woshisongyancijingxindamolesanniandeciqi，yeshitaxinshangneidaoyuehenzuiwanmeidedaoying。
tazongaizaiwuyemiaomowodemeiyan，zhijianlidaoquezhongdexiangyaoniansuiguge：“nizheiyangzi，xiangjileta，
queyouyongyuanchayifen。”yanshenshicuilebingdexinshang。zhidaoneidaozhenzhengdeyueguanghuiguo，wocaijingjue，
yuanlaisongyanciyehuiyongneiyangrouruandelidaotirenfuqujianshangchenai。gengfengcideshi，
wozaitashufangzuishendeangeli，
fandaolesannianqianneichangdahuo——shaohuiwobanzhanglian、duozouwoxiujuedelianyu——jingshitaqinshoudianrandedaohuosuo。
dangwojuedingjiangyiqiehuaweihuijinshi，quetingjiantazaiduanbicanyuanlisihouwoderuming。
1.jiaodishibinglengdedalishi，hanyishunzhejizhuiwangshangpa。xuyandetanmumennei，nuanrongdedengguangshenchu，
xiangguozhemitangdeduzhen，zhadewoyanqiushengteng。songyancideshou，
neizhicengwushucizaiheianzhongcubaokouzhuwohoujing、poshiwochengshoutashenshideshou，
cikezhengyiyizhongjinhuqianchengdewenrou，luozailingyigenanrendejianshang。
zhifuqinghuandihuaguoduifangtingkuodexizhuangmianliao，dongzuozhenzhongdexiangzaicashixishizhenbao。houlongxiangbeishazhimoguo，
ganhedefabuchurenheshengyin。kuishi？woliantuikaineishanmen、zhizaoyisishengxiangdeliqidoufangfobeichougan。
“heneigexiaodiaoxiangshishuoqingchulema？”nanrenyizaisongyancihuaili，shengyinwenrunruyushixiangji，
muguangquechuantouhunan，jingzhundidingzaimenfengwaiwocanbaidelianshang。songyancidixiaoyisheng，
neixiaoshenglishiwoshuxide、duilouyibandeqingmie，queyouduolejifenwocongweidejiande……zongrong。“ta？
”tayuqiyonglan，meigezidouxiangbingzhuizaojinwoxinkou，“zaojiushizhilibudejinsilongdequeerle，qingbuqingxing，
zhongyaome？”hong——shijiezaierbianqingta。jiaoxiajianshidedimianshunjianhuazuoliusha，jiangwotunshi。
xinzangbeiwuxingdeshouzuanjin、silie，
liantongwoneikexiaoyoukebei、zhenzanglesannianmingwei“xunfu”yu“cuojue”dehuanmeng，suichengjifen。woliangqianghoutui，
jibeizhuangshangbinglengdeqiangbi，jilinglingdalegehanzhan。shixianquewufacongneinanrenlianshangyikai。xiang。taixiangle。
huanghujian，woyiweizaizhaoyimianjingxindamodetongjing。woxiayishitaishou，
zhijianzhandouzhefushangzijizuocelianjia——neili，zhengningdeshaoshangbahenzaiyinyingzhongrudong。ermennei，
yiweizaisongyancihuailidenanren，xiaheqinnidigezaitajianshang，gezhemenfeng，duiwoqingxi、tiaoxindi，
tiaoqiyimolerandexiaoyi。yichangwushengdexuanpan，weicengjiaofeng，woyikuibuchengjun。songyancimaishouzaitajingjian，
chimidishenxi。neizitai，yuzuoyezuijiuhou，jiangwoanzaidiaoxiangtaishang，cubaosiyaowojingceshiruchuyizhe。
taxihuanzaiwoshenshangliuxiatadeqixi，badao，burongkangju，qingshizhongcongbujiwobanfenzunyan。
jiuxiangtaqinkousuoyan。“tabuguoshiwoyangzhejiemendewanyier。”songyancikunlewosannian，
yongjinqianheyijiangejueshiwaidediaoxiangshi，maiduanlewohuiquderongmaoheyaoyaoyuzhuideweilai。daijiashi，
woxuruzuijingzhideciqi，rentabaibu。taxihuankanwoyintengtongercuqidemei，shouzhihuaguowolianjiashangbashi，
huitanxi：“aruan，nizheiyangzi，canquederangrenxiangchedidasui。”wocengyiwei，songyancishengxingliangbo。
zhidaocike，kanzhetaxiaoxinyiyihuanbaoneirendeshoubei，kanzhetacelianshangwocongweijianguode、jinhubenzhuodezhenxi，
wocaimingbaizijicuodelipu。neishiyizhong，talinseyushishejiwodewencun。“yanci，
”huaizhongrenshengyindaizhemitangbandeguhuo，zhijianruoyousiwudidianzaitaxinkou，
“menwai……youzhimiludexiaoqueerni。”neishengyinrutongdushetuxin，shunjianjiaojinwodexinzang。
yebidewoxiangzhishoujingdeezi，zaisongyancihuitoutanxundemuguangsaolaizhiqian，canghuangdi、wushengdi，
dierushenhoudewubianheian。2.“wozhunnijujuele？”songyancideshengyinbugao，quexiangcuilebingdebianzi，
chouzaijijingwushengdediaoxiangshili。tameikanwo，muguangluozaiwojiaobiandafandeangguixiangjingpingshang。
yuanweiyuguanghuoxianghunzaiyiqi，xiangyitanfubaidehuashi，zhenghuanmandi、guzhidi，pashangtazengliangdepixie。
wochizhejiao，caizaibinglengdemudibanshang，hanyizuanxin。houlonglineigushuxidezhuotongyouyongshanglai。
“wanyan……wobuxiangqu。”shengyinchukou，gansesiya。zheishiwodiyici，shituzhengtuo。zheisannian，
wozaoyibeixunfu。tayaowoxiao，wochunjiaobianlikeyangqihudu；tayaowojingmo，wobianlianhuxidoufangqing。
fankangdeniantoushaoqi，jiuhuibeigengshendekongjuniansui。woguqicancundeyongqi，taiyankanta。
songyancizhongyujiangshixiancongxiemiandewuziyikai，luozaiwolianshang。neiyanshen，lengdexiangjidiyongburonghuadebingchuan，
shunjianjiangwodongzaiyuandi，xueyeninggu。“naoshenme？”tawen，shengyinlitingbuchuqingxu，
zhiyoujugaolinxiadeshenshi。woxiangbeineiyanshenzhuoshang，mengdisesuo，jiaojianwuyishiyoutidaoxiangjingping。
gengduode、zhanchoudeyetijianchu，wuzhuomanyan。“dui、duibuqi……”xigaiyiruan，
kerugusuidexunfubennengshunjianjuezhuwo，shentibiyishigengkuaidixiangyaowanzhexiaqu，guizheweitacashi。
binglengdezhijianquemengdijuezhuwodexiaba，lidaodadejihuniesuihegu，qiangpowotaitou，
duishangtaneishuangshenbujiandi、haowubolandeyanmou。“ruanqinghe，”tayouzhongfuyibian，meigezidouxiangbingzhuzaluo，
“wozhunnijujueleme？”wowufazhishita。yanqianzheizhanglengjundelian，
yumenfenglineigeduizhelinjianshenliuluwenqingdemiankong，wufazhongdie。cikedeta，jiushizhangkongshengsidebaojun。
huoxushiwoyanzhongwufayanshidekongjuquyueleta，youhuoxutazhishibunaifan。
songyancizhifuzaiwolianjiashangbashangjiqiduanzandi、shishebandicengleyixia，rutongfuquyiliaiyandechenai。
“shiyinweijianshenhuilaile？”taqingmiaodanxiediwen。jianshen。zheigemingzixiangyidaojinglei，pisuiwoqiangzhuangdezhending。
xigaichedishili，woquankaotaniezhewoxiabadeshoucaimeitanruan。tajingran……ruciqingyidichengren？
“nixihuande……”judadequruhegengshende、buganshenjiudetongchuduzaihoujian，woxianggenishuizhe，
fachuposuideqiyin，“shita……duima？”beiweidebusizhiwen。songyancixiangshitingdaojiqiyouzhidexiaohua，
duancudi“he”leyisheng，meiyujianfuqihaobuyanshidechaonong。“xihuan？”tachixiao，songkaiqianzhi，
fangfowoshizangwu，“aruan，nizuijin，zhenshiyuelaiyuebuzhisuoweile。”tatuikaiyibu，
muguangxiangbinglengdetanzhaodeng，jiangwochizuzhanzaixiangjingwuhuilidelangbeijinshouyandi。
neiyanshenrangwoganjuezijibeiboguangleshizhong。“tinghua，”taxiadazuizhongzhiling，haowuyudi，“huanhaoyifu，
genwoquwanyan。”woxiayishishenchushou，xiangquzhuazhutayisiyijiao，xiangguoquwushuciqilianshineiyang。
taquexiangbikaihuiwu，lengmodi、jingzhundi，zaicihoutuiyibu。“bierangwoshuodierbian。”neishengyinlidehanyi，
dongjielinghun。wotaishuxi，shuxidaoshentiyixianyuyishijiangyingdi、mamudi，dianlediantou。
kanzhetazhuanshenliqudebeiying，tingba、juejue。woxiangyijubeichoudiaoyinxiandemuou，
yongshousisichengzhuzhandoudexigai，caimianqiangmeiyouguidao。“duile，”zoudaomenkou，tajiaobuyidun，meiyouhuitou，
shengyinpingdanwubo，“wanyanjianshenyehuilai。chuanneitaoyuebaidelifu，”tadunledun，sixiangqishenme，
“nichuanbaise，shangke。”menqingqingheshang。diaoxiangshilizhishengxiaxiangliaocibideqiweihewocuzhongdechuanxi。
wodingzhejinbidemenban，xujiu，caiconghoulongshenchujichuyigewushengde、posuidehuiying。wozhongjiu，
buganwunita。3.neichangweilinjianshenjiefengdeshengdawanyan，chengleyakualuotuodezuihouyigendaocao。
songyancidangzhesuoyoubinkedemian，
zhide“fenxiang”xilie——neishiwodasuanyicigaobieshijiedejuechang——qingmiaodanxiediguanshanglelinjianshendemingzi。
“jianshenganghuiguo，zheigexilie，jiudangshitayishushengmingde‘xinsheng’qidianba。”tayuqipingdan，
rutongchuzhiyijianwuzuqingzhongdewujian。linjianshenzhanzaitashence，
zuijiaoqinzheqiadaohaochude、qianxunyoudeyideweixiao，muguanglveguowocanbaidelian，daizheyisilianmindeshishe。
shijiezaiwoyanqianxuanzhuan、tunse。houlonglidexuexingweinongdehuabukai。
woneijincunde、zhengming“ruanqinghe”zheigemingzicengweidiaoxiangershengdeweimohenji，yebeichedimoqu。songyanci，
nibujinyaowodelian，wodexiujue，lianwozuihouyidianguhuidouyaoyangjilinjianshendangdianjiaoshi？！
yigubinglengdaojizhidehenyi，hunzazhehuimieyiqiedejuewang，congxindizuiheiandejiaoluozisheng，fengkuangzizhang。
rutonghuangyuanshangranqideyehuo，xunsutunshilecancundeqienuo。buxing……juebunengjiuzheiyanghuazuochenai！
woliangqiangzhetaohuineizuobinglengde“jia”——songyancimingxia、yonglaihuanyangwodedingcengfushigongyu，
meiqimingyue“diaoxiangjingshi”。meiyoukaideng，renyounongchoudeheianjiangzijitunshi。
beikaozhebinglengdeluodichuanghuazuozaidi，shentiyinweijizhidefennuhejuewangerwufakongzhidizhandou。
songyanci……tazenmeneng？tazenmegan？！heianzhong，woquansuoqilai，
youshouwuyishidi、yonglidikouzhuazhezuolianjianeidaoaotuzhengningdebahen，fangfozhiyouzheizhenshidecitong，
cainengyaxiaxinkouneipianbeichediwankaidekongdong。zheisannian，woxianggekexiaodejipin，
gongfengzhezijidexuerouhezunyan，huanlaide，yuanlaizhishiyichangchetoucheweide、weitaxinshangrenxianjidepianju。
wobushiciqi，wozhishiyigezhuoliede、suishikeyibeizhengpinzasuideyanpin。wobushiairen，
wozhishitaqiuzailongzhong、gongtashangwanhezhaquzuihouyidianliyongjiazhidequeer。bixulikai！bu，shichedizhongjie！
zheigeniantourutongcuidudetengman，yidanshenggen，bianfengkuangchanraolejin。wofuzhebinglengdeboli，zhengzhazhezhanqilai，
yanshenzaiheianzhongliangdejingren，xiangranzheliangcuyouandeguihuo。woyaolikai。yiyizhong，rangtayongshengnanwangdefangshi。
bushengxufuqueyichangjiandingdizouxiangsongyancideshufang——zheidonggongyuliweiyishangsuo、xiangzhengtajueduiquanlidejindi。
wozhidaotaxiguanzaishuzhuodeangelicunfangyixiezhongyaodesirenwupinhebujimingzichan。woxuyaoqian，
xuyaonengrangwochedixiaoshidegongju。gengzhongyaodeshi……yigeniantou，
yigefengkuangdeniantouzaiwonaozhongchengxing——neili，shifouzangzheguanyuneichangdahuodezhenxiang？
guanyuwoweihechengweijipindedaan？shufanghouzhongdemensuozhe。danzheisannian，
wozaoyizaijizhidekongjuzhongxuehuileguancha。songyancizifu，tazongyiweiwoshizhilibukailongzidequeer，
fangbeixingengduozailongwai。wopingzhemohudejiyi，yongyigenzangzaifazanlidexizhangjinshusi，
zaiheianzhongpingximosuozhesuokong。kada。yishengqingxiang。menkaile。
nongzhongdexueqiehepigehunhedeqiweipumianerlai。woxiangyoulingyiyanghuaru，
jiezhechuangwaichengshiyongbuximiedenihongweiguang，mosuodaoneizhangjudadehongmushuzhuopang。xinzangzaixiongqianglikuangtiao，
zhuangjizheleigu，jihuyaopotangerchu。shouzhizhandouzhe，pingzhejiyi，
mosuozheshuzhuocemianyigejiqiyinbide、weizhuangchengdiaohuazhuangshideaocao。youshiqingweidekadasheng。angehuakai。
limianyoujitahouhoudexianjin，jizhangyinxingka，yigesironghezi（limianshimeimoshengdenanshijiezhi），
haiyou……yigeshenlansedeyingpiwenjianjia。fengmianshangmeiyourenhebiaoji，zhiyousuiyueliuxiademosunhenji。
yizhongjiqibuxiangdeyugan，rutongbinglengdedushe，shunjianchanraozhuwodexinzang。wozhandouzhe，jihushipingzhebenneng，
xianjiangxianjinhekasaijinkoudai，ranhouchouchuleneigewenjianjia。fankai。limianzhiyoubobojiyezhi。zuishangmian，
shiyizhanghuozaixianchangdezhaopian。huamiancanlie，zhengshisannianqianshaohuiwogongzuoshijianzhusuodeneidongxiaolou，huoyanchongtian，
nongyangungun。zhaopianxiafang，shiyifendayinchulaidegoumaiqingdan，shijianzhengshihuozaifashengqianyizhou。
清单上列着的东西，
rangwodexueyeshunjiandongjie——gaonongdugongyejiujing、mouzhongteshuhuaxuezhuranji（xuemingworende，
cengzaizhuanyewenxianlijianguo）、yanshidianhuozhuangzhi……qingdanxiafang，shijixingdayinchulaidetongxunjilu。shijian，
zhengshihuozaifashengqiandejixiaoshi。yigemeiyoubeizhudehaoma，
fachujiqijianduandezhiling：mubiao：qingchuanlu73haogongzuoshi。quebaoneibumubiaowutaoshengkeneng。anjihuazhixing。
erjieshouzheitiaozhilingdehaoma……wosisididingzheneichuanshuzi，meiyigeshuzidouxiangshaohongdeluotie，
henhentangzaiwodeshiwangmoshang，luoyinjinwodelinghunshenchu！
neichuanshuzi……wolanshuyuxin!shisongyancideyigejiqiyinmide、zhiyoujishaoshuxinfuzhidaodesirenhaoma！
tacengzuijiuhou，yongzheigehaomajiwofaguoyitiaoyuyanbuxiangdeduanxin！hong——！！！
fangfoyidaojingleizainaohailizhakai，shunjianjiangwodeshijiezhadefensui！
miansuosidetaoshengmen……neiposazaiwogongzuotaifujin、shunjianyinranyiqiedeguiyiyeti……zhuoshaopifudejutong，
nongyanguanrufeibudezhixi，
juewangdepaimensheng……haiyouzuolianhexiujuebeiyongyuanduozoudeemeng……bushidianxianlaohua！bushiyiwai！shimousha！
shisongyanci……shitaanpaide？！shitaqinshoubawotuiruhuohai，zaijiaxingxingdibawocongfeixuliwachulai，