第5章 我不强迫你

jiangshuchangyonglichouhuizijideshou,huishen,muguangyicunbuluodiyutaduishi。

shengyinjichaoyoudaizheyisilengyi,“womenyaolihunle,wobukenenghuigennishenghaizi。

“xiangrangyeyekaixin,nikeyidaiyenvshidehaiziqujianyeye,xiangxinyeyekandaota,huihenkaixinde,shuobudingzhennengbuyaoeryu。”

lengyehengcuqimei,bulijieweishenmetamenliangjihuashenghaizi,tayaotiqiyeyingdeerzi。

“neibuyiyang。”talengyingdemianrongdaizheyisidanse。

“youshenmebuyiyang?”jiangshuchangbudong。

不都是他的孩子么?

haishishuo,feideexinta,rangtashenghaizicaixing?

yeshi,yeyingdeshenfenganga,haiziyishengxialaijiuyaobeitieshangsishengzidebiaoqian。

fangzaihaomenguizuli,jiushixueyebuchunzhengde。

lengyehenghuidabuchulai,naohailishanguosannianqiandehaoxiehuamian,qinglengdeheimouzhujianranshangbeitongdeshense。

tachuixiayanlian,jiangsuoyouqingxujinshushoujinyandi,burangrenherenfaxian。

liangjiudechenjinghou,tazhongxintaiqimou,shengyindandantouzheyisiweibukechadepibei。

“nihaimeizhunbeihao,wobuqiangponi。”

shuowan,tabianzhuanshenlikai,liuxiayigeqinglengdebeiying。

jiangshuchangkandexinzhongyikong,haosizuoleshenmeshanghailetadeshi。

nandaotaliantiqineigehaizidoubupeima?

shenxingyihuang,zhenggerenzaidaozaichuangshang,canbaidemianseyusirenwuyi。

yanleizhibuzhudiwangzheyanjiaohualuo,xinzanghaosibeisichengsuipian,pindoupinbuqilai。

shiniandeanlian,sanniandedengdai,zhongjiuhuaweipaoying。

哀大莫过于心死。

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翌日清晨。

jiangshuchangxialouchizaofan,jiukanjianlengyehengzuozaicanzhuoqianyongcan,juzhiyouya,congrongbupo,zheishihaomenshijiacaiyangdechulaideqizhi。

zuowankuleyichang,yanjinghongzhong,zhuangtaiyebujia,tameixinsiqulibieren。

ziguzizuozaililengyehengzuiyuandedifang,yongzhezaocan。

lengyehengduitadejudongmeiyoushuoshenme,danweicudemeixintouluchutadebuman。

fanhou,takantayaozou,chushengdao:“niyaoquna?”

jiangshuchangxilekouqi,yazhexiongkoudebushi,lengdandao:“shangban。”

“wosongni。”lengyehengshuo。

“buyong!”jiangshuchangxiangyemeixiangjiujujue。

zheisannianli,tawushuciqidaitazaodianhuilai,nengyutayiqichigezaofan,songtashangban。

guozhepingchangfuqineiyangdeshenghuo。

danshi,tazhendehuilaile,zhendezheimezuole,taqueyidianyekaixinbuqilai。

yixiangdaotakenengyeshizheimezhaoguyeyingmuzi,tajiuganjuehuxiyeshitongde。

lengyehengzhidaotaduizijidekangju,zhidangshiliangrenfenkaisannian,youdianmosheng。

meitaizaiyitadejujue,fanershuodao:“bieshuliyouyeyederen,womenruoshitaishuli,yeyehuifaxianyiyang,niyinggaiyebuxiangyeyeyinweiwomendeshi,wufaanxinyangbingba?”

tiqiyeye,jiangshuchangdenuhuoshaoshaojiandanlejifen。

danxiangdaoyaogenlengyehengtongzuoyiche,taxinqingjiuyayidelihai。

zuizhong,lizhizhanshengleganxing,tatongyile。

jiangshuchangshiyunchengguizuyoueryuandelaoshi,taxihuanyuxiaohaiziweiwu,zheifengongzuoqueshipopojitazhaode。

tashilengjiashaofuren,bukenengquputongyoueryuanshangban。

laidaoyoueryuanmenkou,lengyehengfangtaxiache。

xiangdaomuqindedingzhu,tadao,“zhongwuyiqichigefanba。”

muqinrangtayaoduozhudongdian,mibuzheixienianduijiangshuchangdekuiqian。

yiji,zaorishenggehaizi。

youlehaizi,yeyegaoxing,tamenliangdeguanxiyenenghuanhexie。

jiangshuchangxiangjujue,duishangtashensuidefangfonengbatadelinghunxijinneiwudishendongdeheimouhou,jujuedehuashuobuchukou。

dedaoqueqiedaan,lengyehengchunjiaogouqiyisidanbukewendehudu。

zhongwuxiaban,jiangshuchangzaiyoueryuanmenkoudenglelengyehengjiangjinyigexiaoshi,doubujiantaguolai。

xiangjilengyehengdadianhua,taochushoujicaifaxian,zijimeiyoutadeshoujihao。

呵,说来嘲讽。

yihunsanniandefuqi,juranlianduifangdelianxifangshidoumeiyou。

xiangdaohaiyouyigexiaoshijiuyaoshangban,tameizaijixudengxiaqu,jiujinzhaoleyijiacantingchifan。

jinlecanting,haimeilaidejizhaoweizhizuo,jiuzaikaochuangdeweizhikanjianlianggeshuxiderenying——lengyehenggenyeying。

yuanlai,tafangtagezi,shiweilegenyeyingchifan?

xinliyoukuyouse,chunjiaosiyangfeiyangdiqianzheyisizichaodehudu。