6
wozhanzaishenyingshenhou,xinbuzijuetidaolesangziyan。
shenyinghaoxiangxiangdaoleshenme,biaoqingsuanbushangyuyue,chenmozhemeiyoushuohua。
songchaochaoyanlishanguoleyisijingxi。
shenyingqishen,bashouzhongdesumiaozhidijisongchaochao,“haole,nikuaihuibingfangba,waimianfengda。”
songchaochaoxiaoxixidejieguosumiaozhi,manyidekanzheshangmiandehuaxiang,“shenyinggege,nibawohuadezhenhaokan。”
shenyingyizheng,lenglehaoyihuiershen,songchaochaobengbengtiaotiaodehuilebingfang。
zheihuawoyeduitashuoguode。
“wodeayingzongshibawohuadeneimehaokan。”
wobiqiangyisuan,hongzheyanjingkanta,dengtajiwoyigejieshi。
shibuxihuanwo,haishibunengzaisongchaochaomianqianchengrenxihuanwo。
shenyingkanzhesongchaochaolikaidedifangchenmolehenjiu,zaiwoluoxialeilaideshihou,tazhangtanyikouqi,huitoukanxiangwo,“xixi,tazhendehenxiangni。”
haoxiangyoudaozizaixinjianjiaodong,wonanshoudejihuwufahuxi。
“tabingdehenzhong,womeibawonengjiuta。”
“xixi,wogaizenmeban。”
tajihushigengyandeshuochuzheixiehua。
woxinlifanqizhenzhensuanchu,anweidehuaduzaihoutoushuobuchukou。
wobirenherendouzhidaoshenyingdenanguo。
yishengzheigezhiyemeitiandouyaomianduishubujindeshenglisibie,danneimeduonian,shenyingdoumeiyoumamuhexiguan。
songchaochaoshitadebingren,tayebingwuyuejie,kewoxinlineidianxiaaiheyinanhaishirangwohaipa。
pasongchaochaoduitalaishuobuzhishibingren。
woxinliduzheyikouqi,xiangzhiwentaweishenmeyaoyinweiheibaixizhuanggenwochaojia,weishenmeyaobawozijidiuzaihunlixianchang,weishenmeyishengbuhangjiubuhuijia,youweishenmebasongchaochaokandeneimeteshu。
shenyingkaichedaiwoqulezhiqianwomenzuichangqudeneijiadian。
tadianleliangwansuanlafen,fangleyiwanzaiwomianqian。
shenyingditousuofen,yijuhuadoumeiduiwoshuo,wokanzhemianqianzhongladesuanlafen,liankuaizidoumeidong。
woconglaibuchizhongla,zhiqianshenyingfeiyaowochangshisuanlafendeshihou,haitedigenlaobanjiaodaijiwoweiweiweiweila,zailaobanzhenjingdeyanshenzhonghewoxiaozuoyituan。
zhijiashenshenqianruzhangxin,wofangfoganshoubudaotengtong,qiangrenzheyanlei,xiangwenwenshenyingdaodishishenmeyisi。
wohaimeiyoukaikou,shenyingjiuzhouzhemeitoukanwo,“nizenmebuchi?”
zhouweiderenfenfenchaowotoulaiqiguaideyanshen。
woshenxiyikouqi,shenyingzhijieduanguowomianqiandepenzi,ziguzichileqilai。
chizhechizhe,shenyingturanhongleyankuang,“wodoupeinichileneimeduonianmeiweidaodesuanlafenle,nijiubunengrangrangwoma?”
“zenmejiubunengtingwodehua,zenmejiubunengtingwodehua。。。”
“nishibushizaiguaiwo,caibukenlaikankanwo?”
7
tabatoumaidedidide,yanleiyididizajinwanli,huadoulianbuchengwanzhengdeyiju。
woxinjianyizhan,jijiangtuokouerchudeyiduizhiwenbeishengshengtunxia。
buguojiushiyinweiyijianyifuchaodejia,hezhiyunaoni。
shenyingduiwobaiyibaishun,chongzhewodadaxiaoxiaodepiqi,yeshiweiqudeba。
wozhandaotamianqian,bataloujinhuaili,fangruanshengyin,“nayoubulaikanni,zheibushilaikannilema?”
shenyingbaozhewo,batoumaizaiwodebojing,shengyinposui,“nishibushizaiguaiwo,nibieguaiwo。”
“chaochaojiuxiangshizhiqiandeni,woxiangjiuta,xixi,woyaojiuta。”
“nibieguaiwo,dengwozhihaota,wojiulaipeini。”
zhouweirenhaoxiangkanyigefengziyiyangkanzheta。
woshuobushangxinlishishenmeganjue。
shenyinghaishineigeshenying,neimeduoniandexiangyiweiming,zaikuzainanderizi,womendouxieshouzouguo,zaojiuchenglebicishengmingzhongdeyibufen。
shenyingduiwodezaiyiwuyongzhiyi,zhishiwoduisongchaochaodechuxianbennengdeshengchuleyixiehuangkong。
wonulihushixindideneiyisiguaiyigan,mozhetadetouqingshenganfu。
henkuai,shenyingjiushoushihaoqingxu,qukaichedaiwohuijia。
zhishibanyetajieleyigedianhua,shunjianlianseshabai,lianwazidoulaibujichuan,diediezhuangzhuangdebenlechuqu。
宋朝朝病危了。
8
jiubingchengyi,songchaochaodeshentiwohenqingchu,shizaigensishenqiangming。
shenyingzhengzhengsantiandoumeiyouhuilai。
wodaoyiyuanzhaotadeshihou,tazhengzuozaisongchaochaodechuangqian,yanlimanshixuesi,huzilacha,pibeibukan。
songchaochaohaoxiangyipengjiuyaosuideboliwawa,lianshangmeiyouyisixuese。
“conglaimeijianguoshenyishengduinagebingrenneimeshangguoxin,bumianbuxiudeshousantianle。”
“nimeikanshenyishengganlaiqiangjiudeshihouneigelianse,haozaishijiuguolaile,yaoburanshenyishengbushidefeng。”
“bieshuolebieshuole,tingshuozhiqiantaqizi。。。”
shenbiandehushijinsheng,mangqileshoutoushangdeshi。
wozhanzaibingfangwai,jingjingdekanzhefanglideliangren。
shenyingxiaoxinyiyidebasongchaochaofuqilai,bazhentoufangzaitayaohou。
“shenyinggege,woshibushiyaosile?”
songchaochaoshengyinxuruodebuchengyangzi。
shenyingtingdaozheihuayizheng,“shuoshenmeshahua,wohuijiunide。”
tadeshengyinzhandou,yankuangfahong,zheihuafangfoshishuojizijitingde。
songchaochaochaotaxiaolexiao,“shenyinggege,nibiepianwole。”
“wodouzhidaole,wohuobuleduojiule。”
shenyingshouzhisuojin,beibubengzhi,zhanglezhangzui,meishuochuhua。
“shenyinggege,woyougemimiyaogaosuni。”
宋朝朝歪头看着他。
tadeshouyidiandianwangqian,fangdaoshenyingdeshoushang,huanraozhutadeshouzhi,zuolegekouxing。
woxihuanni。[kocfufeikadian2]
9
我身子一抖。
wokanbujianshenyingdebiaoqing,songchaochaojiuzheiyangwaitoukanzheta,“wopawobushuo,jiumeiyoujihuishuole,wohuihouhui。”
buzhidaoguoleduojiu,shenyingshouhuileshou,“neijiunulihuoxialai。”
“朝朝,活下来。”
woturanbuzhidaoyongshenmexintaiqujiantale。
shenyingzouchulaideshihou,woquleguaijiaochu。
tazouquhushitai,gentamenjiaodailezhuyishixiang,ruguo3haochuangyoushenmedongjing,yidingyaodiyishijiangaosuta,suihoujiuzhajinbangongshili。
我跟了上去。
shenyingmeishaobeixiaoguniangbiaobai,tazongshilimaoshulidexiaoxiao,ranhouhuanghuangshouji,zhizhepingmushuoshangmiandeshitalaopo。
huoxuzhishixiangjitayidianhuoxiaqudeyongqi,wozheiyanggaosuziji。
“nibuchibuhedechawenxian,leikualezijijiunengjiutama?”
wotingjianguimideshengyin,tamenshiyigekeshide。
“tasuishikenengyouyiwai。”
shenyingdeshengyinpibeibukan。
“shenying,womennengzuodedouzuole,shengxiadezhinengkantianyi。”
“ruguosongchaochaonengdengdaoxinzanggongtiyizhi,neijiuhaiyouxiwang。”
guimikanzhetayanxiadewuqing,jitadaolebeishui。
shenyingyongquantoudizheetouyiyanbufa,shentiqingweidezhandou。
“nizheiyang,yebushixixixiangkandaode。”
闺蜜叹了口气。
tingjianzheijuhua,shenyingdeqingxusihuquanmianbengpan。
tashuangshouyanmian,tongkubuyi,“songchaochaodebingzhenghexixiyiyang,wohaishijiubuleta,wozenmehaishijiubuleta。”
“woyizhizaixiang,xixishibushizaiguaiwo,buranneimeduonian,tazenmeyicidoumeilaimenglikanguowo。”
“wopinlemingdexue,haishimeinengjiudeleta,wozhinengkanzhetazaiwomianqianmeilexintiao,wojiubuleta。。。”[kocfufeikadian1]
10
沈应掩面痛哭。
yishengjingleizaiwonaohailixiangqi。
我想起来了。
我死了。
我早就死了。
shoushugenbenjiumeiyouchenggong。
shenyingnadaodiyibigongzihou,jiwomaileyidashuxianhua。
tadiyigeyuedegongzishaodekelian,woxintengqian,xianglazhetaqubahuajituile。
shenyinglouzhuwo,bahuasaidaowohuaili,manyidediandiantou,“henhaokan,gennihenpei,xixi,wohuiyongyuansongnihua。”
tadaiwoquleyijiahenguidexicanting,yidunfanhualetayibandexinshui。
chizhechizhe,tadeyanleijiudiaolexialai,hongzheyanjingshuoduibuqiwo。
takanjianwomeicijingguozheijiadianshidouhuiwuyishidexianglikan,buzijuedetingliu,luchuxianmudeyanshen。
meidangshenyingxiangyaoyaoyadaiwoqudeshihou,wodoujiazhuangbuzaiyidekuaisulazhetapao。
“bielangfeiqian,zanzhejiwomaidazuanjie!”
shenyingbianchibianku,kanzhewoshoushangfahuideyinjiezhi,shuotakuiqianlewotaiduo。keshiairenzhijian,tanshenmekuiqianbukuiqiande。
zaitagongzuodedisannian,taxiangwoqiuhunle。
zaiwodeshengrishang,wocongdangaoliyaodaolezuanjie。
henxiaodanhenliang,shishenyingzheisannianshengchijianyongdequanbu。
woyibianxiaozhematalaotu,yibianhongleyankuang。
zaihenzaozhiqian,wojiushuoguowoyuanyile。
shenyingkudebiwohaihen,zhandouzhebajiezhidaizaiwodeshoushang。
woxianqiderangtabiebabitiyanleihuwoyilian,shenyingbaozhewoshuowomenyidinghuiguodeyuelaiyuehao。
tadegongziyuelaiyuegao,woyeyoulefenbucuodegongzuo,wobisheidouxiangxinwomenhuiyuelaiyuehaode。
kewozaiqiedangaodeshihou,xinzangchuanlaiyizhenmentong,wosizhifaruan,dangaobeiwoshuaizaidishang。
wowulidexianghoudaoqu,naiyouhuzaizuibian,hentian。
shenyingbaozhuwomanliankonghuang,fengkuangdehanzhewodemingzi。
citongrangwoyanqianyipianmohu,shenyingdeyanleizazaiwodelianshang,tabutingdejiwozuoxinfeifusu,zhibuzhudezhandou。
wojiannandeshenchushoumolemotadelian,“bie。。。biepa。”
“wo。。。woyuanyi,shenying,woyuanyi。”
11
shenyingbengkuidedahanwodemingzi,rangwozhengkaiyanjing,rangwobuyaoshuijue。
我被推进了抢救室。
shenyingjihuguizaitalaoshimianqianqiutajiuwo。
yishengtongyangshibingrenjiashu,zaizheigeshihou,tamenyiyangdewuzhu。
wolejiewodeshenti,shoushumeiyouchenggong。
shenyingdiediezhuangzhuangchongjinqiangjiushilaidaowomianqiandeshihou,kudelianhuadoushuobuchulai。
woxuruodezhengkaiyanjingkanta。
woxianghuode,zhishaobuxiangrangtakanzhewofabingsiqu。
wodeayingzaitazuishanzhangdelingyuquemeinengjiudelewo,tagaiyouduojuewang。
shenyingbutingdeshuoduibuqi,woyongbizicenglecengtadetoufa,weibukewendegaosutameiguanxi。
我不怪他的。
zhishikexi,yuelaiyuehaoderizibunenggentazouxiaqule。
shenyingpazaiwodeshenbiankudejinhuyunjue,tayibianyibiandegaosuwotahenaiwo。
woyehenaita,henaihenai,kexiwomeiyouliqihuiyingle。
sixuzhujianpiaosan,yinyuejian,wotingjianshenyingdeshengyin,“wulunfuyuhuopinqiong,jiankanghuojibing,wodouyuanyi。。。”
12
duiwoshiruowududehushi,songchaochaoruowupangrendebiaoxian,suanlafentanshangzhongrenguaiyideyanshen。
一切都有了解释。
cheshangshuliandejiwoxianquandai,huijiaxiayishidelouzhewoshui,haiyouneixieduizhekongqishuodehua。
wodeayingkanbujianwo,dantacongmeiwangjiguowo。
worenzhendekanzhefudaozaizhuoshangdeshenying,tadefajianjiazazhesisibaifa。
他不再年轻了。
yuanlaiyijingguoquleneimeduonian。
13
songchaochaobiwoxingyun,tadengdaolexinzanggongti。
shenyingzaijialijiedaozheigedianhuahou,momodeshualewanxileguo,huidaowomendefangjian,daozaichuangshang。
tabatoumaijinzhentouli,qibuchengsheng。
songchaochaobeituijinshoushushineitian,taxiaozhewenshenying,“shenyinggege,woyaoshihuoxialaile,ninengbunengrangwoxugeyuanwang?”
shenyingxiaozheshuo,shoushuchenggong,tahuigaosutayigemimi。
shenyingshisongchaochaodezhuzhidafu。
wowubiqianchengdeqidaoshoushuchenggong。
zheishishenyingyushengdejiushu。
14
shoushushidengmiedeshihou,shenyingrushizhongfudeconglimianzoulechulai,duizhesongchaochaodebamaxuanbuleshoushuchenggongdexiaoxi。
zheiliangweilaorenleiruyuxia,butingdewanyaoganxieta,yaojitaketou。
shenyingjiaobuxufudehuidaobangongshi,yitouzailexiaqu。
dajiajinghuangdeweizheta,wodiediezhuangzhuangdechongdaotamianqian,kuhanzhetademingzi。
shenyingyanshenzhujianjujiao,tazaichaowoxiao,“xixi,nizhongyushedelaikanwole。”
15
我入了沈应的梦。
shenyingzhandouzhebawoloujinhuaili,kudeshuobuchuhua,“nizenmecailai,wohaoxiangni,xixi,wohaoxiangni。”
“nishibushiguaiwomeinengjiuni,duibuqi,duibuqi。。。”
“wopengdaoleyigehenihenxianghenxiangdenvhai,xixi,tadeshoushuchenggongle,weishenmebushini,weishenmebunengshinia?”
沈应哭的近乎崩溃。
wopaizhetadebeigaosuta,wozhidao,wodouzhidao。
wodeayingzhendehenlihai。
tanayouduibuqiwo,taweiwoxueyi,weiwopinmingdedu,wozenmehuiguaita。
wochushengjiuyouxiantianxingxinzangbing,wodefumubawodiuzaixiangxiadelaolaojia,zaiyemeilaijianguowo。
laolaokaojianpingzibawoyangda,zaiwoshisuideshihoujiusashourenhuan。
woyiludiediezhuangzhuang,zoudezhendehennan。
yujianshenying,shiwozheiduanduanershijinianrenshengzhongzuizuixingyundeshiqing。
shitapinpincoucou,baposuidewojianleqilai,rangwozhidaoyuanlaiwoyezhidebeihaohaoduidai,zhidebeiai。
nenghuilaizaipeizhetazouzheiyiduanlu,woyijinghenmanzule。
我该走了。
16
songchaochaojingguolejiannandepaiyiqi,qingkuangzhongyuwendinglexialai。
tachuyuanneitian,daizheyizhangfenhongxinzhiqubangongzhuozhaoshenying。
shenyingzuozaiyizishangchaotahuishou,gongxitazhonghuoxinsheng。
songchaochaohaixiudedixialetou,xiangbaxinzhijita,quekanjianzhuoshangdeyizhangshuangrenhezhao。
是沈应和一个女孩。
nvhaixiaodemingmei,shenyingkanxiangtadeyanlimanshiaiyi。
“我妻子。”
chajuedaosongchaochaodemuguang,shenyingxiaolexiao,cashileyixiaxiangkuang,muguanghuainian,“tahenishiyiyangdebing。”
“dangshiwomeinengjiudeleta。”
“haihao,wojiuleni。”
shenyingwenroudekanzhetaxiao。
songchaochaokanxiangzhaopianlidenvhai,henmei。
tabaxinzhirouzhou,zuanzaishouxin,waitoucanlandexiao,“nimenyidinghenenai,shenyisheng,tabuhuiguainide。”
songchaochaoheshenyingdaolebie,zuoshangfumudeqichelikaileyiyuan。
taxiang,tayongyuanyebuhuiwangleshenying。
番外
1
diyiciyujianguxi,shizaifandian。
wohepengyoujuhui,guxizailimiandangfuwuyuan,youzhuodagehezuile,yanyubutingdediaokan。
shuoduole,haidongqishoulai,zaitashenshangmolaimoqu。
wokanbuguoqu,baguxiladaoshenhou,weixieneixiejiufengziyaobaojing。
guxiyanjingliangjingjingdekanzhewo。
woyiweitashiyaogenwodaoxie,meixiangdaotashuotaxihuanwo。
zaiyiqihou,wozongshijingtantashouruodeshenzizenmenengyouyongbuwandenengliang,dezhitahenxiaojiubeipaoqideshihou,woxintengdekuleyiwanshang。
wofashiyaoyibeiziduitahao。
jiuzaihenpingchangdeyigewanshang,tayonghenpingdandeyuyangaosuwo,tayouxiantianxingxinzangbing。
wobuzhidaozheigebingyouduoyanzhong,guxishenzhishixiaozheshuo,jiushinenghuoyitiansuanyitian。
womeiyoubanfaxiangxiangshiqutaderizi。
diertian,wojiutijiaolezhuanzhuanyebaogao。
xixizhidaohou,zhuizhewomaleerlidi,shuowosha,zijiquetoutouhonglebizi。
zaiyiqidedisannian,wohejialibaofalezuidadezhengchao。
tamenbuyunxuwogenguxizaiyiqi。
womeixiangchedinaojiangde,keshiwobafennudebutingchuanzhecuqi,shuailanlesangewan,damaguxishigeduanminggui。
wolikaileneigejia,wobarangwoyongyuanbuyaohuiqu。
wopatuoleiguxi,kedangguxizhendetongyifenshoudeshihou,woxintongdejihuchuanbushanglaiqi。
woyiweitazhendezoule,guxijiuqiwodetoufa,rangwoyigedananrenbiejiaoqing,tayangwo。
我又哭又笑。
这调皮蛋,又逗我。
那几年太苦了。
womangdelianchifandeshijiandoumeiyou,pinmingdexue,pinmingdexue。
可是顾夕更苦。
taweilewo,xiwansaodifachuandan,zhiyaojiqiandehuotadougan。
womenxiangyiweimingdeaoguoleneiduanrizi。
wochenggongbiye,guxizaineitianshuotayuanyi。
她愿意嫁给我。
nadaodiyibigongzineitian,wodaitaquchiletaxinxinnianniandecanting。
wozhendeqianletahaoduo,danwodexixishuo,womenshiairen,airenzhijian,bujiangkuiqian。
wozanlesanniandeqian,mailegezuanjie,zaitashengrineitianxiangtagaobai。
wopailianguowushucideqiuhunci,zaineitianhaishikudeqibuchengsheng。
wodouyijingxianghaole,woyaobangeshengdadehunli,yaorangtachuanshangzuimeidehunsha。
womenweilaiderizijiubaizaimianqian,yidinghuiyuelaiyuehaode。
guxizaiwomianqiandaoxiadeyichanei,wodanaokongbai。
mingmingzheijinianbingqingyijingwending,mingmingtadayinglewodeqiuhun,mingminghenkuaiwomenjiuyaojiehunle。
wofalefengdejitazuoxinfeifusu,tabeituijinqiangjiushi,wojihuguixiaqiulaoshijiuta。
xixihaishizaiwomianqianbishangleyanjing。
zaiwozuishanzhangdelingyu,wokanzhewozuiaideren,meileqixi。
2
wobuganxiangxinxixizhendelikaiwole。
jialichuchudoushitadehenji。
wozhaochangshangban,zhaochanggenbingrengoutong,zhaochangzhibing。
zhishizaimeirendeshihou,wohaishihuigenxixishuoshuohua,gentafenxiangwojintiandouzuoleshenme。
kaicheshi,wohuixishangfujiashideanquandai。
quchifan,woyehuidianliangwan。
woxiangxinxixijiuzaiwoshenbiande。
dantayicidoumeilaiguowomengli。
woshichangzaixiang,tashibushiguaiwo,guaiwomeinengjiuta。
woyiweiwozheibeizidouhuihunhuneedeguoxiaqu。
danwokanjianlesongchaochaodebingli。
跟夕夕太像了。
wojielezheigebingren,shigehennianqingdexiaonvhai,genxixilikaiwodeshihouyibanda。
tahenjiantan,jiulianshenghuoxiguandougenxixihenxiang。wokanzheta,youshiyouxiehuanghu,shibushixixibatasongdaowomianqian,jiwodeyigejihui。
wopinjinquanliyexiangjiuta。
songchaochaowenwoyoumeiyouxihuanderenshi,wodexinjiuxiangbeisikaileyigekouzi,tongdewoshuobuchuhua。
zheimeduonian,pengyoutongshidouxiaoxinyiyidebikaizheigehuati,butiqiguanyuxixiderenheshi。
我真的好想她。
yiyuandadianhuashuosongchaochaobingweideshihou,wojidewazidoumeichuan。
wobutingdeqidao,jiwogejihui,yaohuoxiaqu,yidingyaohuoxiaqu。
好在,她福大命大。
woshouzaitashenbianbuganyousihaosongxie,woduoxiwangwodexixi,yenengyouzheimegejihui。
songchaochaobiwodexixixingyun,tadenglaileheshidegongti。
zouchushoushushideshihou,tafumujihuyaojiwoketouganxie,wohuangranjiankanjianleduonianqianqiulaoshijiumingdeziji。
我昏了过去。
wozhongyukanjianxixile,tayidiandoumeibian。
zheixiaohuaidan,zongsuanshedelaikanwole。