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mingmingwocaishibeidiudiaodehaizi。
tamenqueyuanhenwoqiangzoulejiaqianjindeweizhi。
她一句要出家。
亲生父母打我骂我。
qindidibiwocongloushangtiaoxia。
这个世界,
我真的不想再来了。
congdingloutiaoxiadeshunjian,jizhidetongjueshenrusizhibaihai。
wocongshentilipiaochu,kanzhetangdaozaidalouloudixueroumohudeshiti,shenshangzhichuanzheneiyi,jinhu**。
dalouloudingdenghuotongming,loudingdejuhuiyinxiangxiangcheyekong,yangailewozhuiluodeshengxiangheluguoxingrendejianjiao。
wodiweimingxuanshoulizhuazhewodeyifu,morandizhanzailouding,yidongbudong。
wotiaoxiaquzhiqiantahaidengzhewo,ehenhendishuo:
“zheigedongtianzheimeleng,wojiehaibuzhidaozainalishouku,nipingshenmechuanzhezheimehaodeyifuguozhebengaishuyutadeshenghuo?”
suoyi,zheijiushitajiaowoguolaidangzheyiqunfujiazidituoyifudeyuanyin?
wochichiweidong,zhishilenglengdekanzheta。
tashenbiandehupenggouyoudemuguangsiyidedaliangzhewo,qizhongyigejiaoxiaozhe:
“mingxuan,nijiejiedeziserucihao,limiandefengguanggujimeibushengshoua。”
tajiezhejiujingshanglaichewodeyifu,tarangwozaisesehanfengzhongchengweileyigegongrenxinshangdewanwu。
wosisidiwuzhudayidelingkou,bukenqingyirangweimingxuandecheng,kewoxinlibabudezheichangshounveyouxizaodianjieshu。
weimingxuanfengkuangdisichezhewo,duiwofaxiezhesuoyoudehenyi:
“nitiaoxiaqua,ganjinqusi!”
tashenhoudeyiqunpengyouhuoshiqihongrangwoqutiao,huoshilengyanpangguankanzhezheichanghaoxi。
woyanzhongleiyiyingying,gengyanzheshuo:
“shinimenbawozhaohuilaide,yeshiweimingxinzijizoude,kenimenweishenmeyizhiguaiwo?”
weimingxuanquexiangshibeijinule,zaiwoerbiandahanzhe:
“bietiweimingxinzheigemingzi!nibupei!”
woyongjijinjuewangdeshengyinduiweimingxuanshuo:
“shinianle,mingxuan,wozainimenshenbianshinianle,keshinimenyongyuandoubuhuijieshouwo,jiranzheiyang,runimensuoyuan。”
wojiezheweimingxuandeliqixianghouyangdao,zhizhidizhuiluolexiaqu。
zaiwoshoujinlengmodezheishinian,woyicicidekusu,qituhuanxingtamendeyisiqinqing。
zhishi,wulunshiweimingxuanhaishibama,douzhishimorandidingzhewo:
“ruguonibuhuilai,mingxinyouzenmehuizou?”
shide,wobuyinggaihuilai。
wobenlaishigekuailedexiangcunxiaohai,zaitianyelibenpao,ziyouzizai,wuyouwulv。
dangwozhangdaoshibasuideshihou,cunzhurendaizhewoqinshengfumujinlejiamen,congneishiqi,wocongyigehaowubeijingdeyexiaohaichenglehaomenweijiadeqianjin。
cunlirendoushuo,woyaojinchengxiangshouronghuafuguile,yihoubuyaowangletamen。
kezhiyouwozhidao,dengzhewohuiqudeshijiaqianjindesuanjiheqinrendelengmo。
zaiwohuijianeitian,weimingxinliushuyifeng,lijiachuzoule。
tashifuqinzhanyoudenver,zhanyouqushizhihou,wobamashouyangleta。
zaiwozoudiudeshibanianli,tadaitilewodeweizhi,xiangshouleshibaniandejinzunyuguideshenghuo。
tashiquanziligongrendeweijiada**。
keshi,yinweiwodedaolai,taxuanzelelikai,jiangda**deweizhihaijiwo。
tazaibaimancaiyaodecanzhuoshangliuxialeyifengxin,xinzhongxiezhe:
“wofumudeenqingjiusuanhaiqingle,ganxiebamahedididezhaogu,bubizaizhaowo。”
dangnianweimingxindeqinshengfuqintiwobadangleyidao,qiangjiuwuxiaoqushile,tademuqinyezaibujiuhouyujieyuxin,suizhequle。
tazuodecaisexiangweijuquan,youhenduocaishiwodoujiaobuchumingzi。