凌楚思。
kanjianzheigemingzi，shenxungengzheng，meixindouqingqingcuqi。
“qingwennishitangxiaojiede……？”
jixiaobaiyuqipingdan：“woshitazhangfu。”
“丈夫？”
shenxunxiangqicongshizhizhongdouduzilaikanzhendelingchusi，bujinyouxiehuaiyi：“buhaoyisi，qingwennizenmezhengmingnishibingrendezhangfu？”
jixiaobaiyiyanbufa，xiangshizaoliaodaotahuizheiyangwen，jiangjiehunzhengnalechulaifangzailezhuoshang。
shenxunnaqijiehunzhengfankai，gangyinbushijiade。
tayandiquehuaguoyimofuza，zhuanshunjishi，jixiaobaimeikandao。
shenxunjiangjiehunzhengfangxia，shizhijiaochadizaixiaheqian：“neiguxiansheng，nixianglejieshenme？”
jixiaobaimeijizhehuida，ershixianxiaoxinyiyidishouhaolejiehunzheng，neirenzhendeshense，fangfopengzhedeshishijieshangzuizhenguidedongxi。
shenxunjiangtadedongzuojinshouyandi，chunbuzijueqingminlexia。
“shenyishengsihujixinghenhao，zheimejiuhaijidewoqizi。”jixiaobaizhongxintaimou。
tadeyuqihenpinghe，keshenxunhaishicongzhongtingchulehanyi。
tazhendingyingdui：“meiyigelaikanbingdehuanzhewodouhuijide，yinweiyaoshikeguanzhutamendexinlizhuangtai，cainenggenghaodebangzhutamen。”
jixiaobaidiantou，buzhidaoshizhenxinle，haishibuzaiyi。
“neishenyishenghaijidewoqizishishenmeshihoulaikanbingdema？”
shenxunzheicihuixiangleyixia：“dagaizailiangsangeyuezhiqian，tangxiaojielaizhaowo，shuotajingchanghuizuoyixiehenqiguaidemeng。wojiantazhuangtaibudui，suoyijitazuoleceshihejiancha。”
“zhenduanjieguoruwosuoliaoshiyiyuzheng，danshibiwoxiangxiangdegengyanzhong，yijingshizhongduyiyuzheng。”
jixiaobaifangzaizhuoxiadeshouzhouranshoujin：“neiweishenmeyiyuanbutongzhijiashu？”
shenxunduishangtadeshuangyan：“wozaigaozhitangxiaojiebingqingshi，jiuzhufutayaotongzhijiashu，zuihaorangjiashupeitongtayiqilaiyiyuan，danshitadangshijiwodehuidashi……”
“她没有家人。”
xiangshiqingtianpilizazainaodaishang，jixiaobaihuxizhizhu，yanqianheileyishun。
没有家人。
liangsangeyueqian，zhenghaoshilingchusifumulihun，ertayehetatichuyaofenkaideshihou。
neishideta，dequeshimeiyourenkeyiyikao。
xinlibeikuijiuyanmei，jixiaobaichuixiayanmou，chunjinjinminchengtiaoxian。
shenxunyishunbushundikanzheta，quebingbujuedetakelian。
“guxiansheng，wohenxiangzhidao，weishenmenishenweihuanzhedezhangfu，queshizhongmeiyoufaxiantadezhuangtaichajingdaoxuyaokanyishengdedibu？”
jixiaobaiyizheng，xiayishixianghuidashiyinweizijitaimang。
kehuadaolezuibian，youbeiyanxiaqu。
yinweitazhidao，neigenbenjiushitajizijizhaodejiekou，erbushitahushilingchusideliyou！
zhenliaoshizhongzhangjiudechenmo。
banshang，shenxundanshengkaikou：“guxiansheng，tangxiaojieshigehenshanliangderen，tadeliquwohenwanxi。”
“danzuoweihushita，congerdaozhizheigeehaodeni，bupeikuijiu。”
yuanlaiziji，liankuijiudoubupei！
congshiqulingchusikaishi，wushugerenduijixiaobaishuoguoqingjieai。
danrucizhibaizhichutazuiniederen，shenxunshidiyige。
jixiaobaibuzhidaozijishizenmelikaiyiyuande。
tahuidaojia，tuirandizuozaishafashang，neixinyipianbeiliang。
weishenmetenglezheimeduoci，tenglezheimejiu，xinzanghaishimeiyoumamu？
huoxuzheishilaotianjitadechengfa，rangtazaiyuxiaderizilizhishengtongku。
jijingzhong，shoujituranyizhen。
shigumu：“ayan，nizheiliangtianganjuehaihaoma？”
“tinghaode。”zheishihuanghua。
jixiaobaidaozaishafashang，yanjingdingzhetianhuabanshishen，yuqipingdan：“ma，wozhendemeishi，mingtianjiuhuixuexiaole，biedanxinwo。”
gumutingtadeshengyinzhengchang，songlekouqi：“nihuidaoshenghuozhenggui，majiufangxinle。ayan，ningningyaoshikandaonizheiyang，yehuikaixinde。”
开心？
jixiaobaichelechezuijiao，luchuyimozichaodexiao。
jiushitaqinshouzaochenglezheiyiqie，tadebukaixin，caidoushiyinweita。
guaduandianhua，jixiaobaituchuzhangzhangyikouqi。
haiyouliugeyue，tajiusanshiyisuile。
zugoutaanpaihaoyiqie，ranhouquzhaolingchusile。
daoshihou，zailingyigeshijie，tahuihaohaomibuta。
……
一晃，三个月过去。
shanghaidaxue，xiaozhangbangongshi。
xiaozhanglianseningzhongdikanzhemianqiandejixiaobai，shoulidegangbizhuanleyouzhuan。
“ayana，nizhidaoxianzaiyouduoshaoxueshengjipoletouxianggenzainishoulima？nixianzaikeshixuexiaolizuizhishoukeredelaoshi，wokeyigennibaozhengdaoniandijiujinishengjiaoshou，nizenmejiufeiyaocizhini？”
jixiaobaichuizheyanjie，chuangwaideyangguangzhaojinlailuozaishangmian，jincancande。
dantashensequeshidanmode，eryuqiyijiupinghuan：“xiaozhang，wohenganxienindezhongyong，danwoyijingxiangqingchule，ninbubizaiquanle。”
“wohaiyou……gengzhongyaodeshiyaoquzuo。”
xiaozhangjiantashizhendemeiyougaibianxinsideyisi，tanlekouqi：“haoba，jirannizhiyiyaozou，woqiangliuniyebuhao。”
tabakaigangbimao，zaicizhixinshangqianlemingzi。
qianwandiguoqu，xiaozhanghaishishuoleju：“ayana，niyaoshishenmeshihouxianghuixuexiaole，jiuhewoshuo，zheilisuishihuanyingnihuilai。”
jixiaobaiweiweihanshou：“xiexiexiaozhang。”
gangzoudaotingchechangshangleche，shoujixiangqi。
pingmushangshandongzhe“wulvshi”demingzi。
“guxiansheng，niyaowobandeshiqingdoubanhaole，zhiyaoguolaiqiangezijiuxing。”
jixiaobaidiyinglesheng：“ng，wozhidaole。”
gangguaduan，gumuyoudalaidianhua：“ayan，zhongwuhuijiachifanba，marangrenzuolenixihuanchidecai。”
“好。”
zhongwushierdian，jixiaobaihuidaolaozhai。
gangtuikaimenzoujinketing，jiukanjianshafashangzuozhegufugumu，haiyougehenpiaoliangdenvren。
yishunjian，jixiaobaijiumingbaiweishenmegumujinwanyaohantahuilaichifan。
tameiyouyikeyouyu，zhuanguoshenjiuyaozou。
“阿衍，你站住！”
jixiaobaitingxiajiaobu，quemeiyouhuitou。
gumubaoqiandiduinvrenxiaoxiao，qishenlazhutadeshoubei：“ayan，niganghuilai，yaoqunaer？”
“huijia。”jixiaobaimiansedanmo。
“zenme，zheilijiubushinidejiale？”gumuzhouqimei，youxieshengqi。
jixiaobaiyueguotakanxiangneigenvren。
“ruguonimenxiangyaolingyigeerxi，neijiubushiwodejia。”
zuozaigujiaketingshafalidesuyahunshenyijiang。
tazaozailaizhiqianjiuhuiliaodaojixiaobaidefanying，quehaishixincunjiaoxing，xiangzhegufugumudouzai，jixiaobaibuzhiyuhuizuodeneimeguofen。
kedaodi，haishitadiguleta。
jixiaobaishuowanneijuhua，gumujiulengzaileyuandi。
tazhidaozheiyangzuokenenghuiredetalijiabugaoxing，danmeixiangdaohuizheimebugaoxing。
youxiangqizheijigeyuetadezhuangtai，gumufangruanleyuqi：“ayan，zheishinisubobojiadenver，jiushidaozanmenjialaichifan，meiyoubiedeyisi。”
jixiaobaibushuohua，danyezhanzaiyuandibudong。
suyaganjuezijidecunzaitebietuwu，erqieganga。
tazhanqishen，xiaolexiao：“gulaoshi，shiwojintianlaidebushishihou，woxianzouba。”
“buyong。”jixiaobaichushenglantingtadedongzuo，“wohaiyoushi，niliuxialaiba，”
shuowan，tazhuanshenkanxianggumu：“haiyouma，ninbuyongzaifeixinsi，wobuhuizaihunde。”
gumudexinsibeichuopo，haishirenbuzhuyuzhongxinzhangdao：“ayan，nihainianqing，nixuyaoyigejiating，nandaoniyaoguduzhonglaoma？”
jixiaobaixiangdoumeixiangjiushuo：“woyigerenguodehenhao，erqiewoyouqizi，tajiaolingchusi。”
hualuo，taweiweihanshousuanshicibie，zhuanshenzouchulelaozhai。
ercongshizhizhong，jixiaobaidoumeiyoukansuyayiyan。
suyaliansecangbai，zuichunshangdekouhongdoubeiyaodiaoyikuai。
guoqulezhengzhengsangeyue，weishenmetadexinlihaishizhiyoulingchusi？
yigesiren，pingshenmezhanzhetaaiderenzheimejiu？！
suyahuanhuanzuanjinchuizaishencedeshou，yandihuaguoyimohenli。
likailaozhai，jixiaobaizaijieshangmanwumudedikaizheche。
tabuxianghuizijijia，queyemeiyoudifangkeyiqu。
zuihoujixiaobaibachetingzailubian，xialecheyanzhejiedaozou。
jintianwuyishigehaotianqi，canlandeyangguangtouguolubianwutongshudeyezilouxialai，xixishushude。
lushangxingrenhenduo，bumianyoujiduibingjianerxingdeqinglv。
jixiaobaicongtamenzhongjianzouguo，mianwubiaoqing，kexinliquexiangqilingchusi。
liangrenjiehunbanian，sihudoumeiyouzheiyangguangguojie，tamendoutaimangle。
danzhuyaomangderen，haishijixiaobai。
taxiangzhexiangzhejiuchuleshen，dengturanhuishenshi，yijingbuzhidaozoudaonatiaojieshanglaile。
ertademianqian，shiyijiazhanlanguan，zhengzaizhanchuyichangsheyingzhan。
menkoudejudahaibaocaiyongheihongsediao，sangebaisedazihengguanqizhong，“beizhongxi”——wushimingyiyuzhenghuanzhederichangzhuangtai。
抑郁症。
zheisangezirangjixiaobaineixinyizhen，tashunjianjiuxiangqilelingchusidebingli。
guishishenchade，tamailepiao，zoujinlezhanlanguan。
rangjixiaobaichuhuyiliaodeshi，zhanlanguanzhongdesediaobingbuyayi，fanercaiyonglefensehebaise，jirenyizhongqingsongdefenwei。
eryayidequeshineixiezuopin。
huanxingzoulangliangbiandeqiangbishangguamanlerenxiangzuopin，youdeyanshenkongdong，youdemianwubiaoqing。
yiluzoudaojintoudeyuanxingdating，jixiaobaixinqingchenzhong。
datingdeqiangshangyijiushineixiezhaopian，weiduzhongjianneifuzhaopianshangderen，zaixiao。
jixiaobaitaimoukanqu，quezaikanqingneirenmianrongshihunshenyijiang，ruzhuibingjiao！
tasisididingzheneizhangzhaopian，xinzangyuetiaoyuekuai，zaixiongqiangzhongruleibanzhenxiang。
不……不可能！
怎么会是她？！