第一章

muhouwenwo,「julechengsu,nibuhouhuime?shishangkongpazaizhaobudaobichengsugenghaodeerlang,nijigemeimeidouhendianjita,muhouteyijiangtajiniliuzhe。」

woxiangxiangchengsuneishengshimeiyan,pindecaigan,xinzhonghouhuidefajin。

kelianhemingbiqilai,xianranminggengzhongyaoyixie。

woshihuanghousuochu,dihouenai,kangliqingshen。

ziwochushengshi,fuhuangcongshubaigejixiangruyidefenghaozhong,xuanlefumaoerzi,zuoweiwodefenghao。

wodeqianbanshengjiqishunsui,danmingyunxianglaishigongpingde。

shiwusuishi,wozuoleyigeemeng。

womengjianfuhuangjiangwocihunjianguogongshizichengsu,chengsumianruguanyu,renchengpananzaishi。

gengnandetapinxinggaojie,biaoliruyi,hunhouduiwoyechengdeshangmenglixiaolang,shuzhongzhangchang。

tawanbanjiehao,keximingduan。

sannianhou,rongguolaifan,chengsusizaizhanchangshang。

youliangnian,rongguogongjinshangjing,fuhuangxiebaiguantaozou,huangluanzhong,wobeirongbingzhuozhu,yilushangcanzaowuru,zuihousizaidiying。

那一年,我二十岁。

wocongemengzhongjingxing,huangranbuzhijinxihexi。

wodaoshibuxiangxinzheimeng,kezheimengyizuojiushisanri,mengzhongxijiewodounengbeixialai。

qihoufuhuangjiangwocihunchengsu,wozenganzaijieyinyuan?

只能拒了。

ruciwocaiyouyidianduizijimingyundezhangkonggan。

wolanlandao,「buhouhui,huangdidenverbuchoujia,zongyouhechengsubuxiangshangxiaderenchuxian,zaizhe,nverhaixiangliuzaimuhoushenbianjinian,muhou,ninbuxiangliunverzaishenbianma?]

muhoumanyanchongni,「muhouziranxiangde,buguotaizuyouling,nvzishiliusuibujia,zuizaifumu,nishenweigongzhu,genggaizuonvzibiaolv,cishichizaoyaozhangluoqilaide。」woxiangqimengli,rongbingruqinhou,fuhuanghemuhoucongcongtaozou,muhoujingwenwobeilu,beifenzizexia,shenranzhongji,bingsituzhong,xinlijiubuhaoshou。

woyiweizaitahuaili,qiaoshengdao,haiyouyinianshijian,yinianshijian,nverzongnengxiangdaobanfade。」

wojiangmenglideshi—yijiluxialai。

naxierengaisi,naxierenbunengsi,douxiedeqingchu。

wodequeshiyigebunengganzhengdehougongnvzi,buguo,yingxiangchaojudeshiqing,buyidingyaoqinzichumian,guishenzhishuoyoushijiuhenhaoyong。

buguo,cishiyaozuodezhouquan,burangfuhuangqiyixin,shaobuleyixiedelibangshou。

wojiekouchugong,quwangqintianjian。

meichengxiang,queyudaochengsulanlu。

tawuduanbeiwojuhun,duoduoshaoshaoyingxiangleyixiemingsheng,wojuedeyoubiyaohetashuoqingchu,bianpingtuigongnvshiweirangtakaoqianshuohua。

chengsumouseyanlidedingzhewo,「weishenmejuhun,wonalibuhao?」wodingzhechengsuneizhanglian,youpiankeshishen。

menglisuojianyijiqimeihao,qinyansuojian,chongjigengda。

zheiyan,wonengkeyibeizi。

worenzhexinzhongtanlian,qiaoqiaoyanleyankoushui,pingjingdao,「ninalidouhao,jiushiminglizaoyao。]

chengsubeiyezhu,xianranmeixiangdaowojuhundeliyoujingranshizheige…tayouyoudao,「neihuodaoduoshaosuibusuanzaoyao?」

woxiangqimengli,sannianhouchengsujiuhuizhansishachang.……

wozhangzhangyitan,「zuiqimayaohuodaoershisuiba.…….

[hao,nidengzhewo,zaicizhiqian,nibunengjiajibieren。]chengsushenshendeningshiwo,jiangyizhiyuzansaidaowoshouli。「nidayingma?」

wodingzheshoulideyuzan,yizhenfameng。

他到底怎么想的?

yizhiyuzanjiuxiangbangzhuwo?

他在做梦吧!

「buxinge,taizuyouling,nvzishiliusuibihun,woshigongzhu,genggaiyishenzuoze,cishiwobunengdayingni。」

wojiangyuzanhaijita,shouzhichupengdeshunjian,yizhensuma,woganjinsuohuishou,youdianyihan,zheiyangxiuzhangyoulideshou,yihoubunengxianglajiulale。

woyaofankangmingyun,ziranbunengzaizoumenglidelaolu。

chengsuchunjiaojinmin,bingbushengqi。

「taizuyeshuoguo,gongzhuweiguoqifu,youdagongde,dianxiaruodaifaxiuxing,zirannengguojinianzaijia,dianxia,nibunengshuowobuxing,haibujiwojihuizhengming,shibushi?

tadeyuqijinpoyouningzhong。

woquemomingcongzhongtingchulaiqiukenzhiyi。

woyouyidiandianxinruan。「wozaixiangxiangkan。]

「gongzhuyinuo,simananzhui。chengsuzhengzhongdejiangyuzanfangjinwoshouzhong,zhuanshendabuliuxingdezoule。

[shei……sheinuole?]woyayi。

[dianxiaruoquqintianjianbianyaokuaiyixie,liudarenkuaisanyale。]chengsuqingxiaoyisheng。

wo「e]leyisheng,fanyingguolai。

「咦?」

tazenmezhidaowoyaoquqintianjian?