第二章内疚
“gaosuwonihesuyudaodizaina，zaiganshenme！”
wodeyuqizhongchongmanfennudezhiwendao。
danshiyuyinliduimianqueyijiumeiyourenshengchuanlai，zhiyaoyoujudadeyinleshenghongming。
woshunjianmingbailetadeyisi，bujiantuzibusayingbei！
woqiangrenzhefennu，zhaodaoleyiqiancundesuyuguimideyinxingkahao，zhijiedaleshiwankuaiguoqu。
dangzhuanzhangduanxinchuxiandeneiyike，duimianzhongyuchuanlaileyigeqingcuidedenvyin。
“gaosunimeiwenti，danshiwotiqiangennishuohao，zheiyiqiedouhewomeiyouguanxi，woyeshenmedoumeihenishuoguo！”
suihoutazhijieguaduanledainihua，shimiaozhongzhihou，duimiantuiguolaileyigemoshengdeweibozhanghao。
wodaizheyimoyihuodianlejinqu。
jinquzhihou，kandaoweibotouxiangshangneigelianshangbumanxiaorongdenvren，zheicaizhidaozheiyuanlaishisuyusixiadelingyigeweibo。
wohetazaiyiqishinian，doumeiyoufaxiansuyujingranhaiyoulingyigeweibo，guaibudepingriliwodanfanpengyixiatadeshouji，suyudouhuimomingqimiaofayidunpiqi。
yuanlaihaizanglezheimeyishoua！
woqiangyazhexinzhongdenuhuojixuwangxiafanzhezheigeweiboyiwangdedongtai。
erqiewojingrendefaxian，meiyitiaodongtaidouyouyigexiangtongdeyonghuzaihesuyuhudong。
2021nian11yue7ri
【jishizheigedongjishifenhanleng，yeyaojideaihuzijideshentia！】
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xiamianjingenzheyigehuifu：【xiexiebaobaodeguanxin，woyidinghuihaohaopinchangde，xixi！】
suyu：【qie，choubuyaolian，sheishuoshisongjinidela！】
kanzhetamenqinmiwujiandeduihua，jiuxiangshizaiwodeshangkoushangbuduandisayan。
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kanzheshouzhongzheihezi，wofangfochileyikecangyingyibangandaoshifenexin。
dangshisuyushuotakeshixueleyigeyuecaikaolezheimeyihesongjiwode，dangshijiwogandonghuaile，meitianjihushishuzhechide，heziyebeiwohaohaoshouzangzaishujiazhishang。
wofankaihegaizhijiaanzuoxiajiaohaixiegewodemingzi，houmiangenzheyigexiaoaixin，turanwofaxianwodemingzijingranqiaoqileyigebian。
dangwonashouzaiwodemingzishangyonglihualehua，wodemingzijingranbeizhijiekoudiaole，suihouyingruyanliandejiushishifenciyandelianggezi，wangqian！
咣当！
shouzhongdeheziyingshengluodi，wofennudejiangzheigehezicaibian！
bierenbuyaodedongxi，wojingranhaidangchenggebaobeigongqilai，yuanlaineigexiaochoujingranshiwo！
woshenxiyikouqiqiangyanuhuo，jixunaqileshoujixiangxiafanqu。
2022年1月1日
【xiwangfoguangyekeyizhaoyaozaiwoshenshang，shixianwoneimaizangxindideyuanwang！】
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wangqian：【xiaobaobaojingranqushaoxiangbaifole，kuaishuo，xuleshenmeyuanwanga】
suyu：【nicaia！lvelvelve！】
wangqian：【rangwocaicaikan，womenxiaobaobaozuixihuandeyuanwangshishenme，ng，shibushixiwangyongyuanhezuixihuanderenzaiyiqia！】
suyu：【gongxinicaiduilee！woxiwangfozubaoyouwomenyongyuanzaiyiqi！】
zai2022niankuanianqianqi，suyufeidelazhewoqusimiao，meiqimingyueshenmeweiwomendeaiqingqifu。
wodangshisuiranbushihenxiangqu，danshizaitadeyizaiqingqiuxia，zhinengdaizheyisimaiyuandegenzhetayiqiqu。
dangshiwotoumiaoleyiyantashouzhongdezhitiao，shangmianxiedeshi：xiwangnenghewoaiderenyongyuanzaiyiqi，yongshengyongshibuzaifenkai。
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xianzaikanlai，dangshitaxinzhongzhuzhedegenbenbushiwo，quanbushiwozijideyixiangqingyuanbale。
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sheichengxianglingdaotaiduqiangying，wowunaizhinengzaiqingrenjieqianxiganwangwaidi。
zaizheiqijianwoyinweimeibanfapeitazheijianshigandaoshifenneijiu，jitafalehongbao，shenzhiyulinzouzhijizaitadezhenbianzangleyimeizuanjie，qiwangtanengyuanliangwo。
jieguo，jiuzaiwozouleyihou，tajingranzhijieguanji，zhidaowochuchajieshucailailianxishangta。
dangshiyemeijuedeshenme，faneryijiuweiqingrenjiemeiyoubanfapeitagandaoshifenneijiu。
zhidaoxianzaikandaoxiamianneiyitiaodongtai，zheicaifaxiandangshidezijiyouduomedeyuchun。
zhaopianshangchunbaisefangjiannei，suyuheyigenanrentangzaiwomaideximengsizhishang，shenhouguawomendejiehunzhao。
suyuyilianxingfudecetangzaineigenanrendehuaili，manlianxiaoyi，neigenanrendeyidesichudaliangzhefangjian。
kandaozheizhangtupian，woshunjianganjueyiguwuminghuoyijingkuaidaojiangwodelizhifenshaodaijin。
wofennudechongjinwoshi，qiangshangneizhangxingfumeimandejiehunzhao，xianzaikanlaichongmanzhechaofeng。
jiuzaiwogangzhunbeijiangneizhangrangwogandaoshifenqurudezhaopianshuaisuizhiji，weiboyemianturanshuaxinleyixia。
yuanlaishisuyuyoufaleyitiaodongtai，zhengshitaguimipengyouquanneizhangtahewangqian**rewendetupian。
【zaijian！wodeqingchun！】
wangqianhaizaihaizaixiamiananweidao【mingtianwodexiaobaobeijiuyaojiarenle，xiwangnikeyixingfu！】
幸福nm！
kanzhepingmushangzheiduigounannvdehudong，wocikedexinqingyijingwufamiaoshu。
叮咚！
weixinxiaoxixiangqideshengyinjiangwosixulalehuilai，wohuanmandetaiqishoujidiankaileweixin。
苏玉！
wolengxialeyisheng，meixiangdaosuyujingranhainengxiangqiwozheigenanpengyou，ebu，weihunfua！
suyu：【duibuqiabaobei！zuijingongsijiabanshizaishitaiduole，wogangxiabanjiulaizhaonilexinkuniyizhifuzewomendehunlila！】
kanzhesuyuzhuangchudeyifuyewufanmangdemoyang，woqidehunshenzhandou。
mianqiangwendingxiaxinshen，wozhijiedaziwendao。
“yuyu，nishuowanyiniqiannanyouzhidaolewomenmingtianjiehun，jintianhuilaizhaoninihuizenmezuoa！”
zheijuhuasihushi**daosuyu，suyuzhijiedanguolaileyitiaoyuyin。
“zhanghao！nizheijuhuashenmeyisi！nibawosuyuxiangchengshenmenvrenle！”