第4章
womurankanzheta，“wobuxiangliuzaizheili。”
rangwokanzhetamenaimeibuqing？wozixumeizheimedadu，fanzhengzaowanshiyaolihunde，buruzaodianfenkai。
fuchuxuequehuranxiaole，“buxiangliuzaijiali，neinixiangquna？qinrunuojia？tashibushijinifaxinxile？waimianleishengzhenzhen，tayinggaihenhaipaba？”
zaojiuxiguantayuqijianrui，danwohaishicubujifangdebeicitong，tagenbenbuyuanyixiangxinwoshuodehua。
wobuxiangqujiujietashibushixiangyaoyangaizijizaizheiduanhunyinlidebuzhongcheng，suoyicaixiacaiwoheqinrunuolaijianqingtaxinlidefuzuigan。
genzheiyangguyizhuanglongderen，womeishenmehaoshuode。
wochenmodequnaxingli，fuchuxuefennudeyibajiangwozhuaiqilai，muguangbingleng，“nibiexiangquzhaota！”
tashuowanjiujinlekefang，buyihuidaizhelinyuchulai，xixindefuzheta，kanxiangwoquequanshilengmo。
“nizuihaoguanzhuzijidexin，ruguorangwofaxianniquzhaoqinrunuo，wojiurangtadegongsijikepochan。”
menbeishuaidezhentianxiang，wowulidezuozaishafashang，biqianglitianxingyipian，youbixuele。
naigaodiaolaiyizhangzhi，wojiandandecaleca，mianqiangdechongtaxiao，“biedanxin，womeishide。”
xuebuduanyongchu，xianranwogaoguleziji。
woyoujinleyiyuan，zheicishiwozijidalejijiudianhua，taiduoxuele，naigaobeihedeyizhizaijiao。
buguowogangxinglaijiutingdaosuxihentiebuchenggangdemasheng，“nishiwojianguozuibutinghuadebingren！”
hushishuosuxishikeshilizuiwenroudeyisheng，xianzaibeiwoqidefaledahuo，tahairanghushikanzhewo。
shuoyijingjiwolaopodaledianhua，wozhidaotashihaoxin，danfuchuxuegenbenbuzaihuwo，dayeshiwuyong。
congshenyedaotianliang，youshiwugexiaoshi，fuchuxuemeilai，linyutitaguolaile。
“feijinxinsideganzouwohaibugou？xianzaiyouzhuangdebingyangyangdejichuxuejiedadianhua，youyisima？chuxuejieyijingbuxihuannile，wohaichanzhetazuoshenme？”
“wofeijinxinsidegannizou？”
“nandaobushi？”linyujugaolinxiadekanzhewo，“niyiweijiamojiashidelijiachuzoujiunengrangchuxuejieganzouwo，jieguomeixiangdaochuxuejiegenwoyiqizouleba？”
“erqiewokemeipianni，zheihuashichuxuejieqinkougenwoshuode。”linyudakaiyuyin，fuchuxuelvedaibunaideshengyinzuanruerduoli。
“zuotianwohuilaitalianbushilian，bizibushibizide，xianzaiyouzhuangbingrangwoguoqukanta，shuawowanshiba？niqugaosuta......”
houmiandehuawodoumeizixitingle，yuanlaiwokuaisile，zaitayanlishizaizhuangbingbotongqing。
wobilebiyan，yaxiaxinlidesuanse。
“niyaoshishiqujiuzaodiangenchuxuejielihun，nibusha，yemingbaizaichuxuejiexinliwojiushibinizhongyao。”
“jirannineimezhongyao，xiangbinishuoshenmetadouhuitingdeba，neinirangtajinkuaibalihunxieyiqianle。”
bingfangmenbeirenpengdeyixiayonglituikai，zhendewoyizhentoutong，fuchuxuebinglengdelianyechuxianzaiwoyanqian。
linyulianyibai，qieqiedao，“chuxuejie，woquanligegennishuoliangjuruanhua，tafeiyaogennilihun。”
“jiangli，lihunnijiubiexiangle，meibingjiugenwohuilaozhai，biezaizheizhuangle，bamahaidengzheni。”
ruguofuchuxuerenzhendian，tajiuhuifaxianyinweishuyewodeshoufuzhongdehenlihai，kexitabingbuzaiyi，jianwobudong，tameinaixindeguolailawo。
wotuikaitadeshouzijiwangwaizou。
lihundeshizongyaogaozhiyuefuyuemuyisheng。
“初雪姐…”
linyuxiangwanliu，fuchuxuebunaifandehuitousaoletayiyan，linyujiubuzaihangshengle。
tabushishouweiquderen，henkuaijiangjizhangzhaopianfaleguolai，shizuowantagenfuchuxuezaiyiqidezhaopian。
［chuxuejieweiniaoguojiangtangma？kandaolema？taweilejiangtang，wozaitaxinligengjiazhongyao。］
fuchuxuedangranmeiyouweiwoaoguo，tabuhuizuofan，weiyiyicishigangjiehun，woheletaiduojiu，taxiangyaoweiwoaozhou，jieguobeitangshang，haihongzheyangenwoshuomeishi。
congneiyihou，wozaimeirangtajinguochufang。
dangshitashizhenxinxihuanwo。
xianzaiyeshizhenxinxihuanlinyu。
［neinirangtagenwolihun。］
wohuilezheiyiju，shenhoulinyusisidengzhewo，henbudechongguolaiyikoujiangwoyaodexueroumohu。
tazaiaifuchuxueyouruhe？
fuchuxuexinliyijingzhuanglelingwaiyigeren，tazuizhongdejiejubuhuibiwohaobanfen。
fujialaozhai，wohefuchuxuedaodeshihoufancaiyijingzuohao，fumuxiaozhekaimen，kanjianwoqueshiyileng。
“xiaolizenmeshouleneimeduo？”
fuchuxueniutoukanwo，zhoumei，“ma，nikancuoleba，jiangliyizhidoushizheiyangmeibianhaoba。”
fumuhaiyaoshuoshenme，fuchuxueyijingfangsongdezoujinqu，kanzhecanzhuoshangdefancaigaoxingbuyi。
“haishimaduiwohao，zuodedoushiwoaichide。”
fumudanyoudekanwoyiyan，woxiaoxiaoshiyizijimeishi，tacaizhuantouhuifufuchuxue。
“mingmingdabufendoushixiaoliaichidehaobuhao？”
“那您可真偏心。”
qishifumushuodeyedui，caishifuchuxueaichide，taxihuan，suoyiwocaigenzhexihuan。
wochenmodezuoxialai，fumubuduanjiwojiacai，rangwoduochidian，shuowotaishoule，zhidaochiwanfan，fufufumuhuranwenwomenshenmeshihouyaohaizi。
woxiayishijiuyaoshuoshentibuhaozaidengdeng，huadaozuibianturangengzhu，rushitouban，tubuchuyouyanbuxia。
gangjiehundiernianwojiuxiangyaogehaizi，keshifuchuxueyizhiyitashiyezhengzaishangshengqijujuelewo，fumuzhidaohoudafaleiting，wojiubazerenlandaolezijishenshang。
woshuowoshentibuhao，xuyaoyangyang，yishuojiushisinian，xianzaiyezhongyumingbaitaweishenmebuyaohaizile。
“爸，妈。”
wozhengzhongqishi，huahaimeishuowan，chuizaishencedeshouhuranbeifuchuxuesisizhuazhu。
taxiaodao，“womenyijingzaiyaole，ninerlaojiubiecaoxinle，haizizheishijiangjiushunqiziran。”
wobumingbaitaweishenmezheiyangshuo，fuchuxuezhijiezhanqishenshuoyaohuijia，lazhewojikuaidewangmenkouzou。
“womenbuhuiyouhaizi。”
wojiangzheijuhuashuolechulai，fuchuxuemengdihuitoukanwo，muguangyinchen，dingzhefumudemuguang，taqiangxiaozhejieshi。
“xianzaimeiyou，yihouhuiyoude。”
“以后也不会有。”
woyidiandianbaikaitadeshou，jianghuatankailai，“ba，ma，woxianggenchuxuelihun，nimenbangwoquanquantaba。”
fumunanyizhixin，“nimenganqingneimehao，conglaibuchaojiade，zenmeshuoyaolihunjiuyaolihuna？”
genfuchuxuezaiyiqiwunian，woxiangjitaliujifenmianzi，danfuchuxuebushizheiyangxiangde。
talengxiaozhe，poguanziposhuaiyiban。
“hainengweishenme？tadelaoqingrenhuilaile，renjiaguerguamude，tajuederenjiakelian，xiangyaoquzhaogurenjia！”