第1章绝望
daochengshizhongxinyiyuan，zhurenyishiliuzhanggengbangongshimenwai。
xujingxingxiaoxindeqiaomen，tingdao“jinlai”houcaituimenjinqu，youxiejinzhangdewen：“liuzhuren，ninzhaowo？”
“xiaoxua，gaosuniyigehaoxiaoxi，nimeimeizheigegusuipeixingchenggongle，”liuzhanggengxiaohehedeshuo。
“zhende？”tingdaozheigexiaoxi，xujingxingyichangjidong，shenzhiyoudianbuganxiangxinzijideerduo。
“qianzhenwanque，yijinglianxidaogongzhele，lianggeyuehoujiunengjinxingshoushu，”liuzhanggengdiandiantou，suijiqueyouyadishengyin，“danshi，zheigeshoushufei，kenengyoudiangao......”
xujingxingjidongdebiaoqinglikeninggu，zhangzhangzuihoutantedewen：“nei，neideduoshaoqian？”
“zuishaowushiwan，”liuzhanggengtanxiyisheng，“erqiewushiwanzhishishoushufeiyong，shuhoupaiyizhiliaofeiyonghaimeisuanzaiqizhong，ruguozuozuihuaidedasuan，shuhouliliaofeimeinianhaideershiwanzuoyou，chixuyidaosannianshijian，niyezhidao，baixuebingdouzheiyang，nimeimeihaisuanxingyun，peixingchenggongle，nengzuoyizhishoushu，buzhidaoyouduoshaobaixuebinghuanzhezhinengkaohualiaolaiweichishengming......”
xujingxingdelianseshuadeyixia，biandeshabaishabai。
suirantazaojiuzuohaolexinlizhunbei，kezhourantingdaozheigedaan，yiranwufachengshou，xiangdaoneitianwenshuziyibandefeiyong，tagengshigandaoyizhenzhendejuewang，xinzangxiangshibeirenyonglizuanzhurounieyiyangdeteng，yanqianzhenzhenfahei，jiyuhunjue。
jigehuxihou，tanulirangzijipingjingxialai，seshengdao：“xiexieliuzhuren，woyidingzaishoushuzhiqiancouqishoushufei，yidinghui——”tashuozhelianzijidoubuxiangxindehua，hunhuneedezhuanshenlikai。
yichulai，wuzhelianpangkaozheqiangbimanmandedunxiaqu，wushengdewuyanqilai。
weilejimeimeizhibing，gangershiersuidetatongshizuozhesanfengongzuo，meitiandeshuijueshijianbuchaoguosigexiaoshi，kezhuandaodeqianquezhishimianqiangdideshangxianjieduandeyiliaofei，zhiyuneigaoangdeshoushufei，tazhenbuzhidaogaicongshenmedifangnong。
zheixietian，weilezhuanqian，taxiangjinleyiqiebanfa，zuiqueqiandeshihoushenzhimaileliangcixue，ruguobushizhaobudaoqudao，talianzijideshendouyaomaidiaole。jiushimaiming，tadouzaisuobuxi。
keshi，wodeming，buzhiqiana——
xujingxingzaixinlijuewangdeaihaodao。
“xujingxing？nizenmele？”zheishi，yigewenroudeshengyinzaierbianxiangqi，jiangtacongjiuxindejuewangzhonghuanxing。
tingdaoyourenhanziji，xujingxingjimangmodiaoyanlei，jichuyisiweixiao，ranhoutaitou。takandaoyizhangshuxiyouyouxiemoshengdemiankong，chiyiyixia，shitanzhewen：“yuhanqing？”
“shiwo，nizenmedunzaizheili？”
“meishenme，bandianshier，”xujingxingbuxihuanrangrenkandaozijideruanruo，gengbuxihuanxianglinxiangsaoneiyangfengrenjiushuozijishenshangfashengdebeijulaiboqutongqing，genghekuangtamianqianzhanzhedeshitagaozhongshiqianlianguodenvshen。
zhishicishideyuhanqinggengaozhongshiqineiqingsedemoyangbiqilaijianzhipanruoliangren，chuanzhejiebaidedagua，wuheidezhangfashuzainaohou，pifubaixixinen，mianrongjingzhiqiaomei，shencaibusuangaotiaodanyunchengmiaotiao，lianshangdaizherouhedexiaorong，bushitebiemingxiandeshuangyanpirangtakanqilaitebieqinqie，lvedaicixingdesangyingengyouyizhongrangrenrumuchunfengbandemoli。
zaitayanli，cishideyuhanqingjiuxianggeganggangxiafandexiannv，chaofantuosudaotakewangerbukeji，shenzhiyouxiebuganzaizhishitadeyanjing。
yuhanqingkebuzhidaoxujingxingzenmexiangde，qingshengwen：“xuyaobangmangma？”
徐景行摇摇头。
yuhanqinggangruzhi，bingbuqingchuxujingxingdezhuangkuang，dankandaoxujingxingdechuanzhedabanhejingshenzhuangtaihou，caicetashiyudaolenanshier，xianglexiang，yaozhezuichundao：“meishenmeguobuqudekan，yaoshiyudaoshenmekunnan，jinguankaikou，woyidingbangni。”
“xiexieni，zhende，”xujingxingmianqiangxiaoxiao，ranhoucongmangdao：“duibuqi，wohaiyoushier，xianzoule，gaitianzailiao，”shuowandizhetoukuaibulikai。
meishenmeguobuqudekan......
xujingxingmangrandezouzaidajieshang，xinlimomodezhongfuzhelaotongxuegangshuodeneijuhua，xinliyoubeiyouku，zheijuhua，tazaiwunianqianjiutinglewushubian，meimeishengbingzheixiaobannianyoutinglewushubian，quemeiyourengaosuta，zheidaokangaizenmekuaguoqu。
ruguofuqinhaihuozhe，tayinggaizhidaozenmebanba？
xujingxingrenbuzhuxiangdaozijineiwunianqianqushidefuqin，ruguotafuqinhaihuozhe，tajiubuhuigaozhongchuoxue，buhuizaozaodeweiletazijihetameimeideshengjiercaolao，gengbuhuixiangxianzaizheiyangjuewangwuzhu......
父亲！
xiangdaofuqin，xujingxingyanqianshanguoyidaoliangguang。
tayixijide，fuqincengjingpaizheyigetiehezigentashuoguoneishitamenjiazuizhenguidebaowu，haishuodengtachengnianyihoujiuchuanjita。keshitachengniandeshihou，tagenfuqinqueyijingyinyangliangge，neishenmebaowuyebeitawangdaolenaohou。
xiwangfuqinshuodebaowuhaizai！
xiangdaoneigejunlvsehaidaizhebayihehongwuxingbiaozhidetiehezi，xujingxinghuranjidongqilai，fengleyiyangwangjialikuangben，yidaojia，gubudechuanxi，chongjinfuqindefangjianlifanxiangdaojudexunzhaoqilai，henkuaijiuzaichuangxiazhaodaolejiyizhongdeneizhitiehezi。
就是它！
xujingxingxiaoxinyiyidepengzheyoudianshengxiudetiehezi，leiliumanmian，yinweizheishitaweiyidexiwang。
xiaoxinyiyideqiaokaibingbujieshidesuotou，kehezilideshiwuquerangtadashisuowang，yinweihezilizhuangzheliangzhishouzhangheyibenshu。
shushiyibenjiushiniandaichubandemudiaochuangzuochujijiaoxue，neiliangzhishouzhangtongyangbushitaxiangxiangzhongdezhenbao，yinweitamenshishigaonieqilaide，erqiezuogonghencucao，haiburuxiaohaizishougongkeshangniedecancipinhaokan。
zheijiushifuqinshuodezhenbao？
xujingxingyikexinmanmandezhuiruwubiandeshenyuan，cankudexianshilengbingbinggaosuta：zheizhishitafuqingentakaideyigewanxiao！
congjuewangdaomanhuaixiwang，xianshiyoujiangtatuiruwubiandejuewangzhizhong，guoshancheyibandeqifu，rangtaxiangshidiulehunyiyanghunshenwuli，yishunjianjuedeyiqiedoumeiyoulerenheyiyi，shoulidetieheziguanglanglangdeluozaidishang，liangzhishigaoniedeshouzhangshuaidesifenwulie。
danjiuzaizheishi，xujingxinghuranfaxian，shuaisuideshigaojingranbeishenmedongxitaozhe，dingjingyikan，kandaoyicengdandandejinhuangseguangze，jimangpengqilaixixichakan，zuihouqueding，zheishiyiduishoutao，yiduibantoumingdeshoutao，yousichouyileicaizhibianzhideshoutao。
zheicaishifuqinshuodezhenbao？