第1章

heyuanzhouyiwusuoyoushi,wozuiaita。

heyuanzhougongchengmingjiushi,tazuihenwo。

talikaishi,woyichanshouyirenshita,sihouqiguanjitama。

tahuilaihou,xiangjinyiqiebanfazhaowo,yaojiangwocuoguyanghui。

ketabuzhidao,woyijingsilesinianle。

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wosihou,linghunyizhibeikunzaigenheyuanzhouzhuguodechuzufangli。

wojiaojiangmianmian,shijiangjiaweiyidenver。

ershisisuiaizhengqushihou,yizhengyanjiudaizaizheili,wufatachuyibu。

woweiyidafashijiandexiaoqian,jiushiyibianbiankanzhewuzilidebaishe,xiangzhecengjing。

chuangbiandelanrenshafa,shiwogenheyuanzhouyiqiqupifashichangtaolaide。

chajifanhuangdehuaping,shiwogenheyuanzhouyiqiqutaoyidianzuode。

woshilidesijiantao,shizheigejializuiguidedongxile。

neishiheyuanzhounalediyibigongzihoumanzhewomaide,neishitahongzheyanjing。

duiwoshuo:“mianmian,woyidinghuijinigenghaodeshenghuo。”

xiangdaozheili,woqingtanyisheng,yebuzhidaoheyuanzhouxianzaiguodezenmeyang。

womeifalikaizheili,henjiudoumeiyoukandaorenle。

shuolaiqiguai,zheilifangzubugaofangziyebucha,zheimexienian,jingmeiyouyigezuke。

woyimianqingxingmeirenlaihuilewogenheyuanzhoudecengjing,yimianyoujuedehenshijimo。

zhidaodisinian,heyuanzhouhuilaile。

taxizhuanggelv,daidebiaoshibaidafeilidedingzhikuan,cengsanluozaieqiandesuifayisibugoudeshuleshangqu,xiandeguxiangyuefayouyue。

wokanzheta,yizhongmoshengzhiganyouranersheng。

tagenwojiyilidemoyangxiangchataiduole。

yigekanqilaihenjingmingdenanrencongtashenhouzouchu。

“hezongmaixiazheili,yinggaishiyouhenduomeihaodehuiyiba。”

wotingjianzheihua,youxiezhengleng。

dangnianwogenheyuanzhoubusuanhepingfenshou,gengzhunquedeshuo,shiwodanfangmianshuaileheyuanzhou。

fangziliyangqidehuichenzaiyangguangxiafufuchenchen。

mingmingwozhishigelinghun,cikequehaoxiangtingjianlezijixintiaodeshengyin。

heyuanzhoucelian,banzhanglianluzaiyangguangxia,quemeiyousihaonuanyi。

“bu,zheilizhiyouchiru。”

wolengzhu,fengkuangtiaodongdexinzangzaizheiyike,dongdeyishengluoledi。

banshang,wokuxiao:jiangmianmian,fenshounaodeneimenankan,nihaizaiqidaishenme……

heyuanzhoushuowan,jiuzaizheijianjianloudewuzilizhuanyou。

tajingguochufang,yushi,woshi,xiangshizaihuainianshenme。

kewokandeqingchu,taqiheideyanli,meiyoubanfenwenqing。

wuzibuda,heyuanzhoumeiyihuijiukanwanle,tatachumenkou。

wojingjingzhanzaiqiangjiao,kanzhetadebeiying,juedeyouxienanguo。

gushidezuihou,woyezhinengzheiyangkantayiyan。

menbeiguanshang,fangjianliyouhuifujijing。

wogangyaozhuanshen,zhenggerenjiubeichelechuqu。

zaizhengyanshi,wokandaoheyuanzhouzuozaichechuangbian,yishouzhitou,rutongyizunxiladiaosu。

wobukezhixindekanlekanta,youhuitoukanzheneidongfangzi。

wokeyizouchuneidongfangzile?

wotanlandecoujinchechuang,kanzhewaimiandeyiqie。

woturanxiangqilewomama,taxianzaiguodehaoma?

wopobujidaidepiaochuchewai,zhunbeixunzhejiyilidefangxiangqu。

kebuguosanmiao,wozaiduhuidaoleheyuanzhoushenbian。

wozhouzhemeiyoushileyibian,zuihoutuirandefaxian,wozhinengdaizaiheyuanzhoushenbian。

womanxinbujie,quetingheyuanzhoukaikou。

“quchayixiajiangmianmiandejinkuang。”

womangrandekanzheta,quemeirennengjiwodaan。

wogenzheheyuanzhouhuilejia,yidongercengdedudongbieshu。

tatuikaimenzoujinqu,yuanzilidezhuangshirangwobujindaileyixia。

huapulidebaimeigui,jiaoluodeqiuqian,shitacengchengnuoguowodedongxi。

wobijianyisuan,bujinkanxiangbieshuli。

chuleketingneimianbeijingqiangshilengsediao,qitade,quandougenwoyutashuoguodexinfangyimoyiyang。

wokanxiangheyuanzhou,xinlimaochuyigebukesiyidexiangfa:tashibushihaixihuanwo?

guangshizheiyangyixiang,woyanjingxiangshibeizhenzhaleyixia。

wozoudaoheyuanzhoumianqian,yangtoukanta:“shazi,nibiexihuanwole。”

kewodeshengyin,zhinengsanzaifengli。

wanshang,heyuanzhouzuozaishufangkangushitu,wozaiyipangbaiwuliaolai。

zhidaotashoujishangxiangqiyitiaoyuyin——

【hezong,jiangxiaojiedejinkuang,woyijingfazaininyouxiang。】

woxinlishuranyijin,wobunengrangheyuanzhouzhidaowosiledeshi。

wojijicouguoqu,heyuanzhouganghaodiankaiyoujian。

yingruyanliandediyixingzijiushi:jiangmianmian,yihun。

xiamian,zhengshiwodejiehunzhao。

shufanglijijing,pingmutouchudeguangzhaorangheyuanzhoumeiyandoushihongde。

我也愣在了那里。

wozhixiangzhebuyaorangheyuanzhouzhidaowosile,kewoquewangle,wogengbuxiangrangtazhidao,wojiehunle。

xujiu,heyuanzhoucaiwangxiahuadongleyixiashubiao。

xiamianxiezhewodejiehunriqi——2021nian5yue20ri。

wowucuodechuixiayan,ranhoutingjianheyuanzhousihujiqingdexiaolesheng。

yiguwuyandekuijiuhenankanfangfochaoshuishunjiantunmeiwo。

neishi……gentafenshoudediergeyue。

dengwozaitaitoushi,heyuanzhouyijingguanlediannao,chaowoshizou。

womeiliangenjinqu,tingpiaozailezaiwoshimenwai。

genheyuanzhoufenshoudediergeyue,wojiugenqingmeizhumadeduanjunyanjiehunle。

buguobannian,duanjunyandebaiyueguanghuilai,jiugenwotichulelihun。

tashuo:“jiangmianmian,wowannile,buxiangjixule。”

woshenmedoumeishuo,yeshenmedoumeiyao,zijuebanchuleduanjia。

ruguobushijintiankandaoneizhangjiehunzhao,wojihuyaoxiangbuqihaiyougezheimegeren。

wojiuzheiyang,zhandaoletianming。

diertianheyuanzhouzouchuwoshishi,yiqieruchang。

tabianchizaocanbianchuligongwu,renzhendeshenqinghenshimiren。

jiuzaizheishi,tashoujixiangqi,taniutoukan,ranhoujiudunzaileneili。

wohaoqidecoushangqu,yichuanshuxidehaomayingruwoyanlian,goudongwojiuyuandejiyi。

是我妈。

wobuyoujinzhangqilai,zhishihaimeidengheyuanzhoujieqi,womayouguaduanle。

heyuanzhoudingzheshoujikanlexujiu,yemeiyouhuibo。

yeshi,napawomacengjingduitazaihao,yeshiwodejiaren。

rujinzaiheyuanzhouxinli,woyiyouzhangfu,genwomazaiyoujiaoji,shishumeiyoubiyao。

wogenzheheyuanzhouchulemen。

kanzhechuangwaifeishidefengjing,wobuyouxiangqiyiqiandeshilai。

wobayinweichehuozaoshi,liuxiawomachengzhegongsi,duzifuyangwo。

dezhiwogenheyuanzhouzaiyiqishi,tameiyoufandui,fanerduiheyuanzhouhaodechuqi。

wobiaodabumandeshihou,womachennudedengwo:“xiaoheshigedongdeganendehaizi,maxianzaiduitahaodian,hunhoutajiuhuiduinigenghao。”

neishiwoxiaozhechaotashuqidamuzhi:“jianghaishilaodela。”

keshihoulai,wogenheyuanzhoumeiyouyihou,tazhenzhengdenvxuyemeiyouhaohaoduiwo。

wozheiyangxiangzhe,xinlimanshiyihan。

yihanyuheyuanzhoudecengjing,yeyihanwomadeyipiankuxinpulekong。

wopiantoukanheyuanzhou,buzhitazaishoujishanganzheshenme。

womeiyoukuitandeyisi,pianpianshoujichuanchuwomadeshengyin。

�xiaohe,ayibenlaibuxiangmafanni,danyanxiachuleni,ayiyezhaobudaobiederenbangmangle。】

woyanpikuangtiaoqilai,womayudaolemafan?

�xiaohe,ruguoniyuanyilaizhaoayi,jiulaizheigedizhiba。】

�平安养老院】

wokanjianneigedizhishi,xinzangbujinjinsuo。

zenmehui,mingmingwosiqianwomahaihaohaode,zenmehuiquyanglaoyuan?

wojiaojidekanzheheyuanzhou,xiangqiutaqukanwomayiyan。

kewoyezhidao,womeiyouzheigezige。

chexianglianjingledagaiyouwufenzhong,heyuanzhoucaidongledongchun。

“去这个地址。”

banxiaoshihou,chezihuanhuantingzaiyanglaoyuanmenkou。

zheiliyoupoyoujiu,yuanzilizacaocongsheng,touguoshengxiudelangankanqu,yipianmuqichenchen。

wozaiyuanzilikanjianwomadeshenyingshi,jihubuganxiangxin。

tabaoyangjihaodepifushangbumanxiwen,cengyangzunchuyoudeshouyexianchuganshou。

tayizhiwangmenkouwangzhe,shouzhiniezaiyiqiyoufenkai,xiangshijiaozhuo,youxiangshijinzhang。

heyuanzhougaodadeshenyingchuxianzaimenbianshi,womadeyanjingliangleqilai。

takuaibuzouguolai,worenbuzhuxiangpujintahuaili。

kewowanglewoshigelinghun,womachuanguowodeshenti,xianglaheyuanzhoudeshouyoubugan,yishiyouxieganga。

banshang,taxiangshixiadinglejuexin,chaoheyuanzhoushuo:“xiaohe,ninengbangwozhaozhaomianmianma?”

“zicongtajiehunhou,woyijingliangnianduomeiyoujianguotale。”