第2章我一定要死吗
huoxushiwolianshangdebiaoqingyouxieshikong，ningzhaotingxiashouzhongdongzuo，guanqiedao：“zenmele？”
wodao：“wohaimeichi。”
ningzhaolengzaiyuandi，youxiebuzhisuocuo。
我想起从前。
congqianwobuzhidaoningzhaoyouzheiyangyigeqingmeizhumadeshimei，shimeiyiweishiwoguyiqiangzouningzhao，yuwozhenfengxiangdui。woneishishihenkanzhongningzhaodeshenbianrende，bianxiangzaimengsuosuoyanzhongliuxiayigehaoyinxiang。
mengsuosuodiercilaizhaoningzhao，wodaqishierfenjingshen，zuoleyidazhuozicaiyingjie。
neiciwocongmengsuosuoshenshangxuedaoyigedaoli，reliantieleng**shimeiyongde，zhihuizitaoxiuru。
yinweitabacaiquanxianle，shuoxianrenbuchizheibancubizhiwu。
dangshiningzhaohaodaihaihuigaosuta，fanrenbuyi，xianzai，taquezaizuobimengsuosuohaiguofendeshi。
wohaoxiangkandaomianqiandeshaonianlangpiaodaotianshang，liwoyuelaiyueyuan。
woyaoyaotou，qusannaozhonghuanxiang，dao：“nihemengsuosuoyuelaiyuexiangle。”
ningzhaozheicaidamengchuxingban，jiangpanzifangxia，benguolaijinjinwozhuwodeshou：“duibuqi，jiaojiao，woyizhixiangzheneixieshi，naoziluanle。”
tadeshouhenwennuan，wodexinhenliang。
wotaiqitouwen：“woyidingyaosima？”
tazhaobu：“sileyemeishi，zangshugeneixianfaqianqianwan，wohuizhaodaofuhuonidefangfa。”
zheishiyaoanmengsuosuodefangfalaile。
“keshisile，jiushenmedoubuzhidaole。niyaoduojiuzhaodaoneixianfa，neimezhangdeshijian，qieryaozhangdeduoda？zheishijian，jiuzhendezheimeburongwoma？”
宁昭低头不语。
我也没有追问。
qishiwojianguoningzhaoyicide。
tagenzheshifuchumenjiangyao，yishenbaiyi，qingyichuchen，yujianfeilai，jiangyaoshouzhanyujiaoxia。
neishihoutanianjixiao，haimeizheimewenzhong，yidianyinhongxuezhufeidaotaxuezishang，hedeshaonianlangaiyayisheng，limapolegong。
zheiyimushenshenkezaiwonaozili，jibianshinianhoushaonianxiangmaoyijingzhangkai，tangzaixiaoxibianbeixueranhonglexiaobanzhanglian，woyelikerenchuta，xinxiruokuang。
wofeilejiuniuerhuzhilibatatuohuijia，caxishenti，baozhashangkou，meirijianchishangyao。
xinglaideningzhaoxiankaibeizi，faxianquanshenzhishengbutiao，baixidelianlikehongchengshuizhuxiazi。
wowen：“nijiaoshenmeya？weishenmehuitangzaineizhongdifang？”
shaonianyichangxiuse，shuohuakekebanban：“wobujidele。danshiqingxiaoniangzifangxin，daiwozhaodaojiaren，zhongshimingxing，bidingqingjinshenjiabaonidejiumingzhien。”
我点点头。
zheifujinshantouduo，hekuangxianshanshanggaogaode，woyeshangbuqu，bangbuleta。
ningzhaodaoyemeidengdaohuifujiyizaibaoen。
tazheigeren，yanliyouhuo。pingchangjiugenzaiwohoumian，pichaiqiangfutou，zhengfantaximi，zuoshizhoudaozixi。nikan，jiuliandaofancai，doudaodeneimeganjing。
youshihouyihuangshen，wohuiyiweihuidaolexiaoshihou，dienianghaimeisi，fuchangfusuiguozheningjingxianghederizi，yemeiyourenxianqiwoquediaodeneitiaotui。
ningzhaojiwode，jiushizheiyangningjingde，keyiguoyibeizideganjue。
houlaiyouyitianwanshang，wozuozaiwaimianshaochaihuo，xuejianleshuzhichuanyixieroupiankaozhewan，mantiandoushiliangshanshandexingxing，erbianshibuxiedechongming。
shenbianturanzuoxiayigeren。
ningzhaoqingqingkaozaiwodejiantoushang，xiaoxinyiyide，buganfangxiataiduozhongliang。lianggerendouzhichuanboshan，tadetiwenxunsuchuandaowoshenshang，biwodenuanxuduo。
tashuo：“jiaojiaodesangzihaowenrou，jiuxiangniderenyiyang。”
wobatoupiekai，quemeiyoubataderentuikai。