wolaiziweilai，huidaoguoqu，zhiweilezhengjiumama。zhanzai1998niandechunfengli，
wozuanzhekoudailineizhangweiweifachaodeheibaizhaopian，zhifufanfucengguozhaopianshangnianqingnvrendelian。
zhaopianlidechenhuijingzhazhemahuabian，lanbuguazixidefabai，quexiaodeyanjingwanchengleyueya，
shenhoushigangchouyadeliushu，fengbatadebianshaochuideqingqinghuang——zheishimamaershisuishideyangzi，
yeshitahaimeiyujiansujianguodeyangzi。koudailidelaoshirililuozhezhangxin，
hongsedeshuzi“15”beiwoquanlesandao，mojiyunkaiyixiaopian。1998nian3yue15ri，
shimamahesujianguodiyicijianmianderizi，zaizhenshangdegongxiaoshemenkou，youlinjuwangshenqiandexian。
shangbeizimamazongshuoneishi“yuanfendaole”，kewozhidao，neishitawanghousanshiniankunandekaishi。
woshicong2023niandedongyechuanguolaide。mamazoudeneitianyeshizheiyangdeleng，tatangzaiyiyuandebingchuangshang，
shoudezhishengyibagutou，miliushizuanzhewodeshou，shengyinqingdexiangtanxi：“aningwobuhouhuiyounizheigenver，
keyaoshidangchu……meijiajiuhaole。”tameishuowanjiuyanleqi，yanjingquemeibijin，wangzhechuangwaihuimengmengdetian，
xiangzaikanhenyuandedifang。tazouhouwofanbianlejialidelaoxiangzi，zaizuidixiazhaodaogetiehezi，
limianchuletabeidaduanguoleigudebingli、beiyantoutangchudongdejiumaoyi，haiyouyitameijichudexin。
xinshixiejiwaipode，daduoshibanyexiede，zijiliaocao，youdedifanghaiyinzheleihen。“ma，jianguoyouhejiule，
bawanshuaile，aninghedezhiku……”“jintianquyiyuan，yishengshuowoweibuhaoyaoyang，ketashuowozhuangbing，
haibayaorengle……”“wohaoxiangchengbuxiaqule，
keaninghaixiao……”zuihouyifengxintingzaitaquezhenaizhengdeneitian，zhixieleyiju：“yaoshinengzhonglai，
wobujiale。”wobaozheneixiexinzaikongdangdangdewulizuoleyiye，tianliangshichuangwaipiaolexue，
woturanjiudaolezheili——1998niandechuntian，mamahaimeiyujiansujianguo，wohaiyoujihui。
cunkoudelaohuaishugangkaihua，baihuahuadeyichuanguazaizhishang，piaozhedanxiang。wowangcunlizou，
yuanyuankanjiangechuanlanbuguazideguniangdunzaihebianchuiyifu，mahuabianchuizaibeihou，dongzuoqingkuai。shimama。
woxintiaodelihai，jiaobuquechendemaibukai。shangbeiziwozongyuantaruanruo，yuantaweishenmebulihun，
zhidaokandaoneixiexincaizhidao，tashipawobeirenchuojilianggu，pawogenzhetashouweiqu。tabushiruanruo，
shibei“mama”zheilianggezikundetailao。“huijing！”yougeshenziconghebianzouguo，xiaozhehanta，
“wangshengenwoshuole，xiawurangniqugongxiaoshemenkoujianjian，neixiaohuozizhangdejingshen，tingshuozaizhenshanggongchangshangbanni！
”chenhuijingchuiyifudedongzuodunlexia，lianjiahonglehong，dixiatouxiaoshengshuo：“shenzi，
wohaimeixianghaoni……”“zheiyoushahaoxiangde？”shenzicouguoqu，yadishengyin，
“nimabuzongpanzhenijiagewendangrenjia？sushifujiadexiaoziwojianguo，kanzhelaoshi，nijiaguoqukendingbushouqi。
”“sushifujiadexiaozi”——sujianguo。wodezhijiaqiajinzhangxin，tengdeyanmaojinxing。dengneishenzizoule，
woshenxikouqizouleguoqu，zhanzaimamashenpangqingqingdehanta：jiejie。”chenhuijingtaiqitou，kanjianwoshilenglexia。
wochuanleshenbushuyuzheigeniandaidejiakeshan，toufayejiandeduan，takendingburenshi。“nishi？
”“woshi……congchenglilaide，zhaowoqinqi，milelu。”wobianlegehuang，wanghezheibianzouleliangbu，
“jiejienizhidaogongxiaoshezenmezouma？”tazhanqishen，wangwozheibianzhilezhi：“shunzhezheitiaoluwangnanzou，
guoleshiqiaojiushi。”tadeshouhenhong，dongdeyouxiezhong，shangbeizitazongyongzheishuangshoujiwofengyifu、baojiaozi，
houlaibeisujianguoyongtiegundaqingle，haojiudoumeixiao。“xiexiejiejie。”wokanzheta，houlongfajin，“jiejie，
wokannirentinghaode，ni……yaoquxiangqinma？”tameixiangdaowohuiwenzheige，liangenghongle，
dianlediantouyouganjinyaotou：“jiushi……suibianjianjian。”“shiqujiansujianguoma？”wodingzhetadeyanjing，
yiziyidundiwen。chenhuijingmengditaiqitou，yanlimanshijingya：“nirenshita？
”“wo……wotinggangcaineigejiejieshuode。”woganjinyuanhuang，xinquetiaodegengkuai，“jiejie，woquannibiequ。
”tazhoulezhoumei，meishuohua，zhishinaqichuiyibangjixuchuiyifu，xiangshimeibawodehuadanghuishi。yeshi，
woyigemoshengde“miluguniang”，tashuobudingyiweiwozaihuyanluanyu。“tabuhao。”wojile，
wangqianzouleliangbu，caijinhebiandeniliyemeigushang，“takanzhelaoshi，qishipiqibuhao，huidarende。
”chenhuijingdedongzuotingle，zhuanguotoukanwo，yanshenlidailedianfangbei：“xiaoguniang，fankeyiluanchi，
huabunengluanshuo。wogentahaimeijianni，nizenmezhidaotadaren？”“wojiushizhidao！”woshengyinfazhan，
yanleichadiandiaoxialai，“tahuihejiu，heduolejiudaren，huimani，huibanizhuandeqiandounaqudu，
tabuhuiduinihaode！”zheixiehuaduzaiwoxinlitaijiule，shangbeiziwokanzhemamabeitada，
kanzhetatoutoumoyanlei，quezhinengduozaimenhouku，lianju“biedawomama”doubuganhan。
chenhuijingbeiwodeyangziheletiao，zhouzhemeishuo：“nizheiguniangzenmehuishi？shibushirencuorenle？
wangshenshuotazaigongchangshangban，tingbenfende……”“benfen？
”woxiangqitiehezilineizhangbeisisuidejiangzhuang——neishimamanianqingshidedecixiujiangzhuang，
beisujianguohezuilesile，jiuyinweitameijishijitadaojiu。“tahuihuilenide！nibiequjianta，qiunile！
”woyueshuoyueji，yanleidiaolexialai，hunzhehebiandefengwangzuilizuan，youkuyouse。chenhuijingkanzhewoku，
yanshenruanlexie，quehaishiyaoleyaotou：“guniang，xiexienihaoyi，buguowoxinliyoushu。
”tabazuihouyijianyifuninggan，fangjinzhulanli，“wogaihuijiale，niyeganjinzhaoniqinqiquba。
”tazhuanshenwangcunlizou，mahuabianzaibeihouhuang，wokanzhetadebeiying，jidezhiduojiao。
wozhidaotaweishenmebuxin——1998niandesujianguoqueshi“kanzhelaoshi”，tazaizhenshangdenongjichangshangban，
gongzianshijiao，jianlezhangbeihuidazhaohu，sheiyexiangbudaotahezuilehuibianchenglingyigeren。mamazoudekuai，
zhuanyanjiujinlexiangzi。wozhanzaihebian，kanzheshuilizijimohudeyingzi，
turanxiangqitaxinlixiede：“aningxiaoshihouzongshuo，yaobaohumama。”shia，woyaobaohuta。
womolebayanlei，wanggongxiaoshedefangxiangpao。xianzaiqulankendinglaibujile，wodexiangbiedebanfa。
sujianguozuizaihudejiushimianzi，tayaoshizaixiangqinshichulechou，mamakendingbuhuiyuanyijiajita。
gongxiaoshemenkourenbushao，jigeshenzizhanzaimenkoushuohua，kanjianwopaoguolaidouhuitoukan。womeilitamen，
wanglimianchou，meikanjianmama，yemeikanjiansujianguo——yinggaihaimeidao。wowangpangbiandezahuodianpao，
laobanzhengpazaijutaishangdadun。“laoban，maihepaozhang。”wobakoudailijinyoudejishikuaiqiandoutaochulai，
shiwochuanguolaishishenshangdaide。laobanroulerouyanjing，zhilezhiqiangjiao：“zijina，wukuaiqianyihe。
”wonalehexiaopaozhang，youmailebaofenbi，wanggongxiaoshehoumianpao。gongxiaoshehoumianyougexiaoxiangzi，pingshimeirenqu，
wojideshangbeizimamashuoguo，tagensujianguoxiangqinshi，xianmenkourenduo，jiuqulehoumiandexiangzi。
wodunzaixiangzikou，bafenbinachulai，zaiqiangshangxie：“sujianguo，jiabaonan，dalaopo，duqianhejiu。
”gangxiewanyoujuedetaizhibai，pamamabuxin，youcadiaozhongxie：“sujianguo，nongjichangshangban，
shanggeyuehezuiledaletasaozi，biexintalaoshi。”zheihuashiwobiande，
buguosujianguotagesaoqueshigentachaoguojia，jiuyinweitatounalesaozideqianqudu。cunlirenbuzhidaojutiyuanyin，
zhizhidaotamennaoguomaodun，zheimeshuomamashuobudinghuixin。xiewanwogangxiangduoqilai，jiutingjianxiangkouyourenshuohua。
shimamadeshengyin，haiyougenanrendeshengyin，cushengcuqide。“sutongzhi，zheidifangtinganjingde。
”shimamadeshengyin，daizhedianjujin。“ng，chentongzhikanzhebiwangshenshuodehaijun。”shisujianguo！
woganjinwangxiangzishenchutuiletui，duozaiqianghoumian，zhiluchugenaodaikan。sujianguochuanzhejianlansedegongzhuangwaitao，
toufashudezhengzhengqiqi，shoulilinzhegewangdou，limianzhuangzheliangjinpingguo，kanzhequeshixianggelaoshiren。
mamazhanzaitaduimian，dizhetou，shoulizuanzheyijiao，lianhonghongde。“chentongzhijialijikourena？”sujianguowen，
shengyinbigangcaiwenhelexie。“jiuwogenwoma，wobazoudezao。”mamaxiaoshengshuo。“e，
neinimayigerenlacheniburongyi。”sujianguoxiaolexiao，“wojiajiuwoyigeerzi，wobamadouzai，
yihounijiaguolai，kendingbuyongnishouweiqu。”tingting，duohuishuo。shangbeizitayeshizheimepianmamade，
shuo“buyongnishouweiqu”，jieguomamajiaguoqudediernian，tajiuyinweigongchangcaiyuanmeilegongzuo，kaishihejiu，
yihejiuzui，yizuijiudaren。mamameishuohua，zhishidianlediantou。wojidezaiqianghoumianzuanjinlequantou，
derangtakandaoqiangshangdezicaixing。woqiaoqiaobashoulidepaozhangnachulai，dianranleyinxian，wangxiangzikourengguoqu。
“pa”deyisheng，xiaopaozhangzhale。mamaheleyitiao，xiayishiwangpangbianduo，zhenghaobeiduizhewoxiedezi。
sujianguoyeheletiao，zhuantouwangxiangkoukan：“sheia？xiarengshenme！”“ma……bushi，chenjiejie！
”woganjincongqianghoumianpaochulai，jiazhuangjinghuangshicuodeyangzi，“wogangcaikanjianzhilaoshu，renggepaozhangheheta，
meihezheniba？”mamazhuanguotou，zhenghaokandaoqiangshangdezi。tadeyanjingyixiazizhengdale，dingzheqiangshangdezi，
zuichundongledong，meishuochuhualai。sujianguoyekanjianle，lian“teng”dijiuhongle，bushixiude，shiqide。
“sheitamaxiede？xiahushuobadaoshenme！”tazhizheqiangshangdezi，shengyindoubianlediao。“wo……wobuzhidaoa。
”woguyizhuanghaipa，wangmamashenbianduoleduo，“wogangcaiguolaijiukanjianle，haiyiweishizhende……”“fangpi！
”sujianguodengzhewo，“woshenmeshihoudawosaozile？nizheixiaoyatoupianziguyidaoluanshibushi？”tayixiong，
wogeng“haipa”le，wangmamashenhousuolesuo：“womeidaoluan，wojiushitingrenshuode……shuonigennigesaochaojia，
jiushiyinweinihejiudaren……”“**zaishuoyibian！”sujianguojile，shenshoujiuyaolaizhuawo。“sutongzhi！
”mamaturandangzaiwoqianmian，kanzhesujianguo，yanshenlimanshijingyaheshiwang，“nizenmenengshuozanghuani？
”sujianguodeshoutingzaibankong，kanzhemama，liansebianleyoubian，zuihouhengleyisheng，
bashoushoulehuiqu：“chentongzhi，nibietingzheixiaoyatoupianzihushuo，tajiushiguyilaidaoluande。
”“shibushidaoluanwobuzhidao，”mamakanzheta，shengyinlenglexie，“buguosutongzhi，
wojuedewomenkenengbutaiheshi。”“nishuosha？”sujianguojile，“jiuyinweizheixiaoyatoupianzihushuojiju？
”“buzhiyinweizheige。”mamayaoleyaotou，“wogangcaitingnishuohua，juedenipiqibutaihao。womashuo，
zhaoduixiangdezhaogepiqihaode，buranriziguobuzhangjiu。”mamashuowan，kandoumeikansujianguoyiyan，
lazhewodeshoujiuwangxiangkouzou。wohuitoukanleyansujianguo，tazhanzaiyuandi，lianqidetonghong，zuanzhequantou，
yanshenxiongbabade——genwojiyilitahezuiledeyangziyimoyiyang。chulexiangzi，mamacaisongkaiwodeshou，
kanzhewo，meitouzhoudejinjinde：“nidaodishishei？nizenmezhidaosujianguogentagesaochaojia？
”woxinligedengyixia，gangcaitaijile，wanglezheicha。“wo……”woyaoleyaochun，juedingshuoshihua，
danbuwanquanshishihua。“chenayi，wojiao…wojiaolinwei，woshi……niweilainversuning……detongxue。
”mamalengzhule，kanzhewo，yanjingdengdeyuanyuande：“nishuosha？woweilainverdetongxue？”“shi。
”wodiantou，congkoudailibaneizhangheibaizhaopiannachulai，dijita，“zheishiniershisuishidezhaopian，
shiwocongninverjializhaodaode。woshicong2023nianhuilaide，wohuilaijiushiweilezuzhinijiajisujianguo。
”mamajieguozhaopian，kanzhezhaopianshangdeziji，youtaitoukanwo，yanshenlimanshimimang：“2023nian？
wo……wohoulaizhendejiajileta？”“ng。”wodiantou，yanleiyoudiaolexialai，“wotingneininvershuo，
nijiajitahoumeiduojiu，takaishihejiu，heduolejiudani，banizhuandeqiandounaqudu。
nizongshuoweilesuningrenren，kezuihouhaishi……haishishengbingle，zoule。”mamadeshoukaishidou，
zhaopianchadiandiaozaidishang。takanzhewo，zuichunzhanlezhan：“wo……wozoule？neiwonver……”“tayigeren。
”woxilexibizi，“nizouhou，tayechushile，linsiqianzongxiangzhe，yaoshinenghuidaoguoqu，
yidingburangnijiajita。tayidiandoubuxiangbeishengxialai，guozheizhongkurizi。buguo，wohuilaile，
wokeyibangsuningshixiantadeyuanwang。”wosahuangle，womeiyoubuxiangbeishengxialai，wohenaiwodemama，
danwopamamaneimeshanliang，yaoshizhidaobujiajisujianguo，wojiuhuixiaoshi，yidingbuhuitongyide。mamameishuohua，
zhishikanzhewo，yanjingmanmanhongle。guolehaoyihuier，tacaishenshoubaozhuwo，qingqingpaizhewodebei，
shengyingengyan：“shi…zheiyangma…xiexienia，xiaoguniang，xinkunile。”tadehuaibaonuannuande，
daizhezaojiaodexiangwei，shiwojilehenduoniandeweidao。nikan，wodemamayijiushizheimeshanliang，
jiuzheiyangxiangxinleyigemoshengnvhaishuodehua。wopazaitahuaili，yanleidiaodegengxiongle，
batadeguazidoukushileyipian。“bukule，a。”mamapaizhewo，“jirannihuilaizuzhiwo，neiwobujia，
wobuhuijiajita。”“yihoujiaowojiejieba，jiranlaile，wohuihaohaozhaoguni，xiexieniduiwonverdezhaogu。
”tingzhetadehua，woxinlideshitouzhongyuluoledi。shia，tabujiale，yiqiedoubuyiyangle。
neitianmamameihuijia，daizhewoqulewaipojia。waipojiazailincun，lidebuyuan。waipokandaowohenjingya，
mamameishuowoshita“weilainverdetongxue”，zhishuowoshitarenshideyigexiaoguniang，jialichuledianshi，
zanshizaizheierzhujitian。waiposhigeheshandelaotaitai，kanwokelian，jiushouliulewo。