第一章记忆
shizhenzhuandong，citongdedianliuganruqierzhi。
wotongkudezhangdazuiba，lianhuxidouchengleyijiankunnandeshiqing。
zheiyijingshiwobeishenyanchenbangzaidianyishangdedisigexiaoshile。
gujishenyanchenzijidedoumeixiangdao，wohuiyinweizheixingfade**，zhaohuilecengjingdiushidejiyi。
woxiangqishenyanchenshiruhejiangdaoziyixiayixiadecharufuqindeshentili；
xiangqishenyanchenshiruhebangzhuwo，jiangbuzhimingdeyaojizhushejinwodeshenti。
xiangqitaxiaorongguiyi，yibianbianzaiwoerbianzhongfu，“yihounibuzaishijiangrou，ershiarou，shiaizhewodearou......”
jiyichongjindanao，wocaizhidaoyuanlaiwobingbushishenyanchendejinsique，ershiwodizaizhapiantuanduidejingcha——jiangrou。
电流停了下来。
shenyanchenjiuzuozaiwoduimian，youyixiameiyixiadedianzheshoubiao，sihuzaitixingwo，tameiduoshaonaixing。
“还不认错？”
tashuodecuo，shitakanshangleliangtianqiangangzhuahuilaidenvhaiaran，xiangrangwobangmangxinao，rangtachengweitaxindewanwu。
dangshidewo，jiduxinbaopeng，danaoleyichang。
jingguodianxingdecuican，woqiruoyousi，haozainaozizhongyuhuifuqingxing。
jiranwohuifulejiyi，jiuyidingyaojixuwanchengrenwu，gengbukenengrangwuguderenjuanrushenyuanzhizhong。
woxuezhecongqiandeyuqi，“wobujuedewoyoucuo，shiyihounishuoguohuiyongyuanaiwo。xianzaiyouyoulearan，yihouhuibuhuihaiyoushenmeamaoagoude。”
shenyanchenxiaole，xiaorongrangrenbuhanerli，“baobeier，woshuohuiaini，danyoushuozhiainiyigema？nibuxiangbanfanaxiata，neiwodenuhuo，zhinengyounichengdanle。”
tashuowan，pailepaicaozuojiqideshouxia，“dianliuhaikeyizaijiadayidian。”
woyanzhengzhengdekanzhejiqishangdexuanniuninglezhengzhengyiquan。
xinzangjuliedetiaodongzhe，wonulizhengzha，yanleidakedakedewangxiadiao，“shenyanchen，huisirende，huisirende！wocuo......”
“xu——”shenyanchenshenshoudianzaiwodechunshang，duzhuworencuodehua，“woxianzaibuxiangtingle，baobeier，nulihuoxialaie。”
huayinweiluo，jiqiqidongle。
youshineizhemorendedianliu，zhibuguozheiyici，bineiqianmiandesixiaoshijiaqilaihaitongku。
dengdaodianliutingxiashi，woyijingliantaiqiyanpideliqidoumeiyoule。
shenyanchenzhoulezhoumei，sishijiqibumanyiwoxianzaideyangzi，chaozheshenpangderenhuilehuishou，
“再加大些电流。”
shenpangderenyileng，xiaoxinyiyidekaikou，
“laoda，zaidadehua，rongyichuweixian......”
shenyanchenqingxiaoyisheng，muguangluozaiwoshenshang，daizheqingman，
“pashenme？aroubushihaihuozhe。”
neishouxiazhinengjiangxuanniuzaicixuanzhuan。
bunengzailaiyicile，wodehuoxiaqu。
wokezhizhezijixinzhongxiongyongdehenyi，dixiatou，renyouhanshuishunzhelianjialuoxia。
“我知错了。”
dixiashixianruleguiyideanjing。
zhongyu，shenyanchenqingxiaoyisheng。
wozhidao，zheishihuanhedexinhao。
shenyanchenzoudaowomianqian，qinshoutiwojiekaileshufu，baoqiwo。
“zhiyaonitinghua，wohaihuixiangyiqianyiyangtengnide。”
zheiyanghongpiandehua，xianzaitinglai，zhijuedewubiexin。
woyingleyisheng，jiangtoumaizaishenyanchendejingwo。
就是这里。
zhiyaowochaozhezheiliyaoxiaqu，wojiukeyitifuqin、tizijibaochoule！
嘭——
yishengqiangxiangjisuilewodexiangxiang。
wodengdaleyanjing，gandaoyimowenredeyetijianzailewodeerchuishang，xiayishibianxiangyaohuitou。
shenyanchenjiangwodetouanhuiletadejianbang，zhizhilewodedongzuo。
“tayongzheimedadedianliushanghaiwodearou，haitiarouqiuqing，zhenshigaisi！aroujuedewoshuodeduima？”
womomodedianlediantou，shentiyinkongjuerbutingdizhandou。
shenyanchenmanyidexiaolexiao，shenshoumoquwoerchuishangdexue，jiangwosonghuilezijidefangjian。
wozhanzaiyushili，zhiyaoxiangqizijiyuzijideshafuchourenxiangai，jiunanyiziyidejuedeexin，zhinengpinmingdexishuazheziji，zhidaopifusilieposuierchuanlaizhenzhentongyi。
wokanzhejingzhongdeziji，naozhongfuxianchuweiyidexiangfa。
逃出去！
kewosuiranzaizheilishenghuolesannian，queshikebeishenyanchenhetadeshouxiajianshizhe，lianxianzaishenchuhedidoubuzhidao。
jinjinkaowoyigerenxiangyaotaochuqu，keyishuoshiwanquanbukenengdeshi。
wozhinengxianxunzhaojihui，duokaishenyanchendeyanjing，yuwaijiequdelianxi。
weilerangtafangsongjingti，wulunshenyanchentichushenmeyangdeyaoqiu，wodouhuixiaozheyingxia，jijinsuonengdetaohaota。
zhongyuhuanlaileyigechumenfangfengdejihui。
wowozheshouzhongdeshouji，kaozaiyigexiaoxiangzilideyinbichu，dakoudechuanzhecuqi。
zhandouzheshouzhi，bochuneichuanzainaozhongzhongfuleqianwanbiandeshuzi
duanzandebohaoshengxiangguohou，dianhuabotongle。
wojiqiedechongzhedianhuahan，“wei，woshijiangrou！”
dianhuaneitoudenanshengtouluzhejingya，“rourou？zhendeshini？！wohaiyiweinirenwushibaile。”
dianhuaneitoude，shizhangshu，woyujingjuzhijiandelianluoren。
“zhangshu，wohaizai，zhiqianshiyinweimouxieyuanyinshiyile，zhihoudegongzuokeyijixule，bangwogenmabaoshengpingan。”
dianhuaneitouzaiyizhenduanzandechenmohou，chuanlailezhangshushuduanduanxuxudeshengyin。
“nimamata...taqianduanshijiangewanzishale，qiangjiuwuxiao，yijingrutuweianle，tadeyiwuzanshiyouwobaoguan......”
wodaizhidezhanzaiyuandi，zhijuedehunshendexueyefangfodoubeiningguzhule，buganxiangxinzijitingjianleshenme，yanshibanganxiaolejisheng。
“zhangshu，ninbiekaiwanxiaole，shibushiyinweiwoshizong，mamatashengwoqile，wokeyijieshide！ninbangwoququanquanta，kuairangtajiedianhuaba！qiuninle！”
duimiandezhangshushengyinyedaishangleyisigengyan，“shizhende，nifuqinqushile，niyoushizongle，nimuqindejingshenzhuangtaiyizhibutaihao，ta....tashizaishiaobuzhule......”
“不！”
“不是真的！”
wohunshenwulideyikaozaiqiangjiao，chaozheshoujiduimiandezhangshunuhou，fangfozheiyangjiukeyizhengmingzheiyiqiedoushijiade。
dianhuaneitoudezhangshuyizhibaochizhechenmo，zhidaowolengjingxialai，caizaicikaikou，“rourou，nishizenmetaochulaide？nizhibuzhidaonixianzaizaina？”
wozhengzhengdedingzhemianqiandedimian，jixiedeshuozhezijidejingli，bianshuobiantaiqishou，henhendejilezijiliangbazhang。
都怪我！
ruguowonengzaoxiexiangqilaiyiqie，ruguowonengzaoxielianximuqin，huoxumuqinjiubuhuisi！
如果......
zhangshudenuchidaduanlewodezize，
“shenyanchenjiushigechusheng！nidengzhe，nixiangbanfataochulai，wopairenjieyingni！”
shenyanchen.......
对！
ruguobushishenyanchen，wobuhuijiaporenwang！
我要让他付出代价！