1wanmeihunyindejiaxiangshenniancaizheshilimidejimmychoogaogenxiezoujincantingshi，
likexiyinlewushumuguang。tajintianteyizuolexinfaxing，shenzongsedejuanfachuizaijiantou，
shenshangshidangjizuixinkuandexiangnaiertaozhuang，shoushangdehunjiezaidengguangxiashanshanfaliang。"shenzongjian，zheibianqing。
"fuwushenggongjingdiyinlingtazouxiangyuliudeweizhi。zheishichenglizuinanyudingdemiqilinsanxingcanting，
shenniantiqiansangeyuecaidingdaozheigekaochuangdeweizhi。jintianshitaheguchenjiehunqizhounianjinianri，
suiranzuijinxiangmushouweirangtamangdejiaobuzhandi，danzheiyangdezhongyaorizitacongbumahu。shenniankanleyanwanbiao，
liudianwushibafen。guchenxianglaishoushi，yinggaikuaidaole。tadakaishoujiqianzhishexiangtoujianchazhuangrong，
quebaomeiyigenjiemaodouwanmeijuanqiao。pingmushangfangturandanchuzhulidexiaoxi：[shenzongjian，
mingzaojiudiandehuiyicailiaoyifaninyouxiang]。tazhoulezhoumei，kuaisuhuifu：[zhidaole，wojinwanhuikan]。
gangfangxiashouji，cantingmenkouchuxianyigeshuxideshenying。guchenchuanzhetashanggeyuejitamaideshenhuisexizhuang，
chendejiankuantuizhang。qinianguoqu，zheigenanrenfanerbidaxueshigengyoumeili，
lunkuofenmingdelianshangdaizhewenhedexiaoyi，chaotazoulaishiyindezhouweijiweinvshipinpincemu。"denghenjiule？
"guchenzaitaduimianzuoxia，shengyindichenyueer。shennianweiweiyangqixiaba："gangdao。nidaoshizhunshi。
"taxiguanxingdishenshoutitazhenglilingdai，"jintiangongsizenmeyang？""laoyangzi。
"guchenbuzhehenjidibikaitadeshou，naqishuibeiheleyikou。shennianmeizhuyidaozheigexiaodongzuo，
tayijingdakaicaidankaishidiancai："wochaguole，zheilidefashieganhesongluyimianshizhaopai，
qiancaiyao...""niannian。"guchenturandaduanta，"woyouhuaxiangshuo。"shenniantaiqitou，
zheicaifaxianguchendebiaoqingyichangpingjing，neishuangzongshiwenrouzhushitadeyanjingcikeshenbujiandi。
taxinliturangedengyixia，shouzhiwuyishidiniejinlecaidanbianyuan。"zenmele？xiangmuchuwentile？
"taxiayishixiangdaogongzuo。guchenyaoyaotou，congxizhuangneidaiquchuyigexinfeng，tuidaotamianqian。
shenniankandaoxinfengshang"lihunxieyishu"jigezishi，danaoyipiankongbai。"ni...shenmeyisi？
"tadeshengyinjiandebuxiangziji。"womenlihunba。"guchenshuozheihuashiyuqipingjingdexiangzaitaoluntianqi，
"xieyiwoyijingqianhaole，caichanfengehengongping，nidelvshikeyizaiqueren。
"cantingcaozadeshengyinfangfoshunjianyuanqu，shennianerduoliwengwengzuoxiang。tasisidingzheneigexinfeng，
haoxiangneishishenmekepadeguaiwu。"jintianbushiyurenjie，guchen。"taqiangchengzhelengxiao，
"zheizhongwanxiaoyidianyebuhaoxiao。""bushiwanxiao。"guchendemuguangzhishita，"qinianle，niannian，woleile。
"shennianmengdizhanqilai，pengdaoleshuibei。bingshuisazaitaangguidequnzishang，dantahunranbujue。
"jiuyinweiwozuijinmangxiangmumeishijianpeini？guchen，nishenmeshihoubiandezheimeyouzhi？
"zhouweiyijingyourenkanguolai，guchenqishenshiyifuwushengqingli，ranhouqingqinganzhutadejianbang："zuoxiashuo，
haoma？"shennianshuaikaitadeshou，danzuizhonghaishizuolehuiqu。tashenxiyikouqi，
qiangpozijilengjing："jiwoyigehelideliyou。"guchenchenmolepianke，congshoujilidiaochuyifenwendangdijita。
shenniankandaobiaotishi《lihunriji》，shijiankuaducongtamenjiehundisanniankaishi，yizhidaoshangzhou。"zheishishenme？
"tashouzhifazhandihuadongpingmu。"meiciwoxianglihunshijixiadeyuanyin。"guchendeshengyinhenqing，
"yigong173ci。"shennianbuganxiangxinzijikandaodewenzi：「2018nian5yue20ri，jiehunsanzhounian。
wozhunbeilemaerdaifulvxing，niannianlinshiquxiao，shuoyougezhongyaokehuyaojian。
wozaijichangdengdaozuihouyike...」「2019nian8yue15ri，wofashao39du，
dadianhuaxiwangtazaodianhuijia。tashuozaitanxiangmu，lingchenliangdiancaihuilai，woyijingzijiquleyiyuan...」
「2021nian3yue4ri，tichuxiangchuangye，tadangzhepengyoumianshuowobuqieshiji...」
yitiaotiaojiluxiangdaozibanzhajinshennianxinli。tamengditaitou，faxianguchenyanzhongshitacongweijianguodepibeihejuejue。
"zheixie...zheixiexiaoshinijilesinian？"tadeshengyinfadou，"weishenmebuzhijiegaosuwo？""woshuoguo，
henduoci。"guchenkuxiao，"nizongshuowoxiangtaiduo，huozheshuodengmangwanzheizhenzizaitan。niannian，
womenzhijianconglaimeiyou'bumang'deshihou。"shennianzhanglezhangzui，quefaxianzijiwuhuakeshuo。taturanyishidao，
zijijingxiangbuqishangyicirenzhentingguchenshuohuashishenmeshihou。"wobanchuqule。"guchenzhanqishen，
"xieyinimanmankan，youwentilianxiwodelvshi。""dengdeng！"shennianzhuazhutadeshouwan，
"jiu...jiuzheiyang？qinianhunyin，nijiuzheiyangyizoulezhi？"guchenqingqingchouchushou："qinianli，
wozoule173ci，zhishizheiyici，wojuedingbuhuitoule。"kanzheguchenlikaidebeiying，
shenniandiyicigandaokonghuang。zheibushitamenpingshidezhengchao，meiyoushuaimenerqu，meiyoulengzhan，
meiyoujitawanhuidejihui——guchenshirenzhende。
2lihunrijidezhenxiangshennianbuzhidaozijishizenmehuidaojiade。gongyulianjingdekepa，
tachijiaozouguomeigefangjian，
faxianguchendedongxiyijingquanbuxiaoshi——tadeshu、tadekafeibei、tazuiaideneibajita。
zhiyouzhuwoyijulihaiguazhejijianxizhuang，xiangshizuihoudelianmin。tajixiedidakailihunxieyi，
tiaojianyouhoudefengci：fangchan、cunkuan、gupiao，guchenjihujingshenchuhu。zaicaichanfengeneiye，
tayonggangbixieleyixingxiaozi："zheixieniannihenxinku，zheixieshiniyingdede。"shennianbaxieyishuaizaidishang，
turanfafengbanfanzhaoguchenliuxiade《lihunriji》wanzhengban。zhongyuzaishufangchoutilizhaodaoyigeupan，
limianshizhangdaliangbaiduoyedewendang。taquansuozaishafashang，congdiyiyekaishidu，zhidaochuangwaitiansefanbai。
rijilideguchenshitashuxidemoshengren——neigeyongyuanwenroutitiedezhangfu，yuanlaixinlizangzhezheimeduoweiqu。
takandaozijiyicicihulvetadeshengri，quxiaojihuahaodelvxing，
zaipengyoumianqianbianditadegongzuo...zuicitongtadeshiquniandongtianneitiao：「2022nian12yue24ri，
pinganye。niannianshuojiabanbuhuilaichifan。wozuoletazuiaichidehongjiudunniurou，dengdaolingchen。
tahuilaishiwoyijingshuile，zaoshangfaxianzhengguocaiyuanfengbudongjinlelajitong。
tashuojianfeibuchixiaoye...neishiwomamaliuxiadeweiyishipu。」shennianwuzhuzui，leishuimohuleshixian。
tajideneitian，guchenqueshiwenguotahuibuhuijiachifan，tasuikouyingfujiugualedianhua。neitiantaqishimeijiaban，
shihetongshiquhejiuqingzhuxiangmuzhongbiao...shoujituranzhendong，shigongsizhulifalaidehuiyitixing。
shenniankanlekanshijian，zaoshangqidianban。tayinggaixizaohuanyifuqushangban，danshentichenzhongdexiangguanleqian。
"qingyitianjia。"tajizhulifalexiaoxi，ranhoujixuduneibencankuderiji。zhongwushifen，menlingxiangle。
shennianyiweishiguchenhuilai，guangzhejiaopaoqukaimen，quekandaoguimilinyuetizhewaimaizhanzaimenkou。"tiana，
nizenme..."linyuekandaotahongzhongdeyanjinghelingluandetoufa，huameishuowanjiubaozhuta，"guchengenwoshuole。
"shennianjiangyingdirenyoutalazhejinwu："tagennishuoshenmele？""jiushuonimenjuedinglihun。
"linyuebashiwufangzaichajishang，"woyiweinimenshanglianghaode...kannizheifanying，
nandaoshitaturan..."shennianzhizhediannaopingmu："tajilesinianriji，xishuwomeiyitiaozuizhuang。
"linyuesaolejiyan，biaoqingbiandefuza："niannian，zheixieshi...doushizhende？""zhongyaoma？
"shennianlengxiao，"tabeidilijichousinian，xianzaituranshuaichulihunxieyi，zheisuanshenmenanren？
"linyuetanlekouqi："worenshiguchenshinian，tabushijichouderen。"tayouyuleyixia，
"qishi...sangeyueqiantazhaoguowo，wenzenmegennigoutong。tashuoganjuexianggetoumingren，
wulunshuoshenmezuoshenme，nidoukanbujian。"shennianruzaoleiji："taconglaimeishuoguo...""tashuoguo，
henduoci。"linyuedijitazhijin，"zhishinizongshuotazaibaoyuan。niannian，nizhidaoguchenqunianyiyulema？
""shenme？"shennianmengditaitou，"bukeneng！tameitian...""meitianduinixiaolianxiangying？"linyuekuxiao，
"tachilebannianyao，shiwojieshaodeyisheng。tashuobugangaosuni，panishuotajiaoqing。
"shenniandeshijiehongranbengta。taturanxiangqineixiebeitahulvedexijie——guchenouerliuludepibei，
深夜书房的灯光，
youshizaoshangfaxiantayijingzaiyangtaichoulehaojizhiyan...tayizhiyiweineizhishigongzuoyali。
"woyaozhaotatantan。"shennianzhuaqishouji，quefaxianguchenyijingbatasuoyoulianxifangshilahei。
linyueanzhutadeshou："jitadiankongjianba。guchenbushichongdongderen，jiranzuolejueding...""bu，
nibumingbai！"shennianshuaikaita，"qinianhunyin，tabunengshuozoujiuzou！"jiexialaiderizi，
shennianxiangzhelemoyiyangxunzhaoguchen。taquguchengongsi，dezhitayijingcizhi；zhaogongtongpengyoudating，
meirenzhidaotaqulenali；shenzhikaichequtafumujia，quefaxianlaoliangkouqulvxingle。guchenjiuxiangrenjianzhengfa，
zhiliuxianeidongzhuangmanhuiyidefangziheneibenxuelinlindelihunriji。
3benzhuodewanhuilihunxieyiguidingdelengjingqishiyigeyue。shennianjujueqianzi，gulezuihaodelihunlvshi，
yaoqiubixudangmianxieshang。"guxianshengtongyiyanzhanglengjingqi，danrengjianchilihun。"lvshidisancihuibaoshi，
shennianshuailebeizi。"tarenzaina？woyaojianta！"lvshituiletuiyanjing："guxianshengbiaoshi，dengninqianzihou，
tahuiqinzilaiquwenjian。"shennianqidefadou："gaosuta，bumianduimiantan，wojuebuhuiqianzi！"neitianwanshang，
shennianzuoleyigefengkuangdejueding——tayaowanhuiguchen。ruguohunyinchulewenti，neijiujiejuewenti，
而不是解决婚姻。
chentidaoguode"xiwangtazuodeshi"：xuezuofan、duopeiban、zhichitadejueding...ranhoukaishiyixiangxiangwancheng。
diyixiangshizuofan。shenniancongbuxiachu，jialichangniankaowaimaihezhongdiangong。xianzaitamaile**chuju，
zhaozheguchenrijilitidaode"mamadehongjiudunniurou"shipuchangshi。jieguoshiyichangzainan。niuroujiaole，
chufangxiangbeihongzhaguo，yanwubaojingqixianglebanxiaoshi。shenniandunzaiyipianlangjiezhong，
turanxiangqiguchenzongshimomoshoushitaliuxiadelantanzi——suishouluanrengdeyifu，huazhuangtaishangdepingpingguanguan，
chileyibansuishoufangdelingshi...tawuzheliankule。yuanlaibeiaishineimeshechideshi，
ertabatadangchenglelisuodangran。diertian，shennianqinglezhuanyechushishangmenjiaoxue。lianxuyizhou，
tashoushangduolehaojidaotangshanghedaoshang，zhongyunengzuochuxiangyangdejidaocai。tapaizhaofazaipengyouquan，
shezhijinguchenkejian——suiranbuzhidaotanengbunengkandao。yigeyuelengjingqijieshushi，
shenniandelvshidailaixinxiaoxi：guchenchenglileyijiakejigongsi，zuorengongzhinengyiliaozhenduanxitong。
"zheishitadechuangyejihua？"shennianxiangqizijicengjingruhechaoxiaozheigexiangfa，"tanalaidezijin？
""jushuoshidiyalefumufangchan，jiashangjigetianshitouziren。"lvshiyouyuleyixia，"shenzong，
guxianshengdexingongsidizhizaikejiyuanbqu7dong。"shennianyanjingyiliang。dangwantajiuquleneidongbangonglou，
duozaichelidengdaoshenyeshiyidian，zhongyukandaoguchenzouchulai。tashoulehenduo，yanxiayoumingxiandeheiyanquan，
danzouludeyangziyirantingba。shennianxintiaojiasu，zhengxiangxiache，quekandaoyigenianqingnvhaicongdaloulipaochulai，
dijiguchenyijianwaitao。liangrenshuoleshenme，guchenxiaolexiao，momonvhaidetou。
neiqinnidedongzuoxiangdaoziyiyangzhajinshennianxinli。tasisiwozhufangxiangpan，
zhidaoliangrenzouyuancaibengkuidipazaishangmian。yuanlaibushimeiyoudisanzhe...takusedixiang。danzhuannianyixiang，
lihunrijilicongmeitidaoguobieren，quanshitadebushi。erqielengjingqicaikaishiyigeyue，
guchenbushineizhongren...diertian，shenniangule**diaochaneigenvhai。baogaohenkuaisonglai：suwen，
24sui，guchengongsishouxisuanfagongchengshi，mitboshi，
fuqinshizhimingwaikejiaoshou——yeshiguchendetianshitouzirenzhiyi。"zhishitongshi..."shenniannannanziyu，
quekongzhibuzhudiqufansuwendeshejiaomeiti。zuixinyizhangzhaopianshituanduijucan，guchenzuozaijiaoluo，
ersuwendepeiwenshi："ganxielingluren"。shennianfangdazhaopian，faxianguchenshoushanghaidaizhehunjie。
zheijiletamomingdexiwang。takaishimeitianjiguchenfaduanxin，congdaoqiandaohuiyi，congfennudaoaiqiu。
quanbushichendahai。zhidaodisanshiqitian，tashoudaoyitiaomoshenghaomahuifu："qingqianziba，duiwomendouhao。
"shennianlikeboguoqu，quebeizhuanruyuyinxinxiang。taduizhehuatonggengyan："guchen，jiwoyicijihui，
jiuyici...wozhidaowocuole，wozhendezhidao..."meiyouhuiyin。4yiwaidezhongfengsangeyuehou，
shilijubankejifenghui，shenniangongsishizhuyaozanzhushangzhiyi。tabenbuxiangcanjia，
zhidaozaijiabinmingdanshangkandao"shensikejiceoguchen"。fenghuidangtian，shennianjingxindaban，
tiqianliangxiaoshidaochang。dangguchendaizhetuanduizoujinhuichangshi，tajihurenbuchuta——jianleliluodeduanfa，
chuanzhetingkuodeshenlansexizhuang，jushoutouzujianjinshijingyingqizhi。erwanzhetashoubeide，zhengshisuwen。
shennianshenxiyikouqi，jingzhizouguoqu："guchen，haojiubujian。"guchenmingxianjiangleyixia，
ranhoukeqididiantou："shenzongjian。"neishulideyuqixiangduidaiputongshangyehuoban。"nengdandutantanma？
"shenniannulibaochiweixiao，"jiuwufenzhong。"guchenkanlekanbiao："baoqian，mashangyaoshangtaiyanjiang。
"taqingqingtuikaisuwendeshou，"nimenxianquzhunbei。"shengxialiangrenduchushi，qifenningzhongdelingrenzhixi。
shennianzhuyidaoguchenwumingzhishangdehunjiebujianle，xinzanghenhenyijiu。"nikanqilai...henhao。
"tajiannandikaikou。"xiexie。"guchendemuguangyueguota，kanxiangyuanchu，"niyeshi。""wokanlexinwen，
nideyiliaozhenduanxitongnadaolealunrongzi。"shennianmianqiangxiaodao，"gongxi。"guchenzhongyukanxiangta，
yanshenpingjing："xiexie。wojidenishuoguozheishi'buqieshijidehuanxiang'。
"shennianlianshangyire："wodangshibudong...""shennian。"guchendaduanta，"qianziba，
zheiyanghaozheduisheidoumeihaochu。""ruguowoshuowobuxianglihunni？"shennianshengyinfadou，
"ruguowoshuowohouhuile，xiangzhongxinkaishini？"guchenchenmolehenjiu，jiudaoshennianyiweitahuixinruan。
ranhoutashuo："taichile。neigeainideguchen，yijingsile。"zheishisuwenzouguolai："guzong，
haiyousanfenzhong。"guchendiandiantou，zuihoukanleshennianyiyan："baozhong。"ranhouzhuanshenliqu。shennianzhanzaiyuandi，
kanzheguchenzaitaishangkankanertan，kanzhesuwenchongbaideyanshen，
kanzhequanchangweitaguzhang...taturanmingbaizijishiquleshenme。neigezongshimomozhanzaitashenhoudenanren，
yuanlaikeyizheimeyaoyan。erta，qinshounongdiuleta。5posuidejiaoaofenghuihoudisantian，
shennianshoudaolefayuanchuanpiao——guchenqisulihun。tazuozailvshibangongshili，jixiedifankanwenjian，
erbianshilvshilengjingdefenxi："guxianshengtigongdezhengjuhenchongfen，
baokuonimenfenjudeshishi、hunyinpoliedezhengming...""shenmezhengju？"shennianmengditaitou。
lvshituiguolaiyigewenjianjia。
limianshidayindeliaotianjilu、hangbanxinxi、jiudianyuding——quanshitayingongzuofangguchengezidezhengming。
zuizhimingdeshiquniantahenantongshizaijiubadeheying，suiranmeishenmeyuejiexingwei，danzhaopianshangtaxiaodecanlan，
erneitianshiguchenshengri。"zheishi...jiankongwoma？"shennianshouzhifadou。
"zheixieshigongkaideshejiaomeitineirong。"lvshiweiwandishuo，"shenzong，congfalvjiaodu，
womenhennan...""woyaodazheichangguansi。"shenniandaduanta，"tuoduojiudouxing。"lvshiyuyanyouzhi，
zuizhongzhishidiantou："haode，wohuizhunbeiyingsucailiao。danninyaoyouxinlizhunbei..."zouchulvsuo，
shennianjiedaolemuqindedianhua："niannian，tingshuoguchenqisulihunle？"shennianwojinshouji："nizenmezhidao？
""tamamagangjiwodadianhua，shuohenyihan。"muqintanlekouqi，"woshuonia，zaogaitingwode，
nanrenbunengtaiguanzhe...""ma！"shennianturanbaofa，"qinianle，
ninvxulianlihundouyaotongguobierengaosuwo，nijuedezheishitadewentima？
"dianhuaneitouchenmolepianke："nichicuoyaole？dangchushisheishuoguchenmeichuxi..."shennianguaduandianhua，
zhanzaicheshuimalongdejietou，turanyishidaoyigekepadeshishi：tadehunyin，
zaobeisuoyourendeqidaihepianjianbangjiale，baokuotazijide。dangwan，shennianzuoleyigemeng。