第5章:自闭症

“kuai,xiaoxing,gaosubaba,neigenvrendouduinizuoleshenme!”hanxiaoxiaokandaozheiyimu,ganmangkaikou。

huoyantingzaishangchangfanyunfuyu,lengxuewuqingguanle,kemianduixiaohaiziquemingxianshishouzuwucuo。

“……”

danhanxiaoxingzhishihuangkongdekanzhehuoyanting,quemeiyoukaikoudeyisi,kandaozhouweiyishuangshuangdemuguangbixiangziji,tayanleishuashualuoxialai,wushengdekule。

nanrenlianseyian,shenziweibukechadezhendong。

taxiayishidexiangyaoshenshoufumonvhaidexiaolian,kedongzuodaoyiban,zhangxinhaishiyonglishoulehuiqu。

“齐江!”

nanrendiheyisheng,qijianglikenalaizhijin,xiaoxinyiyidequjihanxiaoxingcalei,danshihanxiaoxingquepinmingniutouduoshan,bantiandoupengbudao。

tangmianmiankandaozheiyimu,xinzhenzhendefanteng!

“goule!biezaibitale!nimenkanbuchulaitayouzibizhengma?”tangmianmianshangqian,yibaqiangguozhijin。

自闭症?

zheiyijuhuarangquanchangzhenjing,jiulianhuoyanting,yixiangdanmodelianpangdouyouxiedongrong。

“怎,怎么会……”

qijianglenglexia,tangmianmianchenjijianghanxiaoxingzhuaidaoshenbian,yongshentigekailetayuzhongrenmianduimian,bingshunlidejitacashileyanlei。

“buhaipa,ayibushihuairen,ayihuibaohunide。”

tangmianmianwozhehanxiaoxingbinglengchaoshidexiaoshou,coujintadeerbiandishengshuo。

xiangshibeifuweiban,hanxiaoxingdeyanleijianjiantingxia。

qijianghuiguoshen,ganjinfenfuyongrenjiangqiyurendengsongke。

huoyantingxiangshimingbaileshenme,lenglengnixianghanxiaoxiao,“zibizheng?”

“hanxiaojie,qingninjieshiyixia,weishenmexiaoxiaojiehuidezheizhongbing,zhiqian,ninbingmeiyougenwomenshuomingguo。”

hanxiaoxiaochadianwanglezheiyicha,zheixiaotizishigezibizheng,pingshitinghuaguaiqiao,kedanfanchudianshierquezhenshigefudan!

tayandiyizhuan,likeqibuchengsheng,“zheizhongshiqing,ruguokeyibushuo,yigedangmamadezenmehuiyuanyitiji?yishengshuo,xiaoxingdexinliwenti,shiyinweicongxiaomeiyoufuqinzaochengde……weilexiaoxing,wobixuyaojiangtasonghuilai,keshiwohaipa,haipayinweitadezibi,jiuhuibeirenxianqi……”

shuodegenzhendeyiyang……tangmianmiantingdezhiwuyu。

tahehanxiaoxingxianghuduishi,hanxiaoxingkanzhetadeyandisihuyouhaoduohaoduohuashuo,dantazuizhongzhiweiqudenunuzui。

weilehongta,tangmianmianbaoyiyigeguilian。

hanxiaoxinghenxiaodexiaoleyixia。

tangmianmianmomingdejuedemanzu,tahonghaolehanxiaoxing,zhuanshenchaozhehuoyantingdao,“zheihuanixinma?ruguozhendezheimeaizijinver,zenmeshedeyongshuitangta?”

“nibiehushuo!”hanxiaoxiaojile,chongguoquyibajianghanxiaoxingcongtangmianmianshenhouzhuaichulai。

“xiaohaizishibuhuishuohuang,wozhengmingjinimenkan!”

hanxiaoxiaoshuowan,yedunxiashenzikanxianghanxiaoxing,qingroushuodao:“xiaoxing,nibangmamagaosudajiazhenxianghaoma?ruguomamashuodeshizhende,nijiudiandiantou,ruguoshimamawuxianayi,nijiuyaotou。”

hanxiaoxingzhangzhangdejiemaohushanleliangxia,chiyidizhuantoukanxiangletangmianmian。

tangmianmianzhuyidao,hanxiaoxingdeshoubeibeinvrenyonglienzhe,yandilifanzhedeshiyizhongshenshendekongju。

huranjian,tangmianmianjuedezijishule。

tawenroudechonghanxiaoxingguaner,suijiweibukechadeyaoleyaotou。

xiangshidedaolexuke,zaihanxiaoxiaozaicidaizhekuqiangderanghanxiaoxingkaikoushi,tadexiaonaodaihenhuanmandedianleyixia。

suizhehanxiaoxingdediantou,qifenyishunningzhongqilai。

huoyantinglenglengwangxiangtangmianmian,shengyincuibing,“haiyoushenmehuashuo?”

“meihuashuo。”tangmianmianwuweidegouchun,“xiaohaizibuhuishuohuang,ruguoxiaohaizishuohuang,neiyidingshidarendecuo。wohentongqingxiaoxingyouzheiyangyigeedudemama,suoyizheigezhizheng,worenle。”

“nishenmeyisi?”hanxiaoxiaolikefanyingguolai,“wozijidehaizi,wonanbuchenghaihuibitashuohuang?nibiexuekoupenren……”

kee,zheinvrenhaolihaidezuiba,zheiyanxiazhiyi,shitazaibipohanxiaoxing!

tangmianmiandehua,ranghuoyantingdemuguangzaiciluozaihanxiaoxiaoshenshang。

deque,hanxiaoxiaodeshoujinjinzuanzhehanxiaoxing,erduifangyouxiaodeshenbanjinzhangdaoquansuo,sihu,zhendehenhaipa。

fanguantangmianmiandandingziruodemoyang,daozhenbuxiangshiganzuobugandangderen。

“齐江,送客!”

kehaimeidenghanxiaoxiaohetangmianmianjixuzhengbian,huoyantingxialezhukeling。

xianran,nanrenmeiyounaixintaolunzhenxiang。

aiyuhuoyantingdelianse,hanxiaoxiaozaishiqijibaihuai,yebuganduoshuo,xingxingbilezuiba。

“bubile,wobuxihuanbierensong。buguohuozongdebing,yihoukebiezaiqingwole,ninyouzheiyangdeweihunqi,yelinanmian,woyeshushouwuce。”

“ni……”tangmianmiandehuaranghanxiaoxiaoqideliandoulvle,xiongkouqifuzhe,huaquezaizuibianshengshengyanlehuiqu。

“wodeweihunqiruhe,bulaofeixin。bijingyigeliangongzuodoukuaimeiyouderen,gaiguanxinde,shouxianshiziji。”

danzheici,huoyantingquepotianhuangdeweihanxiaoxiaokaikou,hanbingbandeshengyin,jijuchuantouli,rangrenbuyouxinzhen。

tangmianmianchadianxiaole,zheiyisi,shiyaofengshatadecongyeshengya?

tawunianqianyezhenshidaomei,juranshuilezheimeyigexiayanyoulengxuedegounanren!

buguotangmianmianmeizaiduoshuo,chaohuoyantingjingzhizouleguoqu,

qijianggangxiangshangqian,quejiantangmianmianzhishiconghuoyantingdeshencecaguo,bingmeiyouqitajudong。

dannvrenlveshenerguodeyishun,queranghuoyantingmeixinweidiyicu,zheinvrenshenshangdexiangwei……

hewunianqianneiwantajiyizhongdeweidao,jingwubixiangsi……

tangmianmianhuimoukanleyiyanhanxiaoxing,hanxiaoxiaolikejianghanxiaoxinglouruhuaizhong。

momingdi,kanzheneidanbodexiaoshenban,chuletongqing,haiyouyizhongyiyangdeshuxi……

是错觉吗?

tangmianmianlikaihou,hanxiaoxiaomashangcoujinhuoyanting。

“yanting,nikebiexiangxinneigeheinvrendehua,tajiushiguyixiangyaotiaobo……”

“weihunqi,nishuode?”

huoyantinghoujiezandong,lveweiyinchendelianse,youzhongporendesengui。

“wo……”hanxiaoxiaolianshangyijiang,xinjingdanzhandekaikou,“woneishi……”

“ruguohaixiangyaoshetou,biezairangwotingdaodierci。”

huoyantinglenglengdaduanhanxiaoxiao,shuowan,biantouyebuhui,maiburaoguohanxiaoxiao。

gaodaweiedebeiying,wuqingderangrenjuewang。

nanrenjingguoqijiangtaishoushiyi,qijianglikehuiyi,zoudaohanxiaoxiaomianqian,“hanxiaojie,xiaoxiaojiecongjintianqijiuliuzaijialile,ninfangxin,womenyidinghuizhaoguhaoxiaoxiaojie……”

“shenme?”hanxiaoxiaowanwanmeixiangdaoshiqinghuibianchengzheiyang,“keshixiaoxingtahaixiao,bunenglikaiwo……”

“ninfangxin,ninxiangyaolaikanxiaoxiaojie,keyitiqianyuyue,xianshengbuhuibujinrenqing。”qijiangdunlexia,youbuchongdao,“haiyounindebuchang,sangegongzuorinei,huidadaonindezhanghu。”(30)