第4章
wozhaodaojiangyunyundeshihou，caizhidaotashizaixiaozongchengdegongsishangban。
erqie，yijinghenzhangyiduanshijianle。
“nijiushineigexiaosan？”
“nandaohaibugoumingxianma？”jiangyunyunxiaodefengqingyundan：“wanan，niyizhicaishijialibubeichengrenderen。wojiusuansilezhangfu，kewoshengdeshixiaojiadehaizi。wozaihexiaozongchengzaiyiqi，caishiqiangqianglianhe。nipeibushangxiaozongcheng。”
woduanqishuibeichaojiangyunyunlianshangpoleguoqu，shoushangdebazhangquebeirenjinjinzhuazhu。
kanzhehuranchuxiandexiaozongcheng，woxindidenuhuozaiyekongzhibuzhu。
“nihejiangyunyunzaiyiqile？xiaozongcheng，nihaishirenma......”
xiaozongchenglianshangshanguogangahekuijiu，keshengyinqueduding：“biehushuo。huijiaqu。”
回家？我还有家吗？
yanleiwufakongzhidediaoxialai，hunshenzhanli，zhenggerenxiangshidiaodaolebingkulongyiyanglengdemeiyouyisiwendu。
wotaiqishouzhizhejiangyunyun，woshengdaigengyan，kanzhexiaozongcheng：“niyejuedetashuoduima？wopeibushangni，duima？”
jiangyunyunwuzhelian，kuzheshuo：“xiaozongcheng，womeishuozheiyangdehua。wozhishixiwangwananxianlengjingxialai......”
zhouweiderendouzaikanhaoxi，yourenkandaojiangyunyunqibuchengshengdeyangzi，jitadilezhijin。
woqidechonghunletou，yibashangqushuailezhijindakuqilai：“tabukelian，tajiushiyigexiaosan。tapohuailewodejiating，wozhishizaizhiwentaeryi。tanandaobuxuyaoweizheiyangbuyaoliandeshiqingfuchudaijiama......”
“goule。nizaifashenmefeng？”xiaozongchengzhuazhuwodeshoubeibawotuozou，wopinmingdezhengzha，quekandaoxiaozongchenganfudeduijiangyunyunshuorangtahuiquhaohaoxiuxi，tahuichulihaozheiyiqie。
wodezhijiazhuanaoxiaozongcheng，ketaxiangshibutengyiyang，renyouwodazhe。
这算什么？
liangxinshanghuiteng，suoyirenyouwodamama？
wokuzhewentaweishenmeyaozheimeduiwo？wozuocuoleshenme？
dangtingdaowozhiwenweishenmeyaochibiyunyaodeshihou，xiaozongchengyuanbenjinbengdexiaexian，biandegengjiagangyi。
“meiyouweishenme。ruguonishoubuledehua，jiulihunba。”
woshaleyan，zhuazhuxiaozongchengdeyiling，nuhouqilai：“niyaogenwolihun？xiaozongcheng，weilejiangyunyunniyaogenwolihun？”
qiangrenzhedeyanleigenbenmeibanfakongzhi，xiaozongchengzhoujinmeitou，taiqishouxiangyaobangwocayanlei，quebeiwohenhendakai。
xiaozongchengbawoenzaicheshang，neishuangzongshishensuiyoushenqingdeyanjing，xianzaiquedaizheweixiehejinggao。
“dui。ruguonibuxiangyaolihunchengquanwomendehua，neinibixujieshouzheiyiqie。”
“bulihun？wojiudejieshoushenme？”wozhuazhuxiaozongchengdelingdai，yaguanjinyao。“nizaijiwoshuoyibian？”
xiaozongchengdeshouzhifuguowofaji，shengyinqingleng：“anan，xianzaidenibixujieshoujiangyunyunhaiyouxiaoxiao。nihaishiwozuiaideren，zhiyaoni，tinghuadongshidian，nixiaotaitaidediweijiubuhuidongyao。”
woyaojinlezuichunbushuohua，jiuzheimekanzhexiaozongcheng。
“我不离。”
成全？
zaiwodezidianlimianmeiyouzheilianggezi，wozhiyouyigeniantou。
neijiushiwoyaoguangmingzhengdadezuoxiaotaitai，zhiyaowohuozhe，wojiujueduibuhuibazheigeweizhijijiangyunyun。
xiaozongchengxiangshisongleyikouqi，zaiwoetouluoxiayigeqinwen。
kezheigewen，quezaiyemeiyouleyiqianrangwotashiwennuandecunzai。
我的心空荡荡。
“anan，woyongyuanbuhuifangkaini。”xiaozongchengrouzhewodetou，daizhewohuilejia。
kecaidaojiamen，wojiutingdaotadeshoujixiangle。