第一章
suoyourendouzhidao，fujinhandangnianzhuiqiushenshuangxu，chadiandiuleyitiaoming。
kejiehuncaisannian，tajiubianlexin。
shenshuangxutingdaoxiaoxishi，fujinhanzhuizheneigejiaotanyuedefonvpaodeshi，yijingnaodemanchengfengyu，renjinjiezhi。
jushuoneinvrenzongshiyishensuseqipao，meitiannianjingchizhai，aifangsheng，pengyouquanlibushi“shanzai”jiushi“amituofo”。
fujinhanquesizhelemo，weitayizhiqianjin、bubuxiangsui，xiangshiyaobazhengkexindoutaojitakan。
shenshuangxuxinkoutengdejihuchuanbuguoqi，chongjinfujinhandeshufang，shengyinzhandoudiwentashibushizhende。
fujinhancongwenjianlitaiqitou，jinsiyanjinghoudeyanmoushensuiyijiu，quemeilewangridewendu，zhishengxiayizhongrangtamoshengdepingjing。
tachengrendegancuililuo：“shi，woduitanyuedonglexin。shuangxu，ruguowozaoyudaota，wobuhuiquni。”
shenshuangxuliangqiangyibu，lianseshabai。
tadunledun：“danshinifangxin，hunlideshihouwogennishuoguo，wobuhuihenilihun。suoyiwotaitaideweizhihaishinide。danshiniyebuyaozaiganshewole，tashiwodezhenai。”
真爱？
neitasuanshenme？neisanniansuanshenme？neixietachadianweitadiulemingdeguowangyousuanshenme？！
tahaixiangzhiwen，haixiangsihou，kesuoyoudeshengyindouduzaihoulongli，fabuchubandianshengxiang。
tabuxin，buxinfujinhanhuibiandezheimekuai。
taanweiziji，tazhishituyishixinxian，dengtanile，jiuhuifaxianneigetanyuesuoranwuwei，tahuihuijiade。
tabaozhezheidiankebeideqiwang，yitiantiandideng。
kedenglaide，queshifujinhanqinzijiangtanyuejiehuiletamendejia，shenzhi，jiangjialidecaizhengdaquanyejiaojileta。
erjiuzaitanyueruzhufujiadediertian，shenshuangxujiedaoleyiyuandedianhua，tamuqinchuleyanzhongchehuo，jixushoushu，feiyongzhishaoyibaiwan！
shenshuangxuliushenwuzhu，diyishijianquzhaotanyueyaoqian。
tanyuezhengzaihuafanglichahua，tingwantadeaiqiu，mantiaosilidijiandiaoyizhibaihedecanye，yanpidouweitaiyixia：“kaitangpodu，youshangtianhe，zheishoushu，buzuoyeba。”
shenshuangxujianzhibuganxiangxinzijideerduo：“nishuoshenme？neishiwoma！taxianzaiweizaidanxi！yishengshuozaibushoushujiuwanle！”
tanyuezheicaitaiqiyan，muguangpingjingwubo：“shen**，shaoanwuzao。ruonimuqinshengqianguangjieshanyuan，ziyoufozubiyou，wuxushoushuyenenghaozhuan。ruotayezhangweiqing，neibianshimingshuruci，qiangqiushoushu，fanerzuaitawangshengjile。wohuiquweitasongjingqifu，zheicaishizhengdao。”
shuowan，tajingzhendeqishen，yaoquyiyuanzuzhishoushu。
shenshuangxufenglebanlanzhuta：“nibunengqu！nizheishimousha！”
liangrenjiuzheiyangzhengzhituisangqilai。
hunluanzhong，shenshuangxubuzhizenmeyongliguomeng，tanyuejinghuyisheng，jiaoxiayihua，shuaidaozaidi。
qiazaicishi，fujinhanhuilaile。
takandaodaozaidishangdetanyue，lianseshunjianchenxia，kuaibushangqianjiangtafuqi，shengyinshishenshuangxucongweitingguodejinzhang：“yueyue，zenmele？shangdaonalimeiyou？”
tanyuekaozaitahuaili，rouruodicuzhemei，jiangshiqingyuanweishuoleyibian，molehaidao：“jinhan，nibieguaishen**，tayeshijiumuxinqie，zhishifangshi……taiguojilexie。danwobunengyankantazaoxiashaye，hailetamuqinyehaileziji……”
fujinhantingwan，muguangbinglengdisaoxiangliansecanbai、hunshenfadoudeshenshuangxu，meiyousihaoyouyu，zhijiexialemingling：“lairen！bafurendaihuifangjiankanguanqilai，meiyouwodeyunxu，buzhuntachumenbanbu！yueyue，niquyiyuan，jiuannidefangshiweishenfurenqifu。”
shenshuangxuruzaoleiji，mengdizhuazhufujinhandeyixiu，shengyinposuibukan：“fujinhan！nimingmingzhidaoneishihushuobadao！neishimixin！neihuihaisiwomade！niyidingyaoyongxishengwomuqindefangshi，laizhengmingniduitadeshenqingma？！”
fujinhanyigengenbaikaitadeshouzhi，lidaobuda，quebinglengjuejue，daizheburongzhihuideweiyan：“bienao。wozaijieyueyuehuijiazhiqianjiugennishuoguo，zheiduanshijian，jialiyiqiedoutingtade。zhiyouzheiyang，tacaihuidayingwodezhuiqiu。”
tahuilehuishou，baobiaolikeshangqian，qiangyingdijiangjihubengkuideshenshuangxutuoli。
“fujinhan！fangkaiwo！neishiwoma！nibunengzheiyang！fujinhan！”
shenshuangxufengkuangdizhengzhakuhan，zhijiazaimenkuangshanghuachucierdeshengyin。
fangmenbeiwuqingdiguanshang、luosuo。
rentaruhepaida、kuqiu、sihou，menwaidouzaiwushengxiang。
tawulidihuazuozaidi，leishuimohuleshixian。
怎么会这样？
mingmingbujiuqian，tahaishineigeaitarumingdenanrena。
neiniantazhishigeqingpindedaxuesheng，kaozhefushijituandezizhucaideyiwanchengxueye。
ertashigaogaozaishangdejituanzongcai，jinguilengao，quezaiyicixiaoyuanhuodongshangduitayijianzhongqing，jierzhankailehonghonglieliedezhuiqiu。
tabuxinhaomenyouzhenxin，yicicijujue，taquexiangshizhuanglenanqiangyebuhuitou，yongjinsuoyounaixinhewenrou，yidiandianqiaosuitajianyingdewaiqiao。
zuijingxindongpodeneici，tazaoyubangjia，tadanqiangpimaqujiu，shenzhongshudao，jihusizaifeiqicangkuli，xinglaihoudiyijuhuaqueshiwentayoumeiyoushoushang。
jiushineimanshendexueheneijuxuruodehua，chedijikualetasuoyoufangxian。
hunlishang，tawozhetadeshou，dangzhesuoyoubinkedemianfashi：“shuangxu，zheibeiziwofujinhanzhiainiyigeren，juebuhuirangnishouyidianweiqu。”
yanyouzaier，queyichengfengci。
zheiyiye，manzhangdexiangyigeshiji。
zhidaodiertianqingchen，fangmencaibeidakai。
ciyandeyangguangzhaojinlai，shenshuangxuxiangyijubeichoukonglelinghundepobuwawa，liangqiangzhechongchuqu。
tanyuezhenghaozhengyixiadizhanzaimenkou，yijiushineifubeitianminrendeyangzi。
“womani？womazenmeyangle？！”tazhuazhutanyuedeshoubei，jiqiediwen。
tanyuekanzheta，qingqingtanlekouqi，mianluyihan：“shen**，jieai。fozu……yijingbanimuqinshouzoule。zheishuomingnimuqinshengqianxingdeshanshihaishibugouduo，zheishitademingshu。”
shenshuangxuyanqianyihei，jihuzhanbuwen。
“zhiyunimuqindeyiti，”tanyuejixudao，yuqipingdandexiangzaitaoluntianqi，“huohuawurankongqi，yousungongde。woyirangrenlianyesongqutianzangle。jinzaochuanlaixiaoxi，tujiujiangnimuqindeyitizhuoshidehenganjing，zheishihaoshi，shuomingfozuzuihouzhongjiuhaishikuanshuleta。”
shuozhe，tashenzhinachushouji，diankaiyigeshipindijishenshuangxu。
huamianli，huangliangdetianzangtaishang，yiquntujiuzhengzaifengkuangzhuoshiyijuzaoyikanbuqingmianrongdeyiti……
shenshuangxuruzaoleiji，judadebeitongjihuyaojiangtajikua，tafachuyishengqilizhijidejianjiao，mengdiyibadadiaoshouji，yanqiushunjianbumanxuesi，“tanyue！woyaoshaleni！！！”
tafengleyiyangpuxiangtanyue，quebeijishiganlaidefujinhanyibalanzhu。
“shenshuangxu！niyouzaifashenmefeng！”fujinhanjiangtasisiguzaihuaili，yuqidaizhebunaidechize，“yueyueyeshiyipianhaoxin！nimuqindesishiyiwai，yutawuguan！dabule……zhihouwoduomaixieshoushibuchangni！”
补偿？首饰？
shenshuangxuzhengzhengdikanzheta，kanzhezheigetaaileneimeduoniandenanren，xinkouyizhenjutong，houlongyongshangyiguxingtian。
zaiduodeshoushi，yehuanbuhuitademuqinle。
zheigerenzhi，xiangzuifenglidedao，jiangtazuihouyidianshengjiyechedizhanduan。
tamengdituchuyikouxianxue，yinhongdexuezijianluozaiangguideditanshang，chumujingxin。
yanqianyihei，tazaiyezhichengbuzhu，chedishiquleyishi。
zaichediduoruheianqian，tafangfoyoukandaolejiehunneitian，fujinhanpengzhetadeshou，weitadaishangjiezhishi，neiwenrouchengzhideyanshen……
zaicixinglai，shizaitabinglengdewoshi。
心，已经死了。
眼泪也流干了。
tamianwubiaoqingdiqichuang，qicaoleyifenlihunxieyishu。
erhou，nazheneifenqingpiaopiaoquezhongruqianjundewenjian，qulefushijituan。