第一章 心中有愧

深夜,红烛微摇。

gongrenweixiyanchaidiaofaji,xiequjinchai。

tataimou,tongjingzhongneichuanzhehunfudemiankong,rucimosheng。

“zhiya”yisheng,dianmenhuranbeituikai。

dugufenchuanzheyishenzhenghonghunfuzoudaotashenhou,manshendejiuqihezhifenxiangdunshixishangtabijian。

xiyanpiantouxiangyaoduo,quebeitamengdiniezhuxiaba,lidaodaderangtamouzhongshunjianmengshangyicengshuiwu。

“duoshenme?wopengbude,ng?”dugufenchenzhelianse,muguangyinzhi。

xiyanyaochun,buqukanjingzhongdedugufen,pingjingkaikou:“dijunjinye,dangsuzaihuanghougongzhong。”

jinritayuhuanghouyitongjiaruzhigongzhong,danhuanghoushizhenggong,tabuguoshifeiqie。

wenyan,dugufenlengxiaoqilai,qianzhemoxiyandeshouwanjiangtatuidaozaichuangtashang,muguangxiangcuiledu:“xiyan,rujinzhenggetianxiadoushiwode!nibuguoshigejiexiaqiu,pingshenmeguanwoshuina?”

shuowan,tadedashouwuqingdishenxiangleta。

“buyao——!”xiyandunshizuanjinleyiling,yilianjujue。

taningyuanyudugufenyongyuanbaochididui,yehaoguozaitashenxiashouru!

tabuaita,maotianxiazhidabuweiquziji,yebuguoshixiangzheruziji。

“buyao?”dugufenkanzhetafenrandemoyang,yanzhongyuefalengmo,“niyoushenmezigeshuobuyao?”

“xiyan,nihaisiwozuiaideren,jinrizhongzhong,buguoshiwohuibaonidewanfenzhiyibale!”tashengyinsiya,touzhechegudehenyi。

xiyankandexinzhongyitong,fankangdedongzuoshurandunzhu。

shinianqian,xiongshougunyinlaitaotianshuihuan,wushubaixingzaonan,tapinsiyizhanfengyingunhouxianxielingdansuilie,genbenwulizaishijiubaixi。

dandugufenkukuaiqiutajiubaixishi,tahaishidongyaole。

zhishi,talingqihaojin,zhongjiumeinengjiuxiabaixi……

“baoqian……”zheijianshi,shitaqiandugufende,wukebianbo。

kezheijudaoqian,bingmeiyourangdugufenyourenhedetingzhi。

tafaxiebandiyaozaitajiantou,xiyanlaibujihanteng,yifujiubeitacubaodichekai,baixidejifugengranshanglehonghen。

“bie,biezheiyang——!”taxiangyitiaolishuideyu,mengranzhengzhaqilai。

weilenanchuzimin,guijiangzhishitafuxialeyunlingdan,tineilingqichongzhuang,rujinbifanrendouxuruo,ruhenengfankangxiuweizaoyishenbukecededugudijun。

tatongdequansuo,renbuzhujiujinlechuangru,yanweihanzheshirundechaohong。

chuangwaishiqifengkuyu,fangzhongshigungunliehuo。

zheibanzheteng,xiyanzhidaodierriwuhouyemeixingguolai,gengshifaqidishao。

dugufenquezaimeilaikanguotayiyan,fangruotagenbenbucunzaiyiban。

zhidaozheiriqingchen,shaotuihoudexiyantingdaogongrenyilun,nanchupairencishadugufenshibai,dugufenburibianyaoqinzhengnanchu。

liangguojiaozhan,bidingshenglingtutan。

tashenweinvwazuhouyi,shidaiyishouhutianxiacangshengweijiren,zennengzuoshibuli?

dezhidugufenzaizhanglegong,xiyandiyicitachulechenbigong。

tiansejianwan,daxuemantian。

xiyanguizaixuedili,renyouxuehualuolemanjian,shuangtuidongdaomeiyouzhijue。

kezhanglegongdianmenyijiujinbi。

tieshenfushitadeqiuyuxinzhongburen,shengyindaizhekuqiang:“niangniang,bieguile……bixiagenbenbuhuijiannin,ninguihuaileshenzi,daoshihoushoukudehaishizijia……womenhuiba……”

xiyandongledongwuqingdechun,shengyinzhandou:“tabujianwo,wobianbuzou。”

tabingbujupasi,nvwayizushidaishouhunanchuzimin,ruotadexishengkeyibaozhuwanqianbaixingdexingming,xiyanxinganqingyuan。

erqie,taxiangxin,tabushineibanwuqingzhiren……

zhengzaizheishi,weiyanggongdianmen“zhiya”yishengkaile。

xiyandeyanjingdunshiliangle,danhaiweikanqinglairen,bianbeiyipenbinglengdeshuidoutoujiaoxia!