xiyangdeyuhuijiangtadeyingziladehenzhang，toushezaiwojiaoxia。wonengqingxidiwendaotashenshangdandandehanwei，hunhezhecaomudeqingxinqixi，zheishiyigeganggangjingliguolianfanjizhandeshaonianyingyoudeweidao。raner，tawenchudewenti，quexiangyibalaizijiuyouhanbingduanzaodeliren，shunjiancichuanlewosuoyoudeweizhuang，rangwocongtoudaojiaoyipianbingliang。
“niyizaojiuzhidao，wohuiying，duibudui？”
zheijuhuabushiyiwen，shichenshu。tadeyuqipingjing，quedaizheyizhongburongzhiyidechuantouli。woneitaozaizhaowujimianqianxingzhiyouxiaode“songbao”yanji，zaitaneishuangshensuiruxingkongdeyanmouzhushixia，xianderucicangbaiwuli。
wodedanaofeisuyunzhuan，gezhongniantourutongzoumadengbanshanguo。fouren？shuo“shixiongniwuhuile，wozhishiyunqihaocaiduile”？buxing，taijiale。tabushizhaowujineizhongtounaojiandandefanpai，taxinsizhenmi，guancharuwei，fouzeyewufazaihouqidezhongzhongweijizhonghuoxialai。tajiranzheimewen，jiuyidingshicongwodemouxiexijiezhongkanchulepozhan。
shishenme？shiwozaishushangkeguazishitaiguoyouxiandezitai？haishiwobeizhuabaohou，suiranbiaoxiandejinghuang，danyanshenshenchuquemeiyouzhenzhengdeyiwai？
woqiangpozijilengjingxialai，xinzangzaixiongqianglileigubankuangtiao。zheishiwochuanyuesannianlai，diyiciyuqingjiehexinchanshengrucizhijieqieweixiandepengzhuang。yibuzoucuo，woanyide“guanzhong”shengyakenengjiucizhongjie。
“lin……linshixiong，hechuciyan？”wotianletiangansedezuichun，shengyinyijiuweichizhejifenqienuo，danyijingbuxiangbaitianneibankuazhang，“dizi……diziyudun，shizaibumingbaishixiongdeyisi。”
tameiyoushuohua，zhishixiangqianyouzoujinleyibu。wuxingdeyalipumianerlai，rangwoxiayishidihoutuilebanbu。
“nibubizaizhuangle。”linfengdemuguangruiliruying，“congzhaokuoshangtaideneiyikeqi，yanwuchangshangshuqiandizi，baokuogaotaishangdezhanglao，meiyigerendebiaoqingwodoukanzaiyanli。youqingmie，youtongqing，youdanyou，youxingzailehuo。weiduni，shenanshixiong。”
tadunledun，yiziyijudishuodao：“nideyanshenli，shenmedoumeiyou。bu，yinggaishuo，nibushizaikanyichangbishi，nishizaidengyigezaoyizhixiaodejieguo。neizhongganjue，jiuxiang……jiuxiangyigetiqiankanguoxibendekanke，zaidengzheyanyuannianchuneijuguanjiandetaici。woshuode，duima？”
wohoubeidelenghan，shuadiyixiajiumaolechulai。
guaiwu！zheijiahuojianzhishigeguaiwu！tashenchufengbaozhongxin，chengshouzhequanchangdeyaliyuchaofeng，juranhaiyouyuliquguanchayigeduozaijishizhangkaiwaishushangdelurenjiadeyanshen？zheifenxinxing，zheifendongchali，bukuishitianmingzhizi！
wozhidao，zaijixuzhuangshayijingmeiyourenheyiyile。
woshenxiyikouqi，huanhuandidixialetou，bikaitaneifangfonengdongxiyiqiedemuguang。chenmo，shicikezuihaodeyingdui。tajikeyibeilijieweimoren，yekeyibeikanzuoshiwuyandekangbian，jilewosikaoduicedebaoguishijian。
wogaizenmejieshi？wogaijitayigezenyangde“xinxicha”？
yigewanmeidehuangyan，wangwangxuyaojiufendezhenhuazuoweipudian。wobunenggaosutawoshichuanyuezhe，danwokeyi……jitayigetanenggoulijie，bingqiewufazhengweide“zhenxiang”。
xujiudechenmohou，wozaicitaiqitou，lianshangdeqienuohehuangzhangyijingtunqu，querdaizhideshiyipianpingjing。wozhishizhetadeyanjing，yongyizhongdaizhejifenkusehewunaideyuqi，qingshengshuodao：“linshixiong，nijirankanchulaile，woyejiubumannile。youxieshiqing，bushiwoxiangzhidao，ershi……wobudebukandao。”
wodezhuanbian，ranglinfengyanzhongshanguoyisiyayi。tameiyoucuicu，zhishijingjingdidengzhewodexiawen。
“wotiansheng……youxiebutong。”wozhenzhuozheciju，kaishibianzhiyigequanxindegushi，“wokanbuqingtaiyuandedongxi，danwonengkandaoyixiebierenkanbudaodedongxi。biru……qiyun。”
“qiyun？”linfengdemeitouweiweicuqi，zheigecixianranchudongleta。duiyuxiuxianzheeryan，qiyunzhishuoxuwupiaomiao，queyouzhenshicunzai。
“shide。”wodianlediantou，biaoqingbiandeyufaluomo，“zaiwodeyanjingli，meigerenshenshangdouliaoraozhebutongyansedeguang。dabufenrendoushibaisehuohuise，pingpingwuqi。zizhihaoyixiede，shiqingse。erxiangzhaokuoneiyangde，jiashixianhe，qiyanxiaozhang，tashenshangdeguangshiciyandehongse，danneihongsefuyubiaomian，genjibuwen，xiangyituansuishihuiximiedexuhuo。”
woshuozhe，taiyankanxiangta，muguangbiandefuzaershensui：“danshini，linshixiong……nibuyiyang。sannianlai，wojianguonihenduoci。meiyici，nishenshangdoulongzhaozheyicengandandehuiqi，fangfobeishenmedongxiyazhizhe。danzaineihuiqizhixia，wozongnengyinyinkandao……yimowufabeiyangaide、chuncuidejinse。”
“jintian，dangnizoushangleitaideneiyike，nishenshangdehuiqijinshusanqu。neijinse……neijinsechongtianerqi，wanruxuridongsheng，cuicanduomu，jihuyaocixiawodeyanjing。”woshenchushou，fangfozaibihuazheneibingbucunzaideguangmang，“erzhaokuoshenshangdehongguang，zainidejinguangmianqian，miaoxiaodejiuxiangyikesuishihuibeikuangfengchuimiedezhuhuo。suoyi，wogenbenbuxuyaokanbishideguocheng，yinweizainimenzhanshangleitaideneiyike，jieju……jiuyijingzhudingle。”
woyikouqishuowan，ganjuezijidekoucaidadaolerenshengdedianfeng。zheitao“wangqishu”deshuoci，banzhenbanjia，xushijiehe。zhenzaiyulinfengqueshishitianmingzhizi，qiyunjiashen；jiazaiyuwogenbenmeiyoushenmeyineng，quankaojutou。danzheigejieshi，wanmeidihuidaletasuoyoudewenti：woweishenmeneimedanding？woweishenmezhidaotahuiying？yinweiwo“kan”daole。
zheishiyizhongtianfu，wufaxuexi，wufaboduo，gengwufaxiangwairenzhengshi。zheishizuiwanmeideshuaiguoduixiang。
linfengchedichenmole。takanzhewo，yanshenzhongchongmanlezhenjing、huaiyi、yijiyisi……leran。wodezheifanhua，duitaeryanchongjilitaidale。tabujinjieshilewodeyichang，gengcongyigexuanzhiyouxuandejiaodu，kendingletazishendejiazhi。yigeneng“kandao”qiyunderen，shuotashenfu“chongtianjinguang”，zheibirenherendekuajiangdougengnengchudongtaneikeyayilesanniandexin。
guolexujiu，tacaihuanhuankaikou，shengyinyouxieshaya：“zheizhongnengli……haiyousheizhidao？”
“nishidiyige。”wolikehuida，biaoqingchengkenwubi，“zheizhongnengliduiwoeryan，baiwuyiyong，fanerhuizhaolaihuoduan。suoyiwocongbuxiangrentiqi，pingriliyezhuangzuoyudunnuoruo，zhiqiunengananwenwendiguorizi。jintianruobushibeizhaowujibidaoneigefenshang，woyebuhui……ai。”
wozhongzhongditanlekouqi，jiangyigeshenhuaiyinengquezhixiangdangxianyudekubixingxiang，yanyidelinlijinzhi。
linfengdianlediantou，sihujieshoulewodeshuofa。tayanzhongdejingtihehuaiyi，zhongyujianjianxiaotui，querdaizhideshiyizhongqiansuoweiyoudeningzhong。tazhidao，ruguowoshuodedoushizhende，neimewozheigekansipingpingwuqidewaimendizi，duitaeryan，jiangjuyouwufaguliangdejiazhi。
“neinixianzai……zaiwoshenshangkandaoleshenme？”tadingzhewo，wenchuleyigeguanjiandewenti。
kaoyanyoulaile！zheishizaiceshiwo！
wolikejizhongjingshen，diaodongnaohailiguanyuhouxuqingjiedejiyi。linfengzaixiaobiduokuizhihou，huihuodejinruneimendejihui。danzaineimenkaohezhiqian，taneigezhifuweihundeweihunqi，laizidajiazuliujiadeliuqingxue，huidaizhetaneigeyangaoyudingdeneimenshixiongshangmentuihun，jijinxiuru。erlinfengzehuilixia“sannianzhiyue”，bingzaijiezhilaoyeyedebangzhuxia，yuzongmenhoushandehantanzhizhong，zhaodaoyilvyihuo“gulinglenghuo”dezihuo，shilizaidubaozhang，zuizhongzaineimenkaoheshangdafangyicai，henhendidalesuoyourendelian。