第1章

hebingningyuganzijijiukuaisile,tahunshenfulan,quanshenmeiyouyikuaihaopifu,shenzhiyinweipifufulan,shenshangsanfazheyizhenyizhendeechouweidao。

hennanxiangxiang,tazaishijiusuishi,shichenglizuipiaoliangdeqianjinda**。

meimaoshizangbuzhude,suoyourendouzhidao,neigehejia**meideyo,kanyiyanjiuwangbule。yincidaohejiatiqinderenluoyibujue。

zheixienianqingdexiaohuozi,tiaojiandoubucha,youdaxueshengyeyouzhiqing。keshitayeye,sheiyemeikanshang,pianpianyaorangtajiajinjunshudayuan,jiajiyigenianqingdejunren。

jiusuanxinliyouyibaigebuyuanyi,yebuganweibeiyeyedemingling。

neigenanrenjiaoguhuai,shiyigejunguan。

menmendehenwuqu,yonghoulaidehuashuo,yinggaijiaozuozhinan。

liangrenzhijianguoyicimian,jiujiehunle。

hebingningyebanjinlejunshudayuan。

meiduojiu,tabianhuaiyunle,shengxialelongfengtai,yigenanhaiyigenvhai。

junshudayuanderizishizaiwuliao,guhuaiyoubuhuihongtakaixin。zhongyuhebingningnaibuzhujimo,paolechuqu。

houlaitazhenderuyuanjiajileyige“youqu”denanren。

neigenanrenyouzuihuashe,batahongdexiaogebuting,yushitajiajilezheigenanren,jiusuanzheigenanrenliguohun,haiyouyigeerzi,tadoubuzaihu。

nazhidaozheicaishitabeijudekaishi。

tajinxinjinlidesihounanren,sihoutadeerzi,sihoutama。sheizhidaoyidiandoumeiluohao,zheigenanrenhetamabaibansuanji,pianzouleyeyeliujihebingningdecaichan,haihaidehebingningdeleyishenbing,youbataganchujiamen,rangtazishengzimie。

houlai,hebingningtingshuo,zheimeduonian,guhuaiyizhizaizhaota,napabierenjitajieshaoxiangqin,taliankandoubukan。

zoudaoshengmingdejintou,hebingningcaiyishidao,yuanlaiguhuaishitayishengzhongyudaodezuihaodenanren。

suoyoudechongai,tadoushierbujian。

tayixinzhuixunxinxianlangman**,pianpianbujidezhenxiyanqianren。

hebingningyongzuihouyidianliqi,ankaileshouyinji。

shouyinjilichuanlaitianmeidegesheng:

“ruguomeiyouyujianni,wojianghuishizainali,riziguodezenmeyang,renshengshifouyaozhenxi……”

hebingningdeyanleihuanhuandiaoluo,zaigeshengzhong,tayanleqi。

——八十年代——

军属大院。

hebingningzhijuedehunshentengtong,zicongdebingyilai,taquanshenshangxiameiyichudoushitengde,suoyiwanquanmeidanghuishi。

zhidaoerbianchuanlaiyingerwawadekusheng,hebingningcaijingzuoerqi。

这哭声……

如此熟悉又陌生。

hebingningmumudebaoqiyanqianlianggenaiwawa,ranhoutadeyanleiduokuangerchu。

yanqianzhengshitadeyishuangernva!

shitashenshangdiaoxialaiderou!

yeshitadangchuhenxinpaoxiadehaizi!

tadangchushizenmerenxinde……

hebingningbuandehuanguzheyanqiandeyiqie,zheijianfang,shitaheguhuaidehunfanga!suoyoudebaishehejiyiliyimoyiyang!

tayoukanleyiyanzhuoshangderili,zheiyitian,zhengshitapaoxiaguhuaiheyishuangernvchuzoudeneiyitian!

yeshitabeijukaishideneiyitian!

hebingningkudeqibuchengsheng,tayouhuilaile。

zheiyici,tajueduibuhuizaifancuo,tayaohaohaodebawozhuguhuai,hetahaohaoguorizi。

ranhouzaifuyangyishuangernvpinganzhangda。

hebingningyuekuyuexiong,fangfobasuoyoudeweiqudouqingxieerchu,zuihoukudaoshouzhidoufadoule。

jiulianmenbeizhuangkaile,tadoumeiyouzhuyidao。

“gujunguan,wojiushuoneigenvrenpaoleba,nikantazhangdeneigehumeiziyang,jiubushigehaohaoguorizide,naxiangwomenjiajuanjuanya,yikanjiushigetashiguorizide!”lishenzikouruoxuanhedishuozhe。

yibianbiandihebingning,yibianhaibuwangpengzijidenverlijuanjuan。

lishenziyeshijunsao,youyigenverlijuanjuan。lijuanjuankanshangleguhuai,zhunquedeshuo,shilijiayijiadoukanshangleguhuai。

suoyizongshizaiguhuaimianqian,minglianlidebiandihebingning,mudejiushirangliangrenlihun,ranhouzairangguhuaihelijuanjuanjiehun。

dangchuhebingningpaofuqizi,youhendadeyibufenyuanyin,jiushilishenzicuannongde。

tashuohebingningzhangdehaokan,xiangzhaoshenmeyangdenanrenmeiyou?

kunzaijunshuyuan,neicaishimingzhu……mingzhushenmewanyide?

hebingningtixingta,neigecijiaomingzhuantou。

lishenziyipaibazhang,shuoduiduidui,nikanniduoyouwenhua,jiajiguhuaizheigedalaocukexile。

meijuhuadoushuodaolehebingningxinli,yejiandinglehebingninglikaidejuexin。

houlaicaixiangtong,yuanlaizheigelishenzi,meianhaoxin。

rujinchangjingzaixian,touyitianwanshang,hebingningzhaolishenzitanxin,shuotawulunruhedouyaozou,lishenzishuojueduizhichita,haijitanalejishikuaiqiandanglufei。

bashiniandaidejishikuaiqian,yijingshiyibijukuanle。

hebingninggandongdebuxing,shuobixuzou,mingtianjiuzou。

lishenzishuobangtadayanhu。

anzhaoshijianjisuan,douzheigedianle,hebingningyinggaizaojiuzoule,suoyilishenziganjinqutongzhiguhuai,mudejiushirangtakankan,tapengzaishouxinlidehebingning,daodishiyigeshenmeyangdehuose。

wanwanmeixiangdao,hebingninggenbenmeizou。

tingshuohebingningyijingzouledeshihou,guhuaidexinliyeshihuangde,suoyiganjinpaoxiashoutouderenwu,genzhelishenzizhehuijia。

qiaolebantianmen,meiqiaokai,tayiweihebingningyijingzoule,suoyiqingjizhixia,caizhuangkailemen。

gangchongjinwuli,jiukandaohebingning,yigedahuorenzuozaichuangshang,zhibuguo,tahaoxiangzaiku?

jiandaorenmeizou,dasongyikouqi。

jiandaorenzaiku,youxintengleqilai。

guhuaibenlaijiushimensaoxingdezhinanxingge,nazhidaozenmehongren,xiangshenshoupaipaihebingningdejianbang,youpazijishoujingda,paitengleta,zheishoujiuxuanzaibankongzhong,shenchuquyebushi,suohuilaiyebushi。

kandaohebingningmeizou,lishenzikebuganle,zheigehulijingyaoshibuzou,tamenjiajuanjuanzenmeban?

lishenziyoudianxinyan,danbuduo。

taduozhejiaozhiwenhebingning:“nibushishuoyaozouma?nibushishuoyaoheguhuailihunma?”

xianwaizhiyinshi:nihailaizaizheiliganshenme?

hebingninghuiguoshenlai,tadeyanjiaohaiguazheleizhu,peihezhebaijingdexiaolian,jianzhishiwojianyoulian。

tachouchoudadadishuo:“lishenzi,wopingshidainibubo,youshenmehaochidehaohededouxianjinisongqu,jialijilaideyifu,woyedafangdejilijuanjuannaqu,xianzaidaohao,nijingranzheimelaiyuanwangwo,tiaobowoheguhuaideganqing,nijuxinhezai?”