wosile。sizaiwozuiaidenanrenshouli。jiuzaigangcai，tabawotuixiangleneiliangshikongchonglaidehuoche。
judadezhuangjishenghaoxianghaizaierduoliwengwengzuoxiang，gutousuiliedejutongsihuhaicanliuzaimeiyicunshenjingshang。
kewoyijingpiaozaibankong，xianggepobuwawayiyang，
kanzhedishangneigexueroumohude、chuanzhehewoyimoyiyangqunzidenvren。zhenfengci。
neiqunzihaishilujingchenbangeyueqiansongwodeshengriliwu，tashuowochuanbaisezuihaokan，
xiangtazuichuaishangdeneigechunjieshaonv。xianzai，neichunjiedebaise，beiwode“xue”randechumujingxin。
renqunzaijianjiao，weilong。wokandaolujingchendiediezhuangzhuangdichongguoqu，guizaineige“wo”deshenbian。tadoudelihai，
lianshangshiwocongweijianguodejingkonghejuewang。tashenchushou，xiangqupeng“wo”delian，youxiangbeitangdaoyiyangmengdisuohui。
“qingci！shenqingci！nikanzhewo！nixingxing！”tasihouzhe，shengyinposui，yanleibitihuleyilian，
angguidexizhuangcengmanledishangdewuzihe“xue”。zhenlangbei。yezhennengyan。
ruguobushiwoqinertingjiantahebaixiaochazaishufanglidemimou，wodagaihuixinletacikedeganchangcunduan。tamenshuo，
yaozhizaoyichangyiwai。tamenshuo，zhiyaowosile，
lujingchenjiunengmingzhengyanshundijichengwofumuliujiwodesuoyougufenhexintuojijin。tamenshuo，meilewodezuai，
lujingchenjiunenglikebabaixiaochaqujinmen。baixiaocha，lujingchendeqingmeizhuma，yeshitaxintouyongyuandebaiyueguang。
erwoshenqingci，buguoshitachuangyechuqiqueqianshi，qiahaozhuangshanglaide、jiadifenghoudeshabaitian。yikuaitiaoban，
yigejinku，yigebushiqudangleludebanjiaoshi。wokanzhelujingchenbaozhe“wodeshiti”kudesixinliefei，
kanzhetayibianbianhanzhe“qingci，woaini，wobunengmeiyouni…”，
kanzhetaxianggewuzhudehaiziyiyangquansuozaijiuhuchepangbian。weiliyizhenfanjiangdaohai。exin。jizhideexin。
yuanlaiaiyigeren，zhendekeyizhuangdezheimexiang。yuanlaiyaoyigerensi，yekeyiyandezheimeshenqing。
jiuhuchehuxiaozhelazoule“shenqingci”de“shiti”，yedaizoulekudaojihuhunjuedelujingchen。jingcheyelaile，
laqilejingjiexian。meirenzhuyidao，jieduimianyiliangbuqiyandeheisejiaochehuanhuanshili。cheli，
wozhaixiazhaozailianshangdekuandamojing，luchuwanhaowusundelian。xinzangzaixiongqianglifengkuangditiao，
shouxinquanshibingliangdehan。jiashizuoshang，yigemianronglengjun、yanshenruilidezhongniannanrentouguohoushijingkanlewoyiyan。
“shen**，querenanquan。jihuadiyijieduanwancheng。”woshenxiyikouqi，
yaxiahoulongkoudexingtianheshentishenchuchuanlaide、duisiwangdekongjuzhanli。“xiexienin，zhouxiansheng。
”wodeshengyinyoudianya，danyichangpingjing，“shengxiade，anxieyijinxingba。”tajiaozhoulin，
yigebeijingshenmi、nengliangjidade“wentijiejuezhuanjia”。shiwoyongzuihouyidiannengdongyongdesifangqian，
jiashangwomuqinlinzhongqiantoutousaijiwodeyimeigudongfeicuijiezhihuanlaide。tafuzebangwo“si”deganjingliluo，
buliuhenji。daijiashi，wo“si”hou，mingyishangsuoyoushuyuwodecaichan，
doujiangyoutabeihoude“jigou”jinxingfuzadezibenyunzuo，zuizhongxibai、zengzhi，
zaiyilingyizhongfangshihuidaowoshouzhong。yigemanzhangerweixiandeduju。danwobiewuxuanze。
lujingchenhebaixiaochalianshouzhidewangtaimile，wenshuizhuqingwa，yidiandianqinshidiaowozaigongsidehuayuquan，
jiakongwoderenmai，dengwochedichenglekongqiao，dengdaiwodejiejuzhihuigengcan。buruzhizhisidierhousheng。
“shenqingcidezangli，ninxuyaochuxima？zuowei‘yuanfangbiaoqin’？”zhoulinwen。wobishangyan，
naohailishanguolujingchenneizhangbeitongyujuedelian。“bule。”woyaotou，zhijiashenshenqiajinzhangxin，
“wopaworenbuzhu，dangchangsileta。”zanglineitian，wozuozaichengshilingyiduandedingcenggongyuli，
judadeluodichuangwaishihuimengmengdetiankong。zhoulinjiwofalailejizhangzhaopian。lingtangbuzhidesumuzhuangyan，
heibaizhaopianshang，shiwoershisuishidexiaolian，mingmeiwuyou。zhaopianxiafang，duimanlebaisedejuhua。
lujingchenyishenheisexizhuang，shenxingshouxuedelihai，yanwoshenxian，quangutuchu，duanduanjitianxiangshilaoleshisui。
tabeirenchanfuzhe，zhanzaijiashudalideweizhi，yanshenkongdongdiwangzhewodeyixiang。
baixiaochachuanzheyishensujingdeheiqun，daizhemojing，anjingdizhanzaitashence，shibushidishenganweita，
titiedidishangzhijinheshui。takanqilaiyeqiaocuilebushao，danmojingzhebuzhutaweiweishangyangdezuijiao。
zhenshiyiduibiren。langcainvmao，qingbijinjian。woguandiaoshoujipingmu，zoudaobataijizijidaoleyibeiliejiu。
xinladeyetigunguohoulong，zhuoshaozheshidao，yeshaodiaolexindizuihouyisicancunde、kexiaoderouruan。shenqingci，
nikandaolema？nidesi，chengquanletamendeqingshenyizhong。neijiuzhunimen，suosi，tianzhangdijiu。
jiexialaidesannian，shijianxiangbeianxialekuaijinjian。wozaizhoulindeanpaixia，gaitouhuanmian，
chengleyigejiao“shenyan”denvren。mingziquzimuqinweijiashidexingshihefuqinzuiaideyantai。xindeshenfen，
xinderensheng。zhoulinbeihoude“jigou”nengliangchaohuxiangxiang。tamenliyongwo“siwang”dailaideyichanchuzhizhenkongqi，
yijilujingchenjiyutaoxiandexinli，tongguojiqifuzadejinrongcaozuoheliangongsi，
jiangyuanbenshuyuwodejuezichan，rutongxiliuhuijuchenghaiban，qiaowushengxidizhuanyi、zhongzu、zengzhi。
lujingchendagaiyiweizijishizuihoudeyingjia。taxunsuzhenghelewodegufen，jiashangtayuanyoude，
zhongyuzuowenlegongsidongshizhangdeweizhi。tapobujidaidihebaixiaochajuxingleshengdadehunli，
zhaopiandengshanglecaijingzazhidefengmian，biaotishi“xinguikangli，xieshoukaichuangshangyediguo”。tayiqifengfa，
touzidichan，jinjunyulechanye，huijinrutu。shubuzhi，tameiyigekansichenggongdeshangyejuecebeihou，
douyouzhoulinbuxiadexianjing。takuozhangdeyuekuai，zijinlianbengdeyuejin，maixiadeleijiuyueduo。erwo，
zaizhoulinjinhuyankede“jiaodao”xia，yitouzhajinlezibendeshenyuan。xuexijinrong，xuexiguanli，
xuexikantourenxingdetanlanheshichangdecanku。zhoulinshuo：“shenyan，niyaojizhu，shangchangruzhanchang，
xinruanheyanleishizuimeiyongdedongxi。nixiangnahuishuyunideyiqie，xiangrangtamenfuchudaijia，
jiubixubitamengenghen，gengying，gengwuqing。”wozuodaole。woxiangyigetanlandehaimian，
fengkuangjiquzheyiqienengrangwoqiangdadezhishi。wotunquleshenqingcidetianzhenrouruan，molichushenyandelengyingfengmang。
woyongzhoulinweiwoyunzuodediyibizijin，chenglileyijiabuqiyandetouzigongsi，quming“guizang”。guizangyuyuan，
qianlongwuyong。wozaianchu，naixindizhiwang。lujingchendegongsikansirurizhongtian，shizewaiqiangzhonggan。
tataijiyuzhengmingziji，taixiangbaituo“kaonvrenfajia”debiaoqian，tanzipudetaida，hexinyewufanerbeihulve。
erwo，jingzhundijujiletazuiboruodehuanjie。xianshitongguoerjishichang，
budongshengsedixinatajingzhengduishoudegufen。ranhou，zaitayigeguanjiandichanxiangmuzijinlianjijiangduanliezhiji，
worang“guizang”yijingwaitouzifangdeshenfenchuxian，tigongletajixude“jiumingqian”，
tiaojianyichang“youhou”——yongtahexinzigongsidebufenguquanzhiya。tadangshizhengjiaotoulane，
youyoubaixiaochazaierbianchuifengshuozheishiqianzainanfengdejihui，jihumeizenmeyouyujiuqianlezi。tabuzhidao，
zheibi“jiumingqian”，zuizhonghuichengweilesitadejiaosuo。shijichengshushi，
woyinbaolemaizaitayulegongsicaiwuzaojiazheikelei。xiaoxiyichu，gujiaduanyashibaodie。yinxingcuidai，
gongyingshangdumen，hezuofangfenfenjieyue。dashajiangqing。lujingchenxiangyitoukunshou，sichuqiuyuan，quechuchupengbi。
tabianmaizichan，diyafangchan，shenzhidishengxiaqiquqiuneixiecengjingbajietaderen。meirenbangta。jinshangtianhuayi，
xuezhongsongtannan。youqizaizheigecaidipenggaodeminglichang。kanzhetayibubuhuaxiangshenyuan，
wodexinlimeiyouyuxiangzhongdekuaiyi，zhiyouyipianbinglengdehuangwu。yuanlaihendaojizhi，bushiliehuopengyou，
ershicuncaobusheng。sannianzhiqiyidao。zhoulinjiangyifenhouhoudezichanbaogaofangzaiwomianqian，
lianshangnandeluchuyisikeyichengzhiwei“manyi”deshense。“shen**，gongxi。qingsuanwancheng，
jiashangzheisanniandezibenyunzuoshouyi，ninxianzaigerenmingxiakedongyongdejingzichan，anzhaoshijiagusuan，
yichaoguolujingchendingshengshiqizongzichandesanbei。shidangzhiwukuidexingyexinshoufu。
”wokanzhebaogaoshangneiyizhangchuanlingrenxuanyundeshuzi，neixinhaowubolan。qian，zhishishuzi，shiwuqi。
“lujingchenni？”wowen。“tamingxiadesuoyouzichanyibeiyinxingdongjieqingsuan，zibudizhai。
tahebaixiaochazhudebieshu、kaidehaoche，doubeishouzoudizhai。zuotian，tamenbeifangdongganchulezuzhudegongyu。
baixiaocha……juanzouletazuihouyidiansizangdejintiaoheshoushi，paole。”paole？wochelechezuijiao。yiliaozhizhong。
“taxianzaizaina？”“zaichengnantianqiaodixia。”zhoulindunledun，“kao……qitaoweisheng。”qitao。
zheilianggezixiangbinglengdezhen，cilewoyixia。neigecengjingyiqifengfa、shizunyanrushengmingdelujingchen？
neigeweilewangshangpakeyibuzeshouduandelujingchen？neigeqinshoubawotuixiangsiwangshenyuandelujingchen？
tajingranzaiqitao？“beiche。”wozhanqishen，zoudaojudadeluodijingqian。jingzhongdenvren，
yishenjiancaililuodeheisegaodingxizhuang，zhangfayisibugoudiwanqi，luchuguangjiedeetouhelengliedemeiyan。
zhuangrongjingzhi，hongchunsixue，zhoushensanfazheshengrenwujindelinlieqichang。tashishenyan。
zaoyibushineigeweiaichikuang、renrenrouniedeshenqingci。heisedelaosilaisihuanyingwushengdihuaguofanhuadejiedao，
shixiangpobaidechengnan。tianqiaoxia，wushuihengliu，lajibiandi，sanfazhenanwendeqiwei。
jigeyishanlanlvdeliulanghanquansuozaijiaoluo。wodemuguang，jingzhundisuodingleqiaodunxiadeneigeshenying。
tachuanzheyijianzangdekanbuchuyansedepojiumianao，toufahuabaiyouni，luanzaozaoditiezaitoupishang。
lianshangbumanwugouheshenshendezhouwen，yanwoshenxian，quangugaosong，zuichunganlieqipi。cengjingtingbadeshenxinggoulouzhe，
xiangyijiebeifengshuangqinshidaijindekumu。tamianqianfangzheyigequelekoudepowan，
limianlingxingtangzhejigeyingbihejizhangzhoubabademaopiao。tadizhetou，shuangshouchazaipomianaodexiutongli，
zhenggerensuochengyituan，zailiaoqiaodehanfenglisesefadou。oueryouxingrencongcongzouguo，daizhexianedeyanshenbikaita。
meirenhuiduokantayiyan。meirennengbatahecengjingneigezaicaijingzazhifengmianshangguangmangsishedeshangyexinguilianxiqilai。
tashilujingchen。wodeqianfu。wode……shashenchouren。sijilakaichemen，wocaizhexigaogendedingzhipixie，
tazaichaoshiangzangdedimianshang，yibuyibu，zouxiangta。gaogenxieqiaojidimiandeshengyin，qingcui，bingleng，
zaizheicaozayousijidehuanjingli，yichangtuwu。lujingchensihubeizheishengyinjingdong，mangranditaiqitou。
hunzhuodeyanjingli，yingchuwojugaolinxiadeshenying。neiyishunjian，
tahunzhuodeyanzhongsihushanguoyisijiqiweiruodeguang，xiangshibeiqiangguangcitong，
youxiangshibinsizhirenkandaohuanjuedemangran。tasisididingzhewodelian，zuichunduosuozhe，
houlonglifachuhehedeshengxiang，xiangshipojiudefengxiangzaijiannanlache。“qing……qing……？
”tahanhunbuqingdituchulianggeyinjie，ganliedezuichunzhandoudelihai。tarenchulaile？
renchuzheizhangheshenqingciyouqibafenxiangsi，quegengjialengyingruilidelian？xinkouxiangshibeishenmedongxihenhenzuanleyixia，
zhixibandeteng。danxiayimiao，jiubeixiongyongdehenyifugai。wohuanhuandunxiashen，
angguidexizhuangkutuicengdaoledishangdewuziyehaobuzaiyi。muguangyutahunzhuodeshuangyanpingshi，
chunjiaogouqiyimobinglengde、haowuwendudehudu。“lujingchen。”wodeshengyinbugao，
queqingxiderutongbinglingsuilie，“haojiubujian。”zheisangezi，xiangsanbacuiledudebingzhui，
henhenzhajintacancundeyishili。lujingchenmengdidengdaleyanjing，
hunzhuodeyanqiulishunjianbumanlejinghaiyujuedexuesi！taxiangshijianleguiyiyang，shentijuliedizhandouqilai，
houlonglifachu“gege”deguaixiang，shoujiaobingyongdiwanghousuo，jibeizhongzhongzhuangzaibinglengdeshuiniqiaodunshang。
“bu……bukeneng……gui！nishigui！”tasiyadijianjiaoqilai，shengyinposuibukan，
chongmanlezuiyuanshidekongju，“qingci……nisile！
woqinyan……che……xue……haoduoxue……”tayuwulunci，shuangshouhuluandizaikongzhonghuiwu，
fangfoxiangqusanyanqiandehuanying。powanbeitatifan，jigeyingbidingdingdangdangdigunjinwushuili。“shia，wosile。
”wowangqianbijinyibu，binglengdeshixiansuozhutajingkongniuqudelian，“beiniqinshoutuichuqu，sizaichelundixia，
xueroumohu。lujingchen，neitiandexue，rebure？wodegutousuidiaodeshengyin，haotingma？”wodehua，
xiangyibadundao，zaitahunluandejiyilicanrendifanjiao。lujingchendetongkongzhouransuojin，
lianshangdekongjushunjianbeiyizhongjudadetongkuhemangranqudai。tasisibaozhuzijidetou，
shouzhiyonglidikoujinhuabaiyounidetoufali，fachuyeshoubandedihao。
……bushi……womeiyoutuini……che……cheshikongle……xiaochashuo……xiaochashuo……”tatongkudiwuyanzhe，
duanduanxuxudituchujigeci，yanshenhuansan，
nisile……womencainengjietuo……cainengnadaoqian……guohaorizi……taaiwo……woye……”“baixiaocha？
”wolengxiaoyisheng，shengyincuizhehanbing，“nineigejuanzounizuihouyidianjiadang、paodewuyingwuzongdezhenai？
”“pao……paole？”lujingchenmengditaiqitou，lianshangshigengjiashenzhongdemangranhenanyizhixin，
“ta……tabuhui……tashuoyaohewo……tonggangongku……”“tonggangongku？
”woxiangshitingdaoletiandadexiaohua，xiaoshengzaikongkuangwuzhuodetianqiaoxiaxiandegewaicier，“lujingchen，
nijingmingsuanjileyibeizi，daotoulai，beiyigenvrenshuadetuantuanzhuan，pianguanglejiachan，
piandeniqinshoushalezijideqizi，zuihouxiangtiaosangjiazhiquanyiyangzaizheiliqitao！nihuogai！”“womeiyoushani！
meiyou！”taturanxiangbeicaileweibadeyeshou，baofachuqilidesihou，bumanxuesideyanjingsisidengzhewo，
daizheyizhongjuewangdefengkuang，“cheshiyiwai！shiyiwai！shibaixiaocha！shitahuanlewodechachepian！
shitaguyijinunirangnipaochuqu！shitagaosuwozhiyounisilewomencainengnadaoqian！doushita！shita！
”tahoudeshengsilijie，tileihengliu，shentiyinweijidongerjuliechouchu。wodexiaorongjiangzailianshang。
xinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshouhenhenzuanzhu，zhourantingzhiletiaodong。
zhouweidexuanxiao——fengsheng、cheliusheng、liulanghandeyiyu——shunjianyuanqu。shijieyipiansiji。
zhiyoulujingchenneijuewangde、daizhexueleidesihou，zaiwoerbianfengkuanghuidang。【shitahuanlewodechachepian！
】【shitaguyijinunirangnipaochuqu！】【shitagaosuwozhiyounisilewomencainengnadaoqian！】meiyigezi，
douxiangyikezhadan，zaiwoziyiweijianbukecuidehenyibaoleishanghongranzhakai。chachepian？jinuwo？
jiyidesuipianbushoukongzhidifanyongshanglai，daizhexuexingwei。chehuoqianjixiaoshi，
wohelujingchenzaijialibaofaleqiansuoweiyoudejiliezhengchao。daohuosuo，
shiwowuyizhongzaitaxizhuangkoudailifaxianleyimeibushuyuwode、jiazhibufeidezuanshierding。baixiaochadeerding。
wozhiwen，taqichufuyan，ranhoubunaifan，zuihounaoxiuchengnu。tashuowoyishenyigui，shuowokongzhiyuqiang，
shuogenwozaiyiqizhixi。baixiaochashishidichuxian，chuanzhezhensishuiqun，chuchukeliandiquanjia，
hualihuawaiquedouzaianshiwodewuliqunaohelujingchende“xinku”、“weiqu”。tashuo：“qingcijie，
nibieguaijingchenge，tayalitaidale……doushiwobuhao，wobugailaide……”lujingchenxiangbeidianrande**tong，
mengdituilewoyiba，houdao：“nikankanxiaochaduodongshi！ninengbunengxuexueta？
zhengtianchulehuaqianhechagangnihaihuishenme？zheigejiawodaibuxiaqule！
”judadeweiquhefennuchongkualewodelizhi。wokuzhezhuaqibaochongchulejiamen。
baixiaochazaihoumianjiaojidihan：“qingcijie！biepao！waimianweixian！”lujingchenmeiyouzhuichulai。ranhou，
jiushineiliangfangfosuanzhunleshiji、shikongchonglaidehuoche。ciyandechedeng，cierdechachesheng……bu，budui！
dangshi，neilianghuochechongguolaishi，luntaimocadimiandeshengyin……henguaiyi！bushijianruide、lazhangdechachesheng，
ershiduancu、chenmen、xiangshi……dahua？
ruguochachepianbeidongleshoujiao……ruguobaixiaochaguyiliuxiaerdingrangwofaxian，guyijihuamaodun，
guyiyindaowopaoxiangneitiaocheliumijidelu……ruguolujingchende“tui”，zhishizaiwopaochuquhou，
xiayishidi、huozhezaibaixiaochajianjiaoanshixia，
yigeshitulazhuwoqueyinhuocheshikongerbianchengtuixiangsiwangdedongzuo……hanyi，congjiaodibanshunjiancuanbiansizhibaihai，
lianxueyedoufangfodongjiangle。wosisididingzheyanqianzheigebengkuide、angzangde、yuwuluncidenanren。
talianshangneizhongjudadetongkuhemangran，buxiangshizhuangde。nandao……zheisannian，wohencuoleren？
wojingxinbianzhidefuchouzhiwang，kunzhude，zhishiyigetongyang**zong、beiqipiandeqizi？
yigebeibaixiaochawannongyuguzhangzhijian、zuizhongyebeiwuqingpaoqidekelianchong？“chachepian……huanle？
”wodeshengyingansedelihai，daizhezijidouweicengchajuedezhandou，“zhengjuni？lujingchen，
niyiweinixianzaihuluanpanyao，wojiuhuixinni？”“zhengju……”lujingchentongkudibaozhutou，