xinhunye，woneisiguoyihuidezhangfu，quanjunzuinianqingyouweidetuanzhangguzhanghe，junzhuangbitingdizhanzaichuangqian，
yanshenbingleng。taqiazhewodexiaba，meigezidoudaizhebingchazi：“shenwanqiu，bieyiweishuashouduanhuaishangwodezhong，
jiunenggaozhenwuyou。woguzhanghedeqizi，zhihuishisuxue。”woquelanlandigouzhutadelingdai，wangxiayizhuai，
wenredeqixifuguotadeerkuo，“gutuanzhang，fengda，bieshanleshetou。xianzai，woshiniweiyidehefaqizi。
zhiyusuxue……tachuidehaifeng，kechuibushangzanmenzheixueshanding。”nanrenyanlidefengbaojihuyaojiangwotunshi，
ketabuzhidao，wozheijushentili，zaojiuhuanlegexinzi。woshicongmoshixuehailipachulaideegui，
ertaneiduochunjiewuxiadebailianhua，caishiwozhenzhengdeliewu。01“shenwanqiu，nizhenrangrenexin。
”guzhanghededashouxiangtieqianyiyangezhuwodehoulong，jiangwozhongzhongdidizaicucaodeqiangbishang，hounaoshaozhuangdeshengteng。
taxinghongdeshuangyanmanshiyaneyushayi，fangfowobushitadexinhunqizi，ershitadeshengsichoudi。
“nijiuzheimepobujidai？yongzheimexiazuodeshouduanpashangwodechuang，bizouxiaoxue，nimanyile？
”wofeilidihuxizhe，feibudekongqiyuelaiyuexibo，yanqianzhenzhenfahei。kewopianbuqiurao，fanerxiaoleqilai，
taishoufushangtajinbengdexiaexian，zhijianqingqinghuaguotahoujieshangneidaoqianqiandebahen，“gutuanzhang，fankeyiluanchi，
huakebunengluanshuo。mingmingshinijiuhouluanxing，feiyaolazhewo……xianzaidaochenglewodebushi？
”guzhangheyanzhongdenuhuogengsheng，shoushangdelidaoyoujiazhonglejifen。
jiuzaiwoyiweizijiyaodiercisizaizheigenanrenshoushangshi，menwaichuanlaijicudeqiaomensheng。“tuanzhang，chushile！
suxuetongzhizaixunlianchangyundaole，weishengduishuo……shuoshihuaiyunle！”“kuangdang”yisheng，guzhanghesongkailewo，
yanlideshayishunjianbeihuangluanqudai。tashenzhilaibujiduokanwoyiyan，zhuanshenjiuchonglechuqu。wofuzheqiang，
dakoudakoudichuanzheqi，houlong**laditeng。tingzhetayuanqudejiaobusheng，wozuijiaodexiaoyiyuelaiyueleng。suxue，
wodehaobiaojie。shangyishi，jiushita，zaiwobeiguzhanghewuhuituixiashanya，yanyanyixideshihou，
xiaozheduiwoshuo：“wanqiu，bieguaiwo。zhangheshirenzhonglongfeng，zhiyouwocaipeideshangta。niduzilidehaizi，
jiudangshiweiwopulule。”yuanlai，wocaishineigebeisuanjideshazi。guzhanghexinlizhiyoutadebaiyueguangsuxue，
duiwozheigebeiyingsaiguolaideqiziyanezhiji。ersuxue，zeyibianxiangshouzheguzhanghedeaimu，
yibianshejirangwo“yiwai”siwang，haoshunlichengzhangdichengweigufuren。zhonghuoyishi，wozenmekenengrangnimendecheng？
womantiaosilidizhenglileyixiabeitacheluandeyiling，zoudaozhuobian，daolebeishuiyiyinerjin。guzhanghe，suxue，
zheichangyouxi，caiganggangkaishi。wohuanleshenganjingdeyifu，kanzhejingzilineizhangcangbaiquenanyanjuesedelian，
yanshenjianding。zheizhangliandezhuren，shenwanqiu，congxiaozaixiangxiazhangda，danxiaonuoruo，beijiedaochenglihou，
duijunguanguzhangheyijianzhongqing。weilejiajita，buxitingcongbiaojiesuxuede“jimou”，
zaiguzhanghedejiulixialeyao。jieguo，jimouchenggongle，tayechenglezhenggejunqudayuandexiaohua。xinhunzhiye，
zhangfucheyeweigui，diertianjiuchuanchutahebiaojiesuxuede“yingxiongjiumei”shiji，
zuoshiletashenwanqiushigebuzhilianchidedisanzhe。zuizhong，tazaiwujindexiuruhejuewangzhong，beisuxuetuixiashanya，
yishiliangming。erwo，yigelaizimoshi，zaisangshiduilimopagundaleshiniandelinghun，qiahaozhanjulezheijushenti。
yuanzhudechou，wolaibao。yuanzhushouderu，woqianbeibaibeidihaihuiqu！wozouchufangmen，
yuanzilideyangguangyouxieciyan。jigejunsaozhengjuzaiyiqiqieqiesiyu，kandaowochulai，liketoulaibiyidemuguang。
“yo，zheibushishenwanqiuma？zenmehaiyoulianchumena？”“jiushi，yongneizhongxiasanlandeshouduanjiajigutuanzhang，
xianzairenjiazhengzhueryihuilai，kantazenmeban。”“wotingshuosuxueyehuaiyunle，zheixiakeyouhaoxikanle！
”wolidoumeilitamen，jingzhichaozheweishengduidefangxiangzouqu。gangdaomenkou，
jiutingdaolimianchuanlaisuxuerouruodekuqisheng。“zhanghe，douguaiwo……wobugaihuilai。wozaogaizhidao，
wanqiutaneimexihuanni，kendingrongbuxiawo……”“xiaoxue，nibiezheimeshuo，shiwoduibuqini。
”guzhanghedeshengyinlimanshixintenghekuijiu，“nifangxin，womashangjiugenshenwanqiulihun，quniguomen！
nihehaizi，wodouhuifuzedaodi！”**zaimenkuangshang，lengxiaoyisheng，taishouqiaoleqiaomen。“gutuanzhang，
shuozheihua，jingguowotongyilema？”02wuneideliangrenqishuashuadichaowokanlai。
guzhanghedeyanshenxiangshiyaojiangwolingchi，ersuxue，zeshiyiliandejinghuangshicuo，fangfoyizhishoujingdexiaolu，
yankuanghonghongde，chuchukelian。taxiayishidiwangguzhangheshenhousuolesuo，shengyindouzaifazhan：“wanqiu……ni，
nizenmelaile？”wozoujinbingfang，muguangzailiangrenshenshangzhuanleyiquan，zuihouluozaisuxuepingtandexiaofushang，
zuijiaogouqiyimoyiweishenzhangdexiao。“wozenmebunenglai？wolaikankanwoneiganghuaishangyundebiaojie，
shunbian……yelaitingtingwozhangfuyaozenmegenwolihun，qubiedenvrenguomen。”“shenwanqiu！
”guzhangheshangqianyibu，jiangsuxuehuzaishenhou，baichuyifubaohuzhedezitai，“ninaogoulemeiyou！
xiaoxueshentibuhao，nibiezaizhei**ta！”“wo**ta？”woxiangshitingdaoletiandadexiaohua，“gutuanzhang，
nigaogaoqingchu，wocaishinibataidajiaoquhuilaidehefaqizi！nixianzaidangzhewodemian，
genbiedenvrenninongwonong，haishuoyaoquta，daodishisheizai**shei？”wodeshengyinbuda，
danmeigezidouzhidiyousheng。zhouweiyijingyouwenxunganlaideyishenghushihebingrenjiashu，duizhewomenzhizhidiandian。
guzhanghedelianseqingyizhenbaiyizhen，xianranmeixiangdaoyixiangweiweinuonuodewo，jintianhuirucilingyalichi。
tadagaiyiweiwohaihuixiangyiqianyiyang，zhihuikukutitidiqiutabuyaopaoqiwo。suxuelalelaguzhanghedeyijiao，
yanleixiangduanlexiandezhuzi，“zhanghe，nibieweilewogenwanqiuchaojiale……doushiwodecuo，
wobugaihuilai……wozheijiuzou……”shuozhe，tajiuyaoxiachuang。“zou？qunaera？”woduzaimenkou，
haozhengyixiadikanzheta，“biaojie，nixianzaikeshishuangshenzideren，wanyikezhepengzhe，wokedandaibuqi。
zaishuole，niduzilidehaizi，zongdeyougemingfenba？”suxuedeshentijiangzhule，qiuzhubandikanxiangguzhanghe。
guzhangheshenxiyikouqi，xiangshixiadinglemouzhongjuexin，takanzhewo，yanshenlengyingrutie：“shenwanqiu，womenlihun。
fangziguini，womeigeyuezaijiniwushikuaiqianshenghuofei，zhidaonigaijiaweizhi。”zai1982nian，wushikuaiqian，
zuyirangyigeputongjiatingguoshangxiangdangfuyudeshenghuo。budebushuo，guzhangheweiletadebaiyueguang，
haizhenshishedexiaxueben。zhouweiderendoufachulechouqisheng，xianranyebeiguzhanghededashoubizhenjingle。
zaitamenkanlai，woyigexiangxiayatou，nengpanshanggutuanzhangzheigengaozhiyijingshishaolegaoxiang，
xianzainengnadaozheimehaodetiaojianlihun，jianzhishizufenmaoqingyanle。suoyourendouyiweiwohuilikediantoudaying。
jiulianguzhanghe，yeshiyilian“wojilenitiandadeenhui，nigaiganendaide”debiaoqing。woquexiaole，
xiaodejianbangdouzaifadou。“lihun？keyia。”**cuililuodehuidarangsuoyourendoulengzhule。
guzhanghedemeitouzhouleqilai，xianranmeiliaodaowohuidayingdezheimeshuangkuai。woyingshangtademuguang，
yiziyijudishuodao：“danshi，woyouyigetiaojian。”“nishuo。”“woyaoni，guzhanghe，jingshenchuhu。
”cihuayichu，manshijiejing。suoyourendouyongkanfengziyiyangdeyanshenkanzhewo。jiuliansuxue，
yewangjilejixuzhuangkelian，dengdaleyanjing，yiliandebukezhixin。“shenwanqiu，nibuyaodecunjinchi！
”guzhanghedeliansechedichenlexialai，ejiaodeqingjintutuzhitiao。“decunjinchi？”wolengxiao，“gutuanzhang，
nigaohunwaiqing，rangxiaosanhuaileyun，xianzaiyaopaoqiwozheigeyuanpeiqizi。anzhaojunqudejilv，nicaicaikan，
nideqiantuhuizenmeyang？”wodunledun，manyidikandaotayanzhongshanguoyisihuangluan。
“woshenwanqiusuiranshigexiangxiayatou，danyezhidaojunhunshishoufalvbaohude。niguzhangheyaoshiganzaiwaimianluangao，
rangwobutongkuaile，wojiuganbazheijianshitongdaonishangjineiliqu！”“nigan！”“nikanwoganbugan。
”wotingzhileyaogan，haobuweijudiyutaduishi，“yaome，nijingshenchuhu，womenhaojuhaosan。yaome，
womenjiuyusiwangpo，sheiyebiexianghaoguo！”zhenggebingfangyaquewusheng，luozhenkewen。guzhanghesisididingzhewo，
neiyanshen，xiangshihenbudebawoshengtunhuobole。wozhidao，woduduile。xiangguzhanghezheiyangnianqingyouwei，
qiantuwuliangdejunguan，zuikanzhongdejiushizijidemingshengheqiantu。tajueduibugannazijideweilaizuoduzhu。liangjiu，
tacongyafenglijichulianggezi：“wojingshenchuhu。”03guzhanghedayingjingshenchuhudexiaoxixiangzhanglechibangyiyang，
yitianzhineijiuchuanbianlezhenggejunqudayuan。wo，shenwanqiu，yiyezhijiancongyigebeirenchixiaodeqifu，
bianchenglerenrenjingweide“henjiaose”。neixiecengjingduiwozhizhidiandiandejunsaomen，xianzaikandaowodouraodaozou，
shengparewobugaoxing，woyizhisuzhuanggaodaojunququ，huiletamenzhangfudeqiancheng。woledeqingjing。xiawu，
guzhanghejiudaizhetadedongxi，congzheigejialibanlechuqu，bandaolesuxuegebidedanshensushe。
fangzilikongdangdangde，daochudouhaicanliuzhetadeqixi，yizhonglengliede，xiangxueshandingshangsongbodeweidao。
kewodexinli，queqiansuoweiyoudepingjing。shangyishi，woaitaaidaochenaili，weileta，woyuanyifuchuyiqie，
baokuowodeshengming。kezuizhonghuanlaide，queshitahesuxuedelianshoubeipan。zheiyishi，wobuhuizaiaishangrenheren。
wozhixiangweiyuanzhu，yeweiwoziji，taohuiyigegongdao。bangwan，wozhengzaichufangzuofan，menbeirenqiaoxiangle。
wodakaimen，kandaoyigechuanzhejunzhuang，shenzitingbadenanrenzhanzaimenkou，tademaoyanyadehendi，kanbuqinglian，
danshoulitizheyigewangdou，limianzhuangzheyitiaohuobengluantiaodeyu。“saozi，gutuanzhangrangwojininsongtiaoyuguolai。
”nanrendeshengyindicheneryoucixing。woyouxieyiwai。guzhanghe？tahuizheimehaoxin？wojieguowangdou，
kanqinglelairendelian。jianmeixingmu，bilianggaoting，zuichunhenbo，pifushijiankangdexiaomaise。
zuiyinrenzhumudeshitadezuobianmeigushang，youyidaoqianqiandebahen，feidanmeiyoupohuaitadeyingjun，
fanerjitazengtianlejifenyexingdeweidao。shita，guzhangheshouxiazuidelideyingzhang，luyuan。shangyishi，wosihou，
shitabugusuoyourendefandui，zhiyiyaochamingwodesiyin，zuihoubeiguzhanghehesuxuelianshouxianhai，guanlejinbi，
qiantujinhui。tashigehaoren。“xiexieni，luyingzhang。”woduitaxiaolexiao，“jinlaihebeishuiba。
”luyuansihuyouxiejucu，bailebaishou，“bule，saozi，wo……wohaiyoushi。”shuowan，taxiangshitaoyiyang，
zhuanshenjiupaole。wokanzhetayouxieluohuangertaodebeiying，renbuzhuxiaole。zhenshigedanchundenanren。
wotizheyujinlechufang，xinqinginexplicablyhaoleqilai。jiexialaidejitian，
fengpinglangjing。guzhanghehesuxuesihuxiaoshengnijile，zaiyemeiyouchuxianzaiwomianqian。woledezizai，
meitianbajialidasaodeganganjingjing，ranhouquzhenshangdejishimaixiecai，yanjiuxindecaipu。moshishinian，
wochijinlekutou，duishiwuyouzhechaohuxunchangdezhinian。xianzainengyouzheiyangyigeanwendehuanjing，
rangwohaohaoxiangshoumeishi，woqiuzhibude。zheitian，wozhengzaiyuanzilishaibeizi，gebidewangshenzicouleguolai，
shenshenmimididuiwoshuo：“wanqiua，nitingshuolema？neigesuxue，haoxiang……haoxiangchushile。
”woshoushangdedongzuoyidun，“chushenmeshile？”“tingshuotaqianliangtianquweishengduijiancha，
yishengshuotagenbenjiumeihuaiyun！”wangshenziyadileshengyin，lianshangshiyanshibuzhudexingzailehuo，
“xianzaigutuanzhangzhenggentanaoni！zhenggedayuandouchuanbianle！”woxinzhonglengxiao。guoranbuchuwosuoliao。
suxuegenbenjiumeiyouhuaiyun。tazhisuoyijiazhuanghuaiyun，jiushiweilebiguzhanghegenwolihun。zhikexi，
taqiansuanwansuan，meisuandaowohuizhongsheng。gengmeisuandao，wogenbenjiubuzaihuguzhanghe。“zhei……zheizenmehuini？
”woguzuojingyadiwuzhulezui，“neigutuanzhangqibushibeitapianle？”“kebushima！”wangshenziyipaidatui，
“nanrena，jiushiyanxia！fangzhenizheimehaodexifubuyao，feiyaoquzhaoreneizhonghulijing！xianzaihaoleba，
beirenpiandetuantuanzhuan，zhenshihuogai！”wochuixiayanmou，yanquyandidejifeng。haoxi，haizaihoutouni。
wozhengxiangzhe，yuanmenkouchuanlaiyizhensaodong。wotaitouwangqu，zhijianguzhangheheizheyizhanglian，
dabuliuxingdichaowozoulai。ertadeshenhou，genzhekukutitidesuxue。tamenshenhou，
haigenzheyidaqunkanrenaodejunsao。kanlai，shilaizhaowosuanzhangle。womanyouyoudijiangbeizilianghao，
pailepaishoushangdehuichen，haozhengyixiadikanzheqishixiongxiongdeliangren。“gutuanzhang，zheimedadezhenzhang，
shilaichaiwofangzidema？”04guzhanghedeliansebiguodihaihei，tasanbubingzuoliangbuchongdaowomianqian，
yibazhuazhuwodeshouwan，lidaodadexiangshiyaojiangwodegutouniesui。“shenwanqiu，shibushinigaodegui？！
”tadeshengyinlichongmanleyayidefennu，fangfoyitoujijiangshikongdeyeshou。wotengdezhouqilemei，
danmianshangquesihaobuxian，fanerqingxiaochusheng：“gutuanzhang，wotingbudongnizaishuoshenme。shenmejiaowogaodegui？
wogaoleshenmegui？”“nihaizhuangsuan！”guzhangheyaoyaqiechi，“xiaoxuehuaiyundeshi，
shibushinichuanchuqudeyaoyan？！”“yaoyan？”woxiangshitingdaoleshenmetiandadexiaohua，“dangchuzaiweishengdui，
bushiniqinkoushuotahuaiyun，yaoduiwofuze，haiyaogenwolihunqutama？zenme，xianzaijiubianchengwozaoyaole？
zaichangdeyishenghushikedoutingjianle。”wohuanshileyiquanzhouweikanrenaodejunsaomen，tamenfenfendiantou，
biaoshiwosuoyanfeixu。guzhanghedeliansegengjianankanle。tadagaimeixiangdao，zijidangchudeyishichongdong，
huichengweixianzaidazijiliandezhengju。“wo……”tayishiyusai，jingbuzhidaogairuhefanbo。zheishi，
tashenhoudesuxueyoukaishifahuitadekanjiabenlingle。takudelihuadaiyu，yaoyaoyuzhui，
fangfoyizhenfengjiunengbatachuidao。“wanqiu，wozhidaonihenwo……nihenwoqiangzoulezhanghe……keshi，
nizenmenengyongzheimeedudefangfalaiwumiewoni？wo……woyihouhaizenmezuorena……”tayibianku，
yibiantouyankanguzhanghedefanying。guoran，guzhangheyanzhongdenuhuojianjianbeixintengqudai。tasongkaiwodeshou，
zhuanshenjiangsuxueloujinhuaili，roushenganweidao：“xiaoxue，nibiepa，youwoni。wobuhuirangrenherenqifuni。
”ranhou，tataiqitou，yongyizhongjiqishiwangheyanedeyanshenkanzhewo：“shenwanqiu，wozhenshikancuonile。
woyiweinizhishirenxing，meixiangdaonixinchangzheimedaidu！weilebaofuwo，jingranbuxihuidiaoyigexiaoxuedemingsheng！
”wochadianbeitazheifandiandaoheibaideyanlunqixiaole。“guzhanghe，nishibushinaoziyoubing？
dangchushinimenzijipaodaowomianqian，yigeshuohuaiyunle，yigeshuoyaofuze。xianzaifaxianshiwulong，jiupaolaiguaiwo？
tiandixiayounimenzheimebujiangdaoliderenma？”“jiushini！yidingshinijiduwo，suoyicaiguyisanboyaoyan，
xiangrangzhanghewuhuiwo！”suxueduozaiguzhanghehuaili，zhizhewo，shengleijuxiadikongsu。
zhouweidejunsaomenyekaishiqieqiesiyu，kanwodeyanshenyoudaishanglejifenbiyi。“meixiangdaotazheimeedua，
debudaojiuyaohuidiao。”“zhenshizuidufurenxina！”woshenxiyikouqi，
gaosuzijibuyaogenzheixiechunhuoyibanjianshi。wokanzheguzhanghe，yanshenpingjingwubo：“guzhanghe，
wozhiwenniyiju，nixinta，haishixinwo？”guzhanghehaobuyouyudihuida：“woxinxiaoxue！tadanchunshanliang，
jueduibuhuizuochuzheizhongshi！”“hao。”wodianlediantou，xiaole。neixiaorong，binglengerjuejue。“jiranruci，
neiwomenjiumeishenmehaoshuodele。nimenzouba，yihoubuyaozailaidaraowo。”shuowan，wozhuanshenjiuyaohuiwu。
“zhanzhu！”guzhanghejiaozhulewo。wotingxiajiaobu，meiyouhuitou。
zhitingjiantabinglengdeshengyincongshenhouchuanlai：“shenwanqiu，jirannizheimeburen，jiubieguaiwobuyi。
womensuiranfenju，danfalvshanghaishifuqi。congjintianqi，wohuishenqingdiaodaobianjiangqu。wodaoyaokankan，
niyigeren，zenmezaizheigedayuanlishenghuoxiaqu！”shuowan，tabianlouzhesuxue，zaizhongrentongqingdemuguangzhong，
yangzhangerqu。yuanziliderenyejianjiansanqu，zhiliuxiawoyigeren，zhanzaiyuandi。diaoqubianjiang？
zheidaoshigehaozhuyi。yanbujianxinbufan。zhishi，tayiweizheiyangjiunengnaniezhuwoma？taitianzhenle。
meiyoutaguzhanghe，woshenwanqiu，zhihuiguodegenghao。wohuidaowuli，guanshangmen，jiangsuoyoudexuanxiaodougejuezaiwai。
wozoudaochuangbian，congzhentouxianachuyigexiaobubao，dakai，limianshijizhang“datuanjie”heyixieliangpiao。
zheishiyuanzhusuoyoudejixu。buduo，danzugouwochengyiduanshijianle。woxuyaojinkuaizhaodaoyitiaomoushengdeluzi。
zaizheigeniandai，yigelilehun，haimeiyougongzuodenvren，xiangyaodulishenghuoxiaqu，bingburongyi。wosilaixiangqu，
juedingcongwodelaobenxingzuoqi。——meishi。moshishinian，weileshengcun，wolianjiuleyishouhaochuyi。
buguanshishenmeyangdeshicai，daolewoshouli，dounengbianchengrangrenchuixianyudidemeiwei。zheigeniandai，
renmendewuzhishenghuohaihenkuifa，danduimeishidezhuiqiu，queshigongtongde。zhiyaowodedongxizugouhaochi，
jiubuchoumeiyouxiaolu。shuoganjiugan。diertianyidazao，wojiuqulezhenshangzuidadeguoyingfandian。
05guoyingfandiandejinglishigesishiduosuidezhongniannanren，xingli，tingzhegepijiudu，yiliandeguanliaoqipai。
tashangxiadalianglewoyifan，yanshenlidaizhejifenqingmie：“xiaotongzhi，nishilaizhaogongzuode？”“bushi，
”woyaoleyaotou，kaimenjianshandishuodao，“woshilaizhaoninhezuode。”“hezuo？
”lijinglixiangshitingdaoleshenmexiaohua，chixiaoyisheng，“womenguoyingfandian，
xuyaogenniyigehuangmaoyatouhezuoshenme？”wobubeibukangdicongsuishenxiedaidebubaolinachuyigeyouzhibao，
didaotamianqian。“lijingli，ninkeyixianchangchangwozuodedongxi，zaijuedingyaobuyaohezuo。
”lijinglihuyidikanlewoyiyan，haishijieguoleyouzhibao。dakaiyikan，limianshijikuaisezejinhuang，
sanfazheyourenxiangweidejidangao。zheigeniandai，dangaohaishigexihanwu，gengbieshuozuodezheimejingzhipiaoliangdele。
lijinglideyanjingliangleyixia，tanaqiyikuai，fangjinzuili。zhiyikou，tadeyanjingjiudengdale。
dangaosongruanxiangtian，rukoujihua，nongyudedannaixiangweizaichunchijianmimankailai，
shitazheibeizidoucongweichangguodemeiwei。“zhei……zheishinizuode？”tayiliandenanyizhixin。“shide。