1982年，冬。
xibeijunqu，moujiashuyuan。
“gazhi！”yisheng，fangmencongwaimianbeituikai。
yidaodaizhehanyidegaodashenyingjinlewu，lizailechuangqian。
“yunyan，dasaogenxiaozhoushiqudage，yijinghentongkule，nihaiqifutamen，baxiaozhouguashushang，nihaishibushiren？zenmexinchangzheimeedu？”
shuimengzhongdeyunyanbeichaoxing，zhengyanjiuduishangleyishuangdaizhetaotiannuhuodeyanjing。
tayigejiling，zuoleqilai。
zheirenshisheia？zhangdedaoshiguaijunde，jiushikanzhehaoxiong，yifuhenbudeshalezijideyangzi。
gulinyinchenzhelian，sangyinbingleng，“xiachuang，xianzaijiugenwoqujidasaodaoqian，
yaoshidasaobukenyuanliangni，yaomenilaolaoshishigunhuixiangxiaqu，yaomewomenlihun。”
yunyanrouhuhudedabinglianshangxiemanleyihuo，danhenkuai，tajiuxiangdaoleshenme。
weiyanzhengcaixiang，taditou，zijiyuanbenxianxideyaozhibujianle，huanchenglezhuangshuowubideshenqu。
guoran！zijichuanshule，chuanjinlezuowanaoyekandeyibenniandaiwenxiaoshuoli。
shuzhongdenanzhujiaogulin，nvzhushinanzhudesaozixiaomingyue。
ergenzijitongmingtongxingdeyuanzhu，zeshinanzhumeishenmecunzaigandepaohuiqizi。
yuanzhupangyouchou，zaicunlibenshijiabuchuqude，naiheminghao，tadiejiulegulindiedeming，yunjiaxieenqiangqiu，bizhegulinquleyuanzhu。
gulinbuxihuanyuanzhu，xinhunzhiyehoujiudiuxiayuanzhuqubuduile。
yuanzhudaoshiwusuowei，jigulinshengxiayigeerzi，zaipojiaderiziyesuanguodezirun。
biangufashengzaigulindageturanejiqushishuyuehou，yuanzhutoutinggonggong、poposhangliang，yaoranggulinjiantiaoliangfang，cunliyigejia，buduiyigejia。
buzhidaogulindayingmeidaying，fanzhengyuanzhudangxiajiubuganle。
lianyetoulejialideqian，lingzheerzilaibuduizhaonanren。
yidaobudui，tacaifaxian，gulinshenqingdejunshuyuandefangzifenxialaile，litouzhuzhedasaomuzi，gengulinxiangyijiarenside。
qizhatiandeyuanzhubenxiangnao，dangulinyancichengkendegentajieshileyifan，shuozhishipadagegangzou，dasaoxunduanjian，caijiangrenliuzaiyanpidixiadingzhe。
yuanzhumeinaoqilai，dandaodixinlibushufu，zongshimeishizhaoshi。
laijunshuyuanmeijigeyue，jiuredegulinyane，dayuandeqitarenbuxi，shenzhilianerzi，doupianxianglexiaomingyue……
“yunyan，woshuohuanitingjianlemeiyou？erduolongle？”
jianyunyanzoushen，benjiushengqidegulingengjiashengqi。
“hunaoyeyaoyougexiandu，yiciyouyicidereshi，nizhendeshitaiguofenle。”
zijihaiyougongzuo，bukenengyizhigenzaita**houmianjitashoushilantanzi。
“听见了。”
yunyanlianquxindifanzadesixu，taiyankanxiangmianqianshenselinran，yanshenruilidenanren。
“womeicuo，wobuqudaoqian。”
zheibenshutasuiranzhikanleyiban，buzhidaonannvzhuzuihouyoumeiyouzaiyiqi，gulinyoumeiyoudayingtafumujiantiaoliangfangdetiyi，danyanxiadeqingjie，tashiyoukandaode。
yuanzhuhuishoushixiaomingyueerzi，chuncuishiyinweixiaomingyueerzizuijian，mayuanzhu，shenzhihaicuanduoyuanzhuerzimayuanzhu，touyuanzhudeqian。
“neiwomenlihun，huozhenihuixiangxiaqu。”
jianyunyanfanlecuo，haiyifumanbujianglideyangzi，gulinxinyichen，lengshengdao。
shuolihunzhishiqihua，shihehutade，bijingzijigentayijingyouyigeerzile，hunnanengshuolijiuli，tajiushixiangrangtahuixiangxiaqu。
yunyanlaidayuanduanduanshuyue，jiunaodejifeigoutiao，yuanlimeigeqingjing，bushaorenduiciyouyijian，shenzhibuduidelingdaodouzhaotatanhuale。
tayirenzairen，shizaishirenbuxiaqule。
haohuashuojin，yunyanyebuwangxinliqu，zheicaixiangjiangrensonghuiqu。
yunyanminleminchun，huixiangxiaqu？yuanzhudouyijinggengonggong、poponaofanle，zijihuixiangxiaqu，hainengyouhaoriziguoma。
不回，不能回。
lihun？hundaoshikeyili，danzijicaiganglaizheibian，renshengdibushude，haodaidexianshuxiyixiaqingkuang，zhanwenjiaogen。
kuaisuquanhenglibiyifan，tadao：“wobulihun，woyebuhuixiangxiaqu。”
“yunyan！zheirizinihaiguobuguole？”
gulinliansetieqing，yaoyaqiechidedihou。
tazhendefantouleyunyanzheisizhubupakaishuitangdetaidu。
yunyanchengdeyixiacongchuangshangtiaolexiaqu，shenshangderougenzhezhanlezhan，linghuoyouyouxiebenzhuodeyangzikanzheyoudianhuaji。
taxiabaweitai，bubeibukangdedao：“gupaizhang，kuinihaishipaizhang，fashengshiqing，buwenqingchuyuanyou，bufenqinghongzaobaijiuzhizezijideqizi。”
“zuzhijiushizheimepeiyangnide？”
gulinqiheidemoudihuaguoyimoyiwai，wanquanmeiliaodaoyunyanhaihuizheimeshuo。
tadingdingdewangzheyunyan，yanshenlidaizheshenshi。
shizijidecuojuema？ganjuetasihunalibianle。
ke，mingmingtahaishizhiqiandeneigeta，panghuhude，heiyouyoude，manhengdeta。
“kanzhewozuoshenme？wogaosuni，womeicuo！shixiaozhoumeidameixiao，buzunzhongzhangbei，mawozaixian，haicuanduoyunlinyegenzhemawo，wozheicaibangdasaojiaoyuhaizide。”
yunyanzhenzhenyouci，“haizibuchenzaoguan，dengyihouzhangdale，sharenfanghuozaiguanjiuchile。”
“dasaoyinggaiganxiewocaishi。”
“nihaixiangrangwoqujitagenxiaozhoudaoqian，zhenshidaofantiangangle，sheifancuosheiyoulishibushi？”
顾凛：“……”
tashenxiyikouqi，yaxiaxinlidefanzao，xizhangdeshouzhienleenmeixin。
jiranyunyanzheimeshuo，neizijijiuqubazheijianshigaodeqingqingchuchude，miandetagengezhandoujiyiyang，jixuxiangxianzaizheiyanggenzijijiaoxiao。
xiandezijimeili，yuanwangrenyiyang。
“yunyan，xing！nidengzhe，woxianzaijiuqubazheijianshinongdeqingqingchuchu。”
tasangyinbingleng，“ruguowoxiangxidiaochahou，faxianhaishinidecuo，nibixuhuijiaqu，genwosapoyebuhaoshi，wobuhuixinruande。”
yunyanheibaifenmingdeyanjingkanzheta，yidianerdoumeiyouxinxudejixiang。
gulinjianmeiweilong，xindao：nandaozheicizhendeyuanwangyunyanle？
bushimeiyouzheigekeneng，dancongyiwangyunyandesuozuosuoweikan，kenengxingbijiaoxiao。
tashenshendeniletayiyan，zhuanshenliqu。
yunyanwangzhegulinjunlvsedeshenyingcongwulixiaoshi，jinbengdejianbangdalalexialai，shenseyeyouleyisisongdong。
她后悔不已。
zaozhidaojiugaikuaisujiangneibenshukanwan，huozhezhijiefandaoshudezuihouyizhang，kankanjiejushishenme。
xianzaihaole，shukanleyiban，jinshouzhibuquan，houxuqingjiezenmefazhande，tayigaibuzhi。
tanlekouqi，yunyanditou，shixianluozaizijizhuangshuo、feipangdeshenqushang。
yuanzhuzheiyetaipangle，pangdaodouyouxieyingxiangjiankangle。
zheikebuxing，dejianfeia。
taqianshishishehuijizhe，naliyouxinwennalijiuyouta，haiyaoshangjing，xingxianggenshentiziranshibuchade。
xianzaichuanshule，tabuyaoqiuzijishencaihuifuchengyuanxianneiyang，danhaodaidejiankang，yuncheng。
xinlizhengzheimexiangzhe，waimianxiangqiyizhenxixisuosuodeshengyin。
yunyanmouguangyishan，qingshouqingjiaodelakailemen，wangshengyinchuanlaidedifangkanqu。