第5章

danwomeiliaodao,kunzailoutijianzheiwan,jiniannianjixiayanfalefengchenqingshu。

zizijuju,qingshenrugu。

shuxinshanghaojichushitou,zhanmantadeleihen。

“duibuqi,wobushiyigeyonggandemama,woganjuezijiyaochengbuxiaqule……”

“daodishiwoyoucuozaixian。ruguowomeiyouhuiguo,huoxuyiqiedoubuhuifasheng……”

“xiayange,kanzaiwodemianzishang,bieweinanzhiqiujie,gentahaohaoguoxiaqu!”

tingshuoxiayandangshizhengzaijinxingxinyilunrongzitanpan,shoudaoxinxi,zhijiepofang。

tazaihuiyishangsihou,paoxiaguoyiderongzixiangmu,buguzifangzenmekan,yiluchuanghongdengganhuilai。

yongjinrenliwuli,zhongyuzaizaigalajiaoluo,zhaodaoyishenshixuedejiniannian。

zaiwushuyuangongdeyilunshengzhong,taputongguilexialai,hunshenzhandou。

“woqiunile!zhiyaoniyuanyixingguolai,shenmemingli,shenmediwei,woshenmedoubuyaole!”

“nicaishiwodezhenggeshijie!”

“shishenzhiqiuneihaileniduibudui!fangxin,woyidingrangneigeshexienvrenfuchudaijia,buxiyiqie!”

wushumeitixiongyongganlai,zaiwushushanguangdengdezhuizhuxia,tabaoqijiniannian,jinjisongyi。

dangjizhezhuiwenshizheishifoushizongcaifuren。

tayanshenjianyi,“niannian,shiwoxiayanweiai。”

taxiangquanshijieguanxuan,jiniannian,shitadezhiai。

erwoshenzhiqiu,yigeshexienvren,zhipeilanzaidigouli。

比如现在。

shizuoyongzhezhengxingfudibeiwolaogongbaozaihuaili,beitadangzuozhenbaoyiyanghehuzhe。

erwodeshitibeipaodefuzhong,mianmukezeng,sheijianledouxianhuiqi。

季念念又开始善良:

“xiayange,woxiangzhiqiujieyinggaizhidaocuole,tabeirengzaigonglushangtingkeliande,nijiupairenbatajiehuilaiba。”

“zhiyao,zhiqiujiebiezaiwuhuilewomendeguanxijiuhao,woshizhendeshoubuzhu……”

xiayanxiuzhangdeshouzhichajintarouruandefasi。

“fangxin,tayihuilaiwojiulimasongzou,buhuizairangtawulenideyan!”

jiniannianbishangyanjing,shufudeyingningyisheng。

kanzhexiongmeiqingshendemoyang,woyizhenfanexin,nanshoudehen。

yuanlairensile,haihuiyouzheimeduoqingxu。

jiuliantongkudoubuhuijianshaoyifen。

wosidetaicanle,shenzhidoubuyuanquhuiyi。

qishiwoshiyoujihuitaolide。

woshiguojiayijiyundongyuan,saichangshangdechangshengguanjun。

wotinenghenhao,shixiayanbaworengxiaqian,nongduanlewodeshoujiaojiaojin。

zaijiashanggangliuchan,shentihaizaichuxue,haowudikangzhili。

mingxuanyixianshi,wodajixiayandedianhua,jietongle。

……

neibianzhakaitajiqibunaideshengyin:

“haixiangjiaobianshenme?yaobushiniannianweiniqiuqing,wojuebuhuizheiyangqingraoleni!”

jiniannianjiaoroudeshengyinchuanlai:

“ayange,woduziteng,shibushibaobaozainao,nikankan。”

dengbujiwoqiujiu,xiayanlijiguadiaodianhua。

zaijizhixuexingzhong,beinveshazhisi。

kexiao,siqianzuihouyike,jingranhaizaijianzhengzheiduigantiandongdidexiongmeizhiqing。

yaobushilianribaoyu,gonglukuata,wodeshitibeichongjinxiashuidao。

doubuzhidaoshenmeshihou,wodeshiticainengzhongjiantianri。

gengkexiaodeshi,jiwoyanshide,jingranshixiayan。

erta,jingranrenbuchuzijitongchuanggongzhenshuniandeqizi。

youjideduonianqian,wochanzhexiayanpeiwoguangjie,zhishizairenqunzhongjiandaoyigeshuxidebeiying,tajiuxiangshilezhi,zhuichulejitiaojie。

jiniannianyijingchuguohaojinianle,keshizhishijifenxiangsideshenying,jiurangtakuibuchengjun。

guoran,zheijiushiaihebuaidequbiea!

我心中悲凉之极。

但我毫无办法。

wosile,shenzhihaiyaobeifuzhejidujiniannian、yanwusongyidezuiming。

zheigezuiming,huikunbangzheshenzhiqiudemingzi,zaixiayanxinlimingjiyibeizi。

yexu,zheiyeshiyizhongnieyuanba。

我无能为力。