第一章丧子之痛
京都，西山墓园。
binglengdeyushuilengzhuibanhenhenzazaizhanxindemubeishang。
shinuanshihunluopodequansuozainituli，danbodequnzishitou，ketaquemamutongkudeganjuebudaoleng。
turan，erbianxiangqiyidaoxingzailehuodenvsheng。
“wodehaomeimei，wojiuzhidaonizaizheier！”
tingdaoshengyin，shinuanmorantaitou。
jimizhiwai，tadeshuangbaotaijiejieshiyaozuozailunyishang，zaiheiyibaobiaodecuyongxiahuanhuanerlai，yiguandegaogaozaishang，zhongxingpengyuerugongzhu。
kandaoshiyaoneizhanggentayimoyiyangdelian，shinuanyanlishunjianyongshangtaotiankegudehen，henbudejiangyanqiandenvrenshengtunhuobo。
tabuguanbugudepushangqu，xianggenshiyaotongguiyujin，“shiyao！woshaleni！nizheigesharenxiongshou！nibawodehaizihaijiwo......”
tadehaizicaigangchushengbudaoyigeyue，zheigenvrenzenmexiadequshou！
ketaganggangshengchanwan，youjinglilesangzizhitong，shentizaojiubukanyiji。
haimeipengdaoshiyao，jiubeiheiyibaobiaolanzhulehenhendianjinlenituli！
heiyibaobiaohenhendichuaixiangtadexigai，bitaguizaileshiyaomianqian！
shiyaojugaolinxiapinizheta，niezhutadexiae，yangyangdeyidexiao，“nidehaizi？！neixiaoyezhongbushibeiniqinshouhaisilema？！”
cihuayichu，shinuanchedijuewang，“mingmingshini！nicaishisharenxiongshou！”
shiyaoxiaole，youshiwukongdao：“neiyouzenmeyang？meiyourenhuixinnide！yinweizaisuoyourenyanli，shiniweilelujiashaonainaideweizhidaduanlewodetui，bawoqiujinqilai，ranhoudingtiwodeshenfenjiajinlujia，haibuxihaisizijideqinshenggurouxiangyaojiahuojiwo！”
zheiyiziyizi，wanruodaozizaijiaoshinuandexin。
shinuanfennuyaotou，“bushide，shiqingmingmingbushizheiyangde！mingmingshinijiahuojiwode！”
dangchushijialujiadehunyue，yuanbenjiaguoquderengaishitazheiweishuangbaotaijiejieshiyao，keshishiyaobunengshengyu，bianyisixiangbibitatijia，bitatitamenshengyigehaizi。
ketameixiangdao，dongchuangshifa，emenglaideneimekuai！
tashengwanhaizi，shiyaoquedaodayipa，basuoyoudeyiqiequandoujiahuodaotashenshang，haihaisiletadeerzi！
tabeitongzhiwen，“weishenmeyaozheimeduiwo！”
shiyaoqingmiewangzheshinuan，xiaole，“yinweiwohouhuile......yixiangdaoneixiaoyezhongshinigenqingxiaoshengde，wojiuhenbudejiangneixiaoyezhongsisuileweigou！wocaishilujiazhenzhengdeshaonainai，pingshenmeyaojinizheigexiangxiazhangdadetubieyanghaizi？！”
“dangchuruobushiweilerangnitijia，niyiweinihainenghuishijia？！”
“dangniankeshiwoguyibanidaiquhuangjiaoyeling，rangnizhaobudaohuijiadelude！zheiyici，zhiyounisile，wodemimicaibuhuibeirenzhidao！”
wenyan，shinuannanyizhixin，cangbaizheliantaitou，“nishuoshenme？！”
shiyaogaogaozaishang，xieelengxiao，“woshuoniqusiba！qugennishengdexiaoyezhongtuanjuba！”
shuozhe，shiyaolianseyibian，dunshiluoxialeilai，taputongyishengguidaozaidi，kaishileshengqingbingmaodebiaoyan，“meimei，woqiunile，nifangguowoba！nixiangyaolujiashaonainaideweizhiwojini......qiuni，qiunibuyaozaibawoguanqilai！”
“a......buyao！”
shinuanhaimeilaidejifanying，shiyaobianyishengjianjiao，shuaidaozaidi。
shinuanzhengzhengwangzheyanqiandeyimu，xindiyipiancigudebingleng。
果然——
luqingxiaobuzhiheshiyijingganlai，tayishenheisexizhuangshenzitingba，yinzhihenlideheimouzhongchongchizhefennudehuoyan，xiuzhangdeshouzhiqiazhetadebozibataanzaibaobaodemubeishang。
“shinuan！nihaiganshangshiyao！nishibushihaixianzijisidebugoukuai？”
shinuantengdesesuo，xintoujuewang，“qingxiao......womeiyou......nixinwo......”
taxiangyaojieshi，ketayijingshuobuchuhualai！
luqingxiaohenbudeqiasita，“nirangwoxinnishenme？！xinnimeiyoumaochongshiyaodeshenfenjiajiwo？haishixinnimeiyouhaisiwomendehaizi？”
ruguobushizhenzhengdeshiyaochuxian，tabukenengfaxian，zheigeguoquyiniangentatongchuanggongzhendenvrenjingshijiade。
zheigenvrenweilelujiashaonainaideweizhishanghaishiyao，qipianta！
buzeshouduan，beibi**！
tajingyizhibeimengzaiguli，jingduiyigenvpianzishengchuleganqing，hairangtaweitashenglehaizi！
xiangdaocansizaitadaoxiawugudehaizi。
luqingxiaofennu，qiheirumodeyanjingxiongyongzheanchao，“nizheigehendudeguizishou！wohuirangniweinidesuozuosuowei，fuchudaijia！”
shinuanpaqilaixiangyaoqulaluqingxiaodeyifu，xiangjieshi，“bu，zhendebushiwo......”
“闭嘴！”
luqingxiaohunshenchongchizhexuesedeliqi，yibajiangtashuaichuqu，“nongsiniwoxianzang，sharenchangming，woyijingbaolejing！nizheixieguihua，wozaibuxiangting！”
啊！
shinuancanbaibukandeshenzi，shunzheshibangunxiaqu！
luqingxiaojugaolinxiawangzhetazhuiluo，binglengrushuangdeyandimeiyoubanfenbodong，zhuanshentouyebuhuibaozheshiyaoliqu！
fengyujiaojia，binglengcigu！
shinuanhunshendoubeishuaisui，tangzaixueboli，tayidongdoudongbule！
tabuxiangsi，yebunengsia！
tabunengjiurangtadeerzizheimebaibaisiqu。
zhidao，erbianchuanlaijingdisheng。
jingchagongshigongbandeshengyinxiangqi，“shixiaojie，nibeidaibule，yourenbaojingnishexianfeifaqiujin，guyisharen！”