wodeshiyoushige“gongxiangdaren”，kuaibugaoerqu。kexitabuzhidao，woshige“bingyuantigongshengti”。
wodedongxi，wairenpenglehuidaomei——zheishiwodeguiju。shiyouwanglipianbuxinxie，feiyaoyijianjianshichuan，
zhidaotabameiyunchuanjilewoneipituidenanyou。kanzhetamenyigehunsheneji，yigezhongshenbuju，
wokezheguazixiaole：“zaoshuoguo，bierewo。
”1wodeguijuyutadeshitanwodingzheyushimenkouneishuangshilulu、mingxiangangbeirenchuanguodefensetuoxie，
xinlimoshulesanmiao。neishiwodetuoxie。ruanhuhudeyangrongcaizhi，wenroudeqianfense，
shiwomaxintengwozhuxiaoteyimaide。xianzai，jiaobeideweizhiyunkaiyituanshenseshuizi，xiangyikuaichouloudebuding，
zhanzailewodexinjianshang。“weiwei，huilaila？”wanglidingzheyitoushiluludezhangfacongyushilihuangchulai，
reqizhengdetalianjiafahong。takanyemeikan，yijiaojiujingzhundicaijinlewoneishuangtuoxieli，
daizheweicagandeshuizihemuyuludehuani，dongzuoliuchangdexianghuizijijia。“gangxizaowangnatuoxiele，
jiechuanyixia，bieneimexiaoqima。”shuizhushunzhetadejiaohuaidiluozaituoxierouruanderongmianshang，yishunjianbeixishou，
liuxialegengshendehenji。wotaiyan，muguangcongneishuangbeidianwudetuoxieshangyidaotaxiaoxixidelianshang，meishuohua。
huoxushiwodeyanshentaiguopingjing，shenzhidaizhedianleng，wanglibeikandeyouxiebuzizai。tabolebojiantoudeshifa，
yuqidaishangleguanyoude、rangrentaoyandeshurenheyisibuyichajuedeqiangshi：“aiya，yishuangtuoxieeryi，
huitouwojinicaganjingbei。doushishiyou，bieneimejijiao，shangleheqiduobuhao。”wochelechezuijiao，
luchuyigemeishenmewendudexiao，shengyinpingdanwubo：“meishi，nichuan。”——nichuan。xiwangnikangdezhu。
jiaoqizhenjunde“jianmianli”，xiwangnixihuan。woxinlimomodebuchongleyiju，daizheyizhonglengyanpangguandemoran。
wojiaolinwei，yigedasanxuesheng，waibiaokan，putongderengrenduilizhaobuzhe，shenzhiyinweibuaicourenao，
xiandeyoudianlansan。danwoxinliqingchu，woheqitarenbuyiyang。
woyouyigemimi——woshiyige“bingyuantigongshengti”。
yongwomadangniankuzheduiyishengshuodehuajiushi：“wojiaweiweiyebuzhidaozaoleshenmenie，
zenmeshenmeluanqibazaodebingjundouwangtashenshangcou，haiganbuzou！”danshenqideshi，
zheixiewanyierzaiwotineidachengleyizhongqimiaodepingheng，jiuxiangwoshentilizidaileyigeshengtaiquan。
yongkexuediandefangshishuo，wotineixiedaizheduozhong……ng，suanleba，haishibukexuele。tongsujiang，
wojiushige“bingdu”juheti，
jiaoqizhenjun、huchouganjun、fukeyanzhengnianzhujun……tamenzaiwotineihexiegongcun，duiwoqiuhaowufan。dan，
yidantamenlikaiwo，fuzhezaiwodesirenwupinshang，duiyurenhewairenlaishuo，jiushizhanzhijidaodejudu。
chengduqingzhong，kanjiechudeqinmichengduheshijian。wodedongxi，doushijueduidejinqu。zheishiwodeguiju。xianran，
wanglibudong，huozheshuo，tagenbenbuxieyudong。zaitakanlai，qinshilideyiqie，baokuowodeyiqie，
douyinggaishi“gongxiangziyuan”。zheizaoyibushidiyici。tade“bugaoerqu”，
congzuichudexifashui、muyulu“shunbianyongyong”，zhujianshengjidaowodesk-iishenxianshui“jiewopenpen”，
zaidaoshangzhou，woxinmaideneizhiyslxiaojintiao，beitahaobuxintengdijueduanleyijie。
liyoushi“yansebutaishihewo，buguoshishisema，bieneimexiaoqi”。meiyiciworenzhegeyingtichuyiyi，
tazongnengshunjianbaichuyifubiwohaiweiqudebiaoqing，shengyinbagaobadu，henbuderangquanloucengdoutingjian。“linwei，
nizenmezheimexiaoqia？womendoushishiyou，huxiangfenxiangbushiyinggaidema？”“nijialitiaojianhao，
dongxineimeduo，woyongyidianyoubuhuisi。”“qinshihexiezuizhongyao，nibiezongshiyinweizheidianxiaoshishanggangshangxian，
pohuaiqifenhaobuhao？dajiazhuyiqishiyuanfen！”daodebangjiahedaodayipa，tawandeluhuochunqing，
fangfotazhanlebianyi，wohaichengleneigebudongshi、pohuaihexiedezuiren。erzuijin，tadexingweiyuefabianbenjiali，
fangfoyizhongwushengdetiaoxin。diertian，wojiuzhuangjiantazaiqinshili，
toutoushichuanwoneijiantuolehaojiwei**caiqiangdaode**banshejishiwaitao，zaichuanyijingqianniulainiuqu，
zuilihengzhege，yanlishihaobuyanshidexihuanhezhanyouyu，hainachushoujigezhong**。disantian，
woliangzaiyangtaishangdeneiyiku，mingxianyoubeinuodong、shenzhiniemoguodehenji。woneitiaodaileisideqianse**，
shenzhibeinuodaoletaneitiaokatong**pangbian，duibixianming，rangrenfanwei。woderennaihechenmo，zaitakanlai，
dagaidengtongyunuoruokeqi。taxinfengdeneitao“nidejiushiwode，wodehaishiwode”qiangdaoluoji，
zaoyizaitaxinligenshendigu。xingba。wokanzhetazaijingziqian，xingzhibobodibihuazhewodeyifu，
gendianhuaneitouderenjiaoshengshuo“zhoumochuanneijianxinyifuqujianni”，
xinlineidianyinweizhangqitongjuercanliude、weimodelianmin，yezhongyuyanxiaoyunsan。tiantangyoulunibuzou，
diyuwumennichuangjinlai。neihouguo，jiuzijidanzheba。
2qipazhengzhuanglianhuanbaozhengzhuanglaidebiwoxiangxiangdehaiyaokuai，yeyaoqipahexijuhuadeduo。
diyidan：jiaoqiyu“koujiaoxiannv”meiguojitian，wanglijiukaishizaiqinshilizuolibuanle。kanshudeshihou，
kandianyingdeshihou，shenzhichifandeshihou，tadourenbuzhubajiaocongxiezilichouchulai，
toutoumomodi、yonglidizailingyizhijiaodejiaohuaihuoxiaotuishangcengjixia，lianshangshiqiangrendefanzao。qichu，
tahainengziwoanwei，yibiannaoyibianbaoyuan：“zheishenmepotianqi，taichaole，hunshenbudejing。”huozhe，
“kendingshixuexiaozaotangbuganjing，tuoxiegongyongde，ranshangshenmele。”danhenkuai，qingkuangjizhuanzhixia。
tadejiaozhifengkaishifanhong、fayang，jiertuopi，yanzhongdeshihou，yangdetabanyedouzaichuangshangfanlaifuqu，
beizidixiachuanlaixixisusudekounaosheng，bansuizheyayide**。“fansile！yangsiwole！
zheipodifangwozhenshiyitiandoudaibuxiaqule！”yitianwanshang，tazhongyurenbuzhu，zuozaiyizishang，
baozhejiaoyazishijingkou，yibiannuqichongchongdibaoyuan，fangfoquanshijiedouqiantade。wozhengzuozaishuzhuoqian，
anjingdifanzheyibenzhuanyeshu，touyemeitai，yuqipingdandexiangzaitaoluntianqi。“zuijinshimeiyuji，chaoshimenre，
queshirongyizishengzhenjun。lili，nideduozhuyidiangerenweisheng，qinhuanxiewa，baochiganzao。
”tadehuatoumengdiyezhu，xiangbeirenqiazhulebozi，lianbiedetonghong，meihaoqididenglewoyiyan，
yanshenlihunzazhehuaiyiheqiannu，dagaijuedewohualiyouhua，zaiguyifengcita。tafenfendichuanshangtuoxie，
duozhejiaopaoqushuifangchongxi，danneiyangyirutongfuguzhiju，genbenhuanjiebule。gengqipadeshi，
youyicitazaijietijiaoshishangdake，kenengshizaiyangdeshoubule，toutoubaxietuole，
jiaocongcemianshenchulaicengqianpaiyizidetui。jieguobeiqianpaidetongxuewendaoweidao，huitoukanletayiyan，
neiyanshenlidexianqirangtashunjianshesi，lianzhangchenglezhuganse，houbanjiekedoumeigantaitou。
dierdan：huchouyu“renjianyouwu”jinjiezhe，shigengrangtabengkuide——huchou。zhoumo，taguoranjingxindaban，
chuanzhewoneijianmibaisede**banlianyiqun，caizhegaogenxie，penlewodabanpingangguidexiangshui，
yiqifengfadiquyuehuile。huilaideshihou，daoshimanmianchunfeng，hengzhege，sihuyuehuihenchenggong。
dandengtazhideyimandituoxianeijianqunzi，suishourengzaiyizishangdeshunjian。
yigunanyixingrongde、hunhezhetazishenhanyehemouzhongfubai、xingsaoqiweidenonglieyiwei，rutongbeishifangdeyaomo，
shunjianzaixiaxiaodeqinshilimimankailai，badaoqiejingjiubusan。neiweidao，
youdianxiangfanghuailedeluosifenhunhelesilaoshu，youdaidianziranyangrouchuandeyounigan，cengcifengfuderangrenzuoou。
woneijianbaobeiqunzi，suanshichedihuile，liantongshangmiancanliudeangguixiangshuiwei，
doubianchengleyizhonggengguiyidefuhexingzainanqiwei。gengkepadeshi，neiweidaofangfoyouleshengming，
xingchengletade“tixiang”，sisidinianshangleta。wuluntahoulaihuanshenmeyifu，napashigangxiguozao，
napatahoulaixiangbuyaoqianyiyangfengkuangpensaxiangshuishituyangai。neiguwangude、liezhihaixianshichangbandeguaiwei，
zongnengwanqiangdichuantousuoyouxiangjingdefengsuo，youyoudi、zhizhedicongtashenshangsanfachulai，
xingchengyizhong“wenzhiyanbi”deqiangdaqichang。takaishimingxiandiganshoudaozhouweirendebianhua。yiqishangkedetongxue，