第一章

南市,冬天。

womeixiangdaozuolebannianguhunyegui,jingranhaihuizuomeng——

womengjianlinsideneiyitian。

dayupangtuo,wozhengzaikaiche。

jiehunwuniandelaogong,cenyuanhehurandaleyigeshipindianhuaguolai,shipinzidongjieting——pingmushang,nanrenmianruyuguan,jianmeiyingting,kebiaoqingquelengmo,zhengzhanzaiminzhengjumenkou。

“hanxiaozhi,likelaiminzhengjubanlihun!”

woxinyizhi,wozhefangxiangpandeshouhudijingluan,meizhuyidaoqianmianchuanghongdengchongzhuanglaidedahuoche!

“嘭!”

juliedezhuangji,xianxuesijian,wojiuzheiyangsile。

“huainvren,fangkaiwo!”

“wohaotong!babamama,kuaijiujiuwo……wuwuwu……”

qilidekushenghudibawolachumengjing。

睁眼一看——

wodeerziniannian,youbeijiangyuanyinvedaizhe!

“chi!jiwochixiaqu!jingranganchenwobuzhuyitouchi,jiranzenmexiangchi,jiujiwochixiaqu!”

jiangyuanyiyongliqiazhenianniandexiaba,bafameidebaozisaijinnianniandezuili,mianmuzhengning。

nianniancangbaidexiaoliandoufazi,kuaiyaozhixi。

jiangyuanyiyoubujieqi,duizheiniannianxiaoxiaodeshentiyouchuiyouti:“zaodiansi,qupeinineibeichezhuangsidema!”

“住手!”

“jiangyuanyi,nizhushou!”

woxiangtuikaijiangyuanyi,kequezhijiechuanguoletadeshenti。

kanzhenianniandoufanbaiyanle,wowubitonghenzijidewuli。

niannianyijingbeinvedailebannian。

我却什么都做不了。

tashicenyuanhedechulianbaiyueguang,yongshouduanmanzhulewochehuosiwangdexiaoxi,youjiekoucenyuanhegongzuomang,zhudongzhaoguniannian。

kejiangyuanyisuoweidezhaogujiushinvedaihaizi!

“铃铃铃——”

shoujixiangqi,jiangyuanyizheicaisongkaiyanyanyixideniannian。

huakaijieting,tajiuxiangbianlegeren,shengyinwenrou:“yuanhe,nichuchahuilaile?”

“womashangqujichangni!”

挂掉电话。

jiangyuanyiyouzhuantouchuailechuaidishangsuochengyituandeniannian,xuanyaozhe:“nibabayaojianwo,takeshiyijudoumeitini,nizheijianzhongjiujiwolaoshidaizaizheidixiashi!”

tazouhou,nianniancaigandakouhuxi。

“年年……”

woxintengfushen,xiangbaobaota。

keshenchushou,zhijianqueshenmedoupengbudao。

我痛恨自己的无能。

youtinghaizininan:“mama,wohaoxiangni……ninengbunenglaipeipeiwo……”

“……我好痛……”

ningzhetashougulinxun,hunshenqingzidexiaoshenti,woxinrudaoge,quezenmeyekubuchulai。

linghun,shimeiyouyanleide。

“niannian,mamazai,yizhizai……”

disanqianliubaici,wotonghenzhezijidewuneng。

xiangshenshou,zainulishizhequbaota,keyanqianhudishanguoyidaobaiguang,jiezhewohudichuxianzaiyijiazhuanghuanggaojidecantingmianqian。

mianqian,shifengshengdezhuguangwancan。

cenyuanhezhengbaqiehaodeniupai,xixindidaojiangyuanyimianqian:“xiaoxintang。”

fuqiwunian,taconglaimeiyouweiwoqieguoniupai。

yeconglaimeijiniannianweiyikoufan。

rujin,quetaohaozhenvedaitaqinguroudeguizishou。

多讽刺。

jiangyuanyimanlianxiuse:“yuanhe,nihaijidewozuixihuanzheizhongaozhouniupai,woyiweinihexiaozhijiehunzhihou,bazheixiedouwangjile。”

haoxiangshitingdaowodemingzi,cenyuanhexiangshipiejianshenmelaji,wenhedelianhudeyuanbennankan。

jianzhuang,jiangyuanyiyanzhonghuaguodeyi,daolebeihongjiudijicenyuanhe,youshuo:“xiaozhizheiyizoudabanniandoumeiyinxun,shizaijiaorendanxin,biebushichushenmeshile?niyaobuyaopairenzhaozhaokan?”

zheihuakansiguanxin,kewozhidao,jiangyuanbuguoshizaishitan,xiangkankancenyuanheyoumeiyouzhuyidaowodesiwang。

sheizhixiayimiao,cenyuanhejingshuaichuyiju:“guantazuoshenme,tajiushisizaiwaimianyegenwomeiguanxi。”