbaolejing?
xinzhongjidong,wojiakuaijiaobu。
寒时,我回来了……
haimeizoujibu,yigechuanzhedequelianghuangqundezhangjuanfanvhaiturancongcheshangxialai。
guhanshizhenghaocongfangzizhongzouchu,tashencaigaoda,yishuangshensuianchendemouzi,suishicunlidehanziqueyouzhonghunrantianchengdezhishifenziqizhi。
wozhengyaoshangqian,keneinvhaiquexianwoyibuchongzaimianqian,shenzhidangzhewodemianjinjinlouzhuleguhanshigebo。
“ashi,tingshuoniyijingbaguxiganzoule,wohaogaoxinga!”
“wojiuzhidaonibuhuirangwoshiwang,woweilenihewobamachedinaofanshizhidede!”
woxinzhongzhenzhan,yanjingbuhuipianwo,zheigenvhaizhengshiguhanshidechulian——silingdenverlixianxian!
guhanshimingmingxinhunyeduiwochengnuo:“guxi,wozaogenlixianxianduanganjingle。jiranquleni,wojiuhuiduinifuze,gennihaoyibeizi。”
可是他没有。
cishicike,tashenzhizhudongmolemolixianxiandetou:“niyaodezuixinkuanxuehuagaowojinimaile,genwojinwuwojinina。”
xuehuagao?38kuaiyihedexuehuagao,tashuomaijiumaile。
shangbeizizijigentajiehunzheimeduonian,tacongmeimaiguozheimezhenguidedongxi。
jinlejinshouxin,lelingzijibieduoxiang,haiyouzhongyaoshidezuo。
zoushangqian,congkoudailinachuneizhangbobodezhi——
“guhanshi,zheigehunwobulile!”
dangzhetamendemian,wojiangzheizhanglihunbaogaosilegefensui。
wuneisanfachudenuanhuangdengguangsazaiguhanshijunyidewuguanshang,ketalianshangshenqingquebinglengdekepa。
“nibushifeizoubukeme,huilaiganshenme。”
wodixiatou,zhidaoshizijizuocuole:“wodaohuochezhanyixiang,nishuodedui,fuqimeiyougeyechou。”
“suoyiwozaiyebuzoule,yihoudoutingnide。”
naohaizhong,quanshishangyishiguhanshibaozhewoshititongkudechangjing。
wulunfashengshenme,wodouyebuyaozailikaitabanbu。
kechuhuyiliao,xiayimiao,fanershilixianxiandeqingxiaoshengcilai:
“ashi,zaojiutingshuoguxishinitongyangxi,congxiaojiusipilailianchanzheniaishi,xianzaikanlaichuanyanhaizhenmeicuole。”
wosisizuanzheshou,toulimataiqi:“woshitongyangximeicuo,kewobuxunizheimewumiewo。ruguowoyoudexuan,nandaowobuxiangchengweinizheiyangdeda**ma?”
68nian,shengfumutaohuangzaonanluguopingyangcun,kuaiesilesanjincaomibawomaijileguhanshinainai。
gunainaixincinawodangsunnvyang,cunminqueyizhimiechengwowei“tongyangxiyeyatou”,dajishiqi,wojiuzhidaoweilaiwoyidinghuijiajiguhanshi。
erwoyexihuanguhanshi,congxiaojiuxihuan。
yinweitashizheigejialichunainaizhiwai,zuizhaoguwoderen,shisheidounengcaiwoyijiaodepingyangcunli,bawodangrenkanderen。
suoyiwonengjieshouguhanshiduizijilengyanlengyu,danbudaibiaolixianxianzheigewairenyenenglaichazui!
ranermeixiangdao,guhanshicikejuranyezhanzailixianxianneibian,chukoudehuacuizhedu。
“nihouhuiyemeiyong,zheihunshinizhudongyaolide,xianzaiquancunrendouzhidaole,womianzizenmeguodequ?”
wozhidao,wohaixuyaoyigejiandingdeliyourangguhanshizhongxinjienawo。
xiangqishangyishihuicunbeiduotaideshi,qiazhiyisuan,womingbaileyijianshi。
“lihunzhendebuxingle,yinweiwoxianzaiyijinghuailenidezai。”