第一章:有苦难言

我叫叶梓。

womeiyouxiangdao,yiyezhijian,wochuguijilaogongdailvmaodexiaoxizaidanweichuanlegebian。

wozaiyijiaguoqixingzhengbumendangwenyuan。

zheigegangweigongzishao,shiyeshao,jibenkeyishuoshihunchidengsidezhuangtai。

shangbanshijianyixian,dajiajiuxihuanweizaiyiqiliaobagua,youqishizheizhongqingyisenvrendebumen,zuiailiaoqijiazhangliduan,jiuhaoxiangxianzai,huatimomingdikaishichaozhelaogongneifangmianlibulihaiqule。

xingzhengbuchulewo,doushisansishisuidezhongnianfunv,yebuzhidaotamenshibushiyinweidaolerulangsihudenianji,liaoqixingshifangmiantebiedexiongmeng。shenmechibuchijiu,yiyejicide。tingdewomianhongerchi。

zhaojieduiwojimeinongyan:“nilaogongkendingtebieqiangba?kantabizijiuzhidaotakendingbuxiao。”

qitarenlikegenzheqihongzhuiwenwoxijie。

wohanhuyidui:“ng,haixing。”

dajiabeiwoniuniuningningdetaidunongdewuqu。woduimiandewangyunbumandao:“zheiliquandoushijieguohunde,haizhuangshenmechu!”

wangyunbiwodashangliusui,dabanshangquebiwohaikaifang。yitou**langzhangfa,shenchuanvlingdeheileisiqun,xiongqianxinggandegouxianruoyinruoxian,peishangtajiaoshangdehei**jiagaogenxie,wumeidebuxing。

taqianniandililehun,lihunyuanyinbudeerzhi。bumendedajiemenzaibeihouyilunta,shuotashixianlaogongchuangshangmanzubuleta。

zhuyaoshiwangyunyiliaoqinanrenzheifangmiandehuatijiutebiededadankaifang。

wolianhongdenengdixue,xinzhongyoukunanyan。

meicuo,wohaizhenshichu,yinweiwolaogongneifangmian……

不行。

wonianchuganghesongpeichujiewanhun。

hunqianwomendoushifahuqingzhihuli,neishiwohaijuedesongpeichuzheigerenbucuo,henwenzhong。woshihunhoucaizhidaosongpeichuneifangmianyoumaobingde。

songpeichushiyiminggongchengshi,hewoshixiangqinrenshide,kanbicitiaojianheshi,jiubaguanxiquedingxialai,tanlebanniandelianaijiulinglezheng。

qishiwobingbuxiangzheimekuaijiehun,zhuyaoshiwomacuidejin,danxinwoguole26suijiabuchuqu。

jiashangsongpeichujizhexiangyaojiehun,wojiuhulihutubazijijijiale。

xiabanshijianyidao,wopaodebisheidoukuai。

wopahuijiachileyouyaorepopobugaoxing。

wobenlaidegangweishizaixiaoshoubuzuoyewuyuan,gesanchawujiuyaoyingfuyixiefanju。popohenkanbuguoqu。shuowoneishibushoufudao,zhiyouzuoxiaojiedecaihuipeinanrenhejiuchifan。wobukencizhi,jiushuowojitamensongjiadiulian,paoquwodanweinao。

worangsongpeichubangwoshuohua,tafanquanwohuangegangwei,shuowoshijielehunderen,poporangwojiandianshiweiwohao。jianglaiwomenyoulexiaohai,woyebukenenghaizhengrizaiwaimianbenboyingchou。

zuihoushiworangbu,diaoruxianzaidexingzhengbu,gongzigenzheshaoleyidaban。

huijiadetuzhong,daxuehaoyouyulanjiwodalaidianhua,yuqihenshijidong。

“yezi!nixihuandezhouxuezhanghuilaile!jinwanjigexiaoyoujitajiefengxichen,niyiqiguolaibei。”

fengchendejiyishunjiandakai,yizhangjunyisiwendelianyingruwonaohai。

woxintoucileyixia,kaikoujujue:“bule,nimenwandekaixinyidian。”

dangnianbiaobaibeixiurudeqingjinglilizaimu,hekuangwoyihun,buxiangjiewaishengzhi。

wohuidaojia,haimeilaidejichuankouqi,popoxuemeijianruideshengyincongchufangchuanruwoerzhong:“dachu,nikankandoujidianle!zheigeshihounagezhengjingnvrenbuhuijiazuofan?nilaopodaohao,haiyaowozheigelaorenjiasihouta!”

我心里一沉。

yuanbensongpeichuhewoshuohao,hunfangzhiyouwomenxiaoliangkouzhu,guoqiwomendeerrenshijie。

jieguowomenjiehunhou,poposhuozijishentibushiyidingyaoconglaojiabanguolai。

popobanjinlaihou,womeijiandaotashentibushi,fandaozhongqishizugezhongtiaowodemaobing。

wowangleyanlanyangyangtanzuozaishafashangdesongpeichu,maiyuandao:“mayigerenzaichufangmang,nizenmebujinqubangmang?”

xuemeiyigejianbuchongchulai,heizhelianduisongpeichudao:“zuofanshinvrendeshi,nixiachanheshenme!nixiannishangbanhaibugouleime?jixukannidedianshiqu!”

songpeichuyiting,gengjiaxinanlidedizuozaishafashangkantadedianshi。

woxinliweiqu,songpeichushangbanleiwojiubulei?

kewoxianglaijiushibaozixingge,yemeiyouzaishuoshenme,guaiguaijinchufangganhuoqu。

womayizhijiaoyuwo,dang**zijiubunengxiangyiqianrenxing,yidingyaohaohaoxiaoshungonggongpopo。xuemeikanchuwoshigehaonaniede,songpeichuyoububangwo,gengjiashijingqifuwo。

chiwanfan,wojiangguowanpiaopencaxiganjing,youbaketingtuoleyibian,tuozhepijuandeshentizoujinwoshi。

songpeichuyijingpobujidai,cuicuwoxizao。

woyicongyushichulai,talikepudaowo。