wojiajizhenyuanjiangjunxiaoyidediernian，taqulebianguan。zaiyicidixizhong，tabuxingdiexiaxuanya，shiguwucun。
shenweiguafu，wozaijingchengbangtafengyangfumu，jinzhijinzedizhaoguzhetadejiaren。liangnianhou，
xiaoyiqueqijibandihuilaile，daizheyigedazheduzidenvren。1jingchengdechuqiu，tiangaoyundan，
kongqizhongdaizheyisiliangyi。wozuozaizhenyuanjiangjunfudeneishili，shouzhongpengzheyaowan，zhengzaiweixiaoyidemuqinaoyao。
zitazaizhanchangshizonghou，wojiuchenglezheigefudideweiyizhizhu。wodefumucengxiangjiewohuijia，
rangwokaolvgaijiadeshiqing。wojujuele，yijiuzaizheilijinxiaojinze，zhaogutamendeshenghuo，weichijiazhongdepingwen。
turan，fuzhongchuanlaiyizhencaozasheng，dapoleyuanbenningjingdefenwei。woshouzhongdeyaowanweiweiyihuang，
xinzhongturanyouxiebuan。suiji，wotingjianleshuxideshengyin，neishixiaoyideshengyin——tahuilaile。
wojimangqishen，kuaibuzouchuneishi。yanqiandejingxiangrangwojihubuganxiangxinzijideyanjing。neigeren，xiaoyi，
tazhanzaineili，shensejianyouxiecangbai，queyijiuyingjuntingba。rangwogengweizhenjingde，
shitashenpangzhanzheyiweihuaiyundenvzi，lianshangdaizheweixiao。“zheishiwojiumingenrenliuruyan，
tashiwodexianrenqizi。”xiaoyideshengyindichenerpingjing，fangfozaigaosuwoyigeshishi，
shenzhimeiyourenhedechiyi。wodexinmengdiyichen，fangfobeibinglengdedaorenhenhenciru。wolengzhule，
yanqiandejingxiangrangwoyishijianwufalijie。yuanlai，liangnianqian，xiaoyidiexiashanyahou，jingranbeirensuojiu，
zhishishiqulejiyi，haiqulejiumingenrendenver。erwo，neigecengjingshenaizhetadenvren，
jingranbeitayiwangzaileyaoyuandeguoqu。xiaoyidemuguangouerluozaiwoshenshang，yanzhongmeiyousihaojingya，
fangfoyiqiedoushilisuodangrande。taqingshengshuodao：“shanggeyue，wocaibeixiashuzhaodao，caizhidaozijidaodishishei。
kezhijin，wodejiyirengweihuifu。”“ni……nibujidewolema？”wojihushiconghoulonglijichuzheijuhua，
shengyinzhandou，xintouxiangshibeiyigenzhenmengdiciru。liangniandedengdai、liangniandeshougua、liangniandetongkuyujianao，
zuizhongdelaidejingshizheiyijulengdandejieshi。xiaoyimeiyouzaiduoshuoshenme，zhuanshendaizheliuruyanyiqizoujinleneishi。
wozhanzaiyuandi，shentirutongbeitaokongyiban，lianhuxidoubiandejiannan。yeshenle，wuneidedenghuohunan，
woduziyirenzoujinlecitang。woguizuozaidishang，leishuiwushengdihualuo，xinzhongdetongchuwufayanyu。
wojidewomenxinhundeneiduanrizi，wennuanertianmi，tahuiqingqingzaiwoerbiandiyu“zhiyi，woaini”。
woyezongshixiaozhehuiyingta，“woyeaini。”neixierizi，fangfoshimengjingyiban，meihaoerduanzan。
wojideneishitaweiwoxishanghongxian，qinshouweiwopishangdongridedachang，wennuanderangrenjihuwangjisuiyuedeliuzhuan。
keshixianzai，wosuoyoudejianchihefuchu，jingranhuaweiyichangkongmeng。liangnianshougua、fengyanggongpodejianxin，
meiyifenmeiyimiaodouxiangshisixinliefeidezhemo。errujintazhanzaiwomianqian，
quedaizhelingyigenvrenhuidaowodeshenghuoli，tadeyanshenzhongmeiyouyisishuyuwodewendu。
wodeleishuiyidijiezheyidiluoxia，xinrudaoge。cengjingdechengnuo、cengjingdeai，
fangfodoubianchengleyichangyaobukejidehuanmeng。2zicongxiaoyidaizheliuruyanhuifu，wojiuzhidao，
shiqingbuhuixiangwoxiangxiangdeneiyangjiandan。liuruyanbujinshixiaoyide“jiumingenren”，
tagengshiyigejishanzhangliyongrenxingruodianderen。tabiaomianwenrou，yanshenliquezongdaizheyizhongyanshibuzhudetiaoxin，
meiyijuhuadoufangfoanzangshenyi，keyiyindaowoxianrubuanhejidu。xiaofuxiaomujianchirenwei，
woxuzhiyicaishixiaoyidezhengqi，liuruyanbuguoshiyigelailubumingdexiangxianvzi，genbenwufayuwoxiangbi。
liuruyanquebingmeiyoujiyufanbo，ershiweiweiyixiao，shengyinrouhedikaikou：“jiejie，jiangjuncongshanyashuaixialai，
shouleneimezhongdeshang，doushiduokuilewodexixinzhaoliao，fangcaihuifu。”taguyijiazhong“zhaoliao”lianggezi，
yanzhongdaizheyisiwanweidetiaoxin。“jiejieniyijingshiqutale，wocaishitaxianzaidenvren，jieshouxianshiba。
”youshi，tahuiguyixiangwotiqizijihexiaoyideyixiexiaoshi。“jintianjiangjunteyifenfuxiarenjiwodunleyanwo，
tashuoduochiyanwoduihaizihao。”tadeshengyinqingmiaodanxie，
ranerneiju“duihaizihao”quexiangdaoziyiyangciruwoxinzhong。woqiangrenzhubuqukantaneimanshideyideyanshen，
ditouyiyanbufa。tasihubingbujiyurangwohuifu，ershijingjingdidengdaizhewodefanying，
xiangshouwoneixindebupingheng。zuilingwogandaocitongdeshi，meidangwomenyiqijincanshi，
liuruyanzonghuizhudongdizuozaixiaoyishenbian，tawenroudihetajiaotan，ouerditouqingxiao，
meiyigedongzuodouxiandeneimeziran。erxiaoyisuiranmeiyoubiaoxianchuguoduodeqinni，
danwoyirankandaotaouerhuidishenghuiyingta，shenzhibuzijuediweiweiceshen，zhuanzhuditingtashuohua。
meiyicitamendeqinmihudong，dourangwogandaorutongbeizhongzhongdaji，wodexintourutongbeibinglengdetiechuijida，
yinyinzuotong。woqiangpozijidixiatou，renzhuneixindetongku。raner，tademeiyicitiaoxin，doushiduiwodeshitan，
sihushizaiposhiwochengrentahexiaoyideguanxi。erwozaitayanzhong，zhudingshiyigeshibaizhe。
liuruyanxiwangwojiduta，xiangrangwomingbai，woyijingwuquanzaiyutazhengduoxiaoyideyiqie。
tadehuayuxiangshisisirukoudetengman，qiaowushengxidichanraozhuwodexin，rangwodongdanbude。
tayongyizhongwenroudefangshigaosuwo，wobuzaishizheigejiadezhujiao，xiaoyideweilai，zaoyibuzaishuyuwo。
rifuyiri，xiaofuxiaomuyejianjianjieshouleliuruyan。meiciwokandaotamenzaitamianqiandewenhetaidu，
xinzhongjiubumianfanqiyizhenkuse。shia，liuruyanduzilidehaizi，zhongjiushitamendeqinsuner。wocengyiwei，
zheigejiashiwoguishudedifang。cengjing，xiaofuxiaomujiangwoshirujichu，manhuaiciaididuidaiwo。erxiaoyi，
wodezhangfu，yeshiwoshengmingzhongdeyikao。wocengyiwei，zhiyaowomenxinxinxiangyin，zheifenwennuanbianyongyuanbuhuigaibian。
xiaofuxiaomubuzaixiangyiqianneiyangguanxinwo。gengduodeshihou，tamendemuguangdoujujiaozailiuruyandeshenshang。
youqishidangtatiqiduzilidehaizishi，tamendexiaoronggengshiwenrouerciai。xianzai，
wofaxianzijizaizheigejiali，chengleneige，wairen。worenbuzhuxiang，ruguo，xiaoyihuifulejiyi，
huibuhuibianhao？3neiyitian，liuruyande“yiwai”fashengdeneimeqiaomiao，jihurangwowufahuaiyitadeyongxin。
taguyizaizhongrenmianqianshuaidao，diedaodeshunjiantawuzhuleduzi，miansecangbaididashengjianjiao，
shengleijuxiadihanzhe：“wodehaizi！shijiejiehailewo！shijiejieguyituiwoshuaidao！”taneifutongkudemoyang，
jihurangsuoyourendouxinyiweizhen，yanzhongchongmanletongqingyufennu。wozhanzaineili，lenghanjintoulebeiji，
xinzanghenhendichouchuleyixia。tayanzhongdeleishuiyutaneiyishengshengdehanjiao，
fangfozhijiejiangsuoyoudezuimingjiazailewotoushang。xiaoyinushizhewo，yanshenzhongmanshifennu。tadeshengyinzheneryulong，
daizhecongweiyouguodelengyi：“xuzhiyi，nidaodizuoleshenme？niweishenmeyaozheimeduidaita？
”tademeiyijuhuarutongzhongchuijidazaiwodexinshang，wowufafanbo，zhinengzhanzaineili，
yanzhengzhengdikanzheliuruyanjixuyanyitadebeiqingxima。erwo，zhishineigemomorenshouzhezhizedetizuiyang。
woxiangjieshi，xiangshuoyiqiebingfeiwosuowei，keshixiaoyideyanshenyuelaiyueleng，fangfowoyijingshiyigemoshengren。
“nidaodiyoumeiyouxin？tahuailewodehaizi，nijurannengzuochuzheizhongshi！”xiaoyinuchideshengyinzheneryulong，
ciruwodeermo，binglengdeyancirangwowufachengshou。wocongweixiangguo，xiaoyihuirucihuaiyiwo，congweixiangguo，
tajingranhuiqingyixiangxinliuruyandeyimianzhici。zheiliangnian，woshouzhezheizuokongdangdangdejiangjunfu，
weilexiaoyidefumu，qingjinlesuoyoudexinxueyunuli，errujin，tadehuaiyirangwogandaochedidexinleng。
wotingzhetadezhize，xinrudaoge。suoyoudejianchiyushouhu，douhuaweilekongqi。shide，
cengjingwowuyuanwuhuidishouhuzhewomendeaiyujia，zhidaoxianzai，jingranbeirucihuaiyi。xiaoyidemuguangzhong，
buzaiyouwoshuxidewenrouyuxinren，zhishengxiamanmandelengmoyuyiyun。“womeiyouzuo……”woxiangyaokaikoubianjie，
keshishengyinquebeitabinglengdemuguangdaduan。tagenbenbuxiangtingwoshuohua，tayijingjuedingle。tazhanzaineili，
lenglengdikanzhewo，yanzhongmeiyouyisirouqing，fangfowoheliuruyanzhijiandesuoyouchaju，
douchenglewowufakuayuedehonggou。“xuzhiyi，nibiebiwojiniyifengxiushu！”kanzhetaneilengmodeyanshen，
wodexinchedisihuile。zheijitian，woyizhizaixindiqidaitahuifujiyi，qidaitanenggouzhongxinkandaowo。
danzheiyike，wozhongyumingbaile——wo，xuzhiyi，zaitadexinli，zaoyibuzaiyourenheweizhi。suoyoudehuanxiang，
douzaizheiyikepomie。womeiyouliqizaiquweizijibianjie，yemeiyouliqiqurenshouzheixiequru。
woyanzhongmanshileishui，quemeiyouzaiquliulianyisiwenqing。neiyike，wojuedingle。woyaohetafenkai，
chengquantaheliuruyandeweilai。womenzhijian，yijingmeiyoulerenhekeneng。ta，
yijingbuzaishineigehuiweiwozhefengdangyudezhangfu。4likaijiangjunfudeqianyiwan，woshoushihaolesuoyoudedongxi，
zhunbeilikaizheigewocengjingdejia。womeiyouzaiqukanyiyanxiaoyi，wozhidaozijizaiyebukenenghuidaotashenbian。
napatahuifujiyi，napatazaiduiwoshuoyiju“woaini”。keshitadehuaiyiyuzhize，
yijingzaiwoxinzhongkexialewufamoqudeshanghen。wojitaliuleyifenghelishu，jiandanerjuejue。
zilixingjianmeiyourenheliulian，zhiyouyigelengjingdejueding：“womengezianhao，biezaijiuchan。”neiyiye，
womeiyouzaihuitou，chedizouchujiangjunfudedamen。waimianshiyesemenglongdejingcheng，yefengqingfu，
woqueganshoubudaoyisiwennuan。huidaojiazhong，fumuhegegedeguanxinrangwoyouxiebuzhisuocuo。
womianqiangjichuyisixiaorong，suiranxinliyipiansiji，danweileburangtamendanxin，wojinliangqiangzuohuanyan。
gegekandaowozheifumoyang，meitoujinzhou，zouguolaipailepaiwodejianbang。“zhiyi，nibukaixinjiushuochulai，
biebiezhe。womenyizhidouzai，bierangzijiyigerenchengshouzheixie。”wodiandiantou，xinzhongyizhenwennuan。
wodefumuhegege，shizhongshiwodebifenggang，shiwozaizheishijiezhongweiyideyikao。jiexialaidejitian，
wojinliangrangzijifangsong，buzaibaxiaoyideyingxiangshenshenkezaixinli。wopeimuqinquguangjie，hegegeyiqiqushuzhai，
kanyixiezijixihuandeshuji。meidangwogandaoyouxienanshoushi，jiugaosuziji，
bunengzairangzijichenjinzaiguoqudetongkuli。wobixuzhenzuoqilai，bunengzairangxiaoyideshiyingxiangdaowodeshenghuo，
yebunengrangfumuhegegeyinweiwoerdanxin。lingyibian，xiaoyizuozaishufangli，xinrudaoge，
kanzheneizhangbinglengdezhizhang，yanqiandemohuganyufaqianglie。tabumingbaiweishenmehuizheiyang，
tamingmingzaojiupanzhewolikai，weishenmekandaohelishu，tayijiuhuigandaoxintong。
“xuzhiyi……”tadeshengyindididituchuwodemingzi，yanzhongmanshimangranyutongku。
tajinjinniezhuneifenghelishu，xinzhongchongmanlewufayanshuodetongchu。
tagandaoyizhenjuliedetengtongcongxiongkoumanyankailai，fangfoshicongxindishengqidetongku，nanyihuxi。neifenshiluo，
neifentongku，rangtajihuwufachengshou。taganjuedao，sihuyouyiyanghenzhongyaodedongxi，congtadeshentizhongxiaoshile。
5jigeyueguoqule，shenghuojianjianhuifulepingjing。fuqindexuesheng，linxiuyuan，turanhuidaolejingcheng。
taganggangbeirenmingweihubushilang，qiantuguangming，yizhiweihun。zheicihuijing，fuqintediyaoqingtalaijializuoke。
tashenzhezhengqideguanfu，yingjunxiaosa，qidufeifan，yanshenzhongtouzheyiguchenwenyuzixin。tagangjinmen，
bianzhijiezouxiangwo，yanzhongdaizheyimowennuandexiaoyi，fangfowomencongweifenbieguo。“zhiyi，haojiubujian。
”tawenroudishuodao，shengyinqingliang，daizheyizhongjiuweideshuxigan。“shia，zhenshihaojiumeijianle。
”woqingqingxiaozhehuiying，xinzhongqueyouxiefuza。liangnianqian，tajiwoxieguoyifengxin，xiwangwojuedingzaijiadeshihou，
keyixiankaolvyixiata。linxiuyuanzuoxiahou，muguangshibushidisaoxiangwo，oueryuwoduishi，
yanzhongdeshenqingheqidairangwoyouxiebuzizai。wodixiatou，xinliyouxieluan。jitianhou，
linxiuyuandanduyuewozaijiafujindechaloujianmian。woyouxieyouyu，danhaishidayingletadeyaoqing。
womenzuozaikaochuangdezuoweishang，waimiandeyangguangtouguochuanghusajinlai，zhaozaizhuoshangdechabeishang。“zhiyi，
”takaikoushi，yuqibiyiwanggengjiachenwen，“nizuijinguodehaihaoma？”wodiandiantou，qiangxiaodao：“haihao，
xiexienideguanxin。”linxiuyuankanzhewo，sihuchajuedaowoxiaorongzhongdemianqiang。tachenmoleyihuier，
muguangbiandegengjiarouhe，“wozhidaonihexiaoyiyijinghelile。”tadeshengyinyouxiedichen，“zheixierizi，