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wowumingwufendipeizaiqinyuhanshenbianbanian。

peitaconglunyishangzhanqilai,yepeizhetacongyiyuzhengzhongzouchulai。

woyiweizijizhongyouyitianneng“shoudeyunkaijianyueming”。

zhidaotadebaiyueguanghuiguo,yiqiechenglewangxiang。

tarangwoshouqibugaiyoudexinsi,yididideshenfendaizaitadeshenbian。

weileta,taqiwo、ruwo、shuliwo。

ketabuzhidao,weilezhihaotadeyiyuzheng,woxishouletaiduodefumianqingxu。

taduanyaodeneitian,woquezhenlezhongduyiyu。

weilezijiu,wojuedingfangqita,zhuanshenhetadexiaoyilianyin。

keta,quezaihunlishangfangxiajiaoaodezunyan,dangzhongxiagui,zhiqiuwozaikantayiyan。

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“jiejie,woyuanyijiehunle。”

wotangzaibingchuangshang,yibiandadianhua,yibiantaiqilingyizhishou,shuangmuwushendidingzheshouwanshangneiranxuedeshabu。

第几次妄图自杀了?

wohaoxiangdoujibuqingle,zhijideqingxupumianerlaishi,wolianyidianhuoxialaideyuwangdoumeiyou。

shoujineitou,qinjinyuyibenzhengjingdijiuzhengwodao:“yunchuan,wosuiranshiqinyuhandebiaoyi,danshizhibinidaliangsuieryi。”

“nigaihanwolaopo,huozheweihunqi。”

tingdao“qinyuhan”demingzi,wodexinxiangshibeirenyongxiangpijindanleyixia,tengdecubujifang。

qinyuhanshiwoshenaileshiniandenvren。

congwoyoujiyikaishi,womenliangjiuzaiyiqiwanle。

neishi,wohaishimengjiadeshaoye。

ertashiwodelinjujiejie,womenmeitiannizaiyiqi,qingmeizhuma、liangxiaowucai。

jibianhoulaizhenshaoyemengnanchenguilai,wobeisaodichumen,qinyuhanyebuxianqiwo,haijiangwodaihuilejia。

zici,tachenglewoxinlizuizhongyaodeneigeren。

danshixianzai,wojuedingfangqitale。

woguaiguaihandao:“jinyujie。”

qinjinyuzheicaifachumanyidexiaosheng,shuo:“guai,yizhouhoujian。”

wodandandao:“ng,yizhouhoujian。”

huayingangluo,yidaoxiulideshenyingzoulejinlai。

wokanqinglairen,likeguaduanledianhua。

qinyuhanzhanzaineili,yishengaodingyuweiqunchendetazhenggerenjinguiyouya。

jibeitingbadeta,zaoyijingmeiyouledangnianzailunyishangneituibaisangqideyingzi。

tahuyidiwendao:“yizhouhou,niyaojianshei?”

woyuqilengdan:“yigelaopengyou。”

qinyuhandemeitouzhoudegengshen,taduiwodequanzileruzhizhang。

zheixienianwoweilepeita,yizhizaitadequanzilidazhuan,yagenmeiyouzhenzhengdepengyou。

tagangyaojixuzhuiwen,kekandaowoneifulandedalitadeyangzi,daozuidehuajiubianle。

tayuqichenchendiwen:“gewanhaowanma?”

binglengdeshengyinjiangwolahuilezuoye。

wotichuyaobanlibieshu,jieguoqinyuhanbutongyi,haijiangwosuozailewoshi,shuoshiyaowohaohaofansheng。

wobudongzijiyoushenmecuo,wozhishixiangyaolikaita,jieduanduitadeganqingbale。

qiangliedeqingxubodong,rangwoyiyuzhengbingfa,wohunhuneedigelewan。

neiyike,woshizhendebuxianghuole。

keqinyuhanquehaoxiangwuhuile。

tayiweiwoxiangyongzheizhongshouduanrangtaxinteng,suoyi,tasuiranbawosonglaileyiyuan,quejiaodaiyisheng:

“fenghedeshihoubuyaojitadamayao,woyaorangtajizhuzheizhongtong。”

wozuipateng,qinyuhanmingmingzhidaode。

ketamianwubiaoqingdikanzhewoxiangtoudaizaideniuyangban,beirenyazaishenxia,zaizhenxiandechuanyinxiaqilidicanjiao。

xiangqineizuanxindetongyi,worenbuzhusesefadouqilai。

liandaizhekanqinyuhandemuguangdoutouzhehaipa。

taweiweiyizheng,sihuyiwaiyuwodefanying,dangengduodeshiqinao。

tafushenzaiwoshenbian,yaoyaqiechidishuo:“niyouzaizhuangshenmekelian?wogaosuni,yinweinigewan,nanchenchadianhewofenshou。”

“tashuotabuxiangkandaonichushi,ruguoniyoushenmeyiwai,tahuineijiuyibeizi。”

“taneimeshanliang,nizenmehaoyisiyongzheizhongbeiliedeshouduan,xiangbawocongtadeshenbianqiangzou?”

ruoshiyiwangtazheimeshuo,wohuishengsilijiedigaosuta,tabeimengnanchenpianle。

mengnanchenjiushiyigewangenfuyi、aimuxurong、biaolibuyideren。

keshi,woxianzaizhongyumingbai,qinyuhanaita,suoyiwutiaojiandixinrenta。

jiuxiangdangchuwoaitayiyang。

woweiweiyixiao,guaishundao:“yiqianshiwozhimibuwu,dannifangxin,woyijingxiangtongle。”

“wohuihemengshaoyedaoqian,gaosutawoyijingfangqinile。”

woyiweiqinyuhantingdaozheigedaanhuihengaoxing,ketaquehaosishifenyiwaiban,zhengzhengdiwangzhewo。

banxiang,tacaipoweixinweidishuo:“ninengbaizhengzijideweizhi,zheihenhao。”

hualuo,waimianjiuchuanlaimengnanchendejiaosheng:“yuhanjie,wohaole~”

talengmodebiaoqingshunjianbiandewenrou。

tazhuanguoshenqu,yibianzouxiangmengnanchenyibianwendao:“zenmebuzaineibiandengwo?shouzhihaitengma?”

mengnanchenwozhetadeshouwansajiao,shouzhishangtieleyigechuangketie。

“aiya,jiushibeidaohualeyidaoxiaoxiaodekouzi。”

“shinitaijinzhangle,renjiayishengdouxiaohuawoleni,shuozaiwanlaiyidian,shangkoudouyaoyuhele。”

qinyuhanrenzhendao:“guanyuniderenheshiqing,doubusuanxiaoshi。”

mengnanchenluchutianmideweixiao,zhishizaiyuguangpiejianchuangshangdewoshi,xiangshishouleweiqubanxiaoshengdao:

“woshibushibugaiguolai?yunchuanyougaishengqile。”