wo，chuxixi，chuanyuele，erqiechuanchengleyigegaoweizhiye……duanmingguoshi。1.dangwozhengkaiyandeshihou，
mianqianshiyizuomaozheqingyandeliandanlu，luzidixiahuoshaodezhengwang，erwoshoulizuanzheyibazhusha，
pangbianhaitanzheyiben《zhangshengdanfang》。woditoukanlekanzijishenshangdebaisedaopao，
youmolemotoudingshufadeyuguan，naozilihuanhuanfuxianchuyigeniantou。si……buhuiba，
buhuishineigezhiyeba……wanle，zheizhiyesiwanglvyoudiangaoa。“guoshidaren，
bixiamingninjikeqianwangzichendian。”yigetaijianzhanzaimenkou，shengyinjianxi，ng，bidianshijuliyandehaiyaoxi。
woyanleyankoushui，nulihuiyiyuanzhudejiyi，jieguofaxian……yuanzhushigeshengun。
haishigeyinweibutongyaoli、yongzhushahenikaohongshuzhongdu，zuowangangbaobideshengun。erwo，
yigexiandaixuanxuebozhu，chulehuihuyouren“shuinituisan”he“zhuanfazheitiaojinli”，duiliandansuanmingyiqiaobutong。
zheiboshidiyukaiju。zichendiannei，qifenningzhong。woyingzhetoupizoujinqu，
taitoujiuduishangleyishuanglengbingbingdeyanjing。huangdixiaolinyuan。tayishenxuanselongpao，xiukoujinxianxiuzhezhengningdelongwen，
xiuzhangdeshouzhizhengmanbujingxindiqiaozheyuan，meiyixiadouxiangshiqiaozaiwotianlinggaishang。“guoshi。”takaikou，
sangyindichen，daizheburongzhiyideyapogan，“sanrinei，lianbuchuzhangshengyao，titoulaijian。
”“……”wotemelianzhangshengyaozhangshayangdoubuzhidaoa！danwobuganshuo，zhinengganxiaoliangsheng：“bixiafangxin，
chen……jinli。”tamilemiyan，huranqingshenxiangqian，sixiaofeixiao：“aiqingjinri，daoshigewai……xinxu？
”wohoubeiyiliang，ganjinditou：“chenbugan！”“he。”taqingchiyisheng，huixiu，“tuixiaba。
”worumengdashe，zhuanshenjiuzou，jieguogangmaichuyibu。“duile。”tadeshengyinqingpiaopiaodicongshenhouchuanlai，
“ruozairangzhenfaxianniyongdanlukaohongshu……”wojiaoxiayigeliangqiang。“……？！”huidaoliandanfang，
wodingzheneikoubiwominghaiguidedanlu，xianrulechensi。santian，lianbuchuzhangshengyaojiudesi。lianle，
lianzhaleyedesi。hengshudoushisi，buru……xianchibaozaishuo？woguiguisuisuidimochuyuanzhutouzangdehongshu，
zuoyoukanlekan，querenmeirenhou，xunsusaijinledanluli。“fanzhengdoushihuo，kaogehongshuzenmele？
”woxiaoshengdigu，shunshouwangluzilideluanqibazao“xianyao”qinglilechulai。“zheidezhengganjingdian，
wanyijiwoyezhengzhongdule……”luhuopipazuoxiang，hongshudetianxiangjianjianpiaolechulai，wodunzaipangbian，
duzigugujiao。tu。“peng！”yishengjuxiang，danluzhale。……cao？hongshuyenengzha？yanchenmimanzhong，
wohuitoutuliandikesouzhe。ranhou，wotingdaolejiaobusheng。henqing，henwen，danmeiyibudouxiangshicaizaiwoshenjingshang。
wojiangyingditaitou，yanwusankai，yidaoqizhangdeshenyingzhanzaimenkou，nizheguang，kanbuqingbiaoqing。
ng……haoxiangshixiaolinyuan。tamantiaosilidimaiguomenjian，muguangluozaiwoshoulidehongshushang，
youyixiangzhaliededanlu，zuihou……tingzailewolianshang。“aiqing。”tahuanhuankaikou，
shengyinlidaizheyisiguiyideyuyue，“zheijiushinijiguliande……zhangshengyao？”wanle，zheixiazhenyaoliangle。
2.zicongshangcidanluzhalezhihou，gouhuangdijuranmeikanwonaodai，zhishifawochaoleshibian《danjing》。
danwentishi，wolianmaobidoubuhuina！wodingzhexuanzhishangwaiwainiuniudeguihuafu，tanlekouqi，gancuibabiyireng，
congxiuzilimochutouzangdeguazi，biankebiansikaorensheng。santianqixianyiguo，gouhuangdijuranmeitizhangshengyaodeshi。
zheihenbuzhengchang。anzhaotaolu，woxianzaiyinggaiyijingbeituochuqukanle，huozheguanjindalaoyanxingkaoda。
kexianshishi……huangdibujinmeishawo，haijiwojialefenglu。tagaibuhuishixiangyangfeilezaishaba？“guoshidaren。
”zhoujianzhengxiaomimidizoujinlai，shoulipengzheyidieguaqian，“jinrigaiweibixiabuguale。”wozuijiaoyichou。
bugua？wolianliushisiguadoubeibuquan！danweilehuoming，wojuedingfahuixiandairendezhihui，kaimeng！
wozhuangmozuoyangdiqiazhiyisuan，shizetoutouhuiyibaojunzheijitiandexingcheng：-zuotianpizouzhedaobanye。
-jinzaozoulelianggetanwudeguanyuan。-wushanshisihuweikoubuhao……yushi，
woshenchendao：“bixiajinri……buyizaochao。”zhoujianzhengtiaomei：“e？weihe？
”woyibenzhengjing：“genjuzuoribixiapiyuezouzhedepilaozhi，jiashangjinchenchengzhitanguandenuqizhi，zonghecesuan，
jinrizaochao……kongyou……ng……bushun。”qishijiushixiangrangtaduoshuihuier。
zhoujianzhengsixiaofeixiaodikanlewoyiyan，meichaichuan，nazheguaqianzoule。yigeshichenhou。
gouhuangdijuranzhendemeishangchao！woduozaizhuzihoumiantoukan，faxiandachenmenmianmianxiangqu，
ergouhuangdi……tazhengkaozailongyishang，bimuyangshen。zhengdangwozhanzhanzixishi，beihouturanchuanlaiyishenglengxiao。
“guoshidarenhaobenshi。”wohunshenyijiang，huanhuanhuitou。cuichengxiangzhengyinsensendidingzhewo。“yaodao！
”tayadishengyin，“nijiujingyongleshenmeyaoshumihuobixia？！”**xiao：“chengxiangdaren，
zheihuakebunengluanshuo……”talenghengyisheng，shuaixiuerqu，
linzouqiandiuxiayiju：“benguandinghuijiechuannidezhenmianmu！”wanle，beidingshangle。weilezibao，
wojuedingzhudongchuji。jiranhuangdixihuanwode“guaxiang”，neiwojiuduosuanjige！yushi，
wokaishilewodehuyoudaye：-jihubushangshusuan：“darenjinricaiyunhengtong……danxufangxiaoren。
”（qishijiushikantazuijinpangle，xiangtanleyinzi）-jijiangjunsuan：“sanrihoubuyichuzheng，
fouzekongyouxueguangzhizai。”（qishishikantayintangfahei，
xiangsuzuiweixing）-jicuichengxiangsuan……wodingzhetakanlebantian，turanfuzhixinling：“chengxiangdaren，
jiayouxishia！”cuichengxiangyileng：“shenmexishi？”woshenmiyixiao：“tianjibukexielu。
”qishiwoshadoumeikanchulai，chuncuishixiangdoudouta。santianhou。cuichengxiangjia……zhendechu“xishi”le。
tajiademuzhu，xialeshierzhizai。chaotangshang，
gouhuangdisixiaofeixiaodikanxiangcuichengxiang：“tingwenaiqingfushang……tiandingle？
”cuichengxianglianlvdexiangcaiyezi：“bixia！neishizhu！”xiaolinyuandiantou，yiweishenzhang：“guoshiguoranshensuan。
”wo：“₍˄·͈༝·͈˄*₎◞̑̑”xiachaohou，wozhengxiangliu，
turanbeiyizhigujiefenmingdeshoulinzhulehouling。“aiqing。”baojundichendeshengyinzaierbianxiangqi，
“guhenhaoqi……”taweiweifushen，huxifuguowoerjian：“nixiaci……hainengsuanchushenme？
”3.wohuaiyigouhuangdizaiyanwo。zicongwo“shensuan”chucuichengxiangjiamuzhuxiazaihou，
chaotangshangxiakanwodeyanshendoubianle。jingweizhongdaizheyisihuangmiu，huangmiulichanzhejifenzhenhan。
liancuichengxiangneigelaowangu，xianzaijianwodouraodaozou。danwentishi，xiaolinyuan，tabuduijing！anzhaozhengchangqingjie，
tayinggaiyijingkaishihuaiyiwoshigepianzi，ranhoubawotuochuqukanle。kexianshishi……tabujinmeikanwo，
haibianbenjialidi……zongrongwo。biruqiantian。wobuxiaoxindafanledanlu，luhuipenlemanwuzi。
shiweimenhedeguileyidi，yiweiwoyaobeichusile。jieguobaojunlaile，kanleyiyan，
dandandao：“fachao《danjing》ershibian。”jiuzhei？wozhanzhanjingjingdiwen：“bixia……bukanchendenaodai？
”tapielewoyiyan，huranshenshou，pailepaiwofajiandeluhui，
mantiaosilidao：“aiqingdenaodai……guliuzheyouyong。”……shenmeyong？dangyehuma？zaibiruzuotian。
wosuanguashizuipiao，shuodangtianxinanzhendebaoyuqingpen，yaoyansanzuoliangcang，jieguodangtianyanyanggaozhao。
chaochenmendanhewo“yaoyanhuozhong”，yaoqiuyancheng。baojuntingwan，lengxiaoyisheng：“guoshisuancuoyici，fafengsanyue。
”wozhengxiangkuqiong，jieguodangwan。wodeqindianliduoleyixiangjinzi。xiangzishanghaitielezhangzitiao：「bufenglu。」
bixia，ninzheicaozuo，wohenhuanga！zuilipudeshijintian。wodunzaiyuhuayuandejiashanhoumian，toutoukaoji。
zicongfaxianxiaolinyuanduiwozailiandanfanggaoshaokaozhengyizhiyanbiyizhiyanhou，wodedanziyuelaiyuefei。
jishiyushanfangtoude，diaoliaoshitaiyiyuanshunde，huozhezishizhoujianzhengyouqingzanzhude。wozhengmeizizidifanzhekaoji，
turan。“guoshihaoyaxing。”yidaoliangsousoudeshengyincongbeihouchuanlai。woshouyidou，kaojichadiandiaojinhuoduili。
huanhuanhuitou。xiaolinyuan，zhengjugaolinxiadikanzhewo。pangbianhaizhanzhemudengkoudaidecuichengxiang。wanle，
zheicizhendeyaoliangle。**xiao：“bixia，nintingwojieshi……”xiaolinyuanmeishuohua，
zhishishenshoujieguolewodekaoji。ranhou，zaicuichengxiangzhenjingdemuguangzhong，mantiaosilidiyaoleyikou。
“huohoubucuo。”tadandandao，“kongzhidebinisuanguazhun。”cuichengxiang：“？？？”bixia，
ninshibushibeishenmeqiguaidedongxifutile？！wanshang，wotangzaitashangfanlaifuqushuibuzhe。tadaodixiangganma？
weishenmebuchaichuanwo？weishenmezongrongwo？nandao……taxihuanwo？“pu——！
”wobeizijidenaobuhedepenchuyikoucha。bukeneng！jueduibukeneng！neikeshihuangdi！sharenruqiecaidehuangdi！
tayaoshixihuanwo，wodangchangbadanluchixiaqu！zhenghusiluanxiang，menwaituranchuanlaijiaobusheng。woshunjianbengzhilebei。
“zhiya。”menbeituikai，yidaoxiuzhangdeshenyingniguangerli。tachuanzheyishenmosechangfu，yijinweichang，
shoulihailinzheyihujiu。……shenyelaifang，haidaijiu？zheiqingjiebutaiduijinga！woganjinpaqilai：“bixia，
ninzheishi……”tajingzhizoudaowomianqian，bajiuhuwanganshangyifang：“peizhenhejiu。”minglingshiyuqi，
burongjujue。woyingzhetoupizuoxia，xiaoxinyiyidijitadaojiu。jiuguosanxun。gouhuangdi……juranshuizhele。
tadanshouzhizheejiao，jiemaozaizhuguangxiatouchuyipianyinying，huxipingwen。……jiuzhei？
wohaiyiweiyao……heiheihei……wobeizijixiangfadouxiaole。woyouyuleyixia，
haishiqingshouqingjiaodinalejianwaipao，xiangjitapishang。jieguoshougangpengdaotajianbang。taturanzhengyan，
yibazuanzhuwodeshouwan！“aiqing……”tasangyindiya，daizheyisigangxingdeyonglan，“xiangshijun？
”wo：“bixia，ninzheibeihaiwangxiangzhenggaizhizhile！”woxiangchouhuishou，quebeitawodegengjin。
tademuzhiqingqingmosuozhewodewangu，yanshenhuianbuming：“guoshijinri……henfangsia。”wohoubeiyiliang。
wanle，qiuhousuanzhanglaile！zhengxiangjiaobian，taqueturansongkaiwo，qishenzouxiangmenkou。“mingri……”tahuitou，
zuijiaoweiyang，“guxiangchijiaohuaji。”wo：“guoshihai**dangchuzima？”4.cuichengxiangzuijinkanwodeyanshen，
fangfozaikanyigehuoguoyaofei。zicongbaojunbanyelaiwofangli“hejiu”zhihou，chaotangshangdefengyanfengyujiumeitingguo。
yourenshuowoyonglegushu，yourenshuowoxueleyaofa，zuilipudeshiyourenshuowojibixiaxialejiangtou。wodaoshixiang！
wentishiwolianjiangtoushishenmedoubuzhidao！jintianzaochao，cuichengxiangyoukaishiletadebiaoyan。tajuzhehuban，
yizhengciyan：“bixia！guoshijinrixingweiguiyi，liandanbucheng，zhanbubuzhun，kongfeizhengdao！chenqingchecha！
”baojunzuozailongyishang，danshouzhizhexiaba，lanyangyangdi“ng”leyisheng：“zenmecha？
”cuichengxiangjingshenyizhen：“chenqingsouchaguoshifu！”wo：“？！”chashenme！
chawofanglihaizangzhebanzhimeichiwandekaojima！baojunsixiaofeixiaodikanlewoyiyan，ranhou……zhunle。
bangeshichenhou。guoshifubeifanlegedichaotian。cuichengxiangdaizherenchongjinwodeliandanfang，xiankaidanlugaizi。
limianshiwozuowankaodelizi。taliansetieqing，youqufanwodeshuan。shangmianshiwohuadewangba，
pangbianxiezhe“cuichengxiang”sangezi。cuichengxiang：“(งᵒ̌minᵒ̌)ง⁼³₌₃”wo：“……ke。
”baojunzhanzaimenkou，zuijiaoweiyang：“aiqingdehuaji……henyoutese。”**xiao：“bixiaguojiang。
”cuichengxiangbusixin，youqufanwodechuangta。ranhoucongzhentoudixiamochuyiben《badaobaojunaishangwo》。
……kongqiturananjing。xiaolinyuantiaomei：“aiqingdeshuiqianduwu……henyouqu。”wo：“！！！
”woyibaqiangguohuaben，qiangzhuangzhending：“zheishi……yanjiubixialongweidecankaoziliao！
”cuichengxiangzhongyuzhuadaolebabing，lishengdao：“bixia！guoshisizangyinhuishuji，qixinkezhu！”wo：“？？？
”zheizenmejiuyinhuile！liangeqinzuimiaoxiedoumeiyou！xiaolinyuanqueturanshenshou，congwoshoulichouzoulehuaben，
manyouyoudifanleliangye。“zhendaoshihaoqi……”tataimou，yandidaizhewanweidexiaoyi，
“aiqingyanjiuchushenmele？”wo：“……”yanjiuchuninkenengshigebiantai。souchaxingdongyishibaigaozhong。
cuichengxiangqihuhudizoule，linzouqianhaidenglewoyiyan，fangfozaishuo“nijiwodengzhe”。wochongtazuolegeguilian。
ranhouyihuitou。faxianxiaolinyuanzhengzaikanwo。yanshenweimiao。woganjinduanzhengbiaoqing：“bixia，
chenyuanwang……”tahurantaishou，congwozhuoanxiaquchuyipianliziqiao：“aiqing……”wopingzhuhuxi。
tayaofabiaole？yaokantoule？jieguo……“xiacikaolizi，jidejizhenliuyifen。”wo：“……？”bixia，
nindezhongdianshibushicuole？！benyiweizheishijiuzheimeguoqule。meixiangdao，cuichengxiangzeixinbusi。diertian，
tadaizheyiqundachen，guizaizichendianwai，shengleijuxia：“bixia！guoshiyaoyanhuozhong，zuorisouchaweiguo，
dingshitiqianxiaohuilezhengju！chenqing……”gouhuangdidaduanta：“cuiqing。”cuichengxiangtaitou：“bixia？
”gouhuangdidandandao：“nishangyuedanheguoshisuanguabuzhun，shuotayuyan‘jiayouxishi’shihuyanluanyu。
”cuichengxiangyileng：“shi……shia！”baojunzuijiaoweiyang：“neizuori，nifurenweihejizhendilexitie？
”cuichengxiang：“？？？”woye：“？？？”shenmexitie？baojunshuaichuyizhangtangjintiezi：“cuifurenshuo，
fushangdinvxiayuedahun，qingguhexijiu。”cuichengxiangdangchangliekai：“bixia！chennvcaishiersuia！
”dangtianwanshang。cuichengxiangfushangjifeigoutiao。jushuocuifurenjiuzhecuichengxiangdeerduomalebangeshichen，
zhiwentashenmeshihoujinverdingleqin。erwo。zhengmeizizidikenzhexiaolinyuanshangdekaolutui。zhoujianzhengdunzaipangbian，