第5章

neishisuyuroudiyicijiandaota。

guyuzhangchuanzheyishenxidejiyufabaideqingshan,ganganjingjingdichuxianzaizhongrenmianqian。

meiyanruhua,wenwenerya。

youyangguangcongtatoushangdezhiyejiantoushexialai,zhenggerenpizhelinlinguangban。

jushoutouzujianjinshishujuanzhiqi,dangzhenruyazhiji。

taweiyigongshou:「zaixiaguyuzhang,jianguosudaxiaojie。」

wocongxiaogenzheta,ziranyixiajiunengkanchulai,tachediduitadonglexin。

suyuroujiangtadezihuafankai,jinguanwobushizi,kanbuchuhaohuai,kewokandongletayanshenzhongdejingyanyuxinshang,wuyibushizantanzhise。

tasuijiquzhaodie,henkuaidiejibuchulai,meiyanjianjidongfeichang。

dangji,guyuzhangjiubeidieshouweimenke,juzhuzaixiyuan,pingshizhuanmenjijigedidijiangxue。

yeshizineizhihou,sufuzaiwumeiposhangmenshuoqin。

suyuroumeiridouhuiqukanta,jinrisonghebao,mingrisongdianxin,houtianyousongzhenguidezangshuguben。

danguyuzhangzongshituici,jianglixianxiashiyunannvyoubiezhijiandefencunjuli,naniedegangganghao。

raoshitajiangyifanxinyizhanxiandelinlijinzhi。

tayezhongjiuhoutuiyibu,gonggongjingjingdifengshangyili:

「duoxiedaxiaojiehouai,ranciwuzaixiashinanshoushou。shangshudarennengshouliuzaixia,yishienzhongrushan,zaixiayouqigandecunjinchi,wuledaxiaojiedezhongshendashi?」

suyuroushangxinyujue,kuzhepaoyuan。

dajiadouzaibeihoumatachun。

lianwoyexiaotayuben,dangzhenshigeyufushusheng。

mingzhidiejiangtaliuxia,bianshiyouyiyaojiangsuyuroujiajita。

nengchengweishangshufudenvxu,neikeshitajibeizidouxiubulaidefufen。

ketadaohao,fangzhedahaoderonghuafuguibuyao,haishanglesuyuroudexin。

他究竟是怎么想的?

zhidaomouriwanshang,mangliuleyizhengtiandewozhunbeihuiwuxiuxi,quezaifangmenkoujiandaoleguyuzhang。

我很惊讶地望着他:

「xiansheng……shiyouheshi?」

tameihuida,zhishiconghuaizhongtaochuyizhimeihuazan。

sihuyouxiebuhaoyisi,taqingjundelianshangzhangdetonghong,zaijiebaideyuesexiajingxiandeyoujifenkeai。

「wotongbierendatingguole,jintianshinideshengchen,zheishiwozijikedeyinzan,danwoshouben,yangzishizaibuhaokan,ni……moyaoxianqi。」

qishizheizhimeihuazandiaokedehenjingzhi。

huabanxuxurusheng,xiniruwei,zantoudeneiduomeihua,haosizaibingxuezhongaoranzhanfang,qingyaerbushigaogui。

xiangbitahuafeilehenduogongfu。

neishuangbengaiwozhebideshou,shoubeishangyidaodaoliehenqingxikejian,zaoyiyaguoleqingsedejinluo。

womeiyoulaideyizhenxinteng。

talianshangdaizhexiaoyi,muguangzhuozhuoruhuo:

「erxiaojie,shengchenxile,suisuianlan。」

wodunshilianhonglegechedi,turanbuzhigaishuoxieshenme。

weimiantakandaowozhuoredaowufaziyideyankuang,wolianmangdixiatouqu,rangyanleidiluodaodishang。

congxiao,dimujiubuyunxuwoguoshengchen,gengbuyunxurenherentidaozheiyitian,zheishiwoniangshengwoderizi,yeshitazuiyuanhenderizi。

congmeiyouren,huijidewodeshengchen,yecongmeiyouren,huiduiwoshuoyiju,shengchenxile。

beirenguanxindeganjue,haodejihunengrangrenluolei。

wojiejiebabadishuo:「xiexieni,danni……haishi……ganjinzouba,ruorangren……qiaojianle……huiwuhuide。」

ketabingmeizou,fanerningshizhewodeyanjing,zhengzhongerrenzhen:

「qishiwoshenmedouzhidao,neitianshinizhaorenjiulewo。erxiaojie,xiexienidejiumingzhien。」

wozhengzhengdiwangzheta,yikexindoukuaiyaotiaochulai。

「ni……nishizenme……」

dunledun,youjuedezijisha,tazheibancongming,youzenhuifaxianbulezhenxiang?

zhidegaikou:「xianshengbuyonghuanwo……erxiaojie,wocaibushi……qishinijiaowo……jiaowo……」

忽然间,我哑口了。

因为我没有名字。

guyuzhangzirantingdedong,yushixiaoqilai,yanlisishizhuangmanlewanqianxingchen:

「ququfuququ,cijunhaiyijun。burujiujiaoniaciba。」

wobudongneijuhuashiheyisi,zhijuedecongtakouzhongshuochudeaci,shineimehaoting。

meiyisheng,dousijiaozailewodexinjianjianshang。

doushuorendetanyushiwuqiongjinde,yongbuzhizu。

neiyike,wohuranyexiangyaogengduo。