第3章
不自信什么呢？
lujinyuanhuanshangleyijianshensedechenyi，niukouhaiweiwanquanxihao，tingzhetazheiyangdezhiwen，tayejinjinzhishishuangshouchazaikoudaili，ananjingjingdechuimoukanzheta。
tashenxingxiuzhang，haoxiangshigeyifujiazi，henshaohuiyoulujinyuanchuanbuhaokandeyifu，genghekuangtahaiyouzheduyoudeqichang，yijicongxiaoshenghuodehuanjingzaojiuletaguziliyouxielengmodegexing。
mianduita，lujinyuanchunjiaominzhe，sihushizaixiangyigezenyangdehuidazuiheshi，tashanzhangyonglixinglaituoshanchuliyixiedezhengduan，qishihunhouzheiyinianlai，zheishidiyici，diyici，huonanmeirenzhuzijixinlideneixiemaizangtaijiudezhadan。
qishilujinyuanyizhidoujuedehuonanshigehenheshideqizi，yinweitabuchaobunao，yinweitahenduli，shide，zaitayanli，huonanzhishiyigehenheshideren，bingbushixinaideren。huozheshuo，tacongweiyouguoxinaideren，buguanshicongqianhaishixianzai。
zaizheiyangdechenmozhong，xianbaixiazhenlaiderenshihuonan，tamianduizhetadeyanshen，turanjiangandaobuan。tazhanzaineili，yishunbushundidingzheta。
tazuozaihuonanxianqiandeweizhishang，ditoujiuzhetadebeiziheleyikouhongcha，yuanbensesefatengdeweihaoleyixie。tadeshouzhimosuozhehaidaiyouhuonanwendudebeizhan，qishijintianzhongwuyouyichangfanju，tadangbuzhu，heleyixiejiu，gaonongdudejiurangtayuanbenjiuyoumaobingdeweibushufujile，ertayanshidejihao，jiusuanshigangcaizaiyanhuishidoumeirangbierenkanchuyichang。
tafangxiabeizi，kanxiangyijiuzhanzaineilidehuonan，chaozhetashenchushou。“laiwoshenbian，”
taquebudong，biaoqinghenchenjing，sishizaidengtakaikou。
lujinyuanlveweichenyin：“baoqianle，wozuijingongzuoyouxiemang，meiyoujishipeini，zhaogunideqingxu，caihuirangniyouzheixiexiangfa。
shanggeyuewolinshiqulinxi，shiyinweineibiandecaiwuchuxianleyidianwenti，sumushuotaxuyaobixian，rangwoguoqukankan，zhiyunishuodeyannizaidiertianjiuqulelinxideshiqing，wobingbuzhixiao。”
zheixiejieshizugouyoushuofuli，lujinyuanbushiyigeshanzhanghuanghualianpianderen，yihuonanduitadelejie，tashenzhibuhuiweilezheixieshiqingqusahuang，tingwanle，tafaxianzijiganggangzhunbeiyaofazuodepiqi，douranquanbubeiyingshengshengdiyalexiaqu。
zheihaishijiehunyinianlai，diyici，tazheiyangduoduobiren，tahuranduizheiyangdezijiyegandaobushufu。
danshitaquemeiyoufangan，zhishizaiweiweiwaizhetouqiaozheta，chaotajixushenshou，ranhouqingqingyidai，jiubatabaozaizijihuaili，tashuo，“huonan，nizaibufangxinshenmeni？”
ranhou，qingqingdewenzaihuonanbaixidebojingshang，zhanzhuanfance，zheiyangdewendu，zheiyangdeqixi，shuyuhuonandeqixi，sihuzaimougeshijiandianzaojiubianchengletadeanweiji。
taqingtan，“wozaibufangxinshenmeni？”mianqianzheigerenzongshiyouzheiyangdebenshi，zhiyaokaikou，tajiuxianbaixiazhenlai，zhiyaogougoushou，huonanjiushebudejixuhetazhengchao，zhiyaobaozhezijihantademingzi，tajiuhuilikexinruanxialai。
lujinyuandeshoutiezaitadehoubeishang。mianshangmeishenmebiaoqing，zhishichuizhejiemao，yongneizhongzhuanshudemantiaosilideyanshenxixidikanzheta。zaikanjiantayanshenlimiandeshanduodeshihoucaikaikou，“wochengren，woyiqianheyannicengjingyouguoyiduanjiaowangdejingli，danshizaitamamajiajifuqinzhiqian，wojiuyijinghetajieshule。
huonan，nibixuchengren，zheixieshiqingnizaojiuzhidao，duibudui，woduinibingmeiyoushenmeyinman，wodeganqingjingli，zhiyaoniwen，wojiuhuihuida，danwobuhuizhuizhequanbugaosuni，yinweizaiyiduanhunyinzhong，zongshitiqibuxiangguandeguoqu，bingbushiyigehaodefazhan，”
huonanyishidaozijigangcaidehuabutailiuqing，shenzhiyidianyebulizhi，tazhenzhuolebanfenzhong，renbuzhukaikou，“wozuobudaowanquanbuzaiyibierenshuodeneixiesishierfeidehua，huoxu，shiwozijidewenti，wobugouzixin，zaiyannidemianqian，wozonghuijuedebuan，tadeyanshenchongmanlediyi，”
“nidangshishibushinanchuanshengdegaokaozhuangyuan？”
“嗯。”
“nishibushicanjiaguoquanguoaolinpikejingsai，nadaolediyiming。”
“你怎么会知道。”
“shangcihuiqudeshihou，zaishufanglimianbanajiwokande，nicongxiaodaodadejiangzhuang，tadouyouhaohaobaocunqilai，”
“danshiyiqianwomeicibajiangzhuangnahuiqudeshihou，bayebuhuikuajiangwo。”huonandishengdigu。
lujinyuanbujingoulegouchun。“babashigenanren，nanrendeaihenshaoshuochulaide，”
“woxihuandushuhaode，naodaicongmingde。”taxiaoxiao，zheishizuijintazuifangsongdeshihoule，“yannidenaodaishigehuaping，tagaozhongdeshihouchengjihencha，”
huonanmeixiangdaozaitayanli，huidushuzheigejingranyebianchengleyoudian，“keshimamazongshuowoshigeshudaizi，zhihuidushu，shenmedoubuhui，renjiguanxiyeshiyitahutu，”
“henshaoyourenhuibuxihuanni，huonan。
gugushigehentiaotideren，keshiquezaihunqianjiuduinizanbujuekou，bashigehenyansuderen，keshimeicizhiyaonihuilai，tazongshizaixiao，xinqinghenhao，zhiyuwojiadexiaomowang，piqiwubibaozaodeluke，yeshinidetieganfensi。”tashuo，“nizaibuzixinshenmeni，”