第4章 抱我

shinianzhengyihuotadeturangaibian,yitaiyan,jiuqiaojianhuojinyanzhanzaineili。

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dengguanghenliang,dazaitalianshang,youzhonglengmoyoulinglidejishigan。

shiniankandaota,xintouhuangluan,likesongkailewenxiaoqing。

“你……”

beitamouzhongdelisejingzhu,zaishuobudeyigezi。

huojinyanyishengbuxiangzhanzaineili,mouseqingleng,huimorushenkanzheta,

yandijinshiyane,haositashihedidelanniyiban。

buyoufenshuo,huikaitadeshou,jiangwenxiaoqingdaijinhuaili:“meishiba?”

wenxiaoqingjiaochuanlianlian,daojinhuojinyanhuaili:“jinyan,wohaonanshou,xiongkoumen……”

xibaideshouzhizhuazhetadexiukou:“bie……genshixiaojiemeiguanxi,shiwoziji……”

huaweishuowan,bianbeitadaduan:“haohaoxiuxi!”

huojinyandeshixiansuijikanxiangshinian,touzhehanyi,yandibumanjinggao:“buzhidaotashentibuhaoma?”

shinianzhengzhu:“nimeikandaoshitazhudongzhaowomafande?”

tayixiangbuaizhengchao,zheiyici,renwukeren,suoyoudeweiquzaizheiyikebaofa。

bishidewenxiaoqingliansecanbai,sisizuanzhetadeyishang,butingjiaozhetademingzi:“jinyan,nanshou……”

“我难受……”

huojinyanjimangdahengbaoqita,“wosongniquyiyuan!”

kuaiyaolikaixishoujianmendeshihou,taturantingxia,huiguoshenlaikanxiangshinian,lengshengdao:“nizheigeedudenvren!”

“ruguoqingqingyoushenme,woraobuleni!”

zhenggeguochengtameikantayiyan,baozhehuailidewenxiaoqing,hunshendoushilengmo。

zoudehaobuliulian,haosihuailineigenvrencaishitadezhengpaiqizi。

talaidekuai,zoudegengkuai,chaneizhijian,xishoujianlibianzhishengxiashinianyigeren。

shinianzhanzaiyuandi,bukeyizhidefadou。

心碎了一地。

xiaofutengdeyufalihai,zhuidetaxinwangxiachen。

kanzhejingzilideziji,xiaodejinshicangliang:“shinianashinian,zheijiushinichaisanrenjiadejieguo,baoyinglaile。”

huojinyanjiaota“qingqing”,huiwenroudetongwenxiaoqingshuohua,quecongweiyongneiyangwenroudeyuqiduizijishuoguoyiju。

也许……

zheijiushiaiyubuaidequbieba。

jiajiyigenihenaitataquebuainidenanrenshishenmetihui?

jiuhaosinizaiwuyikuaibing,qingjinsuoyouliqi,huanlaidezhishiyishenshanghen。

仅此而已。

juqiyipengshuipaizailianshang,kanzhejingzililangbeidenvren,turanyixiao:“likaitaba。”

buaile,yejiubuhuizaiteng。

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是夜。

zaozaoyijingshuixia,shinianhaizaichufangmanghuo。

tazaizhunbeimingtianzaocanyongdecailiao,nveraihexiaomihongzaozhou,xihuanchiliufenshudebaizhudan,taxihuan40duzuoyoudechunniunai,yikuaijiaxinsanmingzhi,haiaizaichizaocandeshihoukancaijingzhoubao。

xiangzhexiangzhe,buzhizendi,youxiangdaoleneigenanren。

jiehunwunian,taxiguanzaimenkouliuyizhandeng,pawanguidetakanbujian,zheigexiguanyiliujiushiwunian。

今晚……

huoxuneigerenbuhuihuilaileba?

shizhenyijingzhixiangshierdian,kanzhechenchenyese,shiniankuxiao:xinaidenvrenhuilai,tazenmehuijidezheili?

likaishafa,ximieneizhandeng,huilewoshi。

dakaidiannao,chayuelihunxieyishudegeshi。

congkandaotabaozhewenxiaoqinglikaideneiyike,tajiuxiangmingbaile:qiangniudeguabutian,wunianshijiandoumeiranghuojinyanaishangziji,hebizaibaifeiliqi!

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lingchen3dianzhong,zaozaoturandakuqilai。

shiniangubushangchuanxie,paojinhaizifangjian,“baobeier,zenmele?”

“mama,bushufu,wohaonanshou……”

haizitangzaichuangshang,xiaolianertonghong,fajixianyijingbeihanshuidashi。

shinianshenshoumolemohaizidetou:“haotang!”

“baobeier,nifashaole,mamadainiquyiyuan!”

congcongtaolejianwaitao,yongxiaobeiziguozhuanan,mengcaiyoumen,chaoyiyuanshiqu。

haizizaochan,xiaobingbuduan。

huaizaozaobageduoyuedeshihou,tayigerenzaibieshu,wanshangxialoudaoshuihedeshihoumeizaiyi,shuaileyijiao,songdaoyiyuanyijingtingbudaotaixin,budeyizhixia,xuanzelepoufuchan。

yinweihaizishengxialaiguoyushouxiao,zaibaowenxiangzhuleyigebanyue,tazheigedangmadecaijiandaozijidehaizi。

xiantianbuzu,zaozaoxinzanghefeigongnengbujianquan,suoyi,zhiyaoyushanghaizifashao,tadouhuizhengyebushui,zhaoguhaizi。

shaochengjintianzheiyang,haishitouyihui。

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shinianfalefengsidebahaizisongdaojizhenchu,kanzhehaizibeituijinshoushushi,zheicaizuoxialai。

tadakouchuanxizhe,xiangshilikaileshuideyu,gouyancanchuandehuozhe。

jinguanzhuzhiyishenggentadalebaopiao,shuohaizihenkuaijiuhuichulai,tahaishibanguibanzuozaishoushushimenkoudecizhuanshang,zuiliniannianyouci。

“zaozao,niyidingyaopinganhuidaomamashenbian。”

“meiyouni,woye……buhuole。”

huiyingtade,zhiyoubinglengdefengsheng。

“jinyan,haoleng,nibaowohaobuhao?”

shengyinchuanlai,shinianyigejiling。