"gujingshen，wohuaiyunle。"wokanzheyanyunbangshangdeliangdaogang，xintiaorulei。"dadiao。"tatouyebutai，"shiyukuaihuiguole。"neiyikewocaimingbai，sanniandehunyin，wobuguoshigetishen。jiranruci，neijiubieguaiwobukeqile。
yanyunbangshangxianhongdeliangdaogangxiangshizaichaoxiaowodeyuchun。
wozhanzaiweishengjianli，shoudoudejihuwobuzhuzheigenxiaoxiaodesuliaobang。sannianle，wozhongyuhuaishanglegujingshendehaizi。
tuikaiweishengjiandemen，gujingshenzhengzuozaishafashangchuliwenjian，xizhuangbiting，celianwanmeidexiangdiaosu。jishijiehunsannian，tayiranrangwoxintiaojiasu。
"jingshen。"woshenxiyikouqi，zoudaotamianqian，"woyoushiyaogaosuni。"
tatouyemeitai，xiuzhangdeshouzhizaijianpanshangfeikuaiqiaojizhe："shuo。"
"我怀孕了。"
手指停在了键盘上。
jingmolesanmiao，tataiqitoukanxiangwo，neishuangshensuideyanjinglimeiyouwoqidaidejingxi，zhiyouyipianbingleng。
"多久了？"
"gangcechulai，yinggaiyouyigeyuele。"woxiaoxinyiyidishuo，"shangcinihuilai..."
"打掉。"
lianggezirutongliren，shunjiancichuanlewodexinzang。
"shenme？"woyiweizijitingcuole。
gujingshenzhongxindixiatou，jixugongzuo，fangfogangcaishuodebushiwomendehaizi，ershijintiandetianqi："shiyukuaihuiguole，wobuxiwangjiewaishengzhi。"
林诗雨。
又是林诗雨。
zheigemingzixiangmozhouyiyang，sannianlaiwushucicongtazuilishuochu，meiyicidounengqingyidijiangwodarudiyu。
"zheishiwomendehaizi。"wonulibaochishengyindepingjing，"jingshen，womenjiehunsannianle，nandaonibuxiangyaoyigehaizima？"
tazhongyutingxialeshouzhongdegongzuo，taitoukanzhewo。neishuangyanjingshendekanbudaodi，quelengderangrenzhixi。
"suwanwan，nigaibuhuiyiwei，youlehaiziwojiuhuiaishangniba？"
zheijuhuabigangcaide"dadiao"gengjiacanren。
woganjuexueyeningguzaixueguanli，shoujiaobingliang。
"woconglaimeiyouzheiyangxiangguo。"wosahuangle，"wozhishijuede，jiranhuaishangle，jiushengxialaiba。"
"buxing。"tazhanqishen，zoudaoluodichuangqian，"mingtianworangsijisongniquyiyuan。"
"我不去。"
tazhuanguoshen，yanzhongshanguoyisibuyue："suwanwan，bierangwoyongqiangde。"
"nigan？"woyezhanleqilai，"gujingshen，zheishiwodeshenti，wodehaizi，nimeiyouquanlijuedingtadeshengsi！"
"meiyouquanli？"talengxiao，"biewangle，nixianzaiyongdemeiyiyangdongxi，zhudefangzi，chuandeyifu，baokuoniduzilidehaizi，doushiwojide。"
zheihuashuodewowudizirong。
queshi，wosuwanwanbuguoshigeputongrenjiadenver，nengjiajihaomenjichengrengujingshen，yijingshitiandadexingyun。keshizheifenxingyun，weishenmeganjuexiangshizuzhou？
"hao。"wocalecayanjiaodeleizhu，"woqu。"
tamanyididiandiantou，zhongxinzuohuishafa："guai，shiyuhuilaihou，wohuibuchangnide。"
补偿。
tazongshiyongzheigecilaianweiwo。dangtashenyebuguishi，dangtajielinshiyudianhuashi，dangtazaiwomendejiehunjinianripeitakandianyingshi，tazongshuohuibuchangwo。
kewoyaodeconglaibushibuchang，woyaodezhishitanengzhenxinaiwoyici，napazhiyouyici。
"woleile，xianshanglouxiuxi。"
wozhuanshenshanglou，meiyibudouzoudexiaoxinyiyi，shengpajingraoleduzilidexiaoshengming。
huidaowoshi，woguanshangmen，kaozaimenbanshangwushengdikuqi。
sannianqiandeneigeyewanyoufuxianzaiyanqian。
wozaijiubabeirenxiayao，mimihuhuzhongbeiyigenanrenjiule。xinglaishi，faxianzijitangzaimoshengdechuangshang，shenbianshuizheyigejunmeidebuxianghuadenanren。
neigenanrenjiushigujingshen。
tahenshenshi，meiyouchenrenzhiwei，shenzhizaiwoxinglaihouzhudongdaoqian，shuozuowanshenmedoumeifasheng。keshiwodejiarenbuxin，naodaolegujia，yaoqiutafuze。
jiuzheiyang，woxilihutudijiajinlehaomen。
xinhundiyiye，tabaozhewoshuo："wanwan，wohuinuliaishangnide。"
neishihouwoyiweizijishishijieshangzuixingfudenvren。
kehenkuaiwojiufaxian，takouzhongdenuli，buguoshiduiwodejibenzunzhongbale。tacongbuzaiwomianqiantiqilinshiyu，danwozhidao，taxinlizhuzhedeyongyuanshita。
linshiyushitadeqingmeizhuma，liangrencongxiaoyiqizhangda，bengaijiehunde。keshijiuzaidinghunqianyigeyue，linshiyuturanchuguoliuxue，liyoushibuxiangzheimezaojiehun。
gujingshendengletaliangnian，denglaidequeshiwoyiwaichuangrutadeshenghuo。
手机突然响了。
wonaqilaiyikan，shiguimixukexin。
"wanwan，wogangcongjichanghuilai，nicaiwokandaosheile？"xukexindeshengyinhenxingfen。
"谁？"
"linshiyu！tazhendehuiguole，erqiekanqilaiqisehenhao，bichuguoqianhaipiaoliang。"
wodexinyichen："tahuilaile？"
"shia，wohaitingshuotazheicihuilaishiyaojieshoulinshidehaiwaiyewu，kanlaishiyaozhangqidingjule。"xukexindunledun，"wanwan，nimeishiba？"
"womeishi。"wonulirangshengyintingqilaizhengchang，"kexin，wowenniyigewenti。"
"什么？"
"ruguoyigenanrenrangnidadiaotadehaizi，nihuizenmeban？"
dianhuaneitouanjinglejimiao，ranhouxukexindeshengyinbiandejiqie："wanwan，nihuaiyunle？jingshenrangnidadiao？"
"嗯。"
"zheigewangbadan！"xukexinmaleyiju，"wanwan，nibunengtingtade。haizishiwugude，erqiezheiyexushiniweiyidejihuile。"
"什么机会？"
"rangtachediaishangnidejihui。nanrendoushizheiyang，debudaodeyongyuanzaisaodong，nitaihaoshuohuale，suoyitabuzhenxi。"
wokuxiao："kexin，nixiangduole。taxinlizhiyoulinshiyu。"
"neiyouzenmeyang？linshiyuchuguosannian，nipeiletasannian。lunganqingjichu，nibujiandebitacha。"xukexinrenzhendishuo，"wanwan，niyaoyouxinxin。erqiexianzainihuaiyunle，zheishinideyoushi。"
gualedianhua，womozhehaihenpingtandexiaofu，xianrulechensi。
xukexinshuodedui，zheigehaiziyexuzhendeshiwozuihoudejihui。
ruguowojiuzheiyangtinghuadiquyiyuan，neimedenglinshiyuhuilaihou，wozaizheigejialijiuchedimeiyoulizuzhidile。
danruguowojianchishengxiazheigehaizi...
zhengxiangzhe，woshidemenbeituikaile。
gujingshenzoulejinlai，shoulinazheyizhangyinxingka。
"zheiliyouwubaiwan，suanshibuchang。"tabakafangzaichuangtoujushang，"mingtiandeshoushuwoyijinganpaihaole，zuihaodeyisheng，buhuiyouweixian。"
wokanzheneizhangyinxingka，xinliyongqiyizhenbeiliang。
wubaiwan，maiwoduziliyigeyuedadetaier。
"如果我说不呢？"
tazhoulezhoumei："wanwan，bierenxing。"
"wobushirenxing，woshirenzhende。"wozuoqishen，kanzheta，"gujingshen，wobuhuiquyiyuande。"
"ni..."tadeliansechenlexialai，"suwanwan，nizhidaozijizaishuoshenmema？"
"wohenqingxing。"wozhanqishen，zoudaotamianqian，"zheishiwodehaizi，yeshinidehaizi。woyouquanlijuedingtadequliu。"
"wokeyijinigengduodeqian。"
"我不要钱。"
"那你要什么？"
wokanzhetashensuideyanjing，xintiaorulei："woyaoniaiwo。"
huayichukou，wojiuhouhuile。
zheitaibeiweile，beiweidaolianwozijidoujuedekexiao。
guoran，gujingshendeyanzhongshanguoyisichaofeng："suwanwan，nihaishineimetianzhen。"
"wozhidaonijuedewotianzhen，juedewobuziliangli。"woshenxiyikouqi，"danshigujingshen，wogaosuni，zheigehaiziwoshengdingle。jiusuanniyongqiangde，woyehuipinsibaohuta。"
takanzhewo，neishuangyanjinglideqingxufuzaderangwokanbudong。
"hao。"zuizhong，tashuochulezheigezi，"danshibiehouhui。"
shuowan，tazhuanshenlikailewoshi。
wotingdaolouxiachuanlaiqichefadongdeshengyin，zhidaotayouyaochuquzhaolinshiyule。
shoujishangxianshideshijianshiwanshangjiudian。
linshiyuhuiguodediyitian，gujingshenjiupobujidaidiqujiantale。
womozheduzi，qingshengshuo："baobao，mamayidinghuibaohunide。buguanbabazenmexiang，mamadouhuiaini。"
keshiwodexinliqueyongqiyizhenbuan。
gujingshenzuihouneiju"biehouhui"，tingqilaigengxiangshiweixie。
tahuiyongshenmeshouduanbiwojiufanni？
zhengxiangzhe，shoujiyouxiangle。
这次是个陌生号码。
"喂？"
"qingwenshisuwanwannvshima？"duifangshigenvrendeshengyin，hentianmei。
"是的，您是？"
"我是林诗雨。"
wodeshouyidou，chadianbashoujizhidaodishang。
"lin**，nihao。"wonulirangshengyintingqilaizhengchang。
"su**，woganghuiguo，xiangqingnichulaijiangemian，keyima？"
wodexintiaodehenkuai："shenmeshihou？"
"xianzai，ruguonifangbiandehua。"
现在？
wokanlekanshijian，yijingshiwanshangjiudianbanle。
"haode，zainalijianmian？"
"jinmaodashalouxiadekafeiting，wozaidengni。"
gualedianhua，wokanzhejingzizhongdeziji。
sumianchaotian，chuanzhejiandandejujiafu，toufayeyouxielingluan。zaikankanshoujililinshiyudezhaopian，jingzhidezhuangrong，youyadeqizhi，angguideyifu。
womenzhijiandechaju，yimuleran。
danjirantazhudongyuewo，wojiuqujianjianzheigechuanshuozhongdebaiyueguang，kankantadaodixiangshuoshenme。