第5章

“nitijinyaosuanleyinyuan,neiyetiguqiyigua。”

wohuimou,zhuangjintashenbujiandideyanli,quekuijianleqizhongsisilvlvdeqidai。

tazheibanpobujidaixiangyaolingxunyinyuandemoyang,xiangyigewuxingdebazhangshanzaiwodelianshang。

wojihuyongjinleliqicaijiangzijideshouchouhui,renzheqingxushuo。

“dianxiafangxin,nideliangyuanyehaizaihoutou。”

zheimeiyigezi,douxiangshidaozigezaiwozijixinshang。

xieqingyuequemeiyousihaomanyi,jinzhouqimeitoubuyuediwen。

“nishangweiqigua,shiruhedezhide?nishicongqiansuanguo,haishizaishuoqihua?”

wozhalezhasuansedeyan,qingshengshuoleju:“tianjibukexielu。”

shuowan,wobuzaikantadeshenqing,xingligaotui。

……

huidaogongzhong,woxinjinanan,shizhongfangxinbuxiajijiangyuanqubianguandefuqin。

woquchusanmeiwenyangduoniandetongqian,kanzhetamen,xinzhongyouxieyouyu。

dangchuzaijiajitaiziqian,huangdicengmimizhaojian、qiaodalewoyifan。

woshidaqidiyinvxiangshi,nengsuanguoyun、tonggujin,woyouzheiyangdebenshi,benbunengjiajitaizide。

huangdidayingcihundetongshi,youyaowoxuxiachengnuo,cishengbudezaiqiguazhanbu。

zheijianshizaimeidisangerenzhidao。

jiajixieqingyuezheijinian,woweiyiyicipoli,jiushizaizuoleneichangyuzhimengzhihou,potianhuangjizijisuanleyigua。

我的前路是死局。

那……我的父亲呢?

wopingtuilegongren,duzizaidianzhongjingshoufenxiang,weitaqigua。

tongqianyicicizhiluo,guaxiangqueyicibiyicixiongxian。

zuihouyici,tongqianshenzhimengdiliekaileyidaoxifeng。

xueguangchongtian,simenjinbi!naijiusiyisheng、hunpofeisanzhijuejing。

wohuoranqishen,jingdedafanlezhuozishangdechazhan。

父亲他……

bukeneng!fuqinshichangshengjiangjun,yidingshiwonalisuancuole。

judadekongjuhehuangluanshunjianyanmeilewodelizhi。

wodiediezhuangzhuangdichongchudianmen,zhixianglikezhaodaoxieqingyue,qiutafabingzengyuan。

yeyishen,shufangliquehailiangzhedeng。

wozhengyaotuimen,quetingjianlimianchuanlaitaxinfujianglingchentongdeshengyin。

“dianxia,mingzhisongjiangjunciquxiongduojishao,weihehaiyaopaitaqianwang?ruoshitaizifeiniangniangzhidao……”

wohunshenxueyeshunjiandongjiang,xiayishipingzhulehuxi。

xiayishun,xieqingyuelengruobingshuangdeshengyinsuijichuanlai,jiangwodexinhenhencichuan。

“cishibuyaogaosusongyuanzhi,bijing……zheiyizhanwulunchengbai,tadiedoubisiwuyi。”

“bisiwuyi”sigezijiangwozademengzaiyuandi。

wozheicaizhiguaxiangshangdetaotianxueguangzhidebushitianmingwuchang、ershirenxinxiane。

shixieqingyue,qinshouweiwofuqinxuandingdejieju。

woxinlidexianhongranbengduan,yibatuikailemen。

“nimenshuode……shishenmeyisi?”

limianzhengzaiyishideliangrenyijing。

xieqingyuemeiyouliaodaowohuituranchuangru,meiyanshanguoyisicuoe。

danhenkuai,tajiulianleshense,lenglengkaikou:“junguodashi,feinigaiguowende,huiqu。”